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I'm a typical high school student struggling with time management. I've spent too much time on video games, and I finally decided I should stop it and focus on my studies. Ok. So here we go. Just read NannerZ's "A collection of thoughts" and was truly inspired by his way of changing and his determination. I will be also journaling my progress through a 90 day gaming detox program. It will be 90 days of no gaming at all, no porn, and no waking up after 7:30. I'll be sharing my daily routines and my thoughts here, and yess, this is where I get started.

Day 1: March 30th, 2022

I started the day with an educational video. After that, I read the power of habits for the rest of the morning. My meals today were healthy. Right after lunch, I did two essay questions and was very productive. I enrolled as a volunteer a week ago and started reading with a elementary kid for the rest of the afternoon. I did a light workout and then took a shower before dinner, then did one paper, read a high-quality article, and revised biology for an hour. Now I'm going to sleep, and wish me sweet dreams. Gn!

I'll be back tomorrow.

It's been 1 day since I played a video game

It's been 1 day since I watched porn

It's been 1 day since I woke up after 7:30

 

 

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17 minutes ago, cauliflower said:

Ok. So here we go. Just read NannerZ's "A collection of thoughts" and was truly inspired by her way of changing and her determination. I will be also journaling my progress through a 90 day gaming detox program. It will be 90 days of no gaming at all, no porn, and no waking up after 7:30. I'll be sharing my daily routines and my thoughts here, and yess, this is where I get started.

Great job getting started with your journal. Glad to be of some inspiration to you, I can confirm that it has been a very positive, transformative experience to my life. Keep at it, don't give up. There will be bad days, just forget about them and keep moving forward. Just to clarify however, I am in fact a dude 😃

Good luck, I'll keep checking in on your journal.

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8 hours ago, NannerZ said:

Great job getting started with your journal. Glad to be of some inspiration to you, I can confirm that it has been a very positive, transformative experience to my life. Keep at it, don't give up. There will be bad days, just forget about them and keep moving forward. Just to clarify however, I am in fact a dude 😃

Good luck, I'll keep checking in on your journal.

Sorry for my mistake.. But real thanks for reading and your encouragement!

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Day 2: March 31st, 2022

Morning:

Bounced off my bed at 7:30 sharp this morning. Started my day with some planning of the day in calendar. Wrote a short enquiry letter. Explained solutions of housing problems. Did some math problems, and corrected my mistakes. Although it was kind of sleepy at first when I woke up, everything went just as scheduled and it was a productive morning.

Afternoon:

Went for a short walk in a nearby park after lunch for some fresh air, then did some schoolwork. Learnt two pages of writing series (I know it's just a little, but I'm planning to take small steps first, and when I get used to it, I'll slowly add up the amount). Prepared for the Spanish speaking igcse, and attended my Spanish course afterwards. So after Spanish, I read a book for an hour, and it was about to what extent you should be kind to people, and the emotions and thoughts expressed in the book from various points of view surprised me a lot.

After dinner:

Finished the tasks which are due tomorrow (took me a few hours), and now I'm going to read the same book (planning to finish reading it the day after tmr) and get ready for bed.

Well, today's officially the second day of the program, quite average as usual, but it felt completely different. It's difficult to say, but, instead of staring at the ceiling regretting what have I done today at night, I started to plan more about the future ahead. I don't feel blank anymore. I don't really feel the need to pick up my phone and check on the messages instantly, or playing video games. I can plan my day through, and I found out scheduling every time slot for each day is very helpful. Going to continue planning days tomorrow, and spend more time with my family. Coming back tomorrow!

 

It's been 2 days since I played a video game

It's been 2 days since I watched porn

It's been 2 days since I woke up after 7:30

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Day 3: April 1st, 2022 (April fools day)


Morning:
Another day waking up at 7:30, started with scrolling through instagram (Well, I'm not afraid of getting addicted to it, just used it to keep myself from going back to sleep, and yeah I made it) Also, I bought a book recently and I'm so excited to read it! But I have to finish my current book first. After breakfast, I sent an email. Then I did some schoolwork. Ate half an apple when I was hungry, tasted nice, especially when it's just taken from the fridge. Soon afterwards, I studied some new vocabulary. Then solved a few pages of math problems. Did some revision on chemistry. Another productive morning! 


Afternoon:
After lunch, read four pages of a writing series. Read a book for half an hour. Did a 30min workout, and ate the apple left. Finished a few ce questions. It’s been a while I haven’t been touching the piano, so I played for an hour and started a new piece. And yess reading again..


