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@StawroginHey, thanks for replying! I do use a calendar for important and/or recurring activities like classes and appointments. By "taking things as they come" I meant that I didn't really have a plan/goal to strive towards, but just did what was necessary to get by and not fall too far behind. Day 11 Had a math exam earlier this week which I thought went pretty well but the result was apparently mediocre. I'm still satisfied with the outcome though considering the difficulty of the subject. Other than studying, I've been playing piano, reading The Lord of the Rings, spending time with my family, watching Netflix, working, and exercising. Goals for next week: Wake up at 8am or earlier every day. Buy a personal/social development course. Finish math assignment that's due in two weeks from now.

Day 4 Going fairly well so far. Been watching movies, studying, reading, watching f1, walking, working out, talking to friends, playing piano. Just kind of taking things as they come at the moment, which is probably not the best strategy but it's alright for now.

Day 0 Relapsed, so starting again. No excuses, no moderation. Goal is 90 days.

Day 16 Worked out, studied, worked, made dinner, studied some more and talked to friends. Feeling pretty tired.

Day 15 Worked out, studied, procrastinated a bit and had a meeting with some friends. Woke up early today, so that was pretty sweet. Pretty tired now, but still have some videos to watch before tomorrow because I didn't really manage my time well today. Planning on making ramen for dinner tomorrow which I've never done before, so I'm looking forward to that. Anyway, I better watch those videos and head to bed before I turn into a zoombie.

@Jason70Exactly! Just sitting there and being silent is no fun at all. Good luck on your goal! Day 14 Worked out, studied, chilled for a bit and also ordered some stuff online. Today's group session went much better than yesterday. I was much more engaged and contributed quite a lot. We were only three people today (compared to five yesterday) which also made it a bit easier. Unfortunately I didn't wake up on time. Watched a couple of videos about waking up early, and I think my problem was not having a clear reason for waking up earlier than I need to. So here are some of my thoughts and reasons for waking up earlier: I want to have more time in the day. I want to be done with study and work by 5pm and have more time in the evenings to chill and do stuff i enjoy. I am more productive in the morning. I want to do my daily work out in the morning. Also hit 14 days, so yay! Definitely starting to spend my time better and slowly build solid habits.

Day 13 Woke up a bit late but still did my daily workout. Worked for a bit, then did some group study. Also, got an idea of how to challenge myself: Be more active during group work. Lately I've been finding myself leaning a bit back during group work sessions and only give input when I have to instead of coming up with ideas and solutions. This is really a bad and lazy habit to develop and only contributes to dragging the group down, so I'm going to try to change that and be more (pro)active during the next session. Sleep goal for the rest of this week: In bed before midnight and wake up at 8am.

Day 12 Chilled out for most of the day which was nice. Did some studying and talked to friends and family. Also made dinner. Positives this week: Exercised daily. Followed my study plan (though I've still got a bit of catching up to do). Kept in touch with friends almost daily. Didn't spend time on games. Negatives: My sleep schedule was all over the place. Lacked motivation from time to time. Didn't really feel challenged at all. For next week I want to continue my daily workouts. Also really need to get back to a consistent sleep schedule so I don't feel mentally fatigued throughout the day.

Day 11 Some nights I like to sit in my room in total darkness. Looking out my window at the silhouettes of the trees blowing in the wind, the city lights in the distance. Quiet lofi playing in the background giving me a sense of calm and safety. Like I'm in an entirely different world where nothing is wrong. Just for one moment, everything is as it should be.

Day 10 Today was alright. Glad weekend is finally here.

Day 9 Exercised, studied, worked, rearranged some stuff in my room, went for a walk. Pretty boring day honestly.

Day 8 Things didn't really go as planned today. Woke up late because I for reason thought it was a good idea to experiment using the snooze button. Also spent a lot of time surfing the interwebs, watching videos, and achieving nothing instead of studying. Did manage to complete my exercise though and finished cleaning my room. Also spent some time with the fam. What can I do in the future to prevent wasting half a day surfing around? Probably a few things: Break tasks into smaller chunks to not get overwhelmed. Pomodoro. Take (healthy) breaks when necessary. Rather a bit too many than too few. E.g.: Go for a walk, read a bit, play piano, eat a snack, or just do nothing. Also, don't snooze in the morning. It's never a good idea.

Day 7 Worked out, studied, talked to friends and had a good laugh, worked a little bit, went for a walk, made dinner and started cleaning my room. Probably my best day since I started a week ago. Managed to get around 8 hours in bed, which means the plan from yesterday succeeded. Woke up at 8am, not because I had to but because I wanted to, which felt great. It's been a looong time since I last did that. Also got a short morning workout done. I'm trying to slowly re-build a solid morning routine, because the day just gets better if you start off on the right foot. The only urges I got today were urges to start producing music again. I haven't touched a DAW for over a year at this point, so I kind of want to get back into that at some point. Going to keep focusing on sleep and exercise for now though.

Day 6 Worked, studied, talked to some friends, went for a walk, and cleaned up some stuff. Also made a (hopefully) idiot-proof plan for how I'm going to make sure to go to bed on time. Overall pretty satisfied with today. Fewer urges and felt like I had more energy and motivation today. Tomorrow I'll try to get a small workout session going in the morning.

Day 5 Pretty busy day. Few urges, but managed to brush them aside pretty quickly. Played some piano, finished an assignment and spent some time with the family.

