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102 days Days porn free: 5 Days fap free: 0 Today I left my comfort zone by: making more conversationmeditating and doing facial bioenergetics in the carTalking to someone I don't usually talk toSpeaking upRoutine: Get up 6:30 (8:30 weekend)BioenergeticsCold showerPorridgeStudy 1 hourMeditationGoal from yesterday done?: no Thoughts and Feelings: Not as good as yesterday. Didn't get up for routine.Decent day overallCold showers or hot showers? I'm all for that cold. They don't clean your pores as much but they let them keep their oils and maintain the balance of skin oil and lipids as a whole. I haven't died yet so I'm fine.I wanked today. I don't care. My main goal is to not watch porn.I have been getting into jazz latelyTasks and Achievements: Physical: noneMental: studying, learning german, cold shower researchSpiritual: meditationWhat I am grateful for: MetalAll my friends on this siteIcy cold waterbirthday cakeThisWhat I have learnt from today: You don't need warm showerswim hof is highly effective. today i wasn't as productive.Tomorrow I will leave my comfort zone by: Getting up early and watching the sun rise outsideGoal for tomorrow: get back in routine

Hi I notice you do climbing and strength training. I was thinking of doing some sort of strength training too but I have little to no experience with workouts. What would you recommend for someone starting out and what type of workouts do you think would benefit climbers? My parents got me a rowing machine for my birthday. That is more cardio but it is great for rest days I believe. I have been looking at this full body workout but I don't really have the right equipment. If I was going to invest in some equipment what would you recommend? I have been looking at this sort of thing. Some pushup bars and rings for dipping too. Also I have been recommended a small beginner simple workout which is: 20 pushups 20 squats 20 sit ups 20 crunchies 1.5 mile run

@Simms Thank you. Feel free to use my ideas if you like them. Copying is underrated. I actually copied the quest journal idea from @hycniejsy but he calls them his objectives.

@destoroyah Bwahahaha! yes! Perhaps next time I will start hollering like a beast and headbutting all the other guys I see around me. That will up my game with the ladies for sure.

101 days Days porn free: 5 Days fap free: 5 Today I left my comfort zone by: Being assertiveTalking to a few girlsRunning a shit tonDoing bioenergetics in front of other peopleTelling psychic vampire how cold showers RULERoutine: Get up 6:30 (8:30 weekend)BioenergeticsCold showerPorridgeStudy 1 hourMeditationGoal from yesterday done?: Done Thoughts and Feelings: Very good day. It's my birthday today. I am 17 years old!Perfect routine. Nailed itThe wim hof method is totally changing me. I am calm, confident, expressive and tolerant. It's greatI really pushed myself with running todayI got a rowing machine for my birthday. It's good for cardio and muscular endurance I found out but not really strength training which I want to do! Time to save up for some bodyweight fitness stuffI was very collected around psychic vampire. Before when I looked him in the eyes I felt him draining me. But I did it today and I felt nothing.I did wim hof in the changing rooms before running. Nobody really cared.Tasks and Achievements: Physical: climbingMental: studying, learning german, all sortsSpiritual: cold shower, bioenergetics, meditationWhat I am grateful for: MetalAll my friends on this siteThe wim hof methodBirthdaySimply being alive5 days nofapWhat I have learnt from today: I am starting to see the bigger picture. There isn't really a bad or good. We tend to use this labels for our experiences willy nilly through our ego. Suffering is a necessity in balance to happiness. All experiences are constructive. I knew this really but only until recently have I started to see it working. I like people who I would consider arseholes more because I understand the way they act.I have tamed my ego in a way. I have forced it into a grounded state of energy where it will not falter and over extend itself.I do have people I can call friend- my companions on this siteTomorrow I will leave my comfort zone by: Not knowing how you will leave your comfort zone and figure something out on the spotGoal for tomorrow: Finish thank you letters

If you're looking to be less at the whim of your emotions and ego. I suggest the wim hof method that @Csaba_Bekesi sent me. Also this exercise is good for the stretching component. This too

Hi guys Me and @destoroyah have taken to deviant art as a means of sharing our content, keeping track of our progress and building a virtual portfolio. He has made a group so we can all get together and help each other improve. We would be really happy if any of you artists out there on the site joined up. Here is the group @Cam Adair If you are reading this please pin this post so it wont disappear and other members can find it.

