SundayMiharu

Your own calendar, agenda and day planner. Sometimes the paper stuff works.

Hmm... the last two days is quite hectic to me. Had attended a job fair in other city. ____ Miharu's log - Day 8 So. Finished the slight edge. Moving on to Dale Carnegie's work. So far, I cannot remove my dependency from game music for mood regulator. Right now, I'm busy relearning statistics stuff. Not exactly my passion, but since I've graduated from undergrad in statistics, I should follow through. Truthfully, I wanted to go freelance route (my parents nagged me to get a stable job though). Unfortunately my specialization works against this. I figure that when I have enough capital and partners, I wanted to create my own Survey and Research company. 3 things I'm grateful for: My living parents, for being alive. Libgen and those people who lend me their account for journal access, since my uni had limited access to those journal provider. Pizza hut guy, who delivered to me in the middle of rainy night in 30 minutes. What else do you guys think I should write?

Miharu's log - Day 6 Today I am facing my fear and set myself in motion. Whatever comes out after this, I can take it and deal with it. Anyone knows what to do if I fear public speaking? And increase endurance to work in front of computer. My eyes always feel tired after long hours of working in front of it. @WorkInProgress, thanks for the recommendation.

I managed to sleep 5 hours by dividing it to 2 small sleep and 1 big sleep. Have you ever done it for at least 30 days? It made me crash too at first and second week. So, Today's Journal. _________________________________________________________________________________________ Miharu's log - Day 5 Right now, I don't feel the urge to game at all. Though, I cannot separate myself from reading fiction yesterday. Also, I did PMO yesterday. I really need to learn how to increase my will power. Thank god because you've given the world sound. Thank God because you let me hear. Thank God because you let me see the world.

actually, the time I used to read fiction is far worse. If I'm not playing competitive gaming like yugioh, my option is RPG, purely from enjoying the storyline. I never had problem cheating at that kind of game, because for me, grinding is too tedious to do. So, reading fiction is one habit I cannot successfully stop, and I want to stop this. So, today's log. _________________________________________________________________ Miharu's log - day 4 Three things I am grateful for: Thank God for my eyes, for I can see with it. Thank God for my perfect pair of hands. Thank God for leg that carried me everyday. so, today morning is an improvement for me. I managed to not get into the game sites, even when I typed the site. take that, me! What I wanted to improve is: 1. forum.Spacebattles.com, forum.sufficientvelocity.com, fanfiction.net, krytykal.org, endonline.wordpress.com I want to stop reading fiction in those sites. So, the next course of action is to erase the reflex of typing those sites. and the game too. Which means I'd have to either search for another sites, or limit my use of internet. I prefer the second option to be honest. Unfortunately, I haven't had activity to replace that. Well, I wanted to learn more. Coursera is a good option for me, and I am satisfied with it. My only problem with coursera is that I have extremely restricted quota from 8 AM to 1 AM, and the video grabber add on on chrome doesn't work anymore. Any alternative for the video grabber? 2. I wanted to wake up earlier. 4 AM would be nice. 3 AM is better. RIght now, I'm working on polyphasic sleep. Unless in the future I got a job as a freelancer (which I want to, to be honest) or entrepreneur (my goal), my sleep schedule will be dictated by my boss. One personal development trainer I've attended said that meditation is good to be done at the early morning, about 3 to 5 AM. I wanted to learn to meditate, and then test this. Where if it doesn't work, the time from my shifted sleep schedule can be used for workout.

This problem of mine, I want to be more truthful, be a honest person. But oftentimes, I just returned to the old ways when I am in uncomfortable situation. So, I am a compulsive liar, and my trigger seem to be uncomfortable situation, or wanting to frame myself in better light. I want to stop this habit of mine. But so far, I haven't found any way to do it. Also, I do lie to myself. Procrastinating is also a problem, since it has been a habit for me to estimate the time needed to completion and saying it's alright, when it's really not. So, this is so wrong to me. Considering that I am a statistician, this can have so many ripple, which would endanger not only myself, but those around me. Fortunately, I don't have a job yet. Anyone can recommend me book/video/any other media that deals with this? P.S.: I'm not american. Psychiatrist is outside my capability to pay. So, I'm trying to deal with this myself.

