George Wyatt

Day 20 -- 05/28/19 FOG 83 Days (Free Of Gaming) FOF 83 Days (Free Of Fapping) FOP 113 Days (Free Of Porn) CR 60 Days (Clean Room) FOSAS 28 Days (Free Of Sugar Added Snacks) (Avoiding added sugar as much as possible, this includes foregoing dessert) FOYT 28 Days (Free Of YouTube) WF 28 Days (Drinking water first thing in the morning) FOE 8 Days (Free Of Earbuds) (With the exception of guided meditation) One/some amazing thing(s) about today! 1) Ran a new PR of 1:13 for the 400m! 2) Chatted with a group of people throughout 5th period. What I am grateful for today Today, I am grateful that I am on this journey of self improvement and have a sense of purpose ?. Wake up time 7:08 Getting to bed before 10pm ❌ 10:30 Reading -- Workout 50 minute track practice (Peaks : 1:13 for the 400m, 0:35 for the 200m). 15 minutes jump rope at PA. 10 minutes stretching at PA. 10 minutes stretching after track. Meditation -- Spanish Spent 15 minutes on Duolingo reviewing all the material I have covered so far. Outdoors time Walking to and from school. (30 mins) Running to the track. (5 mins) 1 hour at the track. Walking back from the track. (10 mins) Went outside for half an hour with some friends at lunch. Sophia and Stephanie put my flexibility to shame ?. Typing Spent 15 minutes typing. Homework Studied calculus at 2nd, 3rd and a little at 5th period. Also studied calculus for 5 minutes at lunch and at home for an hour. What went well today I spent some time chatting with people, studied my calculus and went to track. Also returned the tent and took my sister downtown to return some books. All in all, a good day. What I could have done better today I got up late and didn't meditate or read. Although I know that I needed the sleep, as I've been very busy and haven't gotten much in the last couple days, it would have been nice to spend some time on these. What I will do differently tomorrow // What I'm doing tomorrow Get up at 6:20. Meditate. Read. Walk to school. Nail my calculus test. Study chemistry for the test on Friday. Go to kickboxing. // Getting the math test done. Then enjoying my day and preparing for Friday. How I felt today Stressed for tomorrow's math test. Minor sexual cravings in the afternoon. Bit behind in my classes which has me worried, but I need to study for my upcoming tests before catching up. Felt good today overall. Really enjoyed track and going outside with friends at lunch. My (New) Monthly Goal Maintaining and further developing the habits that I have managed to build over the last two months. Letting go of noting down the amount of time that I spend on things and just letting myself live now that I have a fairly solid arsenal of good habits. Instead, keep track and hold myself accountable through journaling. Weekly Goals - Learning how to eat sunflower seeds. ✅ - Learning how to tie a bowline knot (and then tying a couple hundred of them). - Acing my calculus test. - Acing my chemistry test. - Doing some meditation (I've been slacking on this lately). Current Goals - Running a sub 3 minute kilometer before I leave for my trip in June. - Passing 11th grade with a 96% average or higher (our grades are crazy inflated and I currently have ~97% average). - Finishing Anna Karenina before getting back from my trip in July.

Day 19 -- 05/27/19 FOG 82 Days (Free Of Gaming) FOF 82 Days (Free Of Fapping) FOP 112 Days (Free Of Porn) CR 59 Days (Clean Room) FOSAS 27 Days (Free Of Sugar Added Snacks) (Avoiding added sugar as much as possible, this includes foregoing dessert) FOYT 27 Days (Free Of YouTube) WF 27 Days (Drinking water first thing in the morning) FOE 7 Day (Free Of Earbuds) (With the exception of guided meditation) MGLFS Week 1 (Making Good Lunch For School) One/some amazing thing(s) about today! 1) I went to a laboratory and learned how to make aspirin, after which I made some. Quite the experience! 2) I learned how to eat sunflower seeds (some guy had some when we were camping over the weekend and I had no clue how to eat them so I bought some today and practiced). What I am grateful for today I am grateful that I got to go on an adventure today! Wake up time 6:20 Getting to bed before 10pm ❌ 10:30. Up reading on my iPod. Reading -- Workout -- Meditation -- Spanish Spent 15 minutes on Duolingo. Worked on the following categories (Family, Restaurant) and did some revision. Outdoors time Walked to and from school. Typing Spent 10 minutes typing. Homework Did some calculus homework. What went well today Got to go to a laboratory and make aspirin. Was a very interesting experience and got to spend the day on a road trip with some good friends (travelling to and from the lab). What I could have done better today Meditation. Reading. Studying more calculus. What I will do differently tomorrow // What I'm doing tomorrow Meditation. Reading. Finishing my math. // Going to school. Cleaning and returning my tent from the camping trip. Studying for my calculus test on Wednesday. How I felt today I felt really good! No cravings at all and it was a really interesting and engaging day! My (New) Monthly Goal Maintaining and further developing the habits that I have managed to build over the last two months. Letting go of noting down the amount of time that I spend on things and just letting myself live now that I have a fairly solid arsenal of good habits. Instead, keep track and hold myself accountable through journaling. Weekly Goals - Learning how to eat sunflower seeds. ✅ - Learning how to tie a bowline knot. - Acing my calculus test. - Acing my chemistry test. - Doing some meditation (I've been slacking on this lately). Current Goals - Running a sub 3 minute kilometer before I leave for my trip in June. - Passing 11th grade with a 96% average or higher (our grades are crazy inflated and I currently have ~97% average). - Finishing Anna Karenina before getting back from my trip in July.

