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  1. Congrats on the streaks! Not popping pimples is a hard one for me - when I realize I'm doing it's too late!
  2. Objectives for the day - Send the final project to print - Buy hair cream - Buy a knee brace Gratitude journal - I'm grateful for waking up healthy and cheerful for a new day - I'm grateful for my parents that gave me the opportunity to educate myself - I'm grateful for the good food I have at my disposal to nourish myself - I'm grateful for the water I'm drinking in these hot days - I'm grateful for a new day and a new chance to do better
  3. Day 15 I'm really happy with how the day went by! Although I didn't accomplish one objective for the day, the other ones went really well and I will probably graduate next week. Made it to the gym today to do some upper body workout, but I think tomorrow I won't be able to work legs yet, gotta be careful with the knee. The cut on the tip of my ring finger still hurts, but I'm trying to keep picking up the guitar everyday, even if the practice is not ideal. The day was pretty busy between solving stuff and work, so I don't have nothing really interesting to report. Current Streaks No games - 201 days No Porn/Masturbation - 40 days Things that I should do every now and then Body grooming - Last done 06/12/2019 Hair Care - Last done 28/12/2019 Clip nails - Last done 05/01/2020 Deep organize room - ? - Gonna separate an hour in the day when the boredom hit to organize a drawer or any other thing. Step by step. 30 days challenge Diet - 4/30 Cold showers - 7/30 Practice guitar - 6/30 One amazing thing that happened/I did today Solved everything I needed to graduate! Feels like reaching a new stage in my life. Exercise Gym. Social Running my errands I talked with a lot of people. My conversations for many times are really shallow and I'm really complacent on that. I will try to have more interesting conversations everyday with strangers or people that I know. This conversations could be simply talking about the weather, praise something someone is wearing, a tattoo, a dog, asking something about the person, whatever. I gotta get used to have genuine interest in other persons. And to tell the truth, I am interested. I'm just REALLY complacent in this aspect. Morning Routine First 60 minutes with no Cellphone - Done. Day planning - Done Physiotherapy - Done Skin care routine - Done Brush teeth and floss - Done Make my bed - Done Maybe I'm gonna integrate some meditation in the morning, but I don't wanna get overwhelmed with new habits in the beginning. Evening Routine Skin care routine - Done. Physiotherapy - Done. Brush teeth and floss - I'm gonna do it right after finishing writing this! Journaling - Done Daily Habits Tracker Staying out of the room - Stayed out all day. Reading Did some reading in the bus. Going to read a little more before sleeping. I gotta rescue the habit of reading at home! Weekly Goal(s) Search another music school Search a place to take acting lessons Find a dentist and schedule it Cook meals for the week - Next day: 12/01/19 Monthly Goal Present the final project and graduate (Got a day, 19/12!) - DONE (missing graduation) Start the programming course. 3 Month Goal Get back to running. The physiotherapy is really important, SET GOALS! What went well today: Solving the graduation problems and working out. What I could have done to make my day better: I forgot my meals at home! Gotta be more mindful about this next time! What I will do differently tomorrow: Wake up at 6 am (woke up today at 7, ideal time is 6). Also, I'm gonna start writing down every morning things I'm grateful for.
  4. Thanks! On the other side, it's easier for me to get lost in all this stuff, but I keep trying!
  5. Objectives for the day - Write the justification letter and deliver it - Ask for another copy of the master's document - Print documents to require urgency - Send the final project to print - Postponed (Forgot the signature pages at home, gotta do it tomorrow!)
