Schwing

What do you classify as mindless surfing? I find that I sometimes meander off when I look something up online. Everyone's mind likes to wonder from time to time. Try and avoid sites that lead you off on tangents. When I start up my pc i only visit two sites: the forums, deviant art. I also go in with an idea of what I want to do (check posts).

I really like the whale shark. You actually like that thing? You high or something hahahahaha

I'm just a highschool kid...unfortunately.

128 days Days porn free: 11 Today I left my comfort zone by: Talking to 3 people I don't usually talk toRoutine: Get up 6:30 (8:30 weekend)BioenergeticsCold showerMeditation50 exp duolingoPhysical activityStudy or read 1 hourArt 1 hourGoal from yesterday done?: Well. I didn't exactly slay anything but I did it pretty damn good! Thoughts and Feelings: I woke up at 6:30 and was like "Nah fuck this" and went back to sleep.Went to a university conference thing. Plenty of opportunities to talk to random people. Didn't do it though.Came home worked out. Tried to lift 10kg each on dumbbells! Fuck my life. never trying that again.Went upstairs and did some art. Drew up some panels for a comic. Noice Tasks and achievements: Physical: workoutMental: studying, learning german, artSpiritual: cold showerWhat I am grateful for: Metal11 days nofap streak HAHA! I will do this!Access to educationhomemade pizzaWhat I have learnt from today: Stoner metal is pretty dope. No pun intended.Tomorrow I will leave my comfort zone by: Talk to 3 people I don't usually talk to.Goal for tomorrow: Look at university stuff Goal for the month: Finish all my coursework. Beat nofap

What do you mean by 'detail work'?

You doing a bachelor's degree? What on?

Consequence? I tried attaching a rubber band to my wrist and smacking myself with it. Didn't help at all. The thing is you just have to maintain the balance in your life between two things. Work hard; play hard. If you didn't do something when you should have done it: who cares? Next time you are confronted with a similar situation remember what happened this time round and say "No I will do it!"

127 days Days porn free: 10 Today I left my comfort zone by: Talking to 3 people I don't usually talk to. I spoke to someone randomly! He didn't reply though. Must have thought I was retarded or something.Running through wind and rain. Lots of it.Routine: Get up 6:30 (8:30 weekend)BioenergeticsCold showerMeditation50 exp duolingoPhysical activityStudy or read 1 hourArt 1 hourGoal from yesterday done?: Yeeee. Finished everything bar one thing. Thoughts and Feelings: I woke up at 6:30 just fine but I slumped back to sleep again.I have been feeling pretty manly these past few days. Super deep voice. Nice.Did some art when I got home. I will draw up some panels for a comic tomorrow. Once I figure out a short storyTomorrow I will go on a trip all day to a university conference.I haven't done a post yet for the case studies! Shit! Sorry @Cam Adair Tasks and achievements: Physical: runningMental: studying, learning german, artSpiritual: cold shower, bioenergetics, meditationWhat I am grateful for: MetalNice haircutHB pencilsmy boi @destoroyah for always posting on my deviant art. you can see what I draw here10 days nofap! 3 more and I beat my recordWhat I have learnt from today: My personality and attitude has changed significantly over the past 4 monthsI can't stop drawing!Tomorrow I will leave my comfort zone by: Talk to 3 people I don't usually talk to.Goal for tomorrow: SLAY YOUR WORKOUT Goal for the month: Finish all my coursework. Beat nofap

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126 days Days porn free: 9 Today I left my comfort zone by: Nothing! My sunrise run was cancelled because some big fuck off storm was blowing outsideRoutine: Get up 6:30 (8:30 weekend)BioenergeticsCold showerMeditation50 exp duolingoPhysical activityStudy or read 1 hourArt 1 hourGoal from yesterday done?: Did as much as I could. I get demoralised sometimes when I study because I think: "what am I doing? Do I really want to be an engineer or do I want to be an artist?" Thoughts and Feelings: I woke up at 5:30 as planned. felt like I could get up easy. But then I heard the storm outside and was like "nah". And then I went back to sleep.Did energising routineAte my lunch and read manga at the same time. I finished berserk a while ago actually. Can't wait for the new chapters to be released! I started reading Vagabond. So good!Studied. Got shit done but I didn't finish. Teachers have decided to give me homework all in the same span of 2 days.Beat nofap urges! I said to myself "NO I SWORE AN OATH!". I got burnt out studying so I just stopped. Best not push myself too hard or I'll just fuck myself and my work up.Did some art. I have been musing about making my own graphic novel lately! Set on a alternate earth in a futuristic dystopia. Where ancient brooding dark forces of times long past seek to usurp technology's reign. Sounds kinky. But I will have to practice first. I have been taking notes for a book on a more fantasy premise. I'm sure I can transfer them over well enough.Did accountability call. The topic was altruism and if it is all it's made out to be. Tasks and achievements: Physical: rest dayMental: studying, learning german, artSpiritual: cold shower, bioenergetics, meditationWhat I am grateful for: MetalMy imagination!The accountability call for being very enjoyableShort hair. Love stroking the back of my headvagabondMy oath of fealty to NoFap!What I have learnt from today: Keep engineering. Either way you will be haunted by the ideas of what could have been.Only study 2 hours at a time. Take a big break between blocksTomorrow I will leave my comfort zone by: Talk to 3 people I don't usually talk to.Goal for tomorrow: Study hard Goal for the month: Finish all my coursework. Beat nofap Edited 23 hours ago by Schwing