Days 16 to Day 18 -- 05/24/19 to 05/26/19 FOG 81 Days (Free Of Gaming) FOF 81 Days (Free Of Fapping) FOP 111 Days (Free Of Porn) CR 58 Days (Clean Room) FOSAS 26 Days (Free Of Sugar Added Snacks) (Avoiding added sugar as much as possible, this includes foregoing dessert) FOYT 26 Days (Free Of YouTube) WF 26 Days (Drinking water first thing in the morning) FOE 6 Day (Free Of Earbuds) (With the exception of guided meditation) MGLFS Week 1 (Making Good Lunch For School) Went camping. Canoeing and hiking rocked, the rain did not. Had a damn good weekend!

Thanks Ikar! Your paragraph on competitiveness is spot on; I am extremely competitive and shifting my attitude from gaming, whilst trying to mellow out a bit, is (IMO) one of the greatest things about quitting gaming. Frankly, your entire post describes how I've been thinking and acting up until quite recently and even now I still struggle with being arrogant and contemptuous. It's nice and quite comforting to know that someone else understands this and has been through it. I'm working on finding that middle ground and expanding my horizons by trying new things seems to be the best way to open up to these new realities and possibilities that allow me to focus my time and energy and influence my personality and thoughts in a positive manner. I really do appreciate you taking the time to share your thoughts and it has allowed me to focus and clear mine. Thank you ?

Day 15 -- 05/23/19 FOG 78 Days (Free Of Gaming) FOF 78 Days (Free Of Fapping) FOP 108 Days (Free Of Porn) CR 55 Days (Clean Room) FOSAS 23 Days (Free Of Sugar Added Snacks) (Avoiding added sugar as much as possible, this includes foregoing dessert) FOYT 23 Days (Free Of YouTube) WF 23 Days (Drinking water first thing in the morning) FOE 3 Day (Free Of Earbuds) (With the exception of guided meditation) MGLFS Week 1 (Making Good Lunch For School) One/some amazing thing(s) about today! 1) I threw a ball around with my dad outside. 2) I ran a 3:27 kilometer (new PR). What I am grateful for today I am grateful that I have good friends that I can trust and rely on. Wake up time 6:20 Getting to bed before 10pm Nope. 10:15 Reading -- Workout Ran up to the track, ran a 3:27 kilometer, and ran back. Meditation -- Spanish Spent half an hour on Duolingo. Outdoors time Walked back from school. Threw a ball around with dad for 15 minutes while barbecuing burgers. Ran up to the track, ran 1km, and ran back (20 minutes total) Typing Spent 10 minutes typing. Homework Did loads of calculus in class, at lunch and a bit when I got home. What went well today Spent some time with friends at lunch. Ran a PR of 3:27 for the 1k. Did some calculus. Spent some time outside with my dad. What I could have done better today Meditation. Reading. Finishing my math. Going to track. What I will do differently tomorrow // What I'm doing tomorrow Meditation. Reading. Finishing my math. // Finishing packing for camping trip. Picking up a tent. Going on a camping trip and enjoying it ?. How I felt today Very stressed about math and the camping trip tomorrow. Logically, I know that it will be alright, but that doesn't stop me from going into a panic cycle. Whilst panicking, I decided not to go to track which was an awful idea. However, throwing a ball around with my dad and running in the evening helped me feel a lot better. Fawn's reply also helped me clear up my thoughts which was great. My (New) Monthly Goal Maintaining and further developing the habits that I have managed to build over the last two months. Letting go of noting down the amount of time that I spend on things and just letting myself live now that I have a fairly solid arsenal of good habits. Instead, keep track and hold myself accountable through journaling. Current Goals - Running a sub 3 minute kilometer before I leave for my trip in June. - Passing 11th grade with a 96% average or higher (our grades are crazy inflated and I currently have ~97% average). - Finishing Anna Karenina before getting back from my trip in July. P.S. Gone for a camping trip until Sunday afternoon. Will write journal entries while I'm gone, but won't be able to post until I get back.

Running PRs 200m (no start) :: 0:31 400m (no start) :: 1:15 1k :: 3:27 5k :: 19:59 (official) 10k :: 42:49 (official) 1/2 Marathon :: 1:40:55 (official)

Wow that's really interesting take on it! I like the idea of trying to find a middle ground and being aware of it instead of being extreme (I have a very black/white view of the world which makes me very prone to disregarding this most of the time). Also, in the future if I remove a bad habit, I think I'll make a chart that compares the good and bad aspects of that habit and a habit that I want to replace it with (because even bad habits, like long showers, provide a measured dose of escapism that can be good). That way I can make a more informed decision and not send myself into the void. Was feeling pretty crap today too and getting outside was the only thing that helped. Thinking that I need to set some more concrete goals (maybe SMART style), that I can work towards that highlight this good feeling. Floating aimlessly is only making me more prone to negative thinking and I've only discovered a set few things that help me get over that feeling so far). Thanks for replying even though you didn't have your keyboard, this really helped me clear my mind and I think that I now have a rough idea of how I'm going to move forward.