100 days Days porn free: 4 Days fap free: 4 Today I left my comfort zone by: Being more active in maths classRoutine: Get up 6:30 (8:30 weekend)Cold showerBioenergeticsPorridgeStudy 1 hourMeditationGoal from yesterday done?: I did it! I didn't force myself to talk to girls or anyone. I talked when I felt like it. Thoughts and Feelings: Got up at midday! Skipped half of school day but I needed to recuperate from last night.I tried the wim hof method. HOLY SHIT! Felt crazy. I was super calm and emotionally stable all day.I was able to speak my mind to people.I did climbing tonight. I am really improving. Got a lot done.Mr psychic vampire confronted me in climbing. I just laughed like I always do when he made fun of me because tbh he does have a sense of humour- but- I didn't feel weird doing it. He had a go at me later on. I couldn't have given a fuck! I even laughed at him! Basically what happened was he said to me I shouldn't take cold showers because it doesn't allow your pores to open and get clean. He also told me before that I shouldn't take them because of fat loss and I was skinny. I simply said. "I'll look into it and by the way- I looked up the fat loss thing and it's fine etc etc because it's just white fat." He sort of ignored me and went on about the pores. So i just replied with the same statement "I'll look into it". "it's common sense though" he protested. I repeat myself and it gets a bit ping pong. He gets frustrated for some reason then says "move!" so he can climb on the wall adjacent to me. He then falls off at the first hold. I laugh. I understand him though. He gets frustrated with people sometimes and will take it out on others. I am the opposite- I take it out on myself. Arseholes are to be learnt from.There is also this german girl at climbing I sometimes talk to. Today I decided to ignore her because I don't like being needy around others. Just because they have a vagina doesn't make it an exception.Made a new deviant art account Tasks and Achievements: Physical: climbingMental: studying, making new devaibnt art accountSpiritual: cold shower, bioenergetics, meditationWhat I am grateful for: MetalFeeling more comfortable about my fatherFeeling very at ease todayThe wim hof methodWhat I have learnt from today: How to deal with arseholesWim hof is greatTomorrow I will leave my comfort zone by: Tell psychic vampire why cold showers RULEGoal for tomorrow: Finish thank you letters

Nice one man. In life I think everyone has their seasons. Winter- trying to slog it out and make it through times of hardship. Spring- the emergence of newfound bliss. Summer- easy cruising, living la vida loca. Autumn- falling back down. You can interpret that however you like. It's the way I see things.

@Csaba_Bekesi This is essentially what I do with bioenergetics every morning. The breathing exercise isn't something I really do on that level though. Thank you for this I believe much of this is tied in with the work of Wilhelm Reich. His idea was that internal stresses would manifest themselves within certain muscles, affecting your posture. It was with the stimulation of these areas of 'armouring' coupled with deep breathing that you could find emotional release

@hycniejsy thanks. I do not think I want therapy. I think all the therapy I need is here.

No post today. I am spiritually, mentally and physically drained and I feel sick. The dinner party thing sucked a bag of dick. It was exactly as I described it earlier. A mass social fake pretend fuck fest. My goal for tomorrow is to talk when I want to talk. And not talk when I want to talk. Not to give my fucks to unfuckworthy things

98 days Days porn free: 2 Days fap free: 2 Today I left my comfort zone by: Being open on 1000 days.Video chatting with an old steam friend for first timeRoutine: Get up 6:30 (8:30 weekend)Cold showerBioenergeticsPorridgeStudy 1 hourMeditationGoal from yesterday done?: Almost. 1 more to go. Thoughts and Feelings: Got up late. There was a mouse in the roof last night and it was making so much fucking noise.Didn't do any studying. Very chill day.Did some artRewatched one of my favourite movies: DeathgasmI talked to an old steam friend for a long ass time. The conversation was shit. We were just regurgitating memes into each other's mouths. I was serious and open when I messaged him on skype about my gaming problems. He was obviously uncomfortable about this. I played along with his immature shit level banter on the call. Shouldn't have done that. I hate that. I need to be grounded.I hosted an accountability call with fil today. It was the highlight of my day. We covered a lot and know each other a lot better now.I have to go to a practice dinner party as part of a confidence and social skills course school puts onTasks and Achievements: Physical:Mental: learning german, studying, getting on nofapSpiritual: cold shower, bioenergetics, meditationWhat I am grateful for: MetalFeeling like I am growing up finally@fil for making it to the callThis beautiful songThe shit talk I had with my old steam friend for giving good contrast to the one with fil and making me thinkWhat I have learnt from today: Stay grounded means being grounded. This extends to conversation. I notice changes in my body when this happens. When I talked with steam friend my voice was very high pitched. When I spoke with fil my voice was very deep (even though I voice cracked a ton). I'm sick of shit talk with my "friends". Having our crappy highschool insecure dumbfuck egos double ended dildo shag each other.I am feeling greatly changed in my art. Finally I am able to accurately portray my imagination.Tomorrow I will leave my comfort zone by: Dinner party. I hate mass social fuck fests. Get me with some real people on a long walk outside or in a cafe and then we can fucking talk. I hate the whole farce of dressing up and talking about generic retarded shit like trump and brexit. Let's face it: who cares about politics if it's a corrupt game for the elite. Every single system is wrong. Why should we fuss and obsess over how we are herded as the cattle in this farm called society? We should obsess over how we lead ourselves with philosophy as individuals. That's what i thinkGoal for tomorrow: Catch up with studying

Practice sketches

@destoroyah Thank you for this. Haha. I have never known anyone other than myself who went out of their way to say something was shit on that site. It's just compliment compliment compliment. But yes I suppose people totally avoid constructive feedback and resort to compliments as they have a need to express their thoughts but might not necessarily have the means to do it in a truly helpful way. I still have my facebook. The only thing I use it for is keeping up with metal bands. With deviant art I don't see myself ever using it unless I found a group where I could get guaranteed reliable feedback. Even then I would be only visiting frequently.

