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It's true. You may not like the followings thing I am about to say, but I'm telling you anyways: God is sovereign over everything in this world. It is up to us to surrender our lives to His hands. I hope you are doing well.

Day 24, 25, and 26 (February 5th-7th, 2019) Writer's Note Sorry, I will be very busy, so I might not update my journal everyday. Thank you for reading. ? How Are You Feeling? It is a bottle full of feelings. Since I am recently very busy, I cannot tell if I feel happy, sad, mad, but I am definitely tired. But by the end of the second day, I felt humbled after being told off by Eve. What Did You Do? Feb. 5 1. I went to college like normal. 2. I spent time with my friends for about half an hour before going home. 3. I had early Chinese New Year supper as soon as I arrived home. 4. I studied and did my homework. Feb. 6 1. I went to college. 2. I studied and did my homework. 3. Eve told me off when I refused the orange juice my aunt gave me because I don't appreciate people. 4. Eve and I talked for the rest of the night. Feb. 7 1. I went to college. 2. I watched a show called Scooby-Doo with Eve and my cousin for about half an hour. 3. After I ate dinner, I went on to take the clothes from the clothesline and iron them. 4. I played Monopoly with Eve and my cousin. 5. I studied and did my homework. Highs (H) and Lows (L) - 24th, 25th, and 26th days of not playing games or watching YouTube. (H) - I did nearly all of my work. (H) - I was much more productive these days. (H) - I unintentionally screamed at class. (L) - I read something inappropriate again! (L) - I don't appreciate others (especially when my aunt gave me orange juice and I don't want to. Eve told me off about that). (L) What Can You Do Better Tomorrow? I should be more thankful and grateful towards others and not being self-centered and prideful.

Day 23 (February 4th, 2019) How Are You Feeling? I feel so tired and sleepy, but definitely not depressed about it. What Did You Do? 1. I had Math first thing. 2. I had English with Nadia and Eli. 3. I spent time with Nadia since all of our friends are all in their classes. 4. I had ICT with Damon and Ahmed. 5. I spent time talking with Nadia, Yuri, and Paul before going home. 6. I studied a bit of Chemistry, English, and ICT. 7. My cousins came over for Chinese New Year Dinner. 8. I studied Math, even though there is no Math the next day. Highs (H) and Lows (L) - 23rd day of not playing games or watching YouTube. (H) - I did all of my work without procrastinating. (H) - I had the initiative to clean up the table after the dinner. (H) - I should be paying attention when Eve mopped the floors. (L) - I responded to conversation too quickly again. (L) What Can You Do Better Tomorrow? The one weakness that I am currently trying to overcome is my impulsiveness, especially in social situations. I tend to go with my guts rather than with my head when I am excited or mad.

Day 22 (February 3rd, 2019) How Are You Feeling? It is pretty similar to what I felt yesterday. What Did You Do? 1. I went to church with Eve and the rest of the family. 2. My grandmother, Eve, and I then went to the shopping mall to buy clothes for Chinese New Year. 3. After we arrived at home, I went on to study and doing my work from ICT. 4. I exercised for about 30 to 40 minutes before reading more fanfictions. 5. I studied Chemistry, but I took a break to eat my dinner before resuming on it. Highs (H) and Lows (L) - 22nd day of not playing games or watching YouTube. (H) - I was back at exercising (again). (H) - I was studying what I am supposed to study. (H) - I followed my sister too often (my copycat tendencies are getting me ?). (L) - I did not consider the prices of the clothes we bought. I have another bad habit in which I let others spend the expensive things that I want to buy. (L) What Can You Do Better Tomorrow? The next time I went to a store with somebody, I should see the price for each product. I also must follow my own path and decisions, not other people all the time.

Day 21 (February 2, 2019) Writer's Note This is actually my double post for today, so this is it without further ado. How Are You Feeling? I am feeling normal, and yeah... What Did You Do? 1. I studied ICT after my morning routine. 2. I did the dishwasher and cleaned the floors of my bedroom and the toilet. 3. After lunch, I took the dried clothes and bedsheets inside. 4. I did some questions for English homework. 5. I had a talk with my grandmother and Eve, who just came from the airport via bus. 6. I did some more questions. 7. I talked with Eve about what has been happening to us lately. 8. We also talked together with my grandmother. Highs (H) and Lows (L) - 21st day (or 3 weeks) of not playing games or watching YouTube. (H) - I did my work from ICT and English (I am finished with English). (H) - I had the initiative to clean up. (H) - I speak while laughing, which is considered to be unattractive. (L) What Can You Do Better Tomorrow? I must not make excuses for continuing my bad habits, which is whenever I responded strangely to many social situations.

@fawn_xoxo Thank you for the encouragement! @JPAO Oh, I'm sorry about that. @Sanraraj Thank you!

