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  1. Currently its: Mastermind and The power of habits πŸ‘¨β€πŸ”¬
  2. After binging 10 hours of Bioshock infinate(relapse), and getting stiff neckpains on a day I originally scheduled to be full of productivity and physical activity, I once again am thinking, what the hell is going on! I keep thinking of this relapse as something that is "not that bad" since it doesn't feel to me like it has any direct consequences. Meaning, its really not consequences that I see or feel before later, when the day has passed. The other part of why I return to playing games is because I keep forgetting why I am trying to quit in the first place, that was even made clear to me by another member from this forum and I thank you for that. That has lead me to come up with a solution, that might help me remember every day why I try to quit. Previously when I was writing my journals I havent had a speciffic time where I sat down to write in my journal properly. That, I believe made me put in the journal writing whenever it felt like I had a bit time for it. This caused me to only put in text that there was time for. Not really put all my thoughts and heart into it. I must also admit to myself that its not smart of me to keep watching gaming streams and lets plays since that has properly also been playing a big role in me returning to playing videogames. I will write this journal every day, with a daily goal, and several counts so I can constantly be aware of my process. I will also include a thought about a subject so I have to actively think, while I am writing the journal. Also I will add, daily, a reason why I want to quit. πŸ’ͺπŸ§—β€β™‚οΈπŸ‘¨β€πŸ”¬
  3. Another one I completely have forgotten thanks πŸ˜„ That’s a really good cause to. One get to do every time I grow out off my clothes (gaining weight). That’s very useful to the people in need. Unless the clothes are extremely dirty or destroyed I don’t see a reason why not to give it away instead of throwing it out πŸ™‚
  4. Thats really bad ass. For a long time I always had thought that a Marathon (42km) was the penicle of running and everything over that was for record holders. But Seriously 162,2 km ?!? Three times a Marathon. I Can only imagine that damage is inevitable at this point, But great achievement πŸ‘πŸ»
  5. Arg yes of course I forgot that but thanks pointing Them out. They are not to be forgotten. It Sound really Nice to donate Those things and I honestly dont know Why I havent Been thinking about Those kind of donating before Cause it sure sounds valuable to Those who recieve. And you most get to see the effect of it, first hand :) ?
  6. Day 19: Noο»Ώο»Ώ Gaming: 0 days No watching gaming videos: 0 days Workouts done this summer: 0 (Starting to count from today) ο»ΏTimes went climbing: 0 (once a week is the first goal)ο»Ώ Days with caloriecounting: 0 (Starting to count from today)
  7. This is actually something I did as well, years ago when I stopped playing 1st. time. I had been playing Call of duty MW2 or BO 1-2 for 15 days in the beginning of the month. I played a lot beforehand and was loosing focus on the job and education. But that months it turned into a cycle, I woke up 530 am. Got to work. Usually made mistakes. Got home and started playing with my only break when I had to use the toilet or eat the pizza I ordered. Got to bed very late. Woke up sleepdeprived. REPEAT... Happened 15 days until I ran out of money for food. The next day I took my Xbox and game outside with my friend and we had a lot of fun smashing it up and burning it afterwards. I didnt touch a game again after 5-6 years and now I am back πŸ˜„ But this is sometimes really good therapy, especially if you are the type of guy who spends the money from selling the gamer gear to buy new lesser gamer gear πŸ™‚ Hope everything works out smoothly for you πŸ™‚
  8. Day 13: No Gaming: 13 days No watching gaming videos: 0 days Workouts done this summer: 0 (Starting to count from today) Times went climbing: 0 (once a week is the first goal) Days with caloriecounting: 0 (Starting to count from today) Want to start writing down the scores mentioned above, just to get a visualization of the progress I am doing. Since I tend to forget why I am doing the respawn it will help to have to write down everyday, how far I have come. Commenting on, watching videogaming streams, I find that they help at times to curb the need or the wish to play games by myself but I can also see why it can work in a negative way. I usually have such a video running in the background while reading or doing lecture prep. But then at very few times it will make me want to play a game myself. Like when its a very atmospheric game. This is why I choose to try and cut down on them and slowly finding other videos I can run while reading(could be climbing contests, live concerts etc on youtube) You might think why not stop watching videos while reading, but to me it is exactly like someone who studies better with music in the ears. The wish to game has been strong so far today, but in a few hours I will go an work out which is very efficiant at curbing those thoughts.
