1 Year without mindless garbage

[FDRx7]

Great job so far on being 31 days without games! You've got a nice list of hobbies to choose from, and the best thing is you can switch between them as you please. They are there for you to to enjoy. Some habits/hobbies you can consider cornerstones - ones that help set a foundation for others. I think meditation is a good one to start with (along with correcting sleep, which is something I'm working hard on now). Focus on the doing right now, and not on the how much. Even just 5 minutes of meditation is enough. Focus on those small wins and the behaviors will start to become more ingrained, after which you can increase the time spent on the activity.

[Ace92]

Thank you @FDRx7! You are correct in saying start small. A problem I have in society is that it's projecting a grind culture where you need to take more than you can chew. THAT IS NOT HEALTHY. It'll make beginners give up more often because it'll be too much for them!

 

Speaking of society, a bit of a rant. 
 

MEDIA IS DESTROYING PEOPLES BRAINS. Excluding books, and the occasional movie, garbage like YouTube, social media, Discord, streaming services and smartphones are rotting our brains! Each one of them is filled with toxicity. Whether that's in the form of turning you toxic or other people. It is so disgusting. I just canceled my discord subscription and deleted the app because I noticed how toxic I was becoming. You gain nothing from these sites. All they do is suck you in and slowly take over your brain. To the point where you're not even forming your own thoughts anymore. You're not thinking anymore either, you're just mindlessly scrolling, looking for the next video, show, or song to pique your interest. The interest that has dwindled over the past few years because you've been gaming. Additionally, your attention span has been damaged as well. You become nothing when using these apps. Instead you are transformed into this brainless, easily manipulated, black hole that just sucks up garbage. It feeds you garbage and in result, externally you also feed yourself garbage. Junk food, > 8 hours of sleep, lack of exercise, absence of learning and experience. I could go on. It's absolutely horrific.

In my experience, once the wicked hands of the media poison your brain, it becomes difficult to heal it. It will keep telling you to consume more, waste more money. Doing everything in its power to make you ignorant of the consequences that follow. You get stuck in your own head and become egocentric. Real life issues around you are swept under the carpet, temporarily. Once you remember that you have a life to live, you're poisoned again, so you forget again. It's a deadly cycle. Media has the United States in a deadly cycle. Separating people because A) someone doesn't agree with someone else's opinion. Something that the media paints as one of the 7 deadly sins. B) forces people to spend money, either through subscriptions or in-app purchases, glorifying the rich and laughing at the poor. And C) making the concept of idolization seem like a life or death situation. Resulting in FOMO and stalkings increase.

It sickens me. There's nothing wrong with celebrities in themselves as they're just people. Same with music, books, or movies. Standing alone, nothing is wrong with them. They're part of art. The issue is the culture surrounding them. Society has created so much tension within different pockets of media that the smallest misstep will turn a friendly conversation into an online shouting fest. And because these are the individuals who pollute social media, if you are a part of the group you're going to get drawn into the toxicity and become toxic yourself. 
 

I once wanted to keep up with the culture around media, but now i realize it for the nightmare it is. Nightmare isn't the best word to describe it but I don't want to curse. I'm working on improving my diction and my family has always believed that swearing equates to a poor vocabulary. 
 

I will still watch movies and read books. Music is going. However instead of playing in the culture, I am going to take a step back and try to look at the art as a whole. Instead of jumping on a forum to discuss what my favorite part was.

Lord, please save our planet. 
 

Ace

[Ace92]

These past few weeks have been garbage.

 

Mostly due to external events. First off is how much stupidity there is when it comes to what's happening in Israel rn. I don't want to get too deep into it to avoid causing drama but im pissed about how people are viewing it as a black and white issue. Secondly, I almost lost one of my best friend, due to my own stupidity and saying something i later regretted. Thankfully, they are willing to rebuild the friendship with me but i don't know how long it will take or if we'll ever be as close as we once were. I'm also an incredibly impatient person so it just makes things worse. 

