hemonkey

Day 89 No games: 9 days I have been playing with fire literally and cooking with a soda can. It was fun because my furnace made out of a soda can cooked my walnuts thoroughly and luckily the soda can didn't melt. The food however I tasted was not good, it was covered with black and disgusting cracks. I also worked on time management and is doing pretty well so far.

Day 84 No games streak: 4 days 🙂 Relapse has been pretty devastating for me right now and I'm also trying my best to control my temper on a lot of daily issues. Today my computer was not acting cool and got kicked out of zoom class every few minutes. I was so angry and almost broke my keyboard but I took some deep breaths to channel it out.

NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO. I relapsed. I was celebrating Chinese New Year when I decided to take a break off my detox. I played for 2 hours today and felt bad. My wrist and hand hurt. I quickly deleted my game but I think this might just be the beginning of a more bigger relapse.

Day 78. Relapsed a little so starting over! No games: 1 Hey everyone! I have been a very busy bee the past few days working on time management and studying for my math test(mostly studying how to sleep well before the test). I got a 99% on the test which I do not know how(there are only 25 questions). I drank half coffee and half milk for breakfast helping me stay alert and the past night took melatonin and did an exercise. I also took about an hour or so each day to practice piano for the exam coming in April. I took still life drawing classes yesterday to improve my technique. Overall, this has been a busy week and I will plan more exciting tasks in the future!

Day 75, No games:17 I never blocked my gamer friend after last time he threatened to kill me. He decided to message me again and I found out he is jealous of my intelligence. I think it is because I keep sharing my stories about life and maybe somehow I have offended him. I decided to distance myself from this madman and abandon this angry teen for good.

Day 74 No games score: 16 I don't even keep track of my detox because time flies by so fast and I rarely care about gaming anymore. I have a test this week so I hope I can sleep well unlike last time. Even if I don't sleep well I hope I can remember to drink coffee. Before tests I don't really study but I don't get bad scores(bad scores are below 95). I also plan to take my classes outside to protect my eyes.

Day 71 No games in a row: 13 No game streaming: a month or so now I took drawing classes yesterday. Learned about shading and drawing still life. Still not very familiar with the new techniques I am learning because I used to draw with less shading. Also I practiced piano because I am preparing for a piano exam in April. I am trying to manage my time now but it is still challenging.

Day 68 Hey guys... I relapsed. That's why I am back on day 10 of my record. This was painful for me but I got to move on. Some achievements: made clothing for my monkey toy, reading(tried to read and somehow did it).

Day 63 About 5 days ago my detox score reset due to me playing for an hour of Minecraft. Days without games: 5. My stocks are growing but some bad luck these days. All of my stocks except for NIO and MRNA have negative returns. One of them is 1000 dollars lower than my initial price. Hope some good luck comes!

Day 62. I have decided, my gamer friend is an asshole and I am leaving him for good. He is only cares about his game and has no empathy. Bad influence on me, I am leaving him for now. One thing I did today was continue my film and start constructing a cardboard house. The trigonometry is bugging me though, I just figured out my calculation for the roof was a little off and now I have to redo the whole roof. 😞

Day... 61! A memorable day for it marks my 2 month journey into my detox. Sleep deprived today, I think because of a growth spurt but that's alright. I flunked my test because I didn't drink coffee before to combat my sleep deprivation.

Day 59. You probably read yesterdays journal entry. I was on the edge of no return, the moment when I will relapse and 60 days will go down the drain. It was a dark and rainy night. Shadows crept toward my computer as I remained quietly on my chair. The cold atmosphere chilled my spine as my frosty hand stroked the top of my mouse. The cursor starts to move. I can feel the temptation, the anxiety that has troubled me for 50 full days. The steady ambience of raindrops struck the ground outside. It was cool and peaceful outside but something sinister was stirring in the depths, behind the windows. I clicked on my installer, the installer that I never removed. It felt like it was beckoning me to cordially welcome it in to my fragile mind. Minutes passed as the game installed itself. I could hear my heart beating. Thump. Thump. Thump. This was a mistake, I knew this was going to happen but it was preventable. If I had used my intelligence to judge my choices, I would have prohibited my foolish actions. Uncontrollable dopamine surged through my body as the game flashed on my face. It was addictive, and deadly. I had to do something. Minutes turned into an hour as I sat there, possessed by my own subconscious. "I need to stop this chaos," I thought to myself. My mouse clicked the red "X" on the top of my running application. The game was over, but this was just the beginning of something more dreadful.

Day 58. I can't take it anymore. I have too many urges. AHHH. So many cravings. Too many cravings. I can't take it any longer. Day 58 is a great achievement but I am on the verge of collapse. I feel like a mountain balanced on an invincible chopstick, ready to topple over any second now. A lot of difficulties these days. One reason might be that my classmates and friends are acting like temptations to me right now. I just want to play for 20 minutes, but no. That would end my journey but start my suffering. I just can't help it, I need help.