Thanks guys! I'd be happy to hear what you have to say fawn, by all means!

Thanks! Will do!

Bank of Habit/Hobby Ideas (Work In Progress) - Stop cracking knuckles. - Stop multitasking. - Focusing on not comparing yourself to others. - Meditation. - Stretching. - Yoga. - Piano. - Origami. - Homework first thing when getting home. - Coding. - Eating more veggies. - Sleeping an extra hour. - Drawing. - Writing. - Working on social skills. - Weights. - Cooking. - Baking. - Mindset (reduce ruminating, reduce judgement, be more easygoing, be less competitive with others and don't compare yourself to others). - Spend time outside (no matter the weather). - 1 Daily act of kindness. - Brazilian Jiu-Jitsu. - Swimming. - Daily Push-Ups. - Work out shortly in the morning. - Take a walk each day of the weekend. - Photography. - Calligraphy. - Magic. - Speed Cubing. - Bird Watching . - Geocaching. - Knitting. - Tai Chi. - Cryptography. - Flipping items. - Juggling. - Dancing. - Soap making. - Making electronic music. - Knotting. - Crossword puzzles. - Parkour.

Day 14 -- 05/22/19 FOG 77 Days (Free Of Gaming) FOF 77 Days (Free Of Fapping) FOP 107 Days (Free Of Porn) CR 54 Days (Clean Room) FOSAS 22 Days (Free Of Sugar Added Snacks) (Avoiding added sugar as much as possible, this includes foregoing dessert) FOYT 22 Days (Free Of YouTube) WF 22 Days (Drinking water first thing in the morning) FOE 2 Day (Free Of Earbuds) (With the exception of guided meditation) MGLFS Week 1 (Making Good Lunch For School) One/some amazing thing(s) about today! 1) Got my Physics test back (100%)! 2) Worked on my math homework a lot! What I am grateful for today I am grateful that my family cares about my well being. Wake up time 6:20 Getting to bed before 10pm Nope 10:15 Reading Spent 20 minutes reading Anna Karenina in the morning. Workout Went for a bike ride for an hour and a quarter (spent about 40 minutes on the bike). Meditation Spent 10 minutes doing silent indoor meditation in the morning. Spanish Spent 15 minutes on Duolingo. Outdoors time Walked to and from the hospital. Walked to and from school. Went on a bike ride for an hour and a quarter (encountered a wild turkey [that was odd], watched the sun set for 10 minutes from the walking bridge). Typing Spent 10 minutes typing. Homework Spent about an hour and a half working on my calculus homework. Also did calculus for half of lunch. What went well today Aced my Physics test, did some morning meditation and got some math done. Really enjoyed my bike ride. I was really proud that I noticed the sun set and stopped my bike on the bridge to watch it for 10 minutes. I am generally quite uptight, so stopping to watch the sunset was a big step for me, as in the past I would have either not noticed it enough to stop or would have kept biking knowing that I should probably get home and do some homework. Taking a step back like this makes me super happy ?. What I could have done better today I had a really solid day all things considered. Would've like to do some evening meditation and got to bed earlier, but then I wouldn't have been able to watch that beautiful sunset. I think I made the right decision. What I will do differently tomorrow Morning meditation and reading. Track practice. Calculus homework as much as possible. Prepare gear for weekend camping trip (leaving Friday night). My (New) Monthly Goal Maintaining and further developing the habits that I have managed to build over the last two months. Letting go of noting down the amount of time that I spend on things and just letting myself live now that I have a fairly solid arsenal of good habits. Instead, keep track and hold myself accountable through journaling. Feelings Felt very good throughout the school day. Felt hollow and empty in the afternoon. Minor food cravings (I cut peanut butter yesterday, but realized today that it really wasn't worth it and that it wasn't that bad for me)(I eat super healthy, so cutting peanut butter was somewhat extreme). Going for a bike ride made me feel a lot better ?.