@Granitwelle Hah. Yes. I tend to call what you call fanserivce/ "moe" "anime bullshit" collectively. Tired of all that retarded shounen crap. Shit plot. Shit characters. Shit meaning. Filler everywhere. Cringey as fuck. Shit shit shit. I will check that anime out when I have the time. The 90's was a good time for anime for sure. @destoroyah Fuck yea! So theoretically if I take my pencil in my pocket on holiday with me I can become a master in the space of a few hours?

125 days Days porn free: 8 Today I left my comfort zone by: Doing bioenergetics in front of my windowRoutine: Get up 6:30 (8:30 weekend)BioenergeticsCold showerMeditation50 exp duolingoPhysical activityStudy or read 1 hourArt 1 hourGoal from yesterday done?: None set Thoughts and Feelings: I got up so fucking late!I felt very masculine at school. My voice is so deep I think i hit the brown note.No social anxiety. Didn't make me any less introverted.Got a haircut. nice and short!Came home. Stuck on some converge and immolation. Slayed workout.read some of physics bookDid energising routineStudiedDid art. Used charcoals for first timeBest day everDidn't post yesterday because I got back from work and i was too tired Tasks and achievements: Physical: workoutMental: studying, learning german, artSpiritual: cold shower, bioenergetics, meditationWhat I am grateful for: MetalcharcoalConvergetestosteronePAINWhat I have learnt from today: Today was good. Tomorrow might suck. But that doesn't matter. I just need to do the thingTomorrow I will leave my comfort zone by: Going for a run through the wilderness at sunrise! Well not really wilderness but it's as close as it gets round hereGoal for tomorrow: Finish homework Goal for the month: Finish all my coursework. Beat nofap

Great job obliterating your steam account. I never thought of that actually. Don't worry about missing out on life. Live in the present. Life is defined by the present moment. A dream means nothing once it is fulfilled so just pick something and do it. Learn to love the struggle of improvement! I find meditation is great for relaxing myself. I don't know if it has given me superpowers though. You said you wanted to get fit? Are you working out already?

Never too late to change! How will you accomplish your goals? Start a journal and track your progress. I will be sure to check in on you.

Hi mate I'm addicted to other things now. Like exercises and fresh air! Exercising is incredibly addictive. And it's also great watching yourself get stronger/ faster. I find myself treating life like a bit of a videogame sometimes. What I really like in games was building your own character and exploring awesome places/ making awesome things. All of these things translate over into real life. I get cravings sometimes because I loved the artistic nature of games. But I tell myself that spending 6 hours a day looking at art is too much. Find out what is it you sought in games / tvseries, apply them to real life, understand why you don't need games/tv to satisfy them and hold your reason when you next get cravings. If you start a journal you will be able to get awesome advice and make great progress with the reflection it provides for you. It really strengthen the bond with other forum members.

Nothing like a bit of rain and draconian - arcane rain fell. I love rain! I like watching all the puny humans cower at the might of mother nature. HAH!

The way school works is everybody has a preconceived image of each other. They psychologically force you into these social groupings and you're stuck that way. I was stuck with the introvert, gamer/weeb group (no metalheads at school). But now I'm dropping that shit (mostly. WEEB FOR LIFE) I just don't fit in anywhere! The thing with the adult world is that there is the opportunity to go out and find likeminded individuals and be yourself- there is no social group to conform to.

123 days Days porn free: 6 Today I left my comfort zone by: Talking to 3 people I don't usually talk toRoutine: Get up 6:30 (8:30 weekend)BioenergeticsCold showerMeditation50 exp duolingoPhysical activityStudy or read 1 hourArt 1 hourGoal from yesterday done?: Pretty much Thoughts and Feelings: I got up really late againI hate school! Surrounded by shallow fucktards who don't care about me vice versa. What happened to the tribe? What happened to the people who would lay down their life for their kin? Slaves to money. Slaves to symbols created by the machine. All my friends are on the fucking internet! This world is fucked! I was quite angry today. Angry at people. Angry that I had no one in real life to rest in. Angry that I couldn't bring myself to seek this in others enough. I told a guy I didn't have any friends today. He would consider himself as my friend. He didn't say shit! Let's try and sneak some more deep shit into a conversation. See what happens. See if they coil up and break and their spiritual autism kicks in.Despite my views on school today was okCame home and worked outDid some art. looked like shit! But I don't care I just want to improve. The means to an end? Fuck no! There is no end in life apart from death! Just means. Tasks and achievements: Physical: workoutMental: studying, learning german, artSpiritual: cold showerWhat I am grateful for: MetalArtInternet friends8 days duolingo streakNofap day 6. Got promoted on army of libertyWhat I have learnt from today: Need to make some new friends. Get rid of these losersTomorrow I will leave my comfort zone by: Talk to 3 people I don't usually talk to. Get some sufficient context if need be. Take baby steps.Goal for tomorrow: Make one random conversation. You can do it! Goal for the month: Finish all my coursework. Beat nofap

