Daniel

That´s a great approach Hitaru.

Day #45 Current mood: Light stress I am grateful for: My family, not having children, and music Workout: No Cold Shower: Yes (It barely felt cold, it´s too hot in here) Minimalism/Declutter: No (Have a plan for getting rid of most of my books) Bed before 9PM Probably not What went well today: I finally made a journal template (inspired by Alex The Grape) What didn’t go well today: I called too early for a cab to go to church; I forgot my belt, didn´t shave. What I could have done to make my day better: Get clothes ready earlier. What I will do differently tomorrow: I will watch my personal hygiene. GameQuitters thoughts: Today I watched a cinema scene from FFX. It was a craving for the past mostly. I used to be so into streamers of twitch and mobcrush. I am gonna check if those sites are blocked. NoFap thoughts: Some time ago I remembered, one could simply join this forum as a member of the opposite sex and start posting pretending to be someone else. Yesterday I saw a movie called “Get out”. There´s an actress called Allison Williams, there was a scene where she is in her underwear, this scene had a light arousal effect on me. The actress seemed more attractive as the movie progressed. Thoughts: I been thinking a lot of the past. I have a box full of journals. From time to time I read them. I also received a message from a person I used to wrote about in my old journals. I have been making playlists of old songs I used to listen. I have been digitalizing some journal entries and old love letters, before I burn them away. I do wonder if it would be pointless to burn them since I am getting them on digital format. The love letters are from a past relationship. It was almost 5 years ago. Even thought I have been in a new relationship since two years ago I can´t seem to move on from the past relationship. Maybe I am not allowing myself to do it. I do have a romantic view about that past relationship. The relationship ended in a bad note. I also want to write a book with all those old journals and that past relationship will be likely mentioned. Perhaps a book in the style Of Cortazar´s Hopsotch were there novel is wrote in several layers. Current Mood: I feel better.

Glad you decided to start this path. Don´t neglect the tools Cam recommends All of them are important. Keep it up.

Boom.

Being aware that you were watching a stream is good. Even better would asking yourself, why are you watching the stream? What are you avoiding to do by watching the stream?

One Chrome extension to change your life: Stayfocusd Install it and add all the time waster websites and social media. Activate the challenge option. Ready set go.

Day #44 My journal entries are getting shorter and shorter. I need to either implement a template or take more time journaling. I have thought about doing an overall journal of my life at word processor and simply copy paste it in both forum. Today I thought two things about videogames. One was a game I used to play called Colony. I was in my late teens early twenties when I used to play it. It was just a flash game but I remember plenty about it. I also remembered than before the detox a perfect day would be being all day alone at the house just playing videogames, sometimes I would go to the gym just to get a break from videogames.

I remember reading someones signature in the forum which said: "Stop looking at the past, you are not going that way". Everyone in the world in one point or another has committed a mistake, but if you keep looking at the mistakes of the past, you won´t be able to the see the opportunities of the present. I truly recommend doing a NoFap detox and having a workout routine. You can do it.

Day #43 Last night I found an AP from another forum, he seems to be knowledgeable on addictions. I have been noticing two things. At the afternoons I usually take a couple of mins at my bed and watch youtube. Also later in the afternoon I been having snacks. I am thinking of getting rid of these two habits, it would seem I do them without thinking about them.

What are you avoiding to face by searching it? Going to mexican IRS and doing all the necessary paperwork.

I will complete this 90 days. Im wondering what kind of mindset will i be in after two more months. A lot is changing in my life, for good, i hope. I do have my gaming accounts, i will not delete them, dont see a point in doing so. That´s what Cam advices. Give it a try. Do the 90 days. If you want to game in moderation fine, if you want to quit forever fine, just give it a try for 90 days and you can make up your mind. I was asking for your account because you mentioned Steam? Not sure if that´s an app or just a website. Just be careful.

Ánimo Hitaru! Keep going

Keep going Damian. Do you still have you gaming accounts?

Day #42 Once again I messed up my morning routine. It is extremely important to start your morning with a bang! just like a bullet. Today I rememered an old MMORPG I used to play. I was about to search it but stopped while typing it. What am I afraid of? Next week is my third session of the workshop. It is more work than I assumed it to be. Also doing it with quality is more difficult than I thought.

Day #41 I need to get my finances in order. If I could get a way to get income through the public speaking workshop it would be awesome. A person from a private school tried to contact to get 16 students on the workshop. Let's see where does this goes. I need to set up a tax incorporation scheme so I can become a partner with the public library. Lately it seems to me that I need more than 24 hours per day. I will keep improving the workshop. I am considering not going to late parties during some time. Getting drunk and sleeping late? Not possible work needs to get done.

That actually happens a lot me when my work task at hand is messy and I feel generally down. Mind starts to remember or "pre-create" all this interesting moments. Imho, games are mostly simptomatic here. I cant's say for you, but for me it comes from being unsure of myself in relation to job or social life. When I do feel sure about myself I don't fantasize about games. This is gold. I would add that as long as you are actively doing something to make your job and social life just the way you dream about it the attraction for videogames vanishes.

Do you have a gf? *Edit I know I am asking some very personal questions but my point is that I am doing a NoFap detox and this has helped me big time to diminish the anxiety during social situations as a plus I am attending public speaking workshop which is helping me as well.

Day #40 Last night I slept late while sending an email. Then I started watching youtube videos urgh...So I had a bad morning. The day eventually got better but I feel I could have accomplished more. Sleeping late is definitely bad for productivity.

Do you watch porn?

Day #39 It seems to me that I must focus on one project and drop mostly everything else. 1 goal at a time. I think today I remembered the game account I sold. Thought a bit about when I used to play. So far I have successfully avoided streams, or gaming news which is good. I used to be into that as well.

It seems to be attention is needed to find out if something is wrong. Do you work out? Do you have a social circle?

La aceptación es un paso vital en este proceso, ánimo Jay.

Remember that an addict replaces an addiction with another. We simply need to find a healthy addiction. Glad you decided to read instead of gaming away.

As a hobby I am dropping it. I am simply not going out of my way to downtown or public libraries to play etc. You are right, makes no sense teaching and not playing, so I ain´t teaching either. I will simply focus on other hobbies and/or priorities.

So you had memories of when you used to play?