Day 13 -- 05/21/19 FOG 76 Days (Free Of Gaming) FOF 76 Days (Free Of Fapping) FOP 106 Days (Free Of Porn) CR 53 Days (Clean Room) FOSAS 21 Days (Free Of Sugar Added Snacks) (Avoiding added sugar as much as possible, this includes foregoing dessert) FOYT 21 Days (Free Of YouTube) WF 21 Days (Drinking water first thing in the morning) FOE 1 Day (Free Of Earbuds) (With the exception of guided meditation) MGLFS Week 1 (Making Good Lunch For School) One/some amazing thing(s) about today! 1) Physics test went really well! 2) My lunch rocked! Really glad that I made that last night! 3) Got a new PR of 31s for the 200m during training today (second track practice). What I am grateful for today I am grateful that someone helped me with a Physics question when I asked half an hour before the test. Wake up time 6:20 Getting to bed before 10pm 9:58 ? Reading Spent 20 minutes reading Anna Karenina in the evening. Workout Sprint intervals (Track) (1 Hour) (It was pouring buckets). 30 minutes stretching at the PA. More than 10k steps. Meditation I didn't meditate today. Spanish Spent 10 minutes on Duolingo. Outdoors time Running to and from the track, sprints and warm-up (1 Hour). 10 minute walk at lunch. Moss collecting for biology class (5 mins). Walked to and from school. Typing Spent 10 minutes typing. My accuracy has gone up a ton! Homework -- What went well today I slept without earbuds, my Physics test went well and I got in a good workout! What I could have done better today I could have studied math in the evening. What I will do differently tomorrow Meditate in the morning. Read. Study math. My (New) Monthly Goal Maintaining and further developing the habits that I have managed to build over the last two months. Letting go of noting down the amount of time that I spend on things and just letting myself live now that I have a fairly solid arsenal of good habits. Instead, keep track and hold myself accountable through journaling.

Day 12 -- 05/20/19 NG 75 Days (No Gaming) NF 75 Days (NoFap) NP 105 Days (No Porn) CR 52 Days (Clean Room) NSAS 20 Days (No Sugar Added Snacks) (Avoiding added sugar as much as possible, this includes foregoing dessert) NYT 20 Days (No YouTube) WF 20 Days (Drinking water first thing in the morning) One/some amazing thing(s) about today! 1) Finished my Physics and feel ready for the test tomorrow. 2) Watched the last episode of Game of Thrones (kind of liberating to be done with that series). 3) Made lunch for the week (Quinoa salad)! What I am grateful for today I am grateful that I am on this journey of self discovery. Wake up time 7:32 Getting to bed before 10pm Nope. 10:15. Reading I didn't read today. Workout 20 minutes on the elliptical (easy-moderate intensity) Meditation I didn't meditate today. Spanish I spent a few minutes practicing Spanish today. Outdoors time I didn't go outside today (it was raining all day). Typing I spent a few minutes typing. Homework Spent a couple hours finishing my Physics. What went well today Slept without any earbuds last night! I finished Game of Thrones, which has been a part of my life since it came out. This was really liberating. I also got my Physics done and made a lunch for the week (I've been talking about doing this for years but never actually do it. It was really nice to see this small and uncertain, but present growth). What I could have done better today I procrastinated through the morning, avoiding my Physics homework. Due to this, I didn't spend a lot of time on the habits that make me happy because I had to get the physics done. I also think I should have gone outside even though it was raining, because being outside makes me feel more focused and probably would have helped me stop procrastinating sooner. What I will do differently tomorrow Read in the morning. Ace my Physics test. Go running with the track team. Study for math. Start to plan next weekend's camping trip. My (New) Monthly Goal Maintaining and further developing the habits that I have managed to build over the last two months. Letting go of noting down the amount of time that I spend on things and just letting myself live now that I have a fairly solid arsenal of good habits. Instead, keep track and hold myself accountable through journaling.

Day 11 -- 05/19/19 NG 74 Days (No Gaming) NF 74 Days (NoFap) NP 104 Days (No Porn) CR 51 Days (Clean Room) NSAS 19 Days (No Sugar Added Snacks) (Avoiding added sugar as much as possible, this includes foregoing dessert) NYT 19 Days (No YouTube) WF 19 Days (Drinking water first thing in the morning) One/some amazing thing(s) about today! 1) Went on a road trip with my mom to go to a Nordic Spa. 2) Shopped for some really good running clothes. 3) Ran a really solid tempo 5k (my form is getting so much better ?) What I am grateful for today I am grateful that I got to experience a Nordic Spa. Wake up time 6:34 Getting to bed before 10pm 9:55 ? Reading I read for roughly an hour at the spa. Workout 23 minute tempo 5k + stretching (before and after) Meditation I didn't meditate today. Spanish I didn't practice Spanish today. Outdoors time Walked up to the track, ran a tempo 5k and did some stretching. Typing 6 minutes of typing. Homework No homework today. What went well today Ran a great tempo 5k, loved the thermal experience at the spa and got some really nice running gear. Spending a couple hours in the car with my mom and then sharing the spa experience was great fun! What I could have done better today I'm tempted to say homework, but frankly I don't think I could have reasonably fit much in. We were gone from 9 to 6:30 (roughly) and then I went to work out. I think doing some meditation would have been good. What I will do differently tomorrow Tomorrow I will finish my Physics, work on some Math, do some reading in the morning and get some exercise. My (New) Monthly Goal Maintaining and further developing the habits that I have managed to build over the last two months. Letting go of noting down the amount of time that I spend on things and just letting myself live now that I have a fairly solid arsenal of good habits. Instead, keep track and hold myself accountable through journaling.