  6. Day 14 Today was a pretty nice day. Hot as hell - the last days were pretty suffocating. I woke up later than I wanted to, but over this week I'm gonna be back to waking up early again, just gotta fix my sleeping schedule. I think writing down my objectives for the day worked. I have a really bad memory and doing this in the morning is going to help me remember what things I have to do throughout the day. More than that, I accomplished all of them, yay! Called the music school and unfortunately the prices are a little bit out of my budget right now (actually, they are a REALLY out of my budget). I'm gonna try to find other music schools, but only to get singing lessons. I will keep studying the acoustic guitar by myself since I'm pretty motivated right now. I really have to search for a place to get acting lessons too, but that's something I'm avoiding since it's way out of my comfort zone. Couldn't make it to the gym because I'm feeling my knee a little bit sore. Don't know what happened - it's the kind of soreness that comes out of nowhere - But since I was supposed to work my legs today I decided not to go. Hopefully tomorrow I'm going to wake up with no pain at all. Got a silly cut in the tip of my ring finger, so my guitar practice was a little off today. Probably today it's gonna be okay, but right now I'm avoiding even writing with it. Current Streaks No games - 200 days No Porn/Masturbation - 39 days Things that I should do every now and then Body grooming - Last done 06/12/2019 Hair Care - Last done 28/12/2019 Clip nails - Last done 23/12/2019 Deep organize room - ? - Gonna separate an hour in the day when the boredom hit to organize a drawer or any other thing. Step by step. 30 days challenge Thinking about a diet - 3/30 Cold showers - 6/30 Practice guitar - 5/30 One amazing thing that happened/I did today Accomplished all of my objectives for the day!! Exercise Nooo. Knee problem. Social Had some nice interactions today! My conversations for many times are really shallow and I'm really complacent on that. I will try to have more interesting conversations everyday with strangers or people that I know. This conversations could be simply talking about the weather, praise something someone is wearing, a tattoo, a dog, asking something about the person, whatever. I gotta get used to have genuine interest in other persons. And to tell the truth, I am interested. I'm just REALLY complacent in this aspect. Interesting conversations daily count - 3 Morning Routine First 60 minutes with no Cellphone - Done. Day planning - ? Physiotherapy - Done Skin care routine - Done Brush teeth and floss - Done Make my bed - Done Maybe I'm gonna integrate some meditation in the morning, but I don't wanna get overwhelmed with new habits in the beginning. Evening Routine Skin care routine - Done. Physiotherapy - Done. Brush teeth and floss - Done Journaling - Daily Habits Tracker Staying out of the room - Stayed out all day. Reading Did some reading in the bus. Going to read a little more before sleeping. Weekly Goal(s) Search another music school Search a place to take acting lessons Find a dentist and schedule it Cook meals for the week (Important! You are spending too much money eating!) - Next day: 12/01/19 Monthly Goal Present the final project and graduate (Got a day, 19/12!) - DONE (missing graduation) Start the programming course. 3 Month Goal Get back to running. The physiotherapy is really important, SET GOALS! What went well today: Setting the objectives in the morning. What I could have done to make my day better: Could have woken up earlier. What I will do differently tomorrow: Wake up earlier.
  7. Objectives for the day - Deliver the documents to graduate - Buy dental floss and some sweet potatoes - Call the music school
  8. One question, have you already got to know what a computer scientist does in a regular job? I can tell from my personal experience in electrical engineering that, although the math is important during the course, the math presence in your life depends a lot on what you are gonna be working with. I believe in computer science you would have a much bigger possibility to never go the back to the math anymore after graduating. One thing that is interesting about the computer science market, at least in my country, is that many job offerings don't require a formal education (college degree). Since it's something that you learn almost entirely online, many companies doesn't care about the formal degree, they just hire someone that can do the job. I don't know if you have some experience in it already, but you can try to find a part-time job or a random project to see a little more about the computer science market itself. It always helps to have a different perspective from the college.
  9. To be honest, I think I wouldn't be capable of going past 2 week if I didn't have a girlfriend. A "hard" NoFap for me is something from another world, but you can do it. Personally, things that helped were minimizing my social media usage and blocking all kinds of pornography in my phone and computer browsers. But stressful days are always hard. I'm gonna try doing shorter entries, thanks for the input!
  10. Day 13 Sooo, got lost in life again, what the fork. I would love to say that it was because of the holidays, but I think that's an excuse. I was actually reeeallyyyy lazy to journal. Maybe I need an easier structure to journal, or maybe I can do short posts when I'm on a rush. But it would be pretty good if I started to plan my day in the morning. I'm gonna try it tomorrow: insert right here plans for the day by the morning and journal by the night. Since a lot of days passed, things got pretty blurry in my mind, but now I'm back to the routine. I started a diet yesterday and I'm back to the gym, hoping to be going there like 5 times a week. I would love to keep the diet for like 30 days while going to the gym regularly and see what it happens. I'm still practicing the guitar "everyday" but the practice is not really good. I gotta progress a little more, even if the past lessons aren't perfect, otherwise I'm going to lose interest as always. Today I'm gonna try to learn some new stuff. In general, I'm doing pretty well on maintaining my daily habits, but it's much easier to track then journaling, so let's get back on track! Current Streaks No games - 199 days No Porn/Masturbation - 38 days Things that I should do every now and then Body grooming - Last done 06/12/2019 Hair Care - Last done 28/12/2019 Clip nails - Last done 23/12/2019 Deep organize room - ? - Gonna separate an hour in the day when the boredom hit to organize a drawer or any other thing. Step by step. 30 days challenge Thinking about a diet - 2/30 Cold showers - 5/30 Practice guitar - 4/30 One amazing thing that happened/I did today I got back to the gym! Excited to be back and I'm gonna try to keep going. Exercise Went to the gym! Social Only short conversations with persons in the gym. My conversations for many times are really shallow and I'm really complacent on that. I will try to have more interesting conversations everyday with strangers or people that I know. This conversations could be simply talking about the weather, praise something someone is wearing, a tattoo, a dog, asking something about the person, whatever. I gotta get used to have genuine interest in other persons. And to tell the truth, I am interested. I'm just REALLY complacent in this aspect. Interesting conversations daily count - 1 Morning Routine First 60 minutes with no Cellphone - Done. Day planning - ? Physiotherapy - Done Skin care routine - Done Brush teeth and floss - done, but gotta buy some dental floss! Make my bed - Done Maybe I'm gonna integrate some meditation in the morning, but I don't wanna get overwhelmed with new habits in the beginning. Evening Routine Skin care routine - Done. Physiotherapy - Done. Brush teeth and floss - Brushed. BUY SOME FLOSS!! Journaling - Daily Habits Tracker Staying out of the room - Stayed out all day. Reading Did some reading in the bus. Going to read a little more before sleeping. Weekly Goal(s) Get in contact with the music school I searched and find out plans/prices for singing lessons. Maybe guitar too - Get in contact again. Find a dentist and schedule it Cook meals for the week (Important! You are spending too much money eating!) - Next day: 12/01/19 BUY THE FREAKING FLOSS - I'm going out tonight and I'm gonna buy it. Holy crap, how the hell I postponed that so much. Monthly Goal Present the final project and graduate (Got a day, 19/12!) - DONE (missing graduation) Start the programming course. 3 Month Goal Get back to running. The physiotherapy is really important, SET GOALS! What went well today: Going to the gym felt pretty great. What I could have done to make my day better: It was a good day, nothing to be ashamed of! What I will do differently tomorrow: Gonna plan my day in the morning.