I think I am going to take a break from the internet and only use it for catching up on news (writing down opinions in my personal journal), schoolwork, and updating this journal. I've noticed I just have a lot of anger built up—not from playing games (though if I remember correctly, I relapsed last Tuesday...) but from past trauma. I want to become a more empathetic person: become less focused on what I want and how its all about me and try to open myself up to different perspectives—from everyone.  I know it won't be easy, but I think through meditation, careful consideration of my words, and reading, I can get over this anger. I think noting the triggers of what frustrate me will also help. Currently, I get frustrated when something doesn't go the way I expect it to (I expect reality to be like my fairy tale dreams), when I find something to be unfair, or something bothers me/rubs me the wrong way. I also don't like to lose (in board games). I also am going to take a break so I can focus on getting rid of my anger as well as stop overthinking everything someone says. It's driving me batshit insane. Furthermore, I am spending more money than usual, and I don't have a job currently, so no means to make money. So, I am going to spend less. What triggers me to buy stuff is when its related to sneakers, or a specific event such as halloween, christmas or a convention. Since I don't have a job and limited income, I should ask my parents if they can get what I want for me. Though I hate making them spend money on me even if i didn't earn it so, before I ask them I will in some way earn it.

Overall, just terrible few weeks. I hope this no technology thing will bring me closer to God; make me more open to different perspectives; increase my patience; and overall, help me let go of my anger. 

Bless.

Ace

[FDRx7]

@Ace92 Not sure how I missed your reply even with the tag! I have my own rant for you in response based on some things that stuck out to me.

On 9/26/2023 at 10:01 PM, Ace92 said:

A problem I have in society is that it's projecting a grind culture where you need to take more than you can chew. THAT IS NOT HEALTHY. It'll make beginners give up more often because it'll be too much for them!

I agree with you, I'm frustrated by the rise of "grind culture". While wasting your life watching video games, YouTube, etc. are not helping, there is more to life than work. So much of the grind culture tells you to work at the expense of relationships ("if they don't understand your passion, cut them out of your life!"), which is wrong. There is more to life than work. And, the worst part is, many people who fall into this try to grind at a business that won't work to begin with (oftentimes listening to people with Survivorship Bias) and now they not only do not have a business, but they've lost their support system as well by neglecting family and friends. Many of the rise and grind people are just trying to get you to subscribe to their YouTube channel, buy their book, or sign up for their course (the irony of a circular "become a coach by selling books about coaching"). I'm sure there are some who are genuine, but I believe them to be in the minority. Just another business grift facilitated by the modern internet. For anyone reading this later, I'm not saying don't work hard at a business or tolerate legitimately toxic people. I'm saying research carefully who you actually listen to online and don't sacrifice your relationships for a couple extra hours of work because one day you'll wish you hadn't. Life is about balance. Afterall, that's why we're here on Game Quitters, right? Life was out of balance.

As for the rest of your first post, I found myself nodding along the whole time. I feel very strongly about this as you do. Though instead of the word toxic, I might use "insidious". It seems so innocuous and then it creeps into your life, slowly unravelling you and changing your opinions. 

On 9/26/2023 at 10:01 PM, Ace92 said:

All they do is suck you in and slowly take over your brain. To the point where you're not even forming your own thoughts anymore. You're not thinking anymore either, you're just mindlessly scrolling, looking for the next video, show, or song to pique your interest.

I mentioned to someone recently how I can tell who is on Twitter too much because they say Twitter-esque things out loud in real life. There is certain verbiage that is specific to Twitter, certain jokes that get recycled over and over, and certain opinions which originate there in an echo chamber. I've never had Twitter myself because others have told me that it is an incredibly toxic place - it is a net negative despite there being a few positives. One person I know used to send me some funny jokes/memes that I enjoyed but after a while, I grew tired of the jokes because I realized they were essentially the same thing over and over with slight changes. His humor was curated by Twitter. The funniest people I know are great storytellers with real life experiences to convert into captivating, hilarious tales. This also translates into witty quips that make you think "how do they come up with this stuff?" With the others, I grew to understand they have the appearance of humor, especially to those who consume the same content. It seems as if they are spontaneously funny but once again you step back and realize that all their humor is mostly from Twitter or wherever else they consume content. It's recycled in the moment. This is not to say we don't recycle jokes (dad jokes, anyone?) or that we don't learn humor from others and repackage it. Rather, when you are in one chamber all the time, your conversation, your humor... it all starts to look the same but is unrecognizable to those who are in your homogenous group.

On 9/26/2023 at 10:01 PM, Ace92 said:

Additionally, your attention span has been damaged as well. You become nothing when using these apps. Instead you are transformed into this brainless, easily manipulated, black hole that just sucks up garbage. It feeds you garbage and in result, externally you also feed yourself garbage. Junk food, > 8 hours of sleep, lack of exercise, absence of learning and experience. I could go on. It's absolutely horrific.