Day 10 -- 05/18/19 NG 73 Days (No Gaming) NF 73 Days (NoFap) NP 103 Days (No Porn) CR 50 Days (Clean Room) NSAS 18 Days (No Sugar Added Snacks) (Avoiding added sugar as much as possible, this includes foregoing dessert) NYT 18 Days (No YouTube) WF 18 Days (Drinking water first thing in the morning) One/some amazing thing(s) about today! 1) I went out for supper with my mother. 2) I learned a lot about running nutrition. What I am grateful for today I am grateful that I got to spend some quality time with my mom. Wake up time 7:32 Getting to bed before 10pm Nope. Went to bed at 10:34. Reading I didn't read today. Workout An hour of kickboxing. 15 minutes of biking in the evening. Meditation I didn't meditate today. Spanish 10 minutes of Duolingo. Outdoors time 15 minutes of biking in the evening. Typing 19 minutes of typing. My speed has gone back up thanks to the accuracy training. Homework Spent an hour and a half working on physics. What went well today I got some physics done, did some good exercise and spent some quality time with my mom over dinner. Also, did some interesting research on running nutrition. What I could have done better today I could have tackled physics earlier in the day. Also, I could have gotten in some meditation. What I will do differently tomorrow Meditation. Some physics. Reading. My Monthly Goal Maintaining the habits that I have managed to build over the last two months. Turning Spanish into a full-fledged hobby that I can commit to. Reduce my typing time, as it is currently serving as a form of escapism. Spend more time outdoors (I might set getting outdoors time as an official habit in about a week once I'm comfortable with NYT, NSAS and WF).

Good night! Have a good workout ?

Day 9 -- 05/17/19 NG 72 Days (No Gaming) NF 72 Days (NoFap) NP 102 Days (No Porn) CR 49 Days (Clean Room) NSAS 17 Days (No Sugar Added Snacks) (Avoiding added sugar as much as possible, this includes foregoing dessert) NYT 17 Days (No YouTube) WF 17 Days (Drinking water first thing in the morning) One/some amazing thing(s) about today! 1) I had a great bike ride out in nature ?. What I am grateful for today I am grateful to live in such a beautiful city! Wake up time 6:20 Getting to bed before 10pm Worst bedtime in a while. Went to sleep at 11:09. Reading Read for 21 minutes in the morning. Workout Biking for an hour and a half. An hour of kickboxing. 10 minutes of stretching. Meditation 20 minutes of outdoor silent meditation!! Spanish Spent 20 minutes on Duolingo. Outdoors time Bike ride for an hour and a half. Walking for 15 mins. 20 minutes of outdoor meditation. Typing Spent 41 minutes typing. Used this to procrastinate from doing physics. On the upside, I realized that the reason that my typing speed has been going down is that I haven't been working on my accuracy at all. Now, I'm using Typeracer Instant Death Mode in order to really hone my accuracy (15 minutes of this skyrocketed my speed and accuracy). Homework Procrastinated for most of the day, but thanks to the forest app and some prodding from my mother, I managed to get in 40 minutes of physics. What went well today Had an awesome bike ride out along a river, did some outdoors meditation for the first time (it was great!) and got in some solid cardio. Had a really good conversation with a friend about his current research project for university (he's taking biology, which is a field that I am very interested in). I also helped a man, whilst out biking, who's truck had lost a wheel. All in all, a fairly good day. What I could have done better today I could have done my physics instead of procrastinating. It's going to be a struggle to get it done tomorrow, but I think I'll manage. Wishing I'd done it today. What I will do differently tomorrow Tomorrow, I will do my physics homework, meditate and do some exercise. My Monthly Goal Maintaining the habits that I have managed to build over the last two months. Turning Spanish into a full-fledged hobby that I can commit to. Reduce my typing time, as it is currently serving as a form of escapism. Spend more time outdoors (I might set getting outdoors time as an official habit in about a week once I'm comfortable with NYT, NSAS and WF).

Day 8 -- 05/16/19 NG 71 Days (No Gaming) NF 71 Days (NoFap) NP 101 Days (No Porn) CR 48 Days (Clean Room) NSAS 16 Days (No Sugar Added Snacks) (Avoiding added sugar as much as possible, this includes foregoing dessert) NYT 16 Days (No YouTube) WF 16 Days (Drinking water first thing in the morning) One/some amazing thing(s) about today! 1) I tried track for the first time ever and loved it! What I am grateful for today Today, I am grateful that I discovered something new that I enjoy! Wake up time 6:20 Getting to bed before 10pm Nope. 10:13. Reading I didn't read today. Workout More than 8k steps. 30 minutes of stretching. Jumped rope for 10 minutes in the afternoon. Ran sprints for an hour with the track team. Also ran to and from the track. Meditation 5 minutes in the morning. Spanish Spent 18 minutes on Duolingo. Starting to become really comfortable with the basic vocabulary. Still haven't learned the plural verb tenses though... Outdoors time Walked to and from school. Went for a walk at lunch for 11 minutes. Typing I didn't type today. Homework Guess I took the words "priority habit" a bit too seriously. Did loads of homework in class today (chemistry, physics and calculus) and didn't really feel the need to study when I got home. That said, I have a four day weekend so studying is a must. What went well today I tried sprinting and it was awesome! Definitely what I need if I want to improve my 5k time! Other than that, I got lots of homework done in class, made up with the friend from lunch after school and gave them some support (they're going through a rough patch) and started Chemistry on Khan Academy. All in all, a pretty solid day! What I could have done better today I could have been nicer to a friend at lunch. I was very blunt when they needed me to not be. What I will do differently tomorrow I will do my morning reading and meditation. I'll also go to kickboxing, do some Physics, work on my Spanish and work on some KA (Khan Academy) Chemistry. My Monthly Goal Maintaining the habits that I have managed to build over the last two months. Turning Spanish into a full-fledged hobby that I can commit to. Reduce my typing time, as it is currently serving as a form of escapism. Spend more time outdoors (I might set getting outdoors time as an official habit in about a week once I'm comfortable with NYT, NSAS and WF).