  11. From my experience with procrastination, I usually put off things that I believe I am bad at. The most extreme case: I procrastinated my graduation from college almost 1 year because I have a strong belief that I suck in public presentations (I had to present a final project in order to get the degree). And what's more interesting is that I usually procrastinate by engaging myself in activities that are not exactly easier, but are "less stressful". For example, I began my masters degree before actually graduating from my bachelor's degree, so I would procrastinate from my final project by studying to my master's. And then I would procrastinate from my master's by doing chores. And from chores by watching Netflix or browsing the internet, and so on. Today, my strategy to get myself to study is to set the environment for it. I separate my books and set them in the table, and this is usually the kickstart I need to begin studying. At the same time, this strategy always needs some extra willpower when the subject is not something I personally enjoy, so I wonder what I could do to make it even better. Regarding public presentations, it's a problem that goes way back in my life, and procrastination comes naturally when it comes to this subject. I'm gonna tackle it this year by taking acting and/or singing lessons and maybe I'm gonna go back to teaching too (it was really helpful in the past). But at the same time I think that since it's a deeper problem I would benefit a lot from therapy, which is something I've been avoiding for a long time.
  12. Day 12 - 27/12/19 and 28/12/19 I gotta establish an hour to write the journal. I gotta establish an hour to write the journal. I gotta establish an hour to write the journal. I will try to journal always in the morning. Doing this way I can plan my day and keep track of everything I gotta do. But the problem is that my morning is usually pretty busy, adding this to the morning routine maybe would require for me to wake up earlier. Maybe I can make the entries shorter, reduce the useless stuff. But I need to fix my sleeping pattern too. As I suspected, the holidays are making me feel bored. I tried to avoid Netflix and phone these days, but in the end it was almost impossible not to watch something or not to do random browsing on the cellphone. What is interesting for me is that this boredom moments are moments of clarity... what I noticed is that it's SOOO EASY to simply play a game for hours and hours and see the time fly by (or actually don't see). In the blink of an eye day turns night. Night becomes day. And all that time is lost in an activity that doesn't bring any value to myself. Netflix is the same thing. Sometimes I think: "I gotta kill 2 hours of my day". And then I proceed to watch something for two hours and the problem is solved. I refuse to give in to that. When I started this journey, what I had in my head was that I already spent so much time playing games, and I don't wanna live my life doing just one thing over and over again. That's a waste of life. More than that, it's an escape from the real world. Today I have the feeling that I progressed so much in my life, but gaming were shackles that I still carried for years. Not anymore. No Netflix too. Actually, as I'm writing this, I decided to log-out from the account and I'm gonna try not to use it. I'm failing in something that I proposed for me in the beginning: I'm spending too much time in my room again. Gonna try to fix that, tracking this as a habit. About the two days, although I'm pretty unsatisfied with my boredom, I'm actually having a little success in inserting a new habit. Guitar practice is going strong, and I practiced for at least two hours today. The other thing I gotta start is the programming course. Maybe tomorrow is a good day to begin it. The thing is: if I'm bored at home, that's my fault. I should not fill the free time with meaningless "time fillers". Playing the guitar is getting more pleasant, but it's not in the level where I could spend hours doing that, since I don't do real music yet. I gotta plan my day better, set activities to do to keep myself busy. But at the same time this is so hard... maybe spending time in gaming was so easy just because it was a habit. I gotta think about it, but the immediate response to that is: play the guitar and read. I gotta get back to reading at home, let's work on that for now. Current Streaks No games - 190 days No Porn/Masturbation - 29 days Things that I should do every now and then Body grooming - Last done 06/12/2019 Hair Care - Last done 28/12/2019 Clip nails - Last done 23/12/2019 Deep organize room - ? - Gonna separate an hour in the day when the boredom hit to organize a drawer or any other thing. Step by step. 30 days challenge Thinking about a diet - Gonna do it during January Cold showers - 5/30 Practice guitar - 4/30 One amazing thing that happened/I did today Guitar practice! I'm feeling good about it, maybe in a month I will be enjoying the music I produce. Exercise Gotta get back to the gym. Monday? Social Met a couple of friends and had a good time! Morning Routine First 60 minutes with no Cellphone - Not done. Journaling - Physiotherapy - Done Skin care routine - Done Brush teeth and floss - done, but gotta buy some dental floss! Make my bed - Done Maybe I'm gonna integrate some meditation in the morning, but I don't wanna get overwhelmed with new habits in the beginning. Evening Routine Skin care routine - Done. Physiotherapy - Done. Brush teeth and floss - Brushed. BUY SOME FLOSS!! Daily Habits Tracker Staying out of the room - ? Reading Not today. Getting to bed before 10pm Not today. Weekly Goal(s) Get in contact with the music school I searched and find out plans/prices for singing lessons. Maybe guitar too - do it on Monday! Find a dentist and schedule it Cook meals for the week (Important! You are spending too much money eating!) - starting in january. BUY THE FREAKING FLOSS - I'm going out tonight and I'm gonna buy it. Holy crap, how the hell I postponed that so much. Monthly Goal Present the final project and graduate (Got a day, 19/12!) - DONE (missing graduation) Start the programming course. 