Day 1 of 90:
Hello everyone thank you for visiting this post!
This is the first time I've tried committing to a journal during this kind of process. However this isn't my first attempt to try and cut back on gaming, in general, I always felt that I was addicted or that I could have been doing more with my life. It wasn't until my girlfriend of 4 years broke up with me this weekend that made me feel the reality and humility of this addiction, so I really want to change. Thankfully we've both made it clear that we don't want to cut each other off completely but we definitely aren't together romantically. I apologies if the way I'm wording this is strange or does not make sense, but this is my journal entry and I'm just typing what I'm experiencing right now.
Right now I'm feeling pretty confused, helpless, but optimistic. with everything that has happened to me so far I'm not sure about a lot of things about myself but thankfully I still have some great friends and they've given me some great advice and are willing to stick with me through this turbulent time. I also can't help but think about her and our relationship but that's a whole another post...
But either way this is first step to changing and coping with who i am, just know that I'm going to be cutting this off cold turkey and start focus on my goals that I've set up for myself - like playing piano, reconnecting with friends, start to work out, find new hobbies, etc. WISH ME LUCK PLEASE and HELP ME BE ACCOUNTABLE THANK YOU!!!!