I have no idea how to start a business. But it looks like you need something to fill up your time with. Find out what is causing your behaviour. Past traumas? Poor upbringing? Fight it at the roots. Go and do something. Get a hobby. What do you like to watch on youtube? Think about it. You already want to find out how to start a business: so find out. Start researching it. Simple as that. It is important to have an are of expertise to start one though. You have to be good at something; you have to be dedicated to it; you need to be passionate about it. If you don't have that something then find it with due haste! Check this out

122 days Days porn free: 5 Today I left my comfort zone by: Nothing reallyRoutine: Get up 6:30 (8:30 weekend)BioenergeticsCold showerMeditation50 exp duolingoPhysical activityStudy or read 1 hourArt 1 hourGoal from yesterday done?: Felt awesome! Thoughts and Feelings: I got up really lateWent to school. Decent dayDid running. Really pushed myself.When I got back I felt super toughCame home studied and did some art. Looks pretty whack at the moment but it's not finished. Tasks and achievements: Physical: runMental: studying, learning german, artSpiritual: What I am grateful for: MetalRunning!NatureTestosteroneImproving my social skillsWhat I have learnt from today: The world is fucked but it is my duty to make it just that little bit unfuckedOn this site it is my duty to help and not argue. I will present my ideas but I will not try and manipulate others.Prehistoric man actually lived a long time like us. Just a high infant mortality rate.Tomorrow I will leave my comfort zone by: Talk to 3 people I don't usually talk to. Get some sufficient context if need be. Take baby steps.Goal for tomorrow: Get project sorted Goal for the month: Finish all my coursework. Beat nofap

Nice job man! Good idea doing that to your shelf. I too found that I had to substitute gaming with other hobbies to cater to my emotional/mental needs. I also found out that gaming catered to a LOT of needs I had. Some days I didn't feel like just reading. What hobbies do you have other than reading?

Thank you for sharing You seem to be off to a good start, Best of luck.

Hi kevin Great job signing up. If you make a journal I would be very interested.

Hey man. Is this your journal? Good start. A journey of a thousand miles starts with a single step. You fucked up today. And you probably will do it again. Each time you fall you get stronger though. I have tried about 50 million times to do nofap and failed but I am getting stronger each time! Real life isn't boring mate. It's actually very fun. You have been addicted to the internet so your dopamine thresholds are going to be fucked for now. Don't give up and keep immersing yourself in the real world and trying new things. Soon our brain will rewire. You go to the gym and that is great. Exercise is actually highly addictive. There has to be something you want from real life. What your former habits were doing was satisfying an emotional need that wasn't being satisfied by the real world. Keep pushing yourself into real life and you will find your purpose! Your purpose is not something rational; it is something you feel within yourself. Don't quit python just because it involves computers. Take some time away from it and come back when you have more control. Right now I can tell you have a negative outlook on life. I was like that too. I had very poor self esteem. I am open to alternate political views to mine; but perhaps your view of yourself as a white male is detrimental to your progress? I am of a totally different perspective here so bear with me. Try looking at it this way: you want to be the best version of yourself- that is all. You don't compare yourself to others because the best version of yourself is subjective to who you are. Therefore as a white male you can still be the best version of yourself. Hope this helps and keep at it Edit: Also, I think the world is fucked too but in a different way. I don't agree with society as I do not think it is the natural way that humans should be. But there is nothing I can do about it even if I whip my cock out and run around the forest hunting dear with spear and sling in hand. I understand whatever I do there will be no change and humanity will most likely run itself into the ground in the distant future. But I do not stand idly by. Here is a quote by Edmund Burke: "The only thing necessary for the triumph of evil is for good men to do nothing" Good and bad is subjective to your opinion but, if you believe in a good in this world, get busy doing it. Don't expect shit to change but just do it because you believe in it. Because if you stand by and do nothing you are just kidding yourself and everyone who shares your idea. I think society is fucked for sure! But I know that I can relieve the pain caused by the growth of modern civilisation and slavery to materialism by becoming the strongest version of myself so I can help others and also becoming an engineer so I can work for a better society (because lets face it- going into the woods isn't going to help anyone).

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