3 Month Goal Get back to running. The physiotherapy is really important, SET GOALS! What went well today: I'm excited about the guitar practice! Gotta keep up that excitement until I reach a stage that I really enjoy the "music" I make. Also, I'm excited with getting back to journaling. This gives me extra motivation to change. What I could have done to make my day better: I could have been more mindful with the time usage. What I will do differently tomorrow: Gonna write in the diary in the morning and plan my day. I'm going to read the book I received for Christmas.
  13. Day 11 - 26/12/19 and others Well, had to force myself to write again, let's get back on track! Right after I stopped writing I've been through some stressful days, mainly because of my final project. Reflecting about it right now, it's a problem that I ditched the journaling habit when a stressful moment came. In this situation the journal maybe would keep me stable and track my habits and goals... but whatever, gonna focus on it next time. Long story short: the trip went well, and right after I presented my final project. Got nervous as fuck but I did it. It's hard to put in words how big this was to me, this project has been causing me anxiety for a loooong time. Even right now it's hard for myself to really get how big that was. At the back of my head I'm still "worried", but it's like if my default mode became "worried" during that time. Anyway, with that cleared, I just gotta worry about a possible job that can appear in January, but I'm already taking care of it. So, life is going pretty well post-presentation. Holidays went well, and I'm getting a lot of free time right now. Took this time to pick up the acoustic guitar again: I've been practicing it for about 3 days. Yesterday I changed the strings to give a little extra motivation. Gonna try to make it a month of practice, with about 30 minutes of practice everyday, and see the difference. Hopefully this time I'm gonna learn it! With the free time, came the bad habits. Actually, they came right in the end of stressful period, but I maintained then until now. I'm watching more Netflix than I'm comfortable with, but I'm gonna change this. It's important to stress this: THE DIARY KEEPS ME ON TRACK. Although in these period I didn't journal I kept my habits almost everyday, it's much better when I'm journaling. It's MUCH easier to see the habits I'm being sloppy with, so I gotta keep journaling. Gonna make an effort to do better in this aspect. Current Streaks No games - 189 days No Porn/Masturbation - 28 days Things that I should do every now and then Body grooming - Last done 06/12/2019 Hair Care - Last done 23/12/2019 Clip nails - Last done 23/12/2019 Deep organize room - ? 30 days challenge Thinking about a diet - Traveling on Friday. Actually it wouldn't be wise to start it right now. Cold showers - 4/30 Practice guitar - 3/30 One amazing thing that happened/I did today During all this period, the final presentation! Exercise Gotta get back to the gym. Probably next year. Social - Morning Routine First 60 minutes with no Cellphone - Done Physiotherapy - Done Skin care routine - Done Brush teeth and floss - done, but gotta buy some dental floss! Make my bed - Done Maybe I'm gonna integrate some meditation in the morning, but I don't wanna get overwhelmed with new habits in the beginning. Evening Routine Skin care routine - Done. Physiotherapy - Done. Brush teeth and floss - Brushed. BUY SOME FLOSS!! Daily Habits Tracker I'm going to start adding habits soon. Reading Not today. First thing: Maybe I should choose a book that will get me hooked. In this pressure situations they are the only ones that make me read. Otherwise I don't do it. I've been reading a book on Buddhism, a subject that really interests me, but it's not the kind of book that gets me eating pages. Getting to bed before 10pm Not today. Weekly Goal(s) Get in contact with the music school I searched and find out plans/prices for singing lessons. Maybe guitar too - IN PROGRESS Find a dentist and schedule it. Cook meals for the week (Important! You are spending too much money eating!) - Postponed BUY THE FREAKING FLOSS Monthly Goal Present the final project and graduate (Got a day, 19/12!) - DONE (missing graduation) Start the programming course. 3 Month Goal Get back to running. The physiotherapy is really important, SET GOALS! What went well today: I'm excited about the guitar practice! Gotta keep up that excitement until I reach a stage that I really enjoy the "music" I make. What I could have done to make my day better: Less Netflix and phone. What I will do differently tomorrow: No Netflix and phone after work. I will use my free time efficiently.
