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Stercus accidit

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  1. Day - something
    tomorrow SAT subject test I am aiming for 100% from chemistry and trying how I feel about physics. 
    Next education goal? Projects and a couple of short tests. After that finals; History and Math will be the hardest; then there are Physics and English. The last one is basic programming (in Virtual Basic for those who are interested) that I can do with my eyes closed. 
    Feels good I keep working out and controlling my diet. However, I loosened a little on the foods I  eat and how much I eat. 
    I also have some plans for the summer I want to try out intermittent fasting. Also, I want to take my cooking skills to the next level finally, so I prepared some recipes to try out.

    Because I want to try and change so many things after finals I plan to start not a new detox but the new count down to keep track of the challenging transformation!

    Recently I started to listen to ton of Megadeth. Trash metal has never been my favorite, I have never got into Metallica, but Megadeth just took over my head xD
    Some fixes the dictionary please - it doesn't know that there is no "a" in the bands name ugh!

  2. Some band suggestions as you requested in journal :) 
    - Heaven Shall Burn - German death/ hardcore metal
    - In Mourning - Swedish death/prog metal
    - Opeth - prog metal (I don't remember if we mentioned them before)
    - Insomnium - melodic death Finnish band
    - Kvelertak - heavy metal - lyrics are in Norwegian 
    - Graveyard - nice rock band influenced by the bands like Black Sabbath 
    - Ghost - by many considered as doom metal 
    - Dead Soul - interesting project mix of blues industrial rock and doom very climatic 
    - Powerwolf - German power metal 
    - Katatonia - Swedish doom/sludge some say prog metal
    - my personal favorite for a long time - Woods of Ypres - Canadian underground black/doom metal band 

    here you go from the top of my head :D 

    I would suggest to rather start cutting your connection to games by not playing them at all.
    Sentimental value they hold is only associated with good time you had playing them. gaming in moderation is fine if you can monitor yourself. If you can spot the moment when you start coming back to the old ways you should reevaluate your decisions and make a change. 

    Keep rocking :) and good luck!

  3. For me, Trivium was the first step into metal music. It sparked the interest in me to check out different bands. My all time most favorite Trivium album is Shogun. I played this album hundreds of times and had never got bored of it. The period when I was into Nu metal (Limp Bizkit :S) and stuff like Slipknot, Three days grace, Skillet, Sabaton was middle school. However, I always felt that they lack something I want to hear and I always could find in Iron Maiden music. In middle school, I also got into grunge, and I still love to listen to alternative rock and metal from time to time. But I usually stay on Alice in Chains, Rage against the Machine, Nirvana, Pearl Jam with some other 90's hits. 
    After Trivium I expanded my interest in almost every direction of heavy metal with the big preference of Death, Symphonic Death, Progressive and Black metal. 

    I love your will to come back to playing guitar. I always wanted to play drums, but I only had a chance to play piano for six years. I stopped playing the instrument only because of computer games. They made me lose interest in everything. 
    I also love to hear about you guys jamming again! You have all of my insignificant respect :P

    Day - another one
    keeping the work out and diet real
    studying for SAT's subject test
    trying to not fool around

  4. Wróciłem dziś do filmu Gonciarza "Krok Pierwszy" i tak sobie myślę:
    Pofolgowałem sobie przez ostatnie 2 tygodnie...
    Jedyna rzecz którą robiłem "dobrze" to ćwiczenia fizyczne. Dieta niby była ale nie monitorowałem się zbytnio.
    wczoraj była rocznica rozpoczęcia detoxu. Wróciłem myślami do tego co zmusiło mnie do podjęcia tej decyznji. Popatrzyłem jeszcze raz na to co chciałem osiągnąć, a co mi się udało. Pomyślałem a co by było gdybym wytrwał? Gdybym wytrzymał 1 rok? W dzień wakacji mojego dobrego przyjaciela rok temu i wczoraj dochodze do podobnych wniosków. Oddalam się od celu a komputer zaślepia mnie coraz bardziej. Przez jeden rok miałem okazję pracować nad tyloma rzeczami, a dalej nie nauczyłem sie myć zębów systematycznie (dzięki ci boże za mocne szkliwo). Z drugiej strony przez ten rok pokonałem stany depresyjne. Nabrałem doświadczenia... W połowie kroku pierwszego uznałem że jednak nie dam rady. Nie tym razem. Zaczynam od nowa, z małą motywacją, ale z ogromną chęcią zmiany. Na pewne rzeczy nie mam wplywu a jednak pozwalam im kontrolować to co robię. Bycie w stanach z mojej danej perspektywy to katorga. Ale czy ja kiedykolwiek na prawdę starałem sie zmienić świat dookoła mnie. Nie. Jedynie używałem go do wmawiania sobie, że to przez to nic mi nie wychodzi.
    Jest to trudny czas, ale czy mądrym posunięciem jest podsycanie ognia negatywnego myślenia? Oczywiście, że nie! A jednak siedzię tu i kolejny raz próbuję pokonać mój nawyk do samoumartwiania się. 