Yup... for me not gaming, but YouTube/internet. It was the easiest route of escape and its effects cascaded throughout my life. I was a functional addict as I was still able to exercise and do well at my job, but everything else suffered... hobbies, attention span, caring for my home, sleep, eating properly, moderating alcohol consumption... all because of this one platform.

On 9/26/2023 at 10:01 PM, Ace92 said:

Doing everything in its power to make you ignorant of the consequences that follow. You get stuck in your own head and become egocentric. Real life issues around you are swept under the carpet, temporarily. Once you remember that you have a life to live, you're poisoned again, so you forget again.

One of my friends and I were talking recently, and he said he had decided to delete his Twitter and other social media. He expressed how he now feels so much happier, does not feel like the world is as nearly a dangerous place as he did before, that he is less angry, and more loving toward the people around him. I told him I experienced the same feeling when I deleted Reddit, got off YouTube, Facebook, etc. It is truly life-changing, and relatively quickly. 

On 9/26/2023 at 10:01 PM, Ace92 said:

Society has created so much tension within different pockets of media that the smallest misstep will turn a friendly conversation into an online shouting fest. And because these are the individuals who pollute social media, if you are a part of the group you're going to get drawn into the toxicity and become toxic yourself. 

I think a lot of this has to do with the fact that the internet has allowed people to find others like themselves in really niche pockets. That has some positives. How else will I find someone to help me fix my record player that no one around me seems to know about? But at the same time, what it has done is drawn people to graft these niches into their identity. When your identity lies in these external blocks, you became intensely fearful that someone will pull one out of your Jenga tower. Enough of that, and it all comes crashing down. This is also why people defend politics so intensely. If you can divorce yourself from it as an identity-forming concept, it becomes easier to be less angry. It's also the same reason some people defend something they know they don't believe to be true - they have now tied their identity to being right about the topic. I have been guilty of this in the past, so I speak from experience. It's a shameful thing to walk away and realize you didn't believe any of what you said. You just wanted to be right.

On 9/26/2023 at 10:01 PM, Ace92 said:

I'm working on improving my diction and my family has always believed that swearing equates to a poor vocabulary. 

Mine too, but I fell into cursing a bit when I had a job in manufacturing haha... I'm in corporate now but I am trying to curse less. I found a website a while ago that has a list of very creative things you can say instead of swearing. I should look that up and start using it...

On 9/26/2023 at 10:01 PM, Ace92 said:

I will still watch movies and read books. Music is going.

Very interesting! Music is my safe space when I feel I'm consuming too many podcasts and such. In fact, your post has inspired me to think, what if for the rest of my 90-day journey I cut out podcasts entirely - as an experiment? Will I care at all to return to them when I finish my 90 days? I'm not sure, but now I'm keen to find out...

7 hours ago, Ace92 said:

Currently, I get frustrated when something doesn't go the way I expect it to (I expect reality to be like my fairy tale dreams), when I find something to be unfair, or something bothers me/rubs me the wrong way. I also don't like to lose (in board games). I also am going to take a break so I can focus on getting rid of my anger as well as stop overthinking everything someone says. It's driving me batshit insane.

I have dealt with this for a long time. I would get very mad when I felt things didn't go as they should, and I am still dealing with this. I'm not over it yet. It makes you feel as though the bad things only happen to you, but this is your brain lying to you. I know it is hard to let go of, it's an ingrained mental pathway but I am learning it can be changed. If you are trying to read more, check out You Are Not Your Brain. It's a book about why we create negative thought patterns and how to stop them/redirect to truer assessments of the world around us, literally rewiring our brain. I will say though, getting off social media and YouTube radically improved my outlook on the world. I still have work to do in terms of rewiring my pathways, but it is already so much better.

 

I hope the next couple weeks will be better for you!

[Ace92]

Thank you for your post @FDRx7!

I'm letting music go because it fuels my imaginary fantasy world, the one which I force to be reality although it can never be reality. My main goal is accepting the world as it is and accepting that things happen for me and not to me. Staying away will be hard cause these companies want to get you addicted but the challenge will make me stronger. Thank you for the book recommendation, I'll check it out!