Day 20 (February 1st, 2019) How Are You Feeling? I feel happy and energetic during the day, but tired at the night, so I want to go to sleep instead of updating like usual. What Did You Do? 1. I had Math first thing in the morning. I was doing my homework when a student asked me about a math question on the quiz online. 2. I had Chemistry with Nadia, Bella, and Ahmed like normal. 3. I made a comic strip about my friends (both girls and guys) about us body swapping. 4. I also talked with my friends. 5. I had English again with Nadia and Eli. We were working in different groups for analyzing a story called "Cemetery Path." 6. I moved my stuffs back to my room because my aunt's friend is leaving. 7. I checked out some of the journals in the forum. 8. I continued on writing my comic. 9. I did my math homework before going to bed. Highs (H) and Lows (L) - 20th day of not playing games or watching YouTube. (H) - I helped a fellow student with his math problems. (H) - I forgot to organize my stuffs during the break (all of my stuffs are scattered on a particular area of space). (L) - I responded too quickly to conversations. (L) What Can You Do Better Tomorrow? I was about to study, but ending up writing a comic strip. I should be back to studying in the weekends.

Day 19 (January 31st, 2019) How Are You Feeling? I am happy as yesterday and few days ago. What Did You Do? 1. I read the journals in the forum and comment on several of them while I was on my way to college. 2. I had chemistry with Nadia, Bella, and Ahmed the first thing I had again. 3. I had math class and made friends with two girls from Malaysia. I also spot a cute guy during the class. 4. I went to the training session for peer mentoring*, since I am going to be a peer mentor. 5. I had ICT with Nadia, Ahmed, and Damon until 1 in the afternoon. 6. I kept Nadia company along with Eli, Ian, Kelvin, Paul, and Ahmed for an hour, since Bella and Yuri had classes. We talked about the cute guy from U.A.E.** and our crushes and exes. I also told them about my new book (mentioned in Day 3) about my past and current crushes. 7. When they had their classes, I went back to home. 8. I studied, even though I have a pretty long break. Writer's Notes * Peer Mentor: Students that help their fellow students in managing and improving their studies. ** The Cute Guy from U.A.E.: I actually first met him when I was on the Orientation Week's Treasure Hunt. I happened to be guiding his group as a Student Leader. He is actually from Afghanistan, but lived at U.A.E. for a long time. I have to admit that he is quite cute and charming. Highs (H) and Lows (L) - 19th day of not playing games or watching YouTube. (H) - I joined in with my friends when I could have gone home. (H) - I was prepared for most of my classes. (H) - I also engaged myself in my classes. (H) - I made two new friends in my math class (all of my closer friends are not in my math class). (H) - I sometimes replied/answer too quick when someone is talking to me. (L) - I forgot my sunglasses in college. (L) What Can You Do Better Tomorrow? While being busy is good, sometimes I need a break from being too busy, as I tend to forget other priorities.

Oh no, I hope that your mom is doing well. ?

I have to relate you with that. I actually have a detox not only from gaming, but also from YouTube (except for videos from my college). In YouTube, I usually watched funny videos to feel good, but that feeling does not last long. Plus, I tend to laugh loudly, which my relatives I live with don't like.

It's great to hear you that you are happy and content about what you are getting through. Keep it up! ?

I feel sorry for your loss. I hope that you are doing well. Stay strong and do not give up. You are in my prayers. ?

Oof, this ain't going to be easy. I hope that you stay strong in your classes and good luck! ?

@karabas I never heard of a bed shaker before. It must be very interesting. ?

Hey, SuperSaiyanGod, I understand the cravings that you had to go through. I have a piece of advice for you: It's okay to have cravings from gaming, but it's never okay to give in to them. If you do, remember that you are not a failure, and you can rise again after you fall.

I hope thay you can through the detox! ?

Day 18 (January 30th, 2019) How Are You Feeling? I am feeling tired, and yet I feel satisfied as well. What Did You Do? 1. I went to college like normal. 2. I had Chemistry first, then Math, English, and ICT. 3. It was showering outside when I went back home. 4. I made some tabs for my subjects in one folder. 5. I did my night routine (i.e. brushing my teeth) before I studied. 6. I studied English and Math. Along the Day: I also talked with my friends about more of our holidays, classes, and everything that is going on in our lives. Nadia and I also sort of played matchmaker on Eli and a girl in our English class (there are actually many English teachers in our college, so we do not get to see our other friends). ? Highs (H) and Lows (L) - 18th day of not playing games or watching YouTube. (H) - I did not procrastinate again! ? (H) - I approached today with a positive attitude, despite being tired. (H) - I didn't really pay attention on the bus station, so I missed my bus. (L) What Can You Do Better Tomorrow? I should keep up with my positive attitude, and I think that's all for now.