Evening:
Not much to do tonight, spent some time with my family and we discussed our day today. Now I’m going to get ready for sleep earlier.

I am usually the most productive in the morning, and I always leave the leisure activities which require the least concentration for the evenings. Throughout the day, I put more emphasis on both lunch and dinner, and I try to treat myself with something delicious while watching some netflix as a reward for myself. Overall, I didn’t feel any urge to return to video games, which is a good sign.Tomorrow, I’m going to add a little more workload, and I can do it. 


Progressing to the 4th day tmr!
 

It's been 3 days since I played a video game.

It's been 3 days since I watched porn

It's been 3 days since I woke up after 7:30
 

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Day 4: April 2nd, 2022


Oh no. Started with a slight crack with my rules. Woke up at 8, but I'll catch it back up tomorrow grrr. Then I worked on Spanish with other classmates for two and a half hours (the exam is coming soon) Then I solved some math problems.
After lunch, I attended a discussion course, did some analysis about democrats and republicans. Read tfaa. Spent most of the afternoon with my family watching a comedy movie (it slightly changed my original schedule, but it’s flexible enough) Read six pages of a writing series, and I'm going to read the same amount in the future every day. It’s not about the quantity, it’s about persistence! 


This afternoon wasn’t as productive as yesterday, but spending time with my family is worth it.
So I ate dinner, then took a quick shower. Made a short sleeping playlist and finished reading my book.  I’m going to sleep now..


Tomorrow I’m going to be more productive, hopefully doing a workout and starting a new book (trying to read as much as I can). My goal for tomorrow is to accomplish all my to-dos on my list. Again, I have no desire to play video games today; perhaps it's because it’s super satisfying to have such a calm and clear mind, when everything is planned.


I’ll keep it up tomorrow!
 

It's been 4 days since I played a video game

It's been 4 days since I watched porn

It's been 4 days since I woke up after 7:30

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Day 5: April 3rd, 2022

I kept it up and returned to waking up at 730 a.m. This morning began with some reading and planning for the day. As soon as I’ve eaten my breakfast, I did some prep work for tomorrow's volunteer session, completed a reading comprehension exercise and my schoolwork.

Right after I ate lunch, I did some chemistry revision. Next, I worked on some math problems. And I've just finished the day's mandatory tasks! Then I continued with my writing series before doing a 30-minute workout that left my legs trembling.

I didn't do much today; Spent most of my time watching YouTube and keeping track of my detox. No cravings for video games, probably because my attention was drawn to YouTube. Now I’m going to read before bedtime(it helps me to get sleepy eventually)

My goals for next week: Finish reading a new book. Do cardio exercises for 4 days.

 

It's been 5 days since I played a video game

It's been 5 days since I watched porn

It's been 5 days since I woke up after 7:30

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Day 6: April 4th, 2022

Summary of today:
Everything was carefully planned. It appears that I must fill every single time slot on my schedule in order to keep myself busy and avoid boredom, which may lead me back into video games if I allow myself too much free time. Volunteered again and did a workout right after that. Found mun and debating interesting, watched a few competition videos. Stared at a challenging math problem with my classmates that seemed endless, especially during late night and concentrating for 2.5 hours non stop on one question was exhausting. Now my brain needs some relaxation, and I’m currently listening to soothing piano music on yt. After that, I’m going right to sleep.

What I’m grateful for:
My classmates willing to work with me and “suffer” during those few hours
I’m alive and healthy
Not having the urge to play video games


Goals for tomorrow: Finish that group work. Finish all my to-dos.

 

It's been 6 days since I played a video game

It's been 6 days since I watched porn

It's been 6 days since I woke up after 7:30

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Day 7: April 7th, 2022

 

Summary of the day:

It went just as scheduled in the morning, however, after having an Italian lunch, my plan was disturbed and I lost track of it. Tried to focus on my to-dos and attempt to get back on track, but couldn’t really concentrate. There was that slight craving for video games due to boredom and I’m unwilling to reschedule my time. I can hear my heart persuading me, just play a few minutes and you’ll be fine. But my intellectual mind reminds me that it’s impossible. I can still recall a week ago, whenever I thought that I could manage my time on video games well, I would end up in hours and more without noticing. 

But it's already been a week, and I'm not supposed to stop here! Instead of focusing on productive tasks (which worsens withdrawal symptoms), I'm spending my time writing down my current thoughts here, before taking a shower and returning to planning the rest of the day. After having a shower, I had a clearer mind and my craving for gaming disappeared. I rescheduled my time and completed some tasks, but others left undone will have to wait until tomorrow.