Hey, coming to you from the post on my journal (after I responded there). I think one thing that you should keep in perspective is that you aren't going to change your lifestyle overnight. I've tried that in the past. It doesn't work. It blows up and you end up back where you started. Instead of trying to take on a ton of changes at once, start small. You already quit gaming and are doing NoFap and that's huge. Now you could try adding 1 habit for a trial period of three weeks. If the habit is works well and you are comfortable, then maybe try adding a new one (and so on and so forth). A really solid habit to start with is reading or writing. You can do it as much as you want, whenever you want, wherever you want, just like gaming. This helps fill that void. Then, if you want to branch out from there it becomes a lot easier, because you have a Plan B if something doesn't work out and you need to fill your time. You are a lot stronger than you think. Weak people are the ones who are still gaming, who haven't hit the two week mark of NoFap and who aren't doing the best to better themselves. It's similar to the difference between a talented person who doesn't work and an untalented person who does. The person who lacks the talent will go much further because they were strong enough to be willing to make a change and acted upon that desire. Stay strong. You will figure this out, but beating yourself up isn't the solution. Keep in mind that this too will pass and that you need to decide what kind of person you want to be when it has. Nothing worthwhile is ever easy and you're taking on something that is hard. But the respect that you can build for yourself through this journey has no price; it really is earned. I respect you just for being here, for expressing your thoughts and for making it as far as you have, as I believe anyone else on this forum would. We're all trying to better ourselves. So are you. Wishing you the best and hoping to hear from you soon ?.

Thanks! I'm glad to hear that you've taken up NoFap and GameQuitters too! Doing them at the same time is a challenge but 100% worth it! When it comes to my "No YouTube" habit, it's somewhat misleading. I do use YouTube occasionally, but in a mindful or intentional fashion. When I open google, before typing in "YouTube" (this part is hard because typing YouTube is my instinctive response to opening google), I will decide if there's anything I want to find on YouTube or that I want to look up. If not, I'll move on to something else. YouTube is built to keep you there for hours on end. For example, I'll be checking out old game of thrones clips, keep seeing stuff that I want to watch and, whoops, two hours have gone by! I find that watching all videos in theater mode, or at least turning on theater mode before watching in full screen helps with this, because you don't see the recommended video list. The long as short being, YouTube is fine IMO as long as you are smart about using it. I use it for music, ASMR and study material. The danger is that, like gaming, you get the gambler's reflex of wanting to go again. If you can go into YouTube with a goal and get out quick, I don't see any problem. However, when it becomes watching streaks of things that you don't need to watch and that after watching you feel guilty about, there's no benefit. It's escapism, plain and simple, providing the same refuge as gaming, just under a different name. From what you said, it sounds like you're using it as an escape and as a method for managing boredom. I only quit YouTube recently, but before I did, I found something to fill the void (in my case it's learning Spanish, which I usually do for 30+ mins a day). What I would recommend is finding something that you want to learn or improve (I personally have a list of habits I want to develop that I refer to when trying to come up with stuff. The GameQuitters habit list is really good to.) and getting used to that habit before quitting. Let that replace your YouTube. Keep in mind that if you are already on NoFap and GameQuitters, that taking away YouTube will also remove most, if not all, of your methods of escapism. I can say firsthand that this is terrifying. Quitting these bad habits helps reduce your need for escape over time, but initially it takes a toll because you can't hide away. Thus, I would also suggest finding something (if you haven't already) that you can use for productive escapism. I really like exercise and reading as coping mechanisms for this and I do them very regularly. Sorry if this is a bit long, but I wanted to cover all the bases. I hope it helped! If you have any other questions feel free to ask anytime ?.