  9. (I Dont understand english perfectly so I might have missed something:) ) Are you still in class at this moment or are you having a presentation to give soon :)?
  10. I Dont understand πŸ™‚ If you are reffering to me then I did complete this semester and is now on summer holiday. The reason I write the lack of focus is because I still want til spend it, Reading up on lost lessons, But Its difficult to get that done, focus-wise πŸ™‚
  11. Damn this right here, hit me right in the feels fawn. I Think, because I see this quote from you from my own topic makes me Think Its easy to forget What I have already written. Like I am running in a loop. Thanks for showing me. It really helps to see What I have posted myself before. About me calling it moral panic is only reffering to How the opposition to gaming addiction talks about it. Surely Its not because I get panic attacks from wanting to do usefull things with my life. πŸ™‚
  12. Okay then I Think you are doing the right thing already by the therapist. He must be able to give you some Good tools to handle the anxiety when it comes. But of you wonder wether or not you have a mental disorder or if you are afraid you could use the therapist to find out about that too πŸ™‚ And no I Will not be your therapist, But you Can always use is to get some burdens of your shoulders like you are doing now. We Can listen and we Can talk. That Can sometimes mean a World og difference πŸ™‚ the only thing I Can say about the attacks is that they are not dangourus, I have one close to me who gets these attacks usually right after something very joyfull has happened. The person Will start shaking, feel of choking and crying automatically, But always knows that Its not dangourus. That might help you to not fear getting the attacks πŸ™‚
  13. First I gotta ask if the anxiety is the panic attack anxiety or if it is a more general anxiety ? What I tend to do, to feel better in general, is to do something that I can argue to myself is usefull in anyway. I can feel anxious when too much time has passed and I dont feel like I have spent the time on anything usefull. It happens usually when I am bored as well so it might just be moral panic, but then when I do something I find usefull, it really helps. Like 30 minutes ago I really wanted to install some games and play them, but I picked up a book instead and started reading up on fractures in radiology. It could also be to go for a walk and listen to your favorite music if you have some. But again depending on what kind of anxiety you have I hope you can find some way to deal with it or make it go away completely πŸ™‚
  14. Day 12: Summer time is hard to stay focused in. You might think it would be easier but more time just makes me feel like I HAVE to spend it on something productive. Is this a thought that can be categorized as a moral panic thought? This ofcourse is one of those times where I question my own will or need to stop gaming… trying to rationalize why I should go for moderation instead. I just feel like if I do that, then I will quickly get derailed again in terms of creating new healthier habits. Do you guys think that you could just be having moral panic thoughts or are you sure you are addicted in some way to gaming?
  15. I was thinking, do you guys donate in some way? The ones marked green is the donations I have signed up for myself. ALIVE: Blood. In some ways heatlhy. Can be done monthly and is very usefull to make medicin and or for trauma patients and surguries etc. Bonemarrow is donated only if a person needs it and if that patient fits our tissuetype I think its called. It happens extremely rare, but when it happens its also needed very much by the recipiant. Semen is donated in a traditional way and it helps people who are incapable of having children in a natural way, if the guys has a too low sperm count. Also helps homosexual couples having kids if they dont want close donations. Some places they even pay you money for donations. Feces. Might sound gross, but this is a very important donation. They use it to cultivate gut bacteria which they can then put in pills. Its used amongst other things for those patients who had to go through antibiotic treatment, whose own gut bacteria also was killed during that treatment. They use this medicin to recreate the natural gut flora. I dont do it because I am still too overweight to donate. A BMI at 30 or less is required in DK. Hair is donated in lenghts and is donated to make wigs for cancer treatment patients. Its a very good cause and gives cancer patients a chance to feel better about their looks if they are afraid of loosing their own hair. I dont know if there is any monetary motivation to this though I dont think there should be. But if it makes just one person donate and make another patient happy, its worth the money for sure. Organ. This usually only happens amongst family members or to a loved one. I dont think it possible, for good ethical reasons, to donate to strangers or sell your organs. I have never had to make this choice, luckily, but if I were to make the choice, I dont know how I would react to that yet. DEAD: Organs . This is something I do because I dont believe in anything after life and so my parts may be used be anyone ells who needs them. Some people argue that their family should decide wether or not your organs should be donated but I never understood how it would be given less closure for ones family if they knew that not everythig is in the casket with me ?? What are your thoughts on this. All opinions are valid! Body . This might be a little alike donating organs after death but what is meant by Body donation, is a body donation to science. It is properly possible in all countries to sign up for body donation. This is a very wide useage. They can use your body to educate upcomming surgeons, doctors, pathologists etc. They can use it for research like how they make research in forensic sciences. Anything els: Are you donating anything els that is not on the list, please reply and tell us or me how it works and how it helps.