  14. Day 9-10 - 12/12/2019 and 13/12/2019 Writing on 14/12/2019... I'm gonna try to not make this a habit! First day: Woke up early and went to class. Made a presentation, pretty normal stuff, and after that I went to work. Actually, before that I talked to my advisor and scheduled the presentation for the final project, it's gonna be on 19/12. It's funny that I don't feel sooo nervous about it... It's probably because I wrote the entire project on the subject, so I guess I have good knowledge of it. But let's see when the day get closer. Pretty excited to end this stage of my life. After that the day was pretty bad. My SO told me the day before that she was nervous about her period, which was delayed. We are really careful in this matter (totally not a good time for a kid) and I was really confident that we didn't screw up, but in the end she kind of freaked me out a little. In the end of the day, we made a test and it was negative, so I'm relaxed right now. She came out of the pill last month and probably her cycle is still messed up. But the main thing about this situation is that it was really stressful. It was really the kind of day in which I would relapse to gaming or to porn. The perfect excuse: "I'm having a bad day, I deserve a escape". I'm pretty proud that I didn't even got an urge to play something, although fapping came to my mind a couple of times. But my will was strong and actually I got like 30 minutes of guitar practice to occupy my mind. That actually got me pumped to learn this freaking instrument right now, I'm try to focus on this during my vacations. Day two: On day 2 I woke up not so early and went to work. Worked a little bit by the morning and in the afternoon there was a party to celebrate the end of the year between with my colleagues from the department. It was pretty cool, I was needing that. Got a little drunk, and when I got home around 7 PM I went almost straight to bed. Woke up like 2:30AM, did my evening routine (well, I had to do it, can't break the streak!) and packed some stuff to travel some hours later. Current Streaks No games - 176 days No Porn/Masturbation - 15 days Things that I should do every now and then Body grooming - Last done 06/12/2019 Hair Care - Last done 09/12/2019 Clip nails - Last done 11/12/2019 Deep organize room - 30 days challenge Thinking about a diet - Traveling on Friday. Actually it wouldn't be wise to start it right now. Cold showers - Gonna start it simple, taking cold showers. Starting by tomorrow (today, since I'm writing the day after One amazing thing that happened/I did today Scheduling the final presentation day! I'm seeing the light at the end of the tunnel! Exercise Not today. Feeling a little bit of pain on the hip these days. Social Talked with a couple of people that I don't usually talk to in the party. Morning Routine First 60 minutes with no Cellphone - Not really. Physiotherapy - Done Skin care routine - Done Brush teeth and floss - done, but gotta buy some dental floss! Make my bed - Done Maybe I'm gonna integrate some meditation in the morning, but I don't wanna get overwhelmed with new habits in the beginning. Evening Routine Skin care routine - Done. Physiotherapy - Done. Brush teeth and floss - Brushed. BUY SOME FLOSS!! Daily Habits Tracker I'm going to start adding habits soon. Reading Not today. First thing: Maybe I should choose a book that will get me hooked. In this pressure situations they are the only ones that make me read. Otherwise I don't do it. I've been reading a book on Buddhism, a subject that really interests me, but it's not the kind of book that gets me eating pages. Getting to bed before 10pm Not today. Weekly Goal(s) Get in contact with the music school I searched and find out plans/prices for singing lessons. Maybe guitar too - IN PROGRESS Find a dentist and schedule it. Buy Christmas Gift to SO - DONE!! Check if you are going to buy another thing Cook meals for the week (Important! You are spending too much money eating!) - Postponed Ask about the documents and procedure to graduate - DONE!! Get the documents to graduate BUY THE FREAKING FLOSS Monthly Goal Present the final project and graduate (Got a day, 19/12!) Start the programming course. 3 Month Goal Get back to running. The physiotherapy is really important, SET GOALS! What went well today: The situation with my girlfriend went well. And I have a conversation scheduled with professor about my academic/lifend situation that I think it's gonna be fruitful. What I could have done to make my day better: I could have been a little bit more calm in the girlfriend situation. Although I managed not to relapse or something like that, I spent a lot of time just using the cellphone, random browsing, searching useless stuff and just laying in the bed. What I will do differently tomorrow: Gonna enjoy the day as much as I can, and by the night work at the presentation! Gotta write at least the first two sections (set the template, summary, motivation, objectives, and maybe start the third).
