Decided to sleep in, since it was Sunday and all. Only by half an hour, but whatever , its better than waking up at 2pm or even worse. 9am feels like a good time to be waking up, but my final goal will be 7am. Headed to help my brother at the house again, got there about 10.30am , luckily that I did a lot yesterday than usual, I didn't have much to do today which I'm proud of. I tend to sit down and dope off, think about new games and who to play Counter Strike with. But, the last 2 days, other than the cravings, I didn't stop working unless for a legitimate break. I don't know if I'm improving because of no gaming or I've been telling myself 'good job" every time I complete something. I suffer from Social Anxiety, depression and low self-esteem. One of the reasons why I'm opening a new chapter in my life. Cringey as it sounds, I call these sad feelings and thoughts metaphorically "Freddy Krueger" as he only gets you when you're at your lowest. The only reason he exists is because we allow him to exist in our memory. In a metaphor of cause. Ended up finishing around 2.30, did the final clean up before my brother travels West for a week holiday with his friend. He came over since he asked us to leave his tools here since it's safe here. We chilled out for a few hours until it got dark and left. It's good because I've been active for the last few days always had something to do. But since he's going away and everyone is back to work tomorrow, I am nervous. I've been so lucky with people having things for me to do. Now I've completed the plans I had, I'm not so sure what to do now. I could go find a job or a study, I really feel that I'm not well enough for it yet. I have shocking planning and I say a lot of things, doesn't mean I do them. The last few days have been hard, not a full week yet and all I can think about is Skyrim. It is my favourite game of all time but it's a game that if you play it too much, you get bored of it when you get into it again. All I want to do is taste it, but I'm doing well, my life is already improving. I'm going on a cruise with my family just below a month. Even though I'm going for 90 days detox, I'm going to be stoked when aboard the ship and have no care in the world for video games. But right now, I just need to deal with my snappy mood swings, and replace cravings with other things, I'm going to post this, watch this podcast of the Drunken Peasants, watch a few episodes of Mr Robots new season, then go to bed. Another good day for me