Miharu's Log - Day 3 Dear Myself, Let's practice chapter 4. Yesterday, I had successfully prevented my urges to masturbate. Third day of noFap and I will continue this streak to 90 day. Started to read the slight edge too. Unfortunately, yesterday I had no motivation to study for language. So, Chapter 4 talks about gratitude, one of them anyway. For today, I want to give my gratitude to my parents, who had taught me since I was a child. Who wished for me to succeed. Who had given me encouragement even when I am in despair. Thank you for those in /r/NoFap, /r/StopGaming, and those in this forum, for giving me guidance for me to walk again, to not wallow in despair and self-pity, and self destructive life. And last, thank you for me in yesterday, to want to change for the better.

Hiya.

Remove the monitor. Do you do parallel computing? GPU computing? Graphic design? 3D design? Anything that can be improved with the quality of GPU? If yes, it's no good (from my POV) if you just outright get rid of it.

dear myself and everyone here, Today I fucked up. I just fucked up and cannot control my urges. How to not care anymore? I just visited /r/Yugioh and /r/deskbots again (first one), then I browsed and click on topic (second), and then I had clicked one of the link (third), read and become enraged again. I don't want to care about Yugioh again, please... @cam adair. In the period between having graduated, and getting a job.

@cam adair. I mean, when the collection of music you had in your head is game and anime music (which is why I love JRPG, they had enjoyable stories and music, compared to other genre) and when you touch your instrument, you know what kind of music made you picking up that instrument and how you had practiced countless hours for those music, the nostalgia may someday bring me back to gaming. For example, I love to zanarkand, aerith's theme and tifa's theme. They are some of the earliest score I've learned. When I wanted to regulate my emotion into serene/calmness, I just play the music to regain my balance. As to why I'm afraid, it is because it had happened to me once before. _______________________________________________________ Miharu's log - day 2 Hmm... let's see. Boredom is too scary right now. With so much time and nothing to do, I fall to the temptation of reading fiction yesterday. I wonder if I learned speed reading, I could have more time for me. What do you do in your free time? All works and no fun makes me burned out. How do you love what you do, when you're not passionate about it? P.S.: Is it possible for playstore to not show the games part?

Miharu's Log - Day 1 I really, really want to listen to music. I want to play my keyboard. Damn. How much do I have to disassociate myself to gamer?

@hycniejsy, upgrading character? not really. I try not to. By upgrading character, I stand to lose the opportunity for learning, since the damage is greater. and no point in upgrading character, since as long as you answered right within a given time, you can repeat it again and again. The kanji will change, you answer the right meaning/reading, rinse and repeat until the kanji sticks to your head. Since there is no punishment for failure, it doesn't matter if the character is dead. No high score, to be honest. The exp is literally what kanji you have successfully remembered right for five times. For me, phonetic language like japanese is easy to be said, since my language (Bahasa Indonesia) works the same. On one side, I've done JLPT N5 test. going for N4 right now. Also the knowledge translates to other app like obenkyo. On other side, this is gaming. Memrise does offer speed review for N5 to N1. But doing 100 review each time without break with three chance is too stressful to me. I'll try to break from it then. ______________________________________________________________________________________________________ Miharu's Log - Day 0 1. Need better alternative to Kanji no Owari. 2. Successfully not checking the Yugioh News site for today. 3. Unsubscribed to /r/Yugioh. Today, the counter is reset to day zero. I want to learn Digital sketching. I had a wacom cintiq in my home, and adobe photoshop and illustrator.

Day 5. I don't know if this is a relapse or escapism or not. The game/education software is kanji no owari. If this might make you relapse, don't. There's the footage I've attached, I need an opinion. Should I continue it or not? Stage corresponds to JLPT, so Stage 5 is equal to JLPT N5.

So, day 1. Today I am here. So, I have decided to quit gaming once and for all. No more gaming, no more relapse, no more escaping from my life. What do you guys think for a nice hobby? I am currently learning japanese, but that's all. I don't have a lot of words to say, unlike so many other guys here.

Greetings to fellow quitters, I am an undergrad student in his last semester, 23 years old. I'm from Indonesia (pardon my english, and correct me if I make mistakes and it doesn't inconvenience you all). I know my life is a mess right now, therefore I seek to free myself from this vice. I need to change everything. I need to change my life to get myself out of this mess. What should I say? I don't know what to say right now. Anyway, nice to meet you all, and hope that we can support each other.