 

Programming appears to be increasingly popular nowadays, which also piqued my interest. I had previously learnt a little C++ programming and today, I discovered that Python was far easier and more concise. I've learnt a few basic programming terms, such as def and print, and will continue tomorrow. Now I'm going to continue reading my current book, and then I'm going to sleep.

 

What I’m grateful/happy for:

I realised I like salads; especially eating them with honey mustard

I’ve finally made it for one week! Didn’t play any video games, and will continue on this detox program.

Managed to ignore that crave for video games

Bought my favorite shampoo

I’m alive and healthy

During this week, I managed to maintain a relatively healthier sleep schedule compared to one week ago, waking up early and sleeping early.

 

It's been 7 days since I played a video game

It's been 7 days since I watched porn

It's been 7 days since I woke up after 7:30

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Day 8: April 8th, 2022

Summary of the day:

Started with planning for the day as usual. Caught a cold and my nose was driving me crazy. I couldn't really focus well in the morning. After lunch, I did some volunteer work again, and my body condition became better after talking with and teaching someone. Quite happy for today’s volunteering session, it was the most interactive experience compared to the previous sessions. My patience has improved, and I’m willing to spend more time on volunteering, instead of staying in video games and wasting my time. 

Worked on the basics of Python today and will continue tomorrow.

Today I completed all my tasks (not going to specify them) and now I’m going to have my regular reading session and head straight into sleep soon.

 

What I’m grateful/happy for:

Not having caught a serious cold

Learnt more about python, which is completely new to me

Volunteering

No craving for video games, ignored and deleted all the triggers that might lead me into it 

I’m alive and healthy

Understood more why I was so addicted to games before: boredom, not having a meaningful life, not believing in myself that I could do a lot better in real life

 

It's been 8 days since I played a video game

It's been 8 days since I watched porn

It's been 8 days since I woke up after 7:30

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Day 9: April 7th, 2022

Summary of the day:

It had been a productive day. I did some revision, and the rest of the day went swimmingly. I still have one week to prepare for my Spanish speaking, so wish me luck. You may have noticed that my journals are becoming shorter; this is because I simply logged everything I did in my calendar, and I'm not going to recite them here again. However, if I have any sudden, impressive thoughts, I will write them in this journal so that I can look back on them in the future.

 

What I’m grateful/happy for:

Learnt a bit of Python

I’m alive and healthy

Didn’t crave for or think of gaming

Got interested in internet puzzles when I was free (inspired by cicada3301) and understood more about different codes, ciphers

 

Goal for tomorrow: Explore something that I’ve never touched upon with.

 

It's been 9 days since I played a video game

It's been 9 days since I watched porn

It's been 9 days since I woke up after 7:30

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Day 10: April 8th, 2022

Today was mostly good. I concentrated well in the morning and completed some schoolwork. Today I watched a Youtube video about a grape made of.. meat? It’s kind of weird but it’s about tissue recellularization. I looked into it and explored how it might also contribute to technology. I was astounded when I learnt that even facial reconstruction and heart transplants are involved. And it was another day of learning and revising key concepts, followed by a short afternoon walk and a shower. However, I wasted the entire evening scrolling through social media and I’m definitely not a night owl. But I’ve diligently completed every task assigned to myself this morning, so I think it’s alright to enjoy some leisure time after working.

 

I know I have to study harder to succeed in my studies, and I feel I’m doing too little when compared with other schoolmates. Peer pressure might be another source of motivation for me.

 

Someone asked me what I like to do today. To be honest, everything I’ve done seemed average to me, and there is nothing that I’m particularly interested in. 10 days ago, my answer must be gaming, because I didn’t have any interests other than gaming and I was so obsessed with it. However, this question got me puzzled today and I couldn’t think of an answer. I know it’s important to find something that I’m interested in, since it might decide on my future career path.

I think I have to work harder on exploring my other interests.

It's been 10 days since I played a video game

It's been 10 days since I watched porn

It's been 10 days since I woke up after 7:30

 

Anyways, I’m coming back tomorrow!

 

What I’m grateful/happy for:

I’m alive and healthy

Learnt Python basics (yes I’m learning step by step every day) 

Chatted with my friends

Learnt some new vocabularies

The crave for video games wasn’t that overwhelming anymore

Had a family talk - we talked about what we were happy about today, what we found surprising, and gave each other advice on our problems or questions

 

Goal for tomorrow: Explore something that I’ve never heard of.