  5.  I just haven't really gotten into them. I need to give them more time I guess.

    Some bands we have to grow up to :') for example edgy teens who stop listening to Bullet for my Valentine and move on to some more heavy and complicated music - I was one of them :P

    and btw I bought myself 2 Fleshgod Apocalypse albums "
    The King"; "Agony" and 1 Primodial  album "Where Greater man have fallen"
    Pardon the burst of music I listen to but haven't had a chance to actually talk about it with anyone for last 2 years 9_9

  6. It is Great to hear about you jamming again :D! It is also nice to hear that someone grew up on bands that go me into the alternative and then metal genres! To continue the chain of good band I propose Meshuggah as another prog band. 

    Day - I don't care honestly
    Work out - done - did some new exercises today to spice things up B|

    diet - kept

    grateful for:
    nothing particular just that I can breathe!

  7. Also, if anyone has any good resources for meditation and impulse control, that would be great. As focus/impulse control is a huge component in me wanting to quit/scale back games as I think they have had an effect on my brain chemistry.

    -

    Breaking the Habit of Being Yourself: How to Lose Your Mind and Create a New One
    Book by Joe Dispenza

     

    My big question is do I sell off my memorabilia and books? I got some graphic novels for Zelda for my birthday that I would like to read through. Also, some art books and Hyrule Historia. Maybe I will read the graphic novels through as a form of closure as well, and then get rid of them.

    My suggestion is to read them for the last time and sell/ give them away. Keep only those that do not make you urge to play again. Past experience is an amazing thing to go back to, but it should not define how you live right now and what you want to achieve in the future. Do your memorabilia represent: a person you are and want to become or your past? Is your past that defines the values you believe? Do those items add any value to your everyday life? If you want to let go the past holding on to items that represent it might not be a good decision.


     

  8. Hey welcome to the forum @EndOfAnEra :) I am glad you are here.
    What I personally take from minimalist's podcast is "long term goals define my short term actions" - or something like that :D - it keeps me rolling every day

    From the bands you mentioned I conclude that you like prog metal. You must also listen to Devin Townsend Project. If not, you must check them out!

    I had been always playing f2p games, however I had spent some money on them. I totaly get your nostalgia! I have this one game Heroes of Might and Magic 3 that just means so much to me! Even though it is 20 years old - so older than me 9_9. Fortunately this nostalgia doesn't make me want to play the game.

    Day 31
    work out/diet - done
    meditation - done
    studying - right now

  9. Żyję!!! Trochę się działo więc zapomniałem cokolwiek pisać na forum :P
    Obecnie skupiam się na nauce do sprawdzianów z biolcy, fizyki i chemii. Staram się spełnic wymagania na college w Edynburgu.Więc siedzę i robię fizykę xD. Jeszcze miesiąc i koniec szkoły. DIeta powoli pomaga i troszkę przytyłem. Dalej ćwiczę i chyba są jakies postępy. Na pewno nie zamierzam przestawać. dziś jescze mam w planie zacząć naukę medytacji z książki "Breaking the Habit of Being Yourself: How to Lose Your Mind and Create a New One"

  10. day 17 
    Work out done
    diet maintained
    I decided to give up my summer job - the same one as last year - to better prepare for SAT subject tests. I have only one chance to get a good score on each of them which means there is no room for one month break from reality. 
    I made this choice because of the deadlines for the Edinburgh medical college's applications. I have only two SAT left to get needed scores and three subjects to pass. In this case, I must choose to study over exiting job opportunity.