Speaking of challenges. I just did one of the hardest things I've done in my life before. You know the saying "if you truly love someone, let them go?" I just did that with my ex. He broke up with me because he isn't ready for a relationship and instead of appreciating that, i turned bitter, and grew jealous whenever he hung out or texted this other girl, in fear that they'd date. I hung on and it drove me insane. Adamantly, I just got over it so there's still part of me who doesn't want him to go out with other women and come back to me. Overall though, if I truly love him I want him to be happy and if he wasn't happy with me I can't force him to be with me. It will also make our bond stronger as friends if I move on. My time will come soon, and who knows it could be with him. The thing that influenced me to hang on that also pisses me off is the fact that in America's current climate, it's all about hook up culture and sex, and what your body count is and rushing into relationships from friendships, but that's lust not love. Though it always makes me feel left out when people talk about how they did xyz with a person and I haven't even had my first kiss yet. Ultimately i think its better to live with the uncomfortable feeling instead of participating in the disgusting culture.

 

But now that I've mostly moved on it's gonna make me stronger and I can focus on improving myself more!

Best,

ace

[Ace92]

I'm going to come back to this journal more frequently again. 

First off, it is so freeing to not worry or be obsessive over my ex. It's incredibly liberating. I feel like a true person again. 

I haven't been playing games but living in silence hasn't been working. I still use social media and Spotify frequently. The reality is, Instagram and TikTok are the most accessible platforms for connecting with my real life friends. Even when I see them in person, when we're not around each other, we send memes that we find on Instagram or TikTok. These platforms don't feel like a necessity to me, I'm not addicted but even so, I waste time scrolling looking for memes rather than studying or starting a new project. I just don't know how I can connect with friends without Instagram. It's made itself an integral part of my age group (15-24) I'm not a fan.

Been thinking about satisfaction. I want to try an experiment, where I work on things until I'm personally satisfied with my work. I'm not sure what satisfaction looks like for me but I'm going to try a few hobbies and write down anything I notice. I know I won't achieve satisfaction all the time but I've been thinking about how it could lead to some form of happiness/content toward life. 
 

Best,

Ace

[Amphibian220]

Great effort at self reflection!

If Instagram and Tik To are the most accessible things for communication, I will share something with you. In my school years I used to walk to my friends’ homes. Every visit was an enriching experience. I walked down to my friend’s home and found him with some other guys. We would then have a long distance jumping contest or any other sport that was fun for us. The social media was what happened at our schools and maybe some sports news. The news were genuine because they were the hard to get news.

And it was so enriching because I had a bigger character and so did my friends whom I visited.

Now if a big part of my thoughts will be IG memes, my character will be displaced with a fake filler. There will be no sense of embarrassment because “everybody else is watching this video”. Then the fake filler displaces the need to meet, to smile at your neighbors, speak to the store owner, reflect on what needs doing. 

There is a certain joining of aspects in these social media sites: less awareness, less character, less guts, less risk, less intelligence, less boundaries, more comfort. The exchange is a net loss.

so many things of the essential spectrum of human interaction and community seem to be getting attacked with these fake fillers. this is what can be called post communication existence.

Edited October 14 by Amphibian220

[Ace92]

Revisited my criteria for what counts as a friend

 

to put it simply an acquaintance is just someone i talk to/friendly with 

a friend is someone who equally puts in effort to respond to me, to ask to hang out, someone who i can trust, and always has my back & does the right thing. Most importantly they aren't afraid to be independent in what their goals are

a partner fulfills the same criteria as a friend but is interested in the same stuff i am. They might not have the same life goals but there's enough overlap that it doesn't matter if i want to do x and they want to do y. 
 

i revisited this because i found myself becoming dependent on people, people who i was talking to but wouldn't necessarily be considered friends. I had to reflect and realize not every person i talk to will be a friend. 

want some feedback on my criteria—is it too limiting?

best

ace

[Ace92]

Life has been awful lately 

But no matter what happens to me I can always change things in my own personal life and make things better

 

Best,

Ace

[Ace92]

After months of emotions flying everywhere, I think I'm finally in a space where I am content, at least for now.

I want to give a full explanation of what happened in the past few months. I learned a lot in such a short amount of time. I get super personal here, I apologize if it's too much.

 

Prior to September:

I was lonely. The only two friends I have in my hometown aren't even friends I hang out with often. I know they'll always be my friends, but that's not our relationship. I had no one to hang out with besides my parents. We have a solid relationship, but it can become tiring at times. Games had damaged my social skills so much that I was afraid to reach out or branch out. Additionally, I had no clue on how to keep a conversation going, mostly I just lived in my head and it was isolating. The only event I was looking forward to was starting fresh at the new college I transferred to. Anxiety struck, even with that because I have a fear of being abandoned, and since it occurred in the past, along with not knowing who I would meet, I worried it would happen again.