Here is the post I made on deviant art: HellllloooooooI said I would post on here more but I haven't; even though I have been drawing shit tons. There is a reason for this:I don't like the way this site works for me as a developing artist. Or at least the way I have been using it.I find that it is easy to get consumed by the warped social nature of this site. How much feedback you're getting and so on. Fishing for compliments. Returning "thank yous" and favs like there's some sacred equilibrium to be upheld or the entire universe will implode into a shitstorm of sorts. It is never good to adopt this mentality I think as it's very needy and also counter productive- just draw; don't care about your imaginary internet friends. I think you should stay true to yourself and be sincere always. I found myself being very devoted in an irrational way to others on this site: "Oh I must check on him and say something nice so he doesn't feel like he is doing bad!". Again- immature, needy behaviour. I just did it because it made me feel like I was being helpful. I'm sure the guy has the social integrity to live without my nice comments. I know I sound selfish, but I have one goal in art and that is to improve. Once I have improved I will start helping others in actually improving; not spewing empty sentiments."Do the thing and you will have the power. But they that do not the thing had not the power" - Ralph Waldo EmmersonI need to get shit done and focus on myself before I start giving.Also another quote by Mr Emmerson:"The most difficult thing for a man to do is be himself in a world that is constantly trying to change him" - Ralph Waldo EmmersonWhen you put stuff out there people either like it or don't like it. Being too conscious of other's opinions is a severe threat to the authenticity of your work. I don't really have this problem with the scale and quality of my output though. But I'm sure bigger users do.Moving on: I'm too much of a noob for this. At my level I should be focusing on enriching my fundamental skills and not trying to create some sort of pseudo-masterpiece. This site has no real use for me right now apart from looking at other peoples stuff from time to time. But I can do that anywhere really. As a well developed artist I can see how it might be of use: put your shit out there to a wider audience, get feedback, inspire others. But for me right now? Nah my random practice sketches aren't much to behold and I don't need the little criticism I get as I'm not producing finalised content plus I'm imitating others. I would rather go at the basics on my own and develop my own observation skills but, on the contrary, a little Q&A would be great from professional people who know their shit. I just don't know anywhere on this site where I can specifically get that. In fact I get little to none lengthy criticism here whatsoever. The bulk of my knowledge I get from a 2nd party is from professionals on youtube.If I do find a way I can have some more professional users accountable for my progress that would be great. That means I would be on here every time I fill up a sketchbook or have a problem. Not asking for a private mentor or anything. Just a little reliable constructive feedback.That's why I don't really need this site. I hope this was helpful to you if you have the same problem.Peace

97 days Days porn free: 1 Days fap free: 1 Today I left my comfort zone by: NothingRoutine: Get up 6:30 (8:30 weekend)Cold showerBioenergeticsPorridgeStudy 1 hourMeditationGoal from yesterday done?: Not really. Got up late and got sick with the procrastination bug Thoughts and Feelings: Got up late.Tried studying but I was bored so I did some other shitGot high on caffeine towards end of day so I could achieve my goalDidn't work as well as I expected. I did get my physics done though.Talked to friends and made a massive post on deviant artThis djent CD is pretty decent.I FUCKING RELAPSED ON PORN. That does it. I'm off to nofap for some serious rehab.Tasks and Achievements: Physical:Mental: learning german, studying, getting on nofapSpiritual: cold shower, bioenergetics, meditationWhat I am grateful for: MetalCaffeine for showing me how unreliable it is.Djent for not being so shit.My swedish friendWhat I have learnt from today: Coffee sucks. If I want to be productive I should just take care of myself and do shit properlyTomorrow I will leave my comfort zone by: Blasting the duuuuuuuuuuuhjeeeeeeeeeeeeeennnnnnntttttttttGoal for tomorrow: Make thank you letters

@destoroyah Severe lack of shitty people on this site! Not sure it's that one!

You're not a sockpuppet, destoroyah. And for that I admire you.