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Hi Cauliflower,

I'm impressed by your journal. You're very well organized. I appreciate your desire to learn programming. IT skills are benefitial for all kinds of work and areas of life. I wish you good luck with your Spanish test!

Kind regards

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4 hours ago, Seneca123 said:

Hi Cauliflower,

I'm impressed by your journal. You're very well organized. I appreciate your desire to learn programming. IT skills are benefitial for all kinds of work and areas of life. I wish you good luck with your Spanish test!

Kind regards

Hello Seneca,

Thanks for reading my journal and also your appreciation! I'm glad that my journal has impressed you and I wish you good luck too.

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Day 11: April 9th, 2022

Today was a typical Saturday.

This morning was quite busy; I woke up at 7, took a shower, and then attended two courses for two hours each. After lunch, I finally had some time to relax before another 1.5-hour discussion course.

Shortly after, I realized I hadn't planned my day in the morning, and I lacked motivation to plan the rest of my day. This is a major problem that I've encountered during my detox. If I don't plan my day from the moment I wake up, I'll end up spending all of my time on social media..

 

I watched a new movie tonight - Death on the Nile. The most exciting parts were when the murder mystery began and when everything came to light at the end. Although the process of investigation was tedious, I often liked to pause the movie and think of possible clues. I’ve always been fascinated by mysteries and puzzles. I wouldn't say I'm obsessed with them, but they do arouse my interest.

So I guess that’s it for today, and I’ll be back tomorrow.

 

What I’m grateful/happy for:

I’m alive and healthy

No gaming at all

Spent more time with my family

Learnt new vocabularies

 

Goals for tomorrow: Plan my day in the morning. Explore something new.

 

It's been 11 days since I played a video game

It's been 11 days since I watched porn

It's been 11 days since I woke up after 7:30

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Day 12: April 10th, 2022

Today didn’t work as I expected.

It's Sunday, and I woke up at 9 today(I'll be restarting my record tomorrow). Didn't feel motivated to finish or even plan my tasks for the day. Today I spent a lot of time with my family watching Mr. Robot. It sparked my interest as soon as I saw its introduction, and it is about programming. I'm again intrigued by how much I can do with a single computer - but I'm definitely not a fan of hackers.

Music is another thing I think I'm interested in. I don't play the piano very often, but I do enjoy listening to classical music. So I went to YouTube and accidentally discovered Victor Borge, a famous pianist and comedian. I've seen his performances before on ig, but I've never heard of him. His shows are a mix of comedies and piano performances, which keeps me entertained. I enjoy his comedies and jokes a lot during his shows, and I also admire his piano skills. I guess I should continue practicing my previous piece.

 

What I’m grateful/happy for:

Still no cravings for video games (but my attention was shifted to movies and Youtube today)

Being alive and healthy

Learnt new vocabs

Learnt Python

 

Goal for tomorrow: Plan my day in the morning.

 

It's been 12 days since I played a video game

It's been 12 days since I watched porn

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Day 13: April 11th, 2022

Today was better than yesterday.

I began my day by planning and the day went smoothly generally with the help of scheduling, but still didn't manage to wake up at 730.

Did some heavy workout in the afternoon and I was so fatigued that I nearly fainted during my shower. Turned out to be having low blood glucose levels because I was unusually craving for cold chocolate drinks after the shower.

Spent one and a half hour chatting with my classmate at night, and spent the rest of my time on python. Well, today I didn’t explore something new intentionally.

 

What I’m grateful/happy for:

No cravings for gaming at all

I’m alive and healthy 

I slept early (I’m going to sleep now)

Tried some new food

 

It's been 13 days since I played a video game

It's been 13 days since I watched porn

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Day 14: April 12th, 2022

Today was a regular day.

Oh gosh I don’t even want to mention when did I wake up. I didn’t sleep well last night. Although I went to bed quite early yesterday, it took me over an hour to fall asleep. However, I wasn't as drowsy as I expected today, and my day went according to my schedule.

I began my day by making plans on my calendar and finishing some schoolwork. Today I revised for 3.5 hours and completed some extra practices. I had another hour of chatting with a friend in the evening, and now I'm going to read my book and get ready for bed.

Another thing to note is that I'm probably watching too much Netflix. I've been increasing the length of my mealtimes, and I spend a total of 3 hours per day on Netflix, which I believe is excessive. I'm going to reduce it to two hours tomorrow.