  16. DAY 11: Had to go to the doctors office today to get a bruise checked out on my left calf. I figure one of those bloodsucking bastards finally got to me. Not the mosquito, but a fly that is called "klΓ¦g" in Danish... They are persistent little buggers. Want you lodge your hand at them they dont move a bit, only sometimes but they will come at you the same second they evade your hand. I think the one I pummeled to death got me though. Today, 2 days later, the bite has swollen and is red and warm. I got a perscription for antihistamines and I hope it will work. Other than that I spend the day on donating blood plasma, and I got a little goal that I want to reach a 100 donation, though it might be a little problematic because the sight where they put the syringe is getting scartissue, which means it becomes more difficult to get to the vein, ad it hurts more πŸ˜„ So I hope i will get there before I am all scared up πŸ™‚ 34/100 I was thinking, do you guys donate in some way? The ones marked green is the donations I have signed up for myself. ALIVE: Blood. In some ways heatlhy. Can be done monthly and is very usefull to make medicin and or for trauma patients and surguries etc. Bonemarrow is donated only if a person needs it and if that patient fits our tissuetype I think its called. It happens extremely rare, but when it happens its also needed very much by the recipiant. Semen is donated in a traditional way and it helps people who are incapable of having children in a natural way, if the guys has a too low sperm count. Also helps homosexual couples having kids if they dont want close donations. Some places they even pay you money for donations. Feces. Might sound gross, but this is a very important donation. They use it to cultivate gut bacteria which they can then put in pills. Its used amongst other things for those patients who had to go through antibiotic treatment, whose own gut bacteria also was killed during that treatment. They use this medicin to recreate the natural gut flora. I dont do it because I am still too overweight to donate. A BMI at 30 or less is required in DK. Hair is donated in lenghts and is donated to make wigs for cancer treatment patients. Its a very good cause and gives cancer patients a chance to feel better about their looks if they are afraid of loosing their own hair. I dont know if there is any monetary motivation to this though I dont think there should be. But if it makes just one person donate and make another patient happy, its worth the money for sure. Organ. This usually only happens amongst family members or to a loved one. I dont think it possible, for good ethical reasons, to donate to strangers or sell your organs. I have never had to make this choice, luckily, but if I were to make the choice, I dont know how I would react to that yet. DEAD: Organs . This is something I do because I dont believe in anything after life and so my parts may be used be anyone ells who needs them. Some people argue that their family should decide wether or not your organs should be donated but I never understood how it would be given less closure for ones family if they knew that not everythig is in the casket with me ?? What are your thoughts on this. All opinions are valid! Body . This might be a little alike donating organs after death but what is meant by Body donation, is a body donation to science. It is properly possible in all countries to sign up for body donation. This is a very wide useage. They can use your body to educate upcomming surgeons, doctors, pathologists etc. They can use it for research like how they make research in forensic sciences. anything els: Are you donating anything els that is not on the list, please reply and tell us or me how it works and how it helps.
  17. That is very Awesome πŸ˜‰ Do you know How much that is in kilometers by any chance ? I am just wondering because it is What is used where I am from πŸ˜€
  18. Day 9 - 10: It was a fucking awesome concert yesterday with VOLBEAT!! A few sad things though πŸ˜• It was WAAYY too loud during the warm-up bands, nobody was selling any earplugs either πŸ˜• and then on top up of that we got the seats that where in direct alignment with the sun… We basically got roasted from 4.Pm till 8 30 pm. where the sun went down..But otherwise lovely concert!!:) Afterwards, at around 10 40 pm. we walked a bit and decided to wait for a cap…. like everybody els... We ended up walking in pitchblack to our car and finally got home as the sun was rising again to scorge us πŸ˜„ Luckily we got home time to be able to fall asleep. At day 10 we got home from southern DK to Fyn and just relaxed the rest of the day with my GFs sister who came home with us on holiday πŸ™‚ Gonna watch a movie later all together and get some good sleep πŸ™‚ Gaming cravings are kinda creeping up on me since I have all this holiday time now but so far I havent played yet.. Not that it will ruin everything but I would like to keep it away for at least 45 days, at least… πŸ™‚
  19. Day 8: Workout done ! Shopping done ! Budget done ! Tomorrow me and my GF os going to a Volbeat koncert for the first time in a looong time πŸ˜„ I was wondering if anyone of you guys know Them since they have been touring in USA and other countries πŸ™‚ ?