Day 4 Wow. Really had the worst start to the day possible. Woke up with a painful headache, not really sure why. Got stressed due to all the stuff I had to do. Went for a walk which helped momentarily, but right when I returned home, everything came right back. Couldn't get any stuff done due to my headache and lack of energy. So instead I just lay in my bed and fell asleep for an hour and a half around noon. Luckily that helped a bit. As the day went on, I started feeling better and actually managed to get some stuff done. I feel sorry for my family for having to cope with me today, but I guess some days are just like that. In the coming weeks I want to return to a normal, consistent sleep schedule and be more physically active. I can really feel the lack of physical activity is making me feel like shit and makes me unable to focus for longer periods of time. Also want to improve on a lot of other stuff, but don't want to put too much pressure on myself.

Day 3 Not really feeling motivated currently - feeling a bit sluggish. Some urges today, mostly because I was bored for some time. Got a lot of stuff tomorrow, so hopefully I'll get a good night's sleep so I can have enough energy.

Day 2 Had a weird day. Didn't get enough sleep last night, so I took a nap around noon for an hour and a half which freshened me up a bit. Still far from ideal, so I need to get better with keeping my sleep schedule consistent. Other than that, I studied for a good amount of time and got a haircut by my sister, who actually did a pretty good job despite it taking a couple of hours total. I have this weird feeling now at the end of the day that I could have accomplished more today, although I've been busy the whole time. Sometimes it just feels like there isn't enough hours in the day. Didn't have any strong urges today, though thoughts keep popping into my head trying to tell me it wouldn't be the end of the world if I just saw one gaming video or took one short look at some e-sports website. I need to actively remind myself to be firm in my decision.

Day 1 Good day today. Had a lot of stuff to do and had no real urges throughout the day.

Day 0 Starting again. Time to regain focus and get back on the right track.

Sunday, 4 October 2020 - Day 129... apparently Hey, just wanted to bring a super short update. First of all, I didn't quit writing here because I relapsed or something like that. I stopped writing because (1) I was simply busy doing other things and because (2) I didn't feel like it really was necessary. Since my last post I've been doing great. Started university about a month ago and it's going pretty well so far, both socially and generally. I definitely feel a lot better overall compared to 130 days ago and feel like I am on the right path. There are certainly still a lot of things to work on for me personally, but wow, I'm glad I took this decision 130 days ago. Well, I don't really know what else to write here. Just wanted to update this. Maybe I'll update this post once in a while, but most likely not. Just want to say a quick thanks to this community for... well.. existing and helping me realise some things matter more than others. So, bye for now. See you around.

Tuesday, 30 June 2020 - Day 33 What I did today 09:30 Woke up Went to the gym Applied for university Worked Went shopping for some clothes 21:30 Current time Thoughts Had a great day today. For the next week or so I'll try to focus on getting consistent sleep - go to bed before midnight and wake up at 8. Something I learned today Well... I learned that finding clothes that fit is not the easiest thing in the world when you're a small, skinny-ish guy. Habits Wake up at 08:00 - Nope Watched a movie last night so went to bed a bit late Make the bed - Check Work out - Check Meditate - Check Walk the dog - Check Write journal - Check No electronics after 22:00 - Will do Until next time

Sunday, 28 June 2020 - Day 31 What I did today All day: Prepared and held a party for my sis 21:30 Current time Thoughts I had pretty much no free time this weekend, and it's a great feeling to be done with all the activities and preparation and just being able to relax now. I want to go back to writing my daily tasks in a notebook... it has worked great for me in the past and I don't really remember why i quit. Actually drawing a checkmark with a pencil is just something else than just pressing a button in a program, so I'll try to go back to that tomorrow. Something I learned today I learned about colour spaces and conversion between them. On this topic, this video is very interesting. Habits Wake up at 08:00 - Yes.. actually woke up at 6:40 because I had stuff to do. It's crazy how little effort it is to get up in the morning when you have to do something. Make the bed - Check Work out - Day off Meditate - Check Walk the dog - Will do right after eating something Write journal - Check No electronics after 22:00 - Yes Tomorrow I'll Get up at 07:00 Woke up earlier than this for the past two days so *shouldn't* be too much to ask Make a list of things I need to do and pick some of them out to do right away Produce music Work Peace

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Friday, 26 June 2020 - Day 29 What I did today 10:00 Woke up, morning routine 11:00 Mindlessly browsed reddit on my phone 12:00 Work 14:30 Lunch 15:00 Miscellaneous tasks and preparation for a party this weekend 18:30 Piano practice 20:00 Dinner 20:30 More prep 21:55 Current time Thoughts This morning I made a list of tasks that I wanted to do today, and them split them up into must-do and nice-to-do tasks. I managed to get all must-do tasks done, and also did all but one nice-to-do task, which feels nice, but I'm quite exhausted right now. Tomorrow I will not be home all day, and I might not even have time to write my journal that night. But today was alright despite my laziness snoozing until 10:00 and actually starting my day at around noon. Something I learned today I learned a bit about midnight sun, which is basically when the sun stays up 24 hours a day. In some places in northern Norway the sun doesn't set for over two months during the summertime. It's quite funny if you google "alta norway sunset", you can see the sun doesn't set for another month in that area. Habits Wake up at 08:00 - Nope Make the bed - Check Work out - Check Meditate - Check Walk the dog - Will right after Write journal - Check No electronics after 22:00 - Close enough Tomorrow I'll Be away all day so not much to write here See ya