  15. Day 7-8 - 10/12/2019 and 11/12/2019 Writing on 12/12/2019, such a shame! Well, two pretty normal days, let me try to remember what happened. First day: Woke up early and went to college. Had only one class and things went pretty normal. After class I asked about all the documents and procedures I need to graduate (yay!). Turns out the process is pretty simple on my side and the complications may appear on behalf of the university, but it was good getting to know that anyway. After that went to work, which wasn't so productive. Don't know, I guess I'm feeling the pressure of the week, which is being pretty tough. I'm keeping my daily habits, making plans, but it is pretty hard when things that you would rather not be doing get in the way. I'm really looking forward for the holidays, they are going to be a good break from everything and I will try not to waste them. Stopping to really think about it, it's gonna be my first holidays gaming free. Wondering what I'm gonna do with the free time. For sure, I will be able to exercise, but all the other things that I wanna start doing like acting/singing classes will probably be available only in january. I Gotta start thinking in advance about the things I'm gonna do to fill my day (pick up the guitar again and the data science course, probably). Second day: Study and prepare presentation all day, that sums up the day. It's incredible how much time it takes for me to prepare a presentation, and I got really tired from that. One thing I worth mentioning that happened 09/12: Got in touch with the music school but they want to schedule a visit. Tried to get informations about the costs and plans but had no succes. That pissed me off a bit, sometimes you just wanna get some information before actually going physically to the place. That gets me wondering if this strategy of making the person go through a visit really brings them profit. Probably gonna schedule a visit in the next weeks, if possible. Still gotta find a place to take acting classes, though. Current Streaks No games - 174 days No Porn/Masturbation - 13 days Things that I should do every now and then Body grooming - Last done 06/12/2019 Hair Care - Last done 09/12/2019 Clip nails - Last done 11/12/2019 Deep organize room - 30 days challenge - Day XX Thinking about a diet - Traveling on Friday. Actually it wouldn't be wise to start it right now. One amazing thing that happened/I did today Finishing the project. Now it's not in my hands anymore (not completely). Exercise Not today. Feeling a little bit of pain on the hip these days. Social Not many opportunities to be social. Morning Routine First 60 minutes with no Cellphone - Not really. Physiotherapy - Done Skin care routine - Done Brush teeth and floss - done, but gotta buy some dental floss! Make my bed - Done Maybe I'm gonna integrate some meditation in the morning, but I don't wanna get overwhelmed with new habits in the beginning. Evening Routine Skin care routine - Done. Physiotherapy - Done. Brush teeth and floss - Brushed. BUY SOME FLOSS!! Daily Habits Tracker I'm going to start adding habits soon. Reading Not today. First thing: Maybe I should choose a book that will get me hooked. In this pressure situations they are the only ones that make me read. Otherwise I don't do it. I've been reading a book on Buddhism, a subject that really interests me, but it's not the kind of book that gets me eating pages. Getting to bed before 10pm Not today. Weekly Goal(s) Get in contact with the music school I searched and find out plans/prices for singing lessons. Maybe guitar too - IN PROGRESS Find a dentist and schedule it. Buy Christmas Gift to SO - DONE!! Check if you are going to buy another thing Cook meals for the week (Important! You are spending too much money eating!) - Postponed Ask about the documents and procedure to graduate - DONE!! Get the documents to graduate Monthly Goal Present the final project and graduate (Got a day, 19/12!) Start the programming course. 3 Month Goal Get back to running. The physiotherapy is really important, SET GOALS! What went well today: Got along really well with SO, I think the conversation had effect. What I could have done to make my day better: Less cellphone. What I will do differently tomorrow: Well, tomorrow is today, so what did I do differently?
  16. Curiously, that's not a thing that I reflexed on beforehand. Being more open is naturally a factor, but it is more of a consequence/benefit from this activies than a reason to do them. Thinking about it right now, I think singing/acting involves a lot of "expressing yourself". Some people express themselves exceptionally well, for example, by painting. Or drawing. Maybe just talking. I don't think I already found my form of expression. But I like singing, for example, and I want to give it a try. By the way, thanks for the question man, made me reflect a lot about questions unanswered in my life, I appreciate it.
  17. If I can contribute with something, don't worry too much about being single. Focus on improving every aspect of your life (appearance, hobbies, work, etc) and the romantic part is gonna come together. The first step you already made: taking the decision to change. Now keep at it and don't give up. I don't have the intention of leaving de forum very soon, so we are together in that. Good luck man!
  18. Hey, DaBest! Interesting that you started doing improv, I'm thinking about getting some acting lessons and that's really out of my comfort zone. How did that went to you? When thinking about it, I'm flooded with discouraging thoughts like "you will be so embarrassed, you're too old (26), etc". At the same time I know that it's gonna be good for me, because I'm a huge introvert too. I am looking for singing classes too, which is another thing that I'm interested in and is out of my comfort zone too (less than acting lessons, so I started by this). Fuck, I need to take the leap, just taking the courage to that.
