Icandothis

I don’t know what day I am on Still going. I am experiencing massive anxiety. Is anyone else experiencing this? Physical symptoms of heart racing, not being able to calm down. I read somewhere that this is a symptom of gambling withdrawal, so maybe gaming withdrawal is the same. I feel awful. What was beautiful about my day my kids!!!!!!!

Day 12 Just thinking a lot about what has happened. My husband had an affair and then left me. I starting dating someone else, who I eventually found out was dating multiple people. I was so hurt and so broken. Then my husband and I got back together. Then I had an affair on my husband. The other man never knew I was married. I felt so bad about this. I was constantly debating about if I should leave my husband. In the end I decided to stay. It’s almost been 1 year since I talked to this man. As I look back I can’t believe all that I survived. No wonder I used gaming as an escape. What was beautiful about my day the sunshine! And my kids!

Hi! Thank you for sharing the meditation! I find the body scan ones to be really helpful in grounding into the present moment. Its sounds like you are doing well, and it’s nice to have the support of your family! You are doing great! Have a beautiful day my friend!

Day 11 doing well. I still feel lost. Trying to figure out what my days should actually look like. My resolve used to be to just quit gaming. But now, it’s how well have I loved and lived today. How are my actions aligning with my core value. What do I want my life to actually look like. What was beautiful about my day my kids!!!

Day 10 Doing good. What was beautiful about my day My kids!!!

Day 9 - i have been studying my spirituality. Reading the Bible, memorizing verses, practicing yoga. Feeling joy and spreading joy to others is my purpose. Loving God and loving others. I feel as if I need to be reintegrated back into society. I have been staying at home with my baby. We go out to the park daily but it is hard to establish connection. Often times I feel so overwhelmed just getting what I need to get done, that I feel that I can’t add anything else. Quitting games has freed up a lot of time that I plan to invest in friendship. Not sure where I am going with any of this. ? Just feel a bit lost and out of sorts. Finding my way. What was beautiful about my day Kisses from my kids. ???

Day 8 - Doing well. Not sure what to write today......... What was beautiful about my day : Spiderwebs in the forest. It was really cool to see them at sunset. Pretty amazing actually.

Day 7 - one full week down!!! Yesterday I was full of emotions. Lots and lots of rage. I used to be afraid of my emotions; until my well known meditation teacher said she experiences the same. She says it’s the not the emotions that I need to judge; but how I react to them. And so I sit... with all the feelings. What was beautiful about my day: toothless smiles. ?

Day 6 - Yes!!!!!!!! So proud of myself!!! My day has had up and downs. What was beautiful about my day: Looking at the forest of trees from my window. The light looks really pretty on the leaves.

Day 5 I did it!!!! I am so incredibly proud of myself for making it this far. Yay!!! I feel so much better today. Which goes to say that everything is temporary. I pushed through. I started doing yoga. Whenever I have an impulse to play, I do a yoga Kriya or stretch. I am noticing my emotions, not reacting to them. And so many emotions do I have. Anger and rage. I start going down these rabbit holes of everything that has happened. I feel justified. I was wronged. But I am realizing that I am giving my power away. He hurt me and now I am giving him more time and energy. I am doing my best to feel everything I can feel, and then redirect my energy back to my life. My goal everyday is to have more joy in my life and see more joy in the lives of others. What was beautiful about my day A warm cup of chamomile tea. Have a beautiful day my friends!!!!

Day4- Raging headaches. I feel tired, upset, angry. I feel so lost. I feel so alone. I feel so lost. What was beautiful about my day- I saw a floating leaf. Probably connected to a spider web so that was cool.

Day 3 - I miss gaming. I have tried to quit so many times before. And Day 3 thru 7 are when I generally start again. I run to gaming when I am stressed and bored. Being extra compassionate for myself this week. So proud of myself for making it 3 days!!!! This is huge for me! What was beautiful about today- wiggles and giggles of my kids. Have a beautiful day my friends!!

Congrats!!!!! Thanks for sharing your journey for the rest of us!!!

Congrats on all your progress! Reading your past couple of posts you have so much to be proud of!!!!? Keep up the meditation! It really helps to recognize what thoughts are going through our mind! Have a beautiful day!!!!

Hi All! Day 2- and just like that it’s been 24 hours!!!! Yesterday I read a bunch of posts on the forum as well as listened to videos. It’s been really helpful. I have learned that gaming is the symptom of a much deeper problem in my life. And my problem? A couple of years ago my husband had an affair. It completely devastated me. I am actually thankful to gaming because it is the one thing that brought me joy during such a hard time. Now I have much better coping skills to deal with all the anger and hurt that I have experienced. I want to live my life fully, full of joy and happiness. Yesterday felt like a huge step in the right direction. Instead of gaming, I meditated. I read a book. I communicated with 2 real life friends! It was hard because I just wanted to zone out. And right now, nothing feels as good as gaming does. But, from what I have read this will change. What is beautiful about my day: I went to the park for a sunset stroll with my kids. The sky was changing color. The leaves on the tree are turning to fall. The air was crisp. We heard the sounds of cicadas, crickets and frogs. It brought me so much joy!!!!! And so much gratitude for everyone who posts on this forum, your journeys are inspiring!!! ? Have a beautiful day!!!!!

Hey all, today is Day 1 of quitting. I feel horrible. Absolutely horribly. I have tried so many times to quit before and I just can’t. People around me notice how angry, mean and frustrated I get when I try to stop. It’s not something I feel like I can control. It’s just I feel so lost and desperate. I don’t even notice my mood changes. They simply happen. Trying to be super gentle with myself today. I am doing the best I can. Today I am meditating. Hopefully this helps. Have a beautiful day my friends.