Thank you guys, it means alot having people not judging me. Day 4 ! Still cs go clean, deleted that game and didn't re-install so far. Still craving it Tbh but not as much as yesterday, there is more regret than anything tho, I regret losing my 500$ Skin coz i won it then decided to bet it because i got greedy, but i guess i were to be optimistic about it, if i never lost it i would be gaming cs go 1000% now. So that was a push i guess. How this day was: T bh at first, it was terrible, All i did was sit on my PC. I still game but not cs go the most addictive game for me, Idk if that is okay or not, but i play some steam games online, but i usually get bored of them after a game or two. What i accomplished today: At first i did NOTHING. All day, and i started to regret it. I realized wtf am i doing, just playing other games, geting so bored, watching porn "I dont need that habit back in my life" lol. However at 10 PM this is what i was able to do and i am slightly proud - I ate healthy "Calculated all my macros and logged them in, trying to slide back into fitness" - I actually took a shower and felt fresh - I went outside, made a fire + Lifted weights for 30 minutes to get myself used to it again - Started taking supplements again after having them being Idle for so long. - I booked work for tomorrow, So i am really mad i literally threw 200$ away coz of my addiction, and when i say threw i mean i am in debt coz of it - My job tbh i hate "I call people and collect data from them based on w.e survey i have (NOT A TELEMARKETER) However it is so boring and i hate it, but i realized i need to stop running away from responsibilities, so i have work from 10-4 .. I hope i don't cancel. - It's getting a bit better Hopefully i will comeback to this post a year from now happily engaged to my GF whom i can't provide for yet she never judged nor left me coz of it .. - I want to focus on fitness and/or policing, Two plans rather than 1 i guess. I need to stop quitting. - I am thinking of applying again for college and hopefully GOV will loan me the money for my studies.