Stanly Kwok

1 September 2020 (Day 31): No playing video games, no watching professional e-sports games.

Hmm, I can't really say anything for now. All I know is that I'm getting a bit confused and stressed over my work and watching professional e-sports games kind of helps ease them. I still don't have any intention to play the game though.

31 August 2020 (Day 30): Missed 1 day of journaling 😞. Probably because I don't really know what to write or express my thoughts at the current moment. Maybe I know, but just waiting until it gets to a certain point, then I will express it as a whole. Don't know, but not really wanting to share anything at the moment. No playing video games, no watching professional e-sports games.

Hey, I'm good :). I've tried many things, just that I enjoy watching professional e-sports games. I haven't played games though.

29 August 2020 (Day 28): No playing video games, just watching some professional e-sports games.

28 August 2020 (Day 27): No playing video games, just watching some professional e-sports games.

27 August 2020 (Day 26): No playing video games, just watching some professional e-sports games.

26 August 2020 (Day 25): Damn it, last couple of weeks have been hard. Been slacking a lot with my work, not focusing and not concentrating enough. Time to get my focus on my work and get these things done. No playing video games, no watching professional e-sports games.

Thanks for your opinion 😄

E-sports is one of the fastest growing sports, by its number of fans and audience in attendance during its tournaments. Not that e-sports is beating any other sports by its total fans numbers by now, but the rate of it growing is high.

25 August 2020 (Day 24): No playing video games, no watching professional e-sports games.

Good reply. Thank you for that.

Thank you for your opinion. This is not an easy topic to discuss. I have a lot of thoughts on this, but I can't put them together into words yet. I will be back once I have settled my thoughts on this. Thank you again for your opinion 😄

24 August 2020 (Day 23): Everything is going great. I am more motivated to be a full-stack developer now. No playing video games. Watched a couple of professional e-sports games yesterday.

I want to watch professional e-sports games for enjoyment and fun, but I don't want to go back to playing games. Anyone ever done this before?

23 August 2020 (Day 22): Everything is going great. I want to do research and investigation about video games addiction, also about professional e-sports players who practice 12-14 hours a day for at least 6 days a week. No playing video games and no watching professional e-sports games.

As a former video games addict myself, who used to play 6 - 12 hours a day on holidays and weekends, this post is not meant to encourage people to play more, rather I am asking for your opinions and encourage everyone to look for other things to do than playing video games. E-sports is one of the fastest growing "sports" in the world. More people are getting addicted to video games and wanting to be professional e-sports players. I would like to know your thoughts, e.g. can this be a good thing? If not, how do we stop this? Considering top e-sports players make millions of dollars each year. Thank you!

As a former video games addict myself, who used to play 6 - 12 hours a day on holidays and weekends, this post is not meant to encourage people to play more, rather I am asking for your opinions and encourage everyone to look for other things to do than playing video games. E-sports is one of the fastest growing "sports" in the world. More people are getting addicted to video games and wanting to be professional e-sports players. I would like to know your thoughts, e.g. can this be a good thing? If not, how do we stop this? Considering top e-sports players make millions of dollars each year. Thank you!

22 August 2020 (Day 21): Rest day. No playing video games and no watching professional e-sports games.

21 August 2020 (Day 20): Working super hard. No playing video games and no watching professional e-sports games.

20 August 2020 (Day 19): Working hard to be a professional full-stack developer. Learning API, XML Http Requests, these are freaking hard but I'm getting it. No playing video games and no watching professional e-sports games.

19 August 2020 (Day 18): Just realized how powerful journaling is. 10 days ago I did not feel this way at all, and by reading what I wrote 10 days ago, I can get a feel of how things have changed in just 10 days (my thoughts, feelings, etc). This is something completely new to me. I am more motivated than ever to become a professional full-stack developer. Studying and learning harder and more effectively than ever. I am confident I am going to get this done. No playing video games and no watching professional e-sports games.

18 August 2020 (Day 17): Not feeling like writing my thoughts and feelings today. No playing video games and no watching professional e-sports games.

17 August 2020 (Day 16): Getting much better. Working my best to get out of my house, get a job and finally rent an apartment myself. I feel that I can work, think, do things much clearer without my parents around. They are just noises that just created more problems than there were in the first place. Working my best to be a professional full-stack developer 😄 No playing video games and no watching professional e-sports games.

16 August 2020 (Day 15): Okay, I'm finally ready to write out my thoughts and feelings. Last couple of days have been pretty overwhelming, yet it's a good thing, because I exposed my parents' true faces. As I have been aware my whole life, everyone (at least almost everyone) wears masks. People hide their true feelings, thoughts and so on. I can't really talk further about this, but I think everyone understands and can relate to this. Well, this is especially true for my parents. Ever since I've known them, I have never felt any kind of leadership attributes from them. Somehow, they are like children mind, with adult bodies. Instead of working our way to solve problems, they blame me, or they blame my brother. It has always been a blaming game, and never really about solving problems. I'm still trying to get my thoughts around this, but yeah, they have never been a leader to me. It sucks and disappointing, but it is what it is. I guess I have to be the leader for myself, instead of looking up to my parents as my leaders. As for video games, no playing video games and no watching professional e-sports games.