  20. Day 7: Passed the 5th semester exams today MotherFu...rs πŸ€˜πŸΌπŸ˜ŽπŸ‘πŸ» It has been a Hell of a battle to get through the weeks of this project... we had no Real structure, spend most time Reading up on subjects and rewriting every Damn sentences so it was more academic. So much that we didnt spent much time looking for ACTUAL mistakes in the text. On top of that we had to prepare a 10minute speech about How to perspectivate the project into the Real work and our Line of job. The speech was perfect they Said, But since It doesnt count that much in the overall evaluation, I was still abit away from the two top grades. There where a few mistakes and missing thing in the paper. So all in all everything went Well and I Can now relax and begin my holiday of two months πŸ˜‚πŸ‘πŸ» Hopefully in a productive Way with Reading up on subjects, learning russian and doing sports as Well as getting out more πŸ˜ŽπŸ‘πŸ» I really hope I wont end up spending it playing games πŸ˜• certainly going to do my Best and more πŸ’ͺ🏻
  21. Day 6: Been preparing for tomorrow all day LONG!!! I cant take in much more πŸ˜„ What would you guys do? Would you continue studying if you had test comming up even though you feel like everything is not getting stuck in the head. That no matter how much you read it wont stay?? Or would you take a brake from it or just completely stop and call it a day ? πŸ™‚ Set my steam account up for deletion again today….. I think they are growing tired of me….
  22. I wanted to be a paleontologist for a very long time after watching the first jurassic park movie.. A loved dinosaurs so much. But that only lasted until I found out that there aren't really any dino skeletons in Denmark πŸ˜„ and I deffinantly didnt want to digging for "boring" human remains and history πŸ™‚ So then I wanted to become a soldier which also became a crushed dream when I was deemed unfit for duty do to my surgery not being completely done. Then afterwards I wanted to be a plumber for after I healed up. But that to was an unfortunate choice, since I developed high allergic reaction to the oils and chemicals we use in that job. Real bummer. Then I worked to become a school teacher, teaching natural science classes. But the way the education system works in DK is that you write up for an education (bachelor) then if you get a spot you will have to confirm it. After that all your other priorities no longer counts. But I set yes and 2 days later someone called me and told me I still needed to complete a higher level mathcourse to be able to get that teacher pack with NS classes… Damn it!! But then I crossed my fingers and asked if they could put me on the waiting list for the Radiographer education which was my 2nd choice… And now I have almost completed 5/7 semester and still loving it very much πŸ™‚ Hopefully afterwards I can get access to a program that will make me capable of diagnose digital x-ray of the appendicular skeletal system πŸ™‚ More responsibility πŸ˜‰
  23. Day 5: Workout done! Schoolproject still going... Thankfull for almost reaching my summerholiday so I can read up on this semesters curriculum. It will be lovely but also a challenge to try and not play any games with all this extra time I will have.
  24. Arrgh okay yeah. I am with you on that one. πŸ™‚
  25. Day 4: Today I am preparing for the exams as I will the next 3 days. I am felling more secure at this moment of time but we will see how it goes. Yesterday, as I wrote about a friend of mine who wanted to play Fortnite with me. I chose to honor my promise and played 30 minutes or so with him. Its certainly wasnt anything that made me wanting to game more, since I am really bad at the game and never really played it before.. I personally dont see it as a relapse, because of the situation that it was. I didnt ask for it, I didnt want it, it wasnt for very long time and I didnt want more afterwards. I did it because of politeness and because I didnt want to open up the discussion of my trying to quit πŸ˜• Toodleleew guys !!
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