 

What I’m grateful/happy for:

Time flies and it’s already been two weeks! No cravings for video games for today as well

Have been scheduling most of the days

I’m alive and healthy

Learnt the ‘while’ loop in python and did some exercises

 

It's been 14 days since I played a video game

It's been 14 days since I watched porn

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Day 15: April 13th, 2022

Today was normal.

It’s two days before the test and I’m getting nervous. What I’m really afraid of is forgetting all I’ve memorized and going blank during the exam. So I’m doing as much as I can to familiarize myself with all types of questions.

I volunteered in the afternoon, and it was just as enjoyable and relaxing as usual. After that, I stretched my legs because I had been sitting almost all day, and it felt great. 

I successfully reduced the amount of time spent on Netflix today to 2 hours (or maybe it was even less than that), which was unexpected. I'll continue my progress tomorrow.

Now I'm going to leave my screens alone for an hour before bed, and I'm hoping this will help me fall asleep faster. I'll spend the rest of the night taking a shower and reading.

 

What I’m grateful/happy for:

Learnt the ‘for’ loop today, that was completely new to me

Practiced with my friend

No cravings for video games

I’m alive and healthy

Reduced time spent on Netflix

 

It's been 15 days since I played a video game

It's been 15 days since I watched porn

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Day 16: April 14th, 2022

Summary of the day:

Woke up at 9 today (which was supposed to be 730…) and planned for the day. It was a productive day and I could finish all of my to-dos. Going to sleep early tonight and wake up early tomorrow.

Nothing much to write about today, I did some revision and focused mainly on Spanish.

Wish me good luck tomorrow!

 

What I’m grateful/happy for:

Familiarized myself with the ‘for’ loop and learnt more about lists

No cravings for video games

I’m alive and healthy

 

Goal for tomorrow: Wake up at 730 no matter what

 

It's been 16 days since I played a video game

It's been 16 days since I watched porn

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Day 17: April 15th, 2022

Summary of the day:

Today's speaking test went quite well! I'd done enough preparation for the exam, and it went off without a hitch. The teacher was amable, and I believe that was one of the reasons things went so smooth.

Successfully woke up at 730, however, I didn’t plan my day through, and I wasted a lot of time on Netflix again.. I’m getting lazy in a different way.

Anyways, I’m going to enjoy my easter holidays and probably focus more on my healthy hobbies.

 

What I’m grateful/happy for:

Definitely my speaking test 

No hankerings for video games

Learnt a few new vocabs

I’m alive and healthy

 

Goals for tomorrow: Wake up at 730 no matter what, plan my day

 

It's been 17 days since I played a video game

It's been 17 days since I watched porn

It's been 1 day since I woke up after 7:30

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Day 18: April 16th, 2022

Summary of the day:

I started the day with some cravings for switch since I saw a trigger on reddit that was really trying to lure me. So I ended up watching YouTube videos on the games to prevent myself from playing them - does that even make a difference? It felt like I was playing when watching others play. Although I woke up at 730, I spent nearly the whole morning on social media and YouTube; I don't want to turn on my attention mode - perhaps it's because of the holiday

I planned the rest of my day to keep myself busy, and it went well - I did some schoolwork and a few math problems, then continued on python.

I ate fried chicken in the evening, which wasn’t that healthy (but it’s delicious and I know I’m tricking myself) But eating it occasionally is alright I suppose.

Now I’m going to take a shower and get myself ready for bed.

 

What I’m grateful/happy for:

I’m alive and healthy

Resisted the craving for games

I can’t deny that fried chicken tastes good

 

Goal for tomorrow: Wake up at 730 no matter what

 

It's been 18 days since I played a video game

It's been 18 days since I watched porn

It's been 2 days since I woke up after 7:30

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Congratulations on not giving in to your cravings today. Getting the triggers out the way is the first step ofc, but staying mentally strong is an achievement you can be proud of. Keep going! 🙂  

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congrats on not giving into your urges, thats something i struggle with- definitely in terms of youtube. have you thought of why you watch youtube? maybe thinking about why you do something might help you plan to abstain from it. great job so far keep it up! 

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@nils @diAmond64

I was lucky the first thing I've done this morning is to check in this journal. Otherwise, I would have been playing ac from the start of the morning, then it'll ruin my whole day.

When I just woke up, I was thinking that I could just play for a few minutes or something, but my intellect was so sure that I'm going to dive it in for at least one hour as soon as I start playing. So I went here, hoping to find something to kill my urge and mental struggles. Luckily, after reading other people's journals, especially your responses here, I'm certain that I'm going to say goodbye to ac.

Thanks for giving me support and pulling me away from the borderline 😀

 

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