 

September:

Orientation for the new college starts and ended. The group of people I was included in are all transfers. This group of people would later become my friends. We were like one big family. Though, of course, we didn't spend all of our time together. There was one person in the group though who I particularly became attached to. They are smart, sweet, kind, supportive, socially aware, the whole lot. At the time, they would tell me things such as, "If you need something, I will do my best to be there for you." We were incredibly close. At which point we found out we both were attracted to each other and we started dating. This person was my first relationship in the real world. I was so happy. The relationship didn't even impede on our friend group either.

 

October:

Until this person ended the relationship. Not even two weeks later saying they weren't ready. Looking back on it now, it's valid. At the time, I didn't take it lightly and texted this person, something really nasty that I will not be repeating here. I was frustrated, upset, heartbroken and angry. It took me the weekend to cool off and realize I made a horrible mistake. I apologized them through text, phone call, in person and even in a letter. I felt so shitty after what I did and I still do. I was so worried that this person would never accept me again because if someone said what I said to me, I would wish the worst for them. Despite thinking about the idea of blocking my number, this person did give me a second chance, to start over and just be friends, which is what they wanted in the first place. To this day, I don't take this for granted. I am eternally grateful. I still feel like shit for saying what I said but I'm grateful.

 The weeks go by and I'm still upset but I'm surviving. I went through mood swings in the weeks that followed. The first week I was angry and jealous because even though they said they weren't ready for a relationship, I saw them talking to other people of the same sex as me. I was still obsessively in love with them at this point so, I didn't like what I saw. The second week, I accepted the fact I couldn't force this person to come back to me or try and change them. I focused on what I could do to improve my life, it felt good because I knew it's what I could control, I could change. I wasn't worried about them. The third and fourth week however, were miserable. The third week, I became obsessed with them again, worrying about everything they were doing. Then the fourth week, leading into November, I cried every single night. I had no idea why. Initially I thought it was because of them, then I thought it was because of the friend group (we aren't hanging out as much because school has gotten busier). Yeah those are part of it, but I was concerned. I was crying but I had no clue as to what the root cause of my sadness was.

November:

 I cried again tonight, about 4 different times. It was after that though I realized the root cause. Stress. Stress that work is becoming heavier, stress that friendships aren't working. (Nothings wrong, again the group isn't hanging out as often, and I labeled it as something wrong with me, not the fact that everyone is busy and others want a more intimate connection/are anxious around a big group). I am still mentally numb, unsure about what is going to happen next but I am content with the fact that I know what's bothering me. As of now, I am content with who my ex is. I still care for them but I don't want to change them. I am content with my friend group and realize they don't hate me, they just have preferences and are busy. 
 

I am thankful for the break up. Though it has been an emotional journey, it has taught me so much and made me realize flaws I didn't notice in myself and made me stronger. It also taught me so much about how to be social and how different people interact. I'm grateful for my calmness and excitement for the future. Thank you Lord

 

Best

Ace

[Ace92]

Giving energy to what you can't control and wasting energy worrying about the fact that you can't change people will only make you go insane. 
 

Learning to accept people despite how their actions might impact you is the real challenge, it will make you stronger, and will lead you to inner peace because you'll be focusing on yourself.

Best,

Ace

[Ace92]

I'm going to start updating here daily again.

 

Mentally I am in a great place. The Lord was able to lead me to a place where I can accept all the tough events that occurred in the past few months. I'm slowly learning to accept the fact that I can't change people. I'm putting full faith that God has me on the right path, and everything will work out.

I still have a lot of work ahead in terms of completing aspirations. Two of the biggest goals I have is to improve my time management, and creating a morning routine. I want to change my entire sleep schedule to get a full 8-10 hours, hopefully becoming an early bird in the process. 
 

Creating a morning routine and blocking out my time will hopefully let me see some progress.

Here is a draft:

Wake at 5:00 AM

Prayer 

Morning walk/jog (exercise)

Shower

Read

Work (depends on when class starts)

Breakfast

 

Then in the evening, it would end with journaling [so i can turn electronics off 1-2 hours before bed], meditation and prayer. I know when I block out my time, there will be some days where I won't be able to follow this to a T, but that's okay. Change is amazing. As long as I stay consistent, and do my best, that's what's most important. 
 

Sending Love to all,

Ace

[FDRx7]

Great to see you'll be updating daily! I think it really helps me to do that, although I get a little down on myself when I have some tough days - especially when they follow good ones. But we can't be perfect.