Day 7 -- 05/15/19 NG 70 Days (No Gaming) NF 70 Days (NoFap) NP 100 Days (No Porn) ? ? ? CR 47 Days (Clean Room) NSAS 15 Days (No Sugar Added Snacks) (Avoiding added sugar as much as possible, this includes foregoing dessert) NYT 15 Days (No YouTube) WF 15 Days (Drinking water first thing in the morning) One/some amazing thing(s) about today! 1) We got to do yoga at school and I found out that I get to do track starting tomorrow if I want. What I am grateful for today I am grateful that I have few obligations and can therefore work on myself as I please. Wake up time 6:20 Getting to bed before 10pm Went to bed late at 10:41 ?. Reading I read for 23 minutes this morning. Finished the Levin section ? and moved on to a section about Dolly and her kids at Yergushovo. Meh. Workout More than 4k steps. 40 minutes of yoga. An hour of kickboxing. 5 minutes of stretching. Meditation I didn't do any meditation today. Spanish I did some reading at school and spent half an hour on Duolingo. Outdoors time Walked to and from school. Went for a walk at lunch for 10 minutes. Typing Typed for 19 minutes. My speed seems to be reducing a bit, be it from my reduction in typing time or from my constant use of a Spanish keyboard (different layout). Homework I left it too late to do any homework if I wanted to get good sleep. This is now my habit priority. What went well today The yoga today was a pleasant surprise! It was super relaxing and just what I needed. I also did some research into career options and found a solid place to start on an upcoming habit that I want to create (studying advanced chemistry). What I could have done better today As has become the usual, I could have started studying my homework earlier in the afternoon. I feel as though I am procrastinating until the last minute on this and that in order to achieve my current goal of 30 mins a night I should do it when I get home instead of leaving it for later. What I will do differently tomorrow I will do 30 mins of homework when I get home tomorrow. I'll also squeeze in some morning meditation and do go run with the track team after school. My Monthly Goal Maintaining the habits that I have managed to build over the last two months. Turning Spanish into a full-fledged hobby that I can commit to. Reduce my typing time, as it is currently serving as a form of escapism. Spend more time outdoors (I might set getting outdoors time as an official habit in about a week once I'm comfortable with NYT, NSAS and WF).

Day 6 -- 05/14/19 NG 69 Days (No Gaming) NF 69 Days (NoFap) NP 99 Days (No Porn) CR 46 Days (Clean Room) NSAS 14 Days (No Sugar Added Snacks) (Avoiding added sugar as much as possible, this includes foregoing dessert) NYT 14 Days (No YouTube) WF 14 Days (Drinking water first thing in the morning) One/some amazing thing(s) about today! 1) I got my Spanish textbook! My teacher even gave me some homework and sheets to go with it (basically I get to take the school's Spanish class outside of school hours). What I am grateful for today I am grateful that I have such great friends! Wake up time 6:00 Getting to bed before 10pm Nope. Stayed up a couple minutes late to get in my meditation. Went to bed at 10:04. Reading -- Workout More than 3k steps. Half an hour of biking. Meditation 5 minutes of silent meditation before bed. Spanish Worked on a written comprehension page for 10 minutes in chemistry class. Spent a half hour on Duolingo. Outdoors time Walked to and from school. I went biking for half an hour in the rain. Typing 12 minutes of typing. My pace is currently around 75 WPM, which is pretty solid. Homework I studied biology for half an hour in the morning. I got a some chemistry and physics done at school. What went well today My biology test went well. I got my Spanish textbook which is really nice. I also went and did some exercise outdoors even though the weather wasn't great. Also spent quality time with my family in the evening. What I could have done better today I could have spent more time on homework. I'm noticing that homework is currently one of my big weaknesses in which I am not investing enough time. From this point forward, I am to do at least half an hour per night for the next week to improve my consistency. What I will do differently tomorrow Tomorrow I will do my reading and meditation in the morning. I will also go to kickboxing and study some Physics, as well as some Spanish. My Monthly Goal Maintaining the habits that I have managed to build over the last two months. Turning Spanish into a full-fledged hobby that I can commit to. Reduce my typing time, as it is currently serving as a form of escapism. Spend more time outdoors (I might set getting outdoors time as an official habit in about a week once I'm comfortable with NYT, NSAS and WF).

Day 5 -- 05/13/19 NG 68 Days (No Gaming) NF 68 Days (NoFap) NP 98 Days (No Porn) CR 45 Days (Clean Room) NSAS 13 Days (No Sugar Added Snacks) (Avoiding added sugar as much as possible, this includes foregoing dessert) NYT 13 Days (No YouTube) WF 13 Days (Drinking water first thing in the morning) One/some amazing thing(s) about today! 1) I got invited to take university courses next year (last year of high school). Although I will probably turn it down, it is nonetheless flattering. What I am grateful for today Eliud Kipchoge, who inspires me to be my best self! Wake up time 6:20 Getting to bed before 10pm I was studying biology and went to bed late at around 10:40 ?. Reading I didn't read today. Workout More than 3k steps. 13 minutes of stretching. 16 minute run/walk at lunch. An hour of kickboxing. Meditation I didn't meditate today. Spanish 12 minutes of Duolingo. Trying to get that textbook ASAP. Outdoors time Walked to and from school. Went running at lunch. Typing I spent 12 minutes typing today. Homework I got a fair bit done at school. Studying Biology before bed. What went well today My legs weren't super stiff from the race and so I was able to do some kickboxing ?. The weather was great and I spent some time with friends at lunch. What I could have done better today I could have done some meditation and reading. Also, I could have done more homework, although I'm in a fairly good spot at the moment. What I will do differently tomorrow I will study biology and meditate in the morning. In the afternoon, I will do some studying and exercise (maybe a bike ride). I should also start reading again. My Monthly Goal Maintaining the habits that I have managed to build over the last two months. Turning Spanish into a full-fledged hobby that I can commit to. Reduce my typing time, as it is currently serving as a form of escapism. Spend more time outdoors (I might set getting outdoors time as an official habit in about a week once I'm comfortable with NYT, NSAS and WF).