  19. Thanks for the comment Avnat! I think I know the problem, it's mainly the approach the teacher is taking in this especific class, it really doesn't fit my learning preferences (in summary, too much theory, no practice). And about bad habits developed during the time in university, I recall that I "lost" my interest in reading during my time there. I could say that it was related to gaming or some other stuff, but even when I was gaming hard I still had the hunger to read everyday. Don't know what happened, maybe the work overload, who knows. Today I'm still recovering the habit, but it certainly left a mark. I passed by your journal earlier and was reading all the entries, I liked how you organize your thoughts. Good luck with the wedding! Gonna start following your journal for sure, success to all of us!
  20. Day 6 - 09/12/2019 A not so good day... Woke up not so early, so I blew the possibility of finishing the project in the morning. Went to work and finished it by 15 PM, that's the only thing I did until then. Then I had to study and make some assignments. Couldn't finish it because I was so unmotivated. I can't remember the last time I was that unmotivated before in college! The subject could be more interesting but the classes and assignments are so boring, I just created a blockage with it. Thank God it is almost finished, I just gotta deliver the final presentation. But anyway, I'm disappointed. I should've finished the task, but I'm not gonna worry about what I cannot change anymore. After that I went to sleep at about 2 AM. Current Streaks No games - 172 days No Porn/Masturbation - 11 days Things that I should do every now and then Body grooming - Last done 06/12/2019 Hair Care - Last done 09/12/2019 Clip nails - Last done ? Deep organize room - 30 days challenge - Day XX Going to start it this week. Thinking about a diet. One amazing thing that happened/I did today Finishing the project. Now it's not in my hands anymore (not completely). Exercise Not today. Gotta get back on track! Social Not many opportunities to be social. Morning Routine First 60 minutes with no Cellphone - Done Physiotherapy - Done Skin care routine - Done Brush teeth and floss - done, but gotta buy some dental floss! Make my bed - out of home, didn't need to! Maybe I'm gonna integrate some meditation in the morning, but I don't wanna get overwhelmed with new habits in the beginning. Evening Routine Skin care routine - Done. Physiotherapy - Done. Brush teeth and floss - Brushed. BUY SOME FLOSS!! Daily Habits Tracker I'm going to start adding habits soon. Reading Not today. Getting to bed before 10pm Not today. Weekly Goal(s) Get in contact with the music school I searched and find out plans/prices for singing lessons. Maybe guitar too - IN PROGRESS Find a dentist and schedule it. Buy Christmas Gift to SO. Cook meals for the week (Important! You are spending too much money eating!) Ask about the documents and procedure to graduate. Get the documents to graduate Monthly Goal Present the final project and graduate. Start the programming course. 3 Month Goal Need some planning. What went well today: Finishing project. What I could have done to make my day better: I could have had more focus on the assignment. What I will do differently tomorrow: More focus on the important tasks. Gotta put the nail in the coffin in the project.
  21. Day 5 - 08/12/2019 A day with mixed feelings... Woke up really annoyed and had a conversation with my SO about how I'm feeling unsupported in the relationship. Like everybody, she has problems and I try my best to listen and support her, and I don't think she does the same for me. But at the same time, I can't expect her to do that if I'm not vocal enough about it. So today I was. It was really hard for me, cried a lot, but I was. Hope this situation gets better in the future after this conversation. At the same time, I'm really motivated with the diary and all this changes. Willing to take responsibility for everything that I wanna change in my life. After that my day wasn't really productive. Worked on my project a little in the morning then went to the pool, which was really good. Coming back, worked a little more and then the rest of the day didn't do anything special Current Streaks No games - 171 days No Porn/Masturbation - 10 days Things that I should do every week or month Body grooming - Last done 06/12/2019 Hair Care - Last done 09/12/2019 Deep organize room - 30 days challenge - Day XX Going to start it this week. Thinking about a diet. One amazing thing that happened/I did today Having that conversation with my SO was really good. I'm a really closed person and this was a good step in overcoming this. Exercise Not today's Social Well, I count taking that conversation as a an accomplishment for me. More than that, since it's a big deal for me, I'm motivated to change my social inabilities as soon as possible. Morning Routine First 60 minutes with no Cellphone - Done Physiotherapy - Done Skin care routine - Done Brush teeth and floss - done, but gotta buy some dental floss! Make my bed - I was at the house of my SO, so no bed to make. Maybe I'm gonna integrate some meditation in the morning, but I don't wanna get overwhelmed with new habits in the beginning. Evening Routine Skin care routine - Done. Physiotherapy - Done. Brush teeth and floss - Didn't do it Daily Habits Tracker I'm going to start adding habits soon. Reading Not today. Getting to bed before 10pm Not today. Weekly Goal(s) Get in contact with the music school I searched and find out plans/prices for singing lessons. Maybe guitar too Find a dentist and schedule it. Buy Christmas Gift to SO. Cook meals for the week (Important! You are spending too much money eating!) Ask about the documents and procedure to graduate. Get the documents to graduate Monthly Goal Present the final project and graduate. Start the programming course. 3 Month Goal Need some planning. What went well today: Conversation with SO. What I could have done to make my day better: Work more on my final project. Didn't accomplish my objective, which was finishing the final version. What I will do differently tomorrow: Finish the project by the morning so that I can study the rest of the day.