Hi Ale! Welcome to gamequitters community! Studying becoming a boredom has been a long-time problem for me so I would recommend every 20 minutes take a small break and every 60 minutes (3x20mins) switch to a new activity. Quitting Youtube and gaming has helped me achieve my goals in studying and etc. and I hope it might benefit you too as not everyone functions the same way. Although Youtube and gaming has distracted me entirely, I still watch Youtube in moderation when I am done with work and sometimes play small games with my friends with I have the time. Good luck! monkey

Day 56. Doing great so far. I completed all my school assignments but that one group mate pissed me off. Last night we were working on a project and she told me she cannot do the project because she did not listen in class and has other homework to do. Welp, I will hope for the best of my project then. Hope it gets an A.

Day 55! today can be divided by 11 and 5. ~61% through, I have a D- on my detox so far. Just watched the inauguration and wish the new presidential cabinet good luck. Doing great so far. Haven't watched a single gaming video for a month. Not very productive, bad time management.

53rd day of my detox to enlightenment. Today I completed a lot of homework and feel ok. The homework was not really that exciting, it was just writing my fictional narrative(I rewrote it so many times due to dissatisfaction) and math problems. My friends who are still gamers were grinding away on their auto-clickers like usual. I also made another lego video:

Day 52. Today I started yet a new addiction: brick addiction. If you play with Legos then you know what it is. I would build tons of Legos and disassemble old ones and repeat the process over and over again until I get tired and go to sleep. I just don't know if brick addiction can become a thing and if it does I will have to do 90 days without Legos. One thing I am thankful for this week is Martin Luther King day because no school on Monday! Monday will be a relaxing and learning on my own day without pressure or anything that gives me cortisol rushes(I get stressed often).

DAY 50! YES! This has been my farthest detox! So today I have something to say about toxic classmates. I used to be friends with this gamer and we had fun playing games. However, the tides came crashing down at me when I told him he is bad at gaming. He started to insult me and my mom (I do not know why there was no correlation) and blocked me on google hangouts. Just yesterday, he unblocked me and started spamming at me with mean messages. He was more of an asshole than ever before. I blocked him right away and never talked to him since. Today however, something interesting happened. The hater told one of my friends to spam hate messages at me like the f word and some other vulgar statements. I am disgusted by those behaviors and kicked my friend out of the chat group to prevent any more spamming. That is my story for today.

Dang it! Yesterday I made $3100 and my stocks all lowered and now my returns dropped down to $2300. If you didn't know I play an investing game and I am doing good at it. This is my second time investing and I am doing way better than last time when I only made $86. This has been my 48th day and I am doing great! Yesterday my mom made Har Gow which are steamed shrimp dumplings which are really good.

I suggest taking melatonin pills before bed at around maybe 10 o'clock so you can go to sleep. I usually try that when I stay awake in bed and also, try to stay awake during the day by doing high-intensive exercises between classes or maybe just ten push-ups per hour. Another alternative to sleeping well in the night is drinking coffee before noon.

Day 47. I slept well today with a pill of melatonin before bed yesterday night. I did not write in my personal journal because I was focusing on going to bed before 10 p.m. Stocks market game: I made $1762 today and I don't regret buying 200 shares of MRNA. One thing I am thankful for is 8 days until Donald Dump goes away.

I get addicted to other things like Lego or digging in my yard or whatever that's available for me. Usually when I am done with my homework I play Legos and make short films with them. I also sometimes invest my virtual money into stocks in my virtual stocks game because I don't have real money and I'm still in school. I also like to draw and play piano when I have the time to and also exercise like running or HIIT.

Day 46 Day 45 marked my half-way point yesterday so I played with Legos the whole day to show that I can replace gaming with other types of entertainment. Yesterday night however, was a long and sleepless night. I lay awake in bed for 2 hours and woke up early. Today I feel more sleepy but I don't have time to sleep. Edit: I drank some coffee mixed with milk because I like milk with coffee and feel much better. I made some growth in my investing game by making $1700! I thought buying like 200 something shares of MRNA was a bad idea but it was OK. I made an analysis of MRNA and found its standard deviation was kind of high so I need to keep an eye on it.

Day 44 I was working in my garden today when I pricked my whole arm and hand with rose thorns. AHH! It hurts! I was actually trying to see what was underneath the plant pot when my arm got stuck on one of the branches. The thorns pierced me with viciousness and hooked onto my arm painfully! Luckily, I pulled them off but my arm hurts now and my hand hurts from touching the rose bush to save my arm.