The Chosen One

March 10 (13 of 90 days) - Wednesday I had a very positive and very productive day. I woke up at 10 am and I walked my dog. I had a lot of energy. I managed to be at my desk working on project 1 without being sleepy and without a lack of energy.

March 9 (12 of 90 days) - Tuesday I had no energy and I didn't finish Project 1. I was lying in bed with a lot of sleep and a headache. At night I was watching the football game Juventus-Porto | UEFA Champions League with my father. One person sent me by pm that normally the body reacts more slowly than the brain / thoughts. I can't be so hard on myself.

March 5 (8 0f 90 days) - I woke up with the news that I was the winner of a giveaway. A free netflix subscription for a year. I hope to take the opportunity to see good documentaries like the social dilemma. I was on the phone with my cousin to give him the news. I focused on project 1 and the diet did not go very well. In the late afternoon, I went for a walk with my dog. March 6th (9 of 90 days) After lunch, I went for a walk with my sister, my father and dog. We were taking pictures and we enjoyed the good sunshine. In the evening, I was watching television with my sister and we ate in an unhealthy way. I didn't even turn on the pc. March 7 (10 of 90 days) I was at home all day working on photos for other giveaways. I didn't focus on Project 1 or the diet. March 8 (11 of 90 days) I walked my dog. I ate soup and even worked on project 1. Will I finally deliver project 1 on the 9th?

4/3/2021 7 of 90 days I woke up at 11 a.m I walked my dog. It was a short walk. I worked on my first project of the course but surprise, surprise...It's not finished yet. Oh my God, what is wrong with me. I ate meat and salad at lunch and soup and a burger with chips at dinner. And I know what I was thinking but I ate chips before bed. It was a rainy day, so I spent the rest of the day at home, laying in bed with no energy watching a youtube video. But...When I was walking my dog I was thinking: all of my life, I had terrible friends who gave me terrible advice and never want me to succeed. People always hated the fact I was a top student with big goals for my life. Whenever I tried to apply to corporate jobs, these so-called friends always want to see me working in cafe shops or supermarkets (cashier). I made the stupid mistake of telling people about my biggest (material) dream in life: having a house with a pool. People never liked me. I was always a weak target for them. But, no more. I will prove them wrong.

3/3/2021 6 of 90 days I woke up at 11 am. Back on Track. I took a big walk with my dog. I ate squid with salad for lunch and soup and a sandwich for dinner. I cleaned my desk. I worked hard on my course project. It's almost done I didn't procrastinate with my phone or youtube My energy was quite good

02/03/2021 5 of 90 days I woke up at 8:20 but instead of getting up, I stayed in bed and only got up at 12h. I woke up again with a big headache and very depressed. I just walked my dog and spent a lot of time in bed. I saw two TED TALKS: 1 - How to Achieve Your Most Ambitious Goals - Stephen Duneier This motivated me to take large projects and break them up into small parts 2 - How to Wake Up Tomorrow Morning Like a Billionaire. This made me think that for many people I live a dream life, as they do not have the amenities that I have. I'm grateful for everything I have. I have the chance to learn over the internet and thereby change my life. It's a blessing, some people don't even have water. Today I also thought about how fun games are, but as I move from level to level, I don't improve my life. It's ME who needs to level up!

01/03/2021 4 of 90 days I woke up at 10:30. I went with my mother and my dog to the vet. (My dog is much better) Unfortunately, this was the day "I fell off the horse". So many mistakes. I got home with a big headache and decided to go to bed all afternoon. Bad decision. Then I decided to listen to some music to cheer myself up, but I found that listening to music on youtube and spotify are terrible for my concentration and digital detox. I decided that in the future I want to buy an mp3 player. I can't be spending money right now. I also want a wristwatch and an alarm clock to avoid looking at the phone. I had soup at lunch but unfortunately at night I had chicken with chips. How stupid of me. I worked very little on my course project. Despite the mistakes I made, I had a great epiphany: I think I just discovered that my problem is not the phone, youtube, distractions or gaming. I think my problem is always being in bed, because I don't have the energy. That has always been my problem throughout my life. I've always had many goals, I don't have the energy to go after them. I sleep a lot and I can't wake up early. I went to find out more about sleeping well and found some TED Talks. I have to put some tricks into practice, which will be difficult because I work much better at night, I don't know how I will wake up early.