Day 4 -- 05/12/19 NG 67 Days (No Gaming) NF 67 Days (NoFap) NP 97 Days (No Porn) CR 44 Days (Clean Room) NSAS 12 Days (No Sugar Added Snacks) (Avoiding added sugar as much as possible, this includes foregoing dessert) NYT 12 Days (No YouTube) WF 12 Days (Drinking water first thing in the morning) One/some amazing thing(s) about today! 1) I ran my first ever sub 20 5k (just barely made it in at 19:59)! What I am grateful for today My dad who is incredibly supportive of my running. Wake up time 6:20 Getting to bed before 10pm Cutting it close with 9:59, but yes. Reading I didn't read today. Workout More than 7k steps. 15 minutes of stretching (before and after the race). 5k Race (19:59). An hour and a quarter of biking to loosen up my legs after the race. Meditation I didn't meditate today. Spanish I didn't work on my Spanish today. Outdoors time In the morning, I got a lift from my dad down to the race and spent roughly two hours there (including my race). In the afternoon, I went for a bike ride to loosen up my legs and to get outside. Typing I only spent 5 minutes typing today. Homework I know that I should probably have done some homework today, but I'm not super worried. I'll just have to pick up some of the slack tomorrow. What went well today First and foremost, I gave my mom lots of love and wished her a happy mother's day. Other than that, my race went great, I watched two episodes of GoT with my dad (he wasn't fazed by the Red Wedding at all haha), went for my first bike ride of the year, took a long nap, did the dishes while listening to my grandfather's CD and just generally enjoyed life. No cravings at all. It was really nice. What I could have done better today I could definitely have done some homework. I've got some work to do if I want to do well on my tests this week. I also could have spent more time on my day to day habits (reading, Spanish, meditation), but they were even lower on the priority list than the homework. What I will do differently tomorrow Get. My. Homework. Done... Also, read and meditate in the morning. My Monthly Goal Maintaining the habits that I have managed to build over the last two months. Turning Spanish into a full-fledged hobby that I can commit to. Reduce my typing time, as it is currently serving as a form of escapism. Spend more time outdoors (I might set getting outdoors time as an official habit in about a week once I'm comfortable with NYT, NSAS and WF).

Day 3 -- 05/11/19 NG 66 Days (No Gaming) NF 66 Days (NoFap) NP 96 Days (No Porn) CR 43 Days (Clean Room) NSAS 11 Days (No Sugar Added Snacks) (Avoiding added sugar as much as possible, this includes foregoing dessert) NYT 11 Days (No YouTube) WF 11 Days (Drinking water first thing in the morning) One amazing thing about today! 1) I helped an older woman find her shopping list which she had lost in the supermarket. Turns out that she dropped it on her way into the cooler ?. What I am grateful for today The great trail system in my city! Wake up time 6:20 Getting to bed before 10pm Yes ? 9:54. Reading I spent 43 minutes reading Anna Karenina. Thankfully, I got past the current Kitty arc (just finished part 2) and was greeted with some really interesting chapters about Levin and his brother Sergei. I enjoyed them so much that after reading the morning, I picked the book back up in the afternoon. Workout More than 15k steps (resting for tomorrow's race). Meditation 5 minutes silent meditation around noon. Spanish Spent half an hour on Duolingo. Outdoors time In the morning, I drove my dad up to the store and did the grocery shopping for the week. In the afternoon, I walked downtown to get my bib for tomorrow's race. I scouted out the course on foot and then walked back home (took about two and a half hours in total). Typing I only spent 15 minutes typing today! Unfortunately, my WPM was a fair bit lower than usual. Homework -- What went well today I spent loads of time outside and took every opportunity that I could to get out of the house and away any gaming temptations. What I could have done better today I could have spent more time on my homework and done meditation in the morning. What I will do differently tomorrow Tomorrow I will go run my 5k (my goal is to break 20 minutes) and spend a fair amount of time stretching because I know that the run will make my legs super sore. I'll also finish my homework (which I really should get done). My Monthly Goal Maintaining the habits that I have managed to build over the last two months. Turning Spanish into a full-fledged hobby that I can commit to. Reduce my typing time, as it is currently serving as a form of escapism. Spend more time outdoors (I might set getting outdoors time as an official habit in about a week once I'm comfortable with NYT, NSAS and WF).