  22. Day 4 Good day... Woke up early for a weekend, like 8 AM. Went to the supermarket to buy some food for a new diet. I'm thinking that if I'm gonna exercise, why not to follow a diet? After that I came back home and worked on my final project a little. I wasn't too focused, but at least I putted some work in it. Had lunch like 14 PM and worked a little more on the project. In the afternoon I made a hair hydration too. By the night I went to see a play, it was really nice! That really got me motivated to take drama classes. Provably gonna be nervous as hell, but in the end it would be good for my shyness. Gonna search for it in the next days. Current Streaks No games - 170 days No Porn/Masturbation - 9 days Things that I should do every week or month Body grooming - Last done 06/12/2019 Hair Care - Last done 09/12/2019 Deep organize room - 30 days challenge - Day XX Going to start it soon, maybe this week. Thinking about a diet One amazing thing that happened/I did today Watched a play after a long time! Motivated me to take acting/singing lessons. Gonna search things related to this. Exercise Not today Social - Fuck it, just do it Bad day today, hesitated hard on a situation... felt pretty bad after that. The acting/singing lessons would play a big part in changing this situation. Morning Routine First 60 minutes with no Cellphone - Done Physiotherapy - Done Skin care routine - Done Brush teeth and floss - done, but gotta buy some dental floss! Make my bed - Done Maybe I'm gonna integrate some meditation in the morning, but I don't wanna get overwhelmed with new habits in the beginning. Evening Routine Skin care routine - Done. Physiotherapy - Done. Daily Habits Tracker I'm going to start adding habits soon. Reading Not today. Getting to bed before 12pm Not today. Weekly Goal(s) Get in contact with the music school I searched and find out plans/prices for singing lessons. Maybe guitar too Find a dentist and schedule it. Buy Christmas Gift to SO. Monthly Goal Need some planning. 3 Month Goal Need some planning. What went well today: Waking up early and running errands (buying food to cook for the week and organizing bedroom a little). What I could have done to make my day better: Work a little more on my final project. After a pretty busy week I wanted to enjoy doing other things a little... I think it made me feel good, so I don't regret ir. What I will do differently tomorrow: Focus on the project and on studying more than today.
  23. Day 3 Pretty normal day. Woke up later than I wanted, but I was really tired from yesterday, so that's ok. Work went really well! Feeling good about recent results. Went to the gym and got some yoga done too. In general a good day, but nothing different than the usual. I'm thinking about starting some monthly challenges with myself. Always wanted to experiment different things and maybe keeping a diary it may work. Current Streaks No games - 169 days No Porn/Masturbation - 8 days Things that I should do every week or month Body grooming - Last done 06/12/2019 Hair Care - Last done 30/12/2019 Deep organize room - 30 days challenge - Day XX Going to start it soon, maybe this weekend One amazing thing that happened/I did today Went back to exercising after about 10 days! Feeling good. Exercise Gym + Yoga. Social - Fuck it, just do it A few moments of hesitation happened and I tried to fight against it and just do whatever the hell it was... nothing too thriling, but I'm satisfied that I remembered to push through the fear. Gonna try to keep it. Morning Routine First 60 minutes with no Cellphone - Done Physiotherapy - Done Skin care routine - Done Make my bed - Done Maybe I'm gonna integrate some meditation in the morning, but I don't wanna get overwhelmed with new habits in the beginning. Evening Routine Skin care routine - Done. Physiotherapy - Done. Daily Habits Tracker I'm going to start adding habits soon. Reading Not today. Getting to bed before 12pm Not today. Weekly Goal(s) Need some planning. Monthly Goal Need some planning. 3 Month Goal Need some planning. What went well today: Gym went well. What I could have done to make my day better: I could have woke up a little earlier. In the time lost in the morning I could have done more stuff. What I will do differently tomorrow: Tomorrow is the first weekend of the diary! Gonna try to be mindful about time spent in the room. I have things to study, but certainly gonna have some free time. Maybe pick up where I left with the guitar.
  24. Thanks! Yeah, it was pretty sudden. Suddenly I felt really annoyed and just quitted. I was so annoyed that I stayed like hours selling and uninstalling/deleting everything related to games. About porn, it's not easy... right now I'm on day 7 of another try. I guess what helps me a little is that I have a girlfriend, but it's hard as hell anyways. But I really don't look back: since "quitting" porn my sexual life improved a lot. This virtual stimulation makes to much harm to our brain. Good luck man! Looking forward to see you succeed!
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