96 days Days porn free: 5 Days fap free: 2 Today I left my comfort zone by: Texting my dadRoutine: Get up 6:30 (8:30 weekend)Cold showerBioenergeticsPorridgeStudy 1 hourMeditationGoal from yesterday done?: Not at all. Totally forgot Thoughts and Feelings: Got up late.Went shopping to HMV. No metalheads in sight. I accidentally bought a djent CD. Born of Osiris - Soul Sphere. But hey I'm pretty open minded when it comes to music so I'll give it a shot. On the plus side; I spotted 60℅ (for a modest sum of 20 quid) of sylsosis' discography on the shelf at the last minute. Noiiiice. I wish I bought the necromancing the stone CD instead of the djent one though.When I got back in spent the rest of my day ripping the audioI got randomly depressed again. But my mood has dramatically improved.My dad sent me a birthday card. That was nice of him.I had a weird confidence spell at work. Felt gud.Tasks and Achievements: Physical: workMental: learning germanSpiritual: cold shower, bioenergetics, meditationWhat I am grateful for: MetalCDsDjent CD because maybe I will like it after all and become a trve djentlemanSylosisBirthday cardBeing 5 days porn free.What I have learnt from today: I should just blast metal on my phone in the middle of the store to see if I like the band next time. Embarrassment isn't a priority when it comes to MEEEEEEEEETTTTTAALLLLLPosture is very expressive.There is a weird balance to everything. I sway from negative to positive in terms of mood a lot. Mostly on a long term basis. Hormones? Maybe.Tomorrow I will leave my comfort zone by: Getting up early for workout and runGoal for tomorrow: Get studying super hard

95 days Days porn free: 4 Days fap free: 1 Today I left my comfort zone by: Running around in a death metal shirt. Whilst saying hello to everyone I passed by.Routine: Get up 6:30 (8:30 weekend)Cold showerBioenergeticsPorridgeStudy 1 hourMeditationGoal from yesterday done?: Not really. Climbing gear but I still have to choose. Thoughts and Feelings: Got up late. But I did bioenergetics, cold shower, workout, run and meditation all in succession.I got some funny looks while I was running. But that's all part of the fun.I also felt super liberated while running. The same freedom I felt when I was younger.I have been feeling nostalgic lately. I. A déjà vu sort of way. Feeling certain feelings and smelling smells from my early childhood.Today I read some Manga. Berserk. I haven't picked it up in a while. So good.I also tidied up my room and filed my important documentsTasks and Achievements: Physical: workout, runMental: studying, learning german, tidying room, reading, washing upSpiritual: cold shower, bioenergetics, meditationWhat I am grateful for: MetalKentaro Muira and free online mangaRunningWhat I have learnt from today: Porn and Disney have fucked up our perception of relationshipsPeople are still wired for a tribal lifestyle. The question is will we ever evolve past it before it destroys us due to our refusal to adhere to it.Tomorrow I will leave my comfort zone by: Talking to other metalheads in HMV if I see anyGoal for tomorrow: Start using Krita for digital art

@Fagus Thank you for that insight. I have been told before that I should just try to understand and not expect him to change. I can't magically expect him to shower me with love all of a sudden. Im on my own now. My childhood is over. What's done is done.

I had trouble focusing at first too. Meditation definitely helps a LOT. The mind is a muscle and you should train it: Sit down on the floor. Cross legged. Back straight.Close your eyes and focus on your breathing. Whenever your focus strays immediately switch it back.Next time you are trying to focus on something you can employ a similar technique. Whenever your focus strays flip your shit and get back to the task at hand. I find hitting brick walls in studying causes me to lose focus. If that happens it's always good to take a step back.

94 days Days porn free: 4 Days fap free: 4 Today I left my comfort zone by: Getting up super earlyBeing half naked in the kitchenSorting out when I will see my dadRoutine: Get up 6:30 (8:30 weekend)Cold showerBioenergeticsPorridgeStudy 1 hourMeditationGoal from yesterday done?: Ye boi Thoughts and Feelings: Got up very early. perfect routineStudied shit loadsLearnt some germanRead some of the necronomiconMy dad texted me and everything went to shit. I had this weird anxiety attack type thing which kept popping up over the course of an hour.I totally flopped so I started mindlessly browsingLooked at some patches for my battle jacket.Got my shit together and did some artTasks and Achievements: Physical:Mental: studying, learning german, art, readingSpiritual: cold shower, bioenergetics, meditationWhat I am grateful for: MetalDrawing and listening to banging tunes at the same timeAnxiety attacksThisWhat I have learnt from today: I have to face my fearsI might need therapyI think meditation is helping my no fap cravings. I have more resolve now.Tomorrow I will leave my comfort zone by: Going out for a run super earlyGoal for tomorrow: Figure out what I want for my birthday (22nd feb)

@destoroyah Thanks mate. I have been thinking about this workout but there is some stuff I cant do because I don't have the equipment. I should probably get to grips with the basics though first. Running in the dark? I might get run over; but you're right that's brutal as fuck. Even more brutal than this.