Day 17 (January 29th, 2019) How Are You Feeling? I am feeling very happy since I am back at school. A sense of nostalgia is also burning inside me when I met my girl and guy friends from Intensive* last semester. I begin to be much busier and tired, but I am still content for now. What Did You Do? 1. I got myself ready for college. 2. I had English class with Nadia and Eli (one of my guy friends from my Intensive) at 8 in the morning. 3. I had Chemistry class next with Nadia, Bella, and Ahmed (another guy friend from Intensive). 4. I had a long break from 10:30 to 2:00 in the afternoon. I also met more of my girl and guy friends and we talked about our holidays and schedules**. 5. I had ICT (abbreviation of Information and Communication Technology) with Nadia, Ahmed, and Damon (another guy friend from Intensive). 6. I went back to home by 3:30 in the afternoon. 7. I talked with my aunt's friend. 8. Other than dinner, I was studying Chemistry and Math. Writer's Notes * Intensive: It is one of my college's Foundation programs in which you only take 3 months in the first semester instead of the normal 6 months in the same semester. ** Everyone (including me) in Intensive used to have roughly the same schedules, but nearly everyone has different schedules now. So we have this unexpected (but also special) bond whenever we saw each other and had class together. It makes me want to hug them when I get to meet them again today. ? Highs (H) and Lows (L) - 17th day of not playing games or watching YouTube. (H) - I interacted with my friends confidently. (H) - I paid attention to the teachers. (H) - I adjust my speaking volume appropriately depending to the situation. (H) - I studied without procrastinating. (H) - I talked before my friends finished, maybe due to my excitement and impulsiveness. (L) - I made a mistake in talking about me being sad and mad about the room change with my aunt's friend. (L) What Can You Do Better Tomorrow? My mom told me today that I should be more patient, and I also personally feel that I should be more patient in many circumstances. You can't change yourself overnight, which is why patience is also another key to successfully changing yourself.

Day 16 (January 28th, 2019) How Are You Feeling? I am feeling excited about school tomorrow. Other than that, I had no particular feelings for today. What Did You Do? 1. I used the screen first thing in the morning and read something inappropriate. 2. My grandmother and I walked around the house. 3. I talked with my grandmother, uncle, and aunt's friend for a while. 4. I make a schedule for my upcoming school days. 5. I ironed the clothes and towels. 6. I took out the dishes from the dishwasher. 7. I practiced applying make up on my face. 8. I read articles and stories in the Internet. 9. I packed my bag for college tomorrow. Highs (H) and Lows (L) - 16th day of not playing games or watching YouTube. (H) - I am back to exercising. (H) - I read something that is inappropriate. (L) - I used the screen first thing in the morning and forgot to turn on the lights. (L) What Can You Do Better Tomorrow? I can put my phone far away from the bed because putting it next to bed distracted me from my morning routine.

These are awesome goals! I hope you accomplish them. ?

Day 15 (January 27th, 2019) Writer's Note I actually supposed to write this entry for Sunday, but didn't do so because it was late at night. So this is mine without further ado. How Are You Feeling? I am feeling normal, not happy or sad. What Did You Do? 1. I went to church. 2. My family, aunt's friend, and I went to a shopping mall. My grandmother and I bought clothes together. 3. I washed the laundry. 4. I mopped the floors before my aunt and her friend came. 5. I talked with mom for a while. 6. My grandmother, uncle, and I watched the Men's Single Final in the Australian Open. (P. S. - Djokovic won against Nadal) Highs (H) and Lows (L) - 15th day of not playing games or watching YouTube. (H) - I have the initiative clean up the floors. (H) - I also asked for a tupperware for takeaway without anyone telling me to ask for it. (H) - I feel not as productive in the evenings. (L) - I slept very late. (L) What Can You Do Better Tomorrow? It is similar to what I said in the entry before. I also can and should resist the urge to mindlessly surf in the Internet.

Day 14 (January 26th, 2019) How Are You Feeling? I am feeling normal, not happy or sad. What Did You Do? 1. I woke up like normal, but I stayed in bed because I mindlessly surfed for a while. 2. I exercised again with my grandmother. 3. After my aunt, uncle, cousin, and my aunt's friend left home, I went to iron the clothes. 4. My grandmother and I cleaned the bathroom counter and the room she stayed in after a short break. 5. I read some more fanfictions in the Internet. 6. My grandmother, uncle, and I watched the Women's Singles Final in the Australian Open. Along the Evening: I tried to study the latest concept in this year's math course, but I kept on pausing it. Highs (H) and Lows (L) - 14th day (or two weeks) of not playing games or watching YouTube. (H) - I am consistent with my sleep schedule. (H) - I have the initiative to clean the tables and counters. (H) - I accidentally made a mess in the toilet. (L) - I feel not as productive in the evenings. (L) What Can You Do Better Tomorrow? As for the latter "low," I can plan ahead of what I wanted to do. Otherwise, I should keep up with my productivity and my initiative to do something constructive.

@JPAO I have some suggestions for you to pass the time without playing games or watching TV: - Maybe you can try some workouts and see if they work out for you. - You can always curled up to a book of your choice. - You can also clean anything in your house that you have never clean in months. I don't know if these are going to be helpful for you, but I hope that you are doing well. ☺

Hello there! Welcome to the forum. Ninety days will not be easy, but I am sure they will worth the pain. You are not alone in this. ?

Good luck on your exams! It's really hard to face your problems, but it definitely worths it.