    Music: Opeth

  11. Day 15
    work out - done - I am more than happy that I still find a motivation to do it :D in the ideal world I ill never stop working out
    I have nothing to do in school so I want to do everything to set up my schedule. I want to focus on achieving specific goals. 

    for 3 days straight I am talking with my friend from Poland. Since we are done with chemistry classes I have 2 periods of free time in school and I can talk with him almost every day. 

    I try to work on my concentration - reading one hour straight in complete silence and with no electronic devices. I use it as a practice before a presentation to calm my mind.

    It is funny how I work out among kids, teenagers, and adults and I don't care about what they think. 1 year ago before I started my first detox it would be impossible. Also big shot out to the book by Joe Dispenza Breaking the habit of being yourself. This book in the last 3 weeks helped me more than anything or anyone before. I can recommend it to everyone.
     

    Music:
    Back to the past - Trivium: Kirisute GomeShattering The Skies Above; Forsake Not The Dream

    I am grateful for:

    • my best friends in Poland who still remember me after 2 years
    • the playlist I have been creating for a year now, there is nothing better than 30 hours of great music.
    • motivation to do a work out 
    • Training Pal's youtube channel
  12. Day 14 and 15
    14 - nothing happened
    15 -
    5 am
    have to do homework for history
    can't wait to work out today :D
    eating more food - again only healthy food - makes me lazy, or it might be my sleep deprivation actually.  
    after the history test today my week seems to be free from serious school work. I will catch up on my personal goals that I gave up for a week, idk why

    need some energy in the morning:
    Fleshgod Apocalypse: The King

  13. D 13
    I can't stay productive while I am on my diet - I need to get at least 10 pounds to finally not be underweight for the first time in my life - I am so not used to eating so much or rather so healthy that I find an excuse "I need to digest it first" to not do any work... hilarious

    I really have to work on my productivity

    music:
    Death - Human

  14. Do not think about yourself as an underachiever. A path to a goal it is not as straightforward as it seems. It is not an exponential growth. Evaluation of your goals is a good step to be honest with yourself about what you really desire. Try to do things and make decisions that are related to your long term goals. The long term goals should define them. And remember that the price at the end isn't measured only by how hard we work. World would look differently if it was the only factor of how successful a person can be.

  15. D 11

    Gloomy day

    I didn't do the stretching - not a big deal honestly

    I made a very tasty dinner for myself. Definitely gonna make it more often as I follow my diet.

    Tomorrow SAT I am not even stressed. I made up my mind and i want to go back to Poland to get my degree. There is way too many people who I left and they still wait for me to come back.

    However If I a suitable option of getting degree in US will show up I would have a hard time choosing. Probably my ambition would win and I would stay here. 

    Tomorrow afternoon I start a real work to fulfill all of my goals. This weak was a brake after AP chem.

    It was good to catch up with the proper sleep schedule and get my energy back while still getting better after a rather filthy cold last and this weak.

    Music:

    Whole motherfking album: Fleshgod Apocalypse The King 

  16. Day 9

    Took care of my diet plan - 2 more days and everything should be settled.

    Took a long nap again. - I should go back to going to sleep early, about 10 pm

    Listened to Bathory's music almost whole day

    I haven't done anything toward my goal of establishing good meditation technique. 

    Feels so so - tomorrow I will feel much better - work out day :D

    podcast - minimalists

    Did not add new words to the list :/

    I should be sleeping....

    I am grateful for the sun shining right on my face every morning :3

     

  17. Day 8
    Work out - done - I have enough strength but no endurance but I will get where I want to be in a month I am sure
    stretching - tomorrow
    did not do much today - took a long nap
    went shopping to buy everything what I need for my diet
    songs: https://youtu.be/yvSPWG_mE4c
                https://youtu.be/yzkedvnGXLs
                https://youtu.be/GXOucG8rM5k

    I keep learning new Eng words
    added 10 new ones today

    Feels good

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