28/02/2021 3 of 90 days I woke up at 11 am with energy. I ate eggs for lunch and meat for dinner. I had a good day on a diet, I didn't make mistakes. I walked, I moved. I went to the supermarket with my sister, I went to the pharmacy, I spent about 10 minutes on my home bicycle. Unfortunately, I didn't even touch my project and I sincerely start to get scared by this. It was supposed to be over today and it's still a long way away. I'm beginning to doubt if I can do this. At the end of the day, I felt a great lack of energy Anyway, at least I've been without the phone and youtube.

27/02/2021 2 of 90 days Today was also a good day. I ate healthy: tuna for lunch, chicken, and salad at dinner while watching my friend eat pizza. It was difficult, but I decided not to taste a slice! I walked an entire hour! It was fantastic to feel the sun and be away from screens. I was working on y Project 1 of the course but I still haven't finished it as I expected. It is almost! I think I still take a long time to do things, I wanted to improve this. Just to structure a sentence, I think and think a lot. I was away from the phone and until now the diet is more difficult than the digital detox.

I want to make a 90-day challenge in which I commit to change my life: 1) - Focus only on completing successfully my course 2) - Eat Healthily 3) - Exercise at least 10 min a day 4) - Digital Detox a) No youtube b) No phone c) No browsing randomly on the internet d) No Podcasts e) No thinking about gaming 26/02/2021 1 of 90 days On this day, I felt good, motivated and willing to change for the better. I was unable to wake up early (this is also not the habit with the highest priority). But I woke up with energy. I started to structure and work on my first project of my online course (1 hour). I ate salads, chicken. I moved around (I went with my dog to the vet and went to the supermarket). I didn't touch the phone, I didn't see videos on YouTube and I managed to concentrate during the day. Unfortunately, I ate chips at dinner. Well, for the first day I'm glad I didn't give in to my digital addictions. I want to improve my productivity and I want to see if I can finish Project 1 this Saturday.

Hey cool people, what's up? I'm writing to say: I want to stop being a loser. I'm ready to change my life for the better I was a good kid, a top student of my class, never lazy, no alcohol, no drugs. I graduated in marketing but could never get a decent job. The low-paid salary was always the norm. Because of this, I got severe depression and stayed at home with my parents for years. Yes, you can say that I embraced the victim mindset. At this time, I developed a huge addiction to watching youtube. I spent all of my time, laying in bed watching gaming videos like collections, pick-ups, reviews, streamings, AVGN, gaming room tours, etc: So, I've come to an idea for one day building my own gaming room and have a huge collection. I have a big list of games that I want to buy, the mini consoles that I want to collect, the posters I want to print, the stickers, the multiplayer games on steam that I want to try, a tablet specif for android games, and even a plan for a youtube channel about gaming. To be honest, I don't think this is a bad goal to shoot for. But...the problem is, I don't do anything to achieve this goal. I don't take action. I don't want to spend all my time watching gaming videos and daydreaming about a game room. This depression, procrastination, and stagnation mode are destroying my life. I'm an adult and I want to change. To overcome this addiction, I started to watch self-development videos without taking action. It didn't improve my life, because I didn't do anything with the information. I know that my biggest enemy is procrastination. I want to get rid of my phone and stop watching youtube videos, especially on my bed. I also don't want to spend my time and money on gaming. I want to set bigger goals for my life. I want to: Get a job as a digital marketer Get some freelancing gigs Start a side-business Be independent (Getting my own place) Buy more healthy food Get in shape Buy a bike Buy a car Buy a new computer (to increase my skills and to learn to code) The thing is: How can I forgive myself for my past mistakes? I want to stop being a loser, I want to combat this stagnation phase and regain control of my life. I'm starting to think that I can't compensate for these wasted years. How can I come back to normal society again, when I'm so messed up? As I said, I'm planning to get a job in the digital marketing field to get experience and then to launch my own online business and maybe some freelancing gigs. I enrolled in a digital marketing course but I'm failing. I can't focus. I want to make a 90-day challenge in which I commit to change my life: 1) - Focus only on completing successfully my course 2) - Eat Healthily 3) - Exercise at least 10 min a day 4) - Digital Detox a) No youtube b) No phone c) No browsing randomly on the internet d) No Podcasts e) No thinking about gaming But, once again the inner voice comes to action. There is so much to learn. It's so overwhelming. If I was a top student back in college and failed, why do I think that now it's worthwhile studying again? I'm self-taught but I don't know, I feel lost. Can I have a partner for accountability? I'm also willing to help others You're all awesome!