I really want to be an early bird as well. I used to be good about waking up early, doing my prayers and reading my Bible too. Now I have fallen out of the habit because I go to bed so late that I can't wake up with enough time. It's my biggest struggle right now in terms of establishing new habits. I used to do a sleep journal. I started it again while on this journey and then stopped but only because I was trying to copy the questions over from the old one every single time. I think I'll start it up again though and just keep a sheet with the questions as reference.

Something as a quick piece of advice from someone who, at one time at least, successfully reset their bedtime - if you are waking up at say, 8:00am right now and want to get to 5:00am, don't just jump to 5. Every few days, walk the time back by about 15 min to slowly acclimate to that time. If you make a big jump, it will be extremely tiring and less likely to succeed. Just something to keep in mind.

I like the plan though. Morning and evening routines are key, and something I am striving for with you.

[Ace92]

On 11/8/2023 at 8:33 AM, FDRx7 said:

Something as a quick piece of advice from someone who, at one time at least, successfully reset their bedtime - if you are waking up at say, 8:00am right now and want to get to 5:00am, don't just jump to 5. Every few days, walk the time back by about 15 min to slowly acclimate to that time. If you make a big jump, it will be extremely tiring and less likely to succeed. Just something to keep in mind.

Thank you for sharing this! So true. The last two days I failed to wake up at that time!

But failure is okay. Will try again tomorrow.

I haven't played video games for 2 days.

[Ace92]

I think it'd be easier instead of trying to wake at 5:00 abruptly. To start with just trying to get a consistent 8 hours of sleep with the times I normally wake up at. 
 

Best,

Ace

[Ace92]

Note: I haven't played video games for 6 days

[Ace92]

My friend was telling me something about endurance, and doing things even if you didn't want to do them. They told me what helps them is to look at the future and see yourself looking back saying "i was able to do that." Basically thinking of yourself being proud of your accomplishments helped them start being consistent with them. Underachieving meant they felt bad or guilty. I'm going to try this out. 
 

Especially since we only have so many motivation.

Btw I edited my morning routine a bit:

Wake up time: 6:00 am

Prayer

Meditate

Workout/Exercise

shower

read/homework

breakfast

 

Evening routine:

Journal

meditate

prayer

Bed time 10:00 PM [electronics off by 9:00]
 

Best

Ace

[Ace92]

Motivation alone won't help me. But what I said on looking out for my future self, is true. It makes me feel accomplished and satisfied. 
 

Cried over my ex for a while tonight but I just reminded myself that God planned it to be this way. 
 

Going strong.

Best,

Ace

[Ace92]

I have a new challenge for myself. New, in a partial way. I'm going to do a yearly detox, as the title of this journal suggests, but this time I'm going to do it with everything. 
 

This includes:

- Video Games

- Social Media (Instagram, TikTok, YouTube, Twitter, Reddit, Discord)

- Fast Food/Junk Food (DoorDash, UberEats, McDonalds, Taco Bell, Wendy's, sugary drinks) - I will greatly reduce the consumption of fast food and sweets, every once in a while is okay, but I'm going to completely eliminate soda, alcohol, and energy drinks. I will replace them with water, tea, or juice.

 Basically, I went looking through the activities I already enjoyed, and thought on how I could change that into an active habit. In the end I hope to be able to have a healthier relationship with the things listed above, but for now I have a list of goals I want to achieve. If I eliminate video games, social media, and junk food, it will free up a lot more time for me to engage in these hobbies.

I want to do a lot and learn a lot in this year 

I pray to the Lord that he will guide me through this challenge.

Blessings to all

Ace

 

P.S. ~ In my journals moving forward I will end with a quote of the day, which will hopefully keep me going, along with this journal and God's help.

[Ace92]

To keep me doubly accountable I am writing the main portion of my journal in a physical journal and reporting extra stuff here! I apologize if my handwriting is a bit messy

Here is todays journal:

I noticed I'm much less worried and focused on the things out of my control when I have stuff planned out for the day. I was much calmer for the latter half of the day, even though I didn't get to meditating!

Blessings to all

Ace

P.S. ~ The quote for today is from my daily devotional book:

"Think of your life as an adventure, with Me as your Guide and Companion. Live in the now, concentrating on staying in step with Me."

[Ace92]

Day 1

 

Improvement: Getting to bed on time

 

Blessings to all

Ace

"Mistakes are a fact of life. It is the response to the error that counts." ~ Nikki Giovanni