Schwing

Welcomewelcomewelcomewelcomewelcome!!! I recently took up climbing with my school. I find that being in an environment where you are progress and there are other people to hold you accountable and be competitive with is really motivating. I'm glad you feel the same way.

I'll try refrain from calling people cunts if I ever move to the states then, but I probably wont be able to help it knowing me. Thanks for the heads up, you cunt! Thank you so much for this advice guys. Really this is really great constructive feedback! I will be starting my journal very soon. I will reevaluate my goals too.

Hi guys. My name is Matthew, I'm 16, I'm from England and I have pretty much no life. I've been wanting to quit games for quite some time now and stumbling across this site and cam's work had me wipe my entire steam library. It wasn't easy but I'm convinced this change is for the better. I quit watching porn a few weeks before that too. I've always been drawn to videogames subconsciously I think. I had always been shy and not very outgoing yet very imaginative and diligent. Videogames instantly appealed to me. All I needed was on a screen in my bedroom. As I've been getting into games more and more I found I enjoyed my other hobbies less and less. I quit kayaking, I quit climbing, I quit martial arts, I quit playing cello and trumpet. Suddenly my hobbies (if I had even kept them still) had become mere decorations just to make myself appear accomplished. I have always been a dreamer- I want to be an engineer when I'm older and I am studying hard for it but videogames are such a hindrance to me it's unreal. I believe there is much more in real accomplishment than a temporary sense of accomplishment. It's time to level up myself instead of my imaginary character. But progressively, as I've matured, I've developed a lot more self confidence and I think now is the time to change my life. I don't want to be a depraved little shit forever. I realised that I only have one life and I was spending it playing videogames. If I'm not living my life to the full then it's completely wasted. I am 4 days into my 90 day detox! I hope I can find a way to play games in moderation because some of them are really inspiring and are works of art. My goals for the near future are: - Stop hating myself - Get out of the house more - Practice my drumming - Practice my singing - Improve my art - Talk to girls more - Write a book - Get into climbing again - Read up on politics more - Maybe start running

A death metal god and probably the sexiest mother fucker to ever live. Chuck Schuldiner R.I.P.

I have noticed a lot of girls play mmos where there is a strong sense of community and dedication to your guild mates. The theory on family dedication instincts may be very plausible.

I find the best approach is to realise that everybody is too busy caring about themselves and their own appearance to care about you. Just think back to something embarrassing you did a while ago that nobody talks about anymore and you will be surprised about how recent it was. Also try to remember something that may have potentially embarrassed one of your friends and think about how many shits you could give! What you will also realise is that you have been doing embarrassing things all the time in your life and you always will be. They only have value because you choose to attribute value to them because of self hate and being overly critical of yourself. I like to try and live in the present and every time I remember the past I say- "nobody cares or needs to care! fuck the past!". I don't think it's a good idea to throw yourself into the social deep end straight away though (like sitting with the popular kids at lunch) because it is highly likely you will get rejected and it will just be awkward- doesn't matter how confident you are. Whether you are rejected or not depends on the group's preconceived opinion of you and their default disposition to you based on what they deem is socially comfortable to express amongst their peers. You don't need to be a social god. This is why when I go on summer camp or something I get along with everyone but when I'm back at school I'm slotted back into my social group. I let people approach me when they do and if they choose to acknowledge me I make as active of a conversation as I can.

I really like Pagan/ traditional European/ gothic art so most of the stuff I draw is related to that. Here's a quick sketch with a regular HB.

I wouldn't use facebook as your own big vanity project- use it as a utility. Don't just mindlessly scroll through pointless shit. I use it to follow my favourite bands and just keep in touch with friends.