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We need to be strong. A lot of this video game stuff requires time and that's time I don't want to give and money too. Plus it will continue to ask for that stuff years to come if we wanted to keep up to the latest video games. Cool avatar by the way. With religion it can't be forced at all. It's up to every individual to make that decision for themselves. Like how Jesus spoke about how he was the bread of life. Other Christians can't go around shoving the word of God down people throats metaphorically speaking. They can only set a good example, serve others, and present the gospel. Anything else needs to be asked/allowed by the other person listening. I'm for open air preaching, but to me needs to be about the gospel and incorporate prayer. A lot of religions exist, but only one of them has a real relationship with God. God knows we are going to mess up sometimes that's one of the reason Jesus's dieing & resurrection took place besides for our sins to be taken away and to be restored back to God with a relationship with him. Edit: Also it's important to for God to tell us when we are saved/have that relationship. An old evangelist named John Weasly preached the gospel for a couple years without being saved. End of editing To me a lot of Chrisitans need to serve people more and prayer instead of listening to sermons only. (Putting that standard on myself as well) Then maybe people would take us more seriously Short story about Jesus critizing the religious people. One whole chapter Jesus critizing religious people

Day 89 (No Fap Day 67) This week is going well. For some reason I've had a couple video game related dreams especially this past Sunday. I was watching an animated movie and one voice actress sounded familiar from a video game I used to play. So I decided to listen to an old video game interview with her in it. Turns out it wasn't her and it was someone else. Also for No Fap staying away from pornographic material, but on Tumblr someone that posts that type of material liked one of my posts and I saw stuff I didn't want to see, but quickly backed out. Also turns out Tumbler supports that type of posting and even with safe search enabled on the site I came across material I didn't want to see. So I guess I'm never going to use the search function on Tumbler anymore. Tomorrow I plan on taking the Greyhound bus to Missouri for a church conference. Hope to help the church over there and receive any spiritual help that I need and didn't know I needed through prayer. I know a lot of video game announcements happen these coming months so I need to stay strong with God's help not to waste my time with all that mess. Won't count the 90 day detox until the 90th day is over. Hope anyone that is reading this is having a blessed day in Jesus name! <3

What is the name of the app and is it available for Android?

Day 83 (No Fap Day 61) School is over next week. Just need to do an essay over one topic I learned in my linguistic class that changed my way of thinking, study for the linguistic exam, and prepare for my presentation in my programming class (Shouldn't be that difficult already have the power point done). If all goes well I'll be done by Wednesday and only need to other student's presentations the following week. During the week I present my presentation I plan on going to a church/fellowship conference that weekend God willing near Kansas City Missouri. Exit: I forgot to add during this past week. I was listening to some video game music and I wondered if there were extra songs in a bonus world of a game I used to play. So I didn't realize until I finished watching the video, but I was watching gameplay of the game instead of letting it play to hear if there was any new songs. That shows me I can't mess around with that. For me personally I'm going to have give up listening to video game music in the areas I control. Or else it will lead to a lot of past memories and might make/urge me to want to buy a game system or PC game again. I really do appreciate the hard work that goes into making a video game and it's music though. With No Fap I'm usually good at avoiding pornogroahic material, but sometimes on art sites I visit in the galleries of different artists collages some of the preview thumbnails have that material exposed still. Just recently I found out you can set age rating filter, so I'm doing that now to teen only level to avoid any mishaps from happening in the future. Didn't give into masterbuation.

I like that "no gaming = no rage quits" Hope your detox goes well.

Day 75 (No Fap Day 51) Been busy these past two weeks next weekI have a programing project due and research paper. I plan to finish the programing project today. Also I need to finish two book before next week so I can use them as sources in my paper. Been doing okay with being consistent with spending time with God in the morning even if it's not the same amount of time each time by God's grace. Also making some progress with talking to people I don't know. That way I can be more comfortable with talking to anyone and be able to share the gospel without being nervous. Finally with videogames I did watch some gameplay because the guy on YouTube was explaining how people made music in the 16 bit era and I listened to two songs from a video game I used to play. Besides that I stayed away from videogame news videos and interviews. For some reason though a couple days last week and yesterday I had dreams that dealt with videogames, but didn't involve me playing any. Maybe it's my brain trying to have last hooray about me playing videogames obsessively? One final thing is I thought this quote was Interesting when I looked into a certain statement from a video about God creating a new heaven a new earth. " "See, I will create new heavens and a new earth. The former things will not be remembered, nor will they come to mind. " Hope everyone is having a blessed day! (For some reason the bold wouldn't go away on some of my words)

Day 65 (No Fap 41) Just wanted to say this detox is going well. I even forgot a character from a video game I used to play made a crossover in another video game I used to play. (I'm being vague as possible to not be a stumbling block so people don't go look more into the information) My mind is continuing to get much more clearer as I get closer to the completion of this detox and helps out a lot with focusing my thinking towards other things. This week I plan on going to the writing center to get help making a thesis statement for my linguistic research paper. Going to share some verses I really enjoyed last week God lead me to. (Bolding the parts that caught my attention from these verses listed below) " The LORD your God is with you, he is mighty to save. He will take great delight in you, he will quiet you with his love, he will rejoice over you with singing.” " " Let no debt remain outstanding, except the continuing debt to love one another, for whoever loves others has fulfilled the law. " "The soul of the sluggard craves and gets nothing, But the soul of the diligent is made fat. Besides all that above going to try harder with God's help to be more obedient with my mother and also not grumble when she asks me to do something. Since she's only human and no one is perfect besides Jesus when he was earth. I need to get rid of the high expectations I point on her wither that be consciously or subconsciously. Also apply the same to anyone else I know and will meet.

Day 55 (No Fap 31) School ends next month in April so I need to start working on research papers and final projects. My week has been okay watched two documentary about John Wesley and Robert Jermain Thomas. Both were very entertaining and the main things I learned from them is just go out and do it (do stuff) for God. The second thing is as long you are doing stuff for God like evangelism you don't need miracles for God to reach people. Another thing I learned about God from a video was God loves any person I love more than I ever can because his love is on such a higher level and that love applies back to me. This was put into practice when I noticed during the John Wesley documentary I watched wxplained how a gang and the gang leader that were sent to kill John Wesley by a greedy mine owner, since Wesley's evangelism was taking away workers because they wanted to follow Christ, but instead of the gang & gang leader killing him they were converted by Christ's love and how much value he has for them as they were trying to kill Wesley. Hope everyone has a blessed week. Edit: Forgot to add this statement because I'm trying to be honest. Watched a guy talk about video games I used to watch on YouTube. Didn't watch the whole video that had gameplay because it was boring, the guy was expressing mostly anger, wanted to see what he was up/how he was doing, and just watching it to waste time. Then another video with no gameplay, but the same person giving their option about topics relating to video games. Besides that didn't watch any other video game gameplay and didn't have a desire to by a games or game consoles like had in the past recently.

Day 47 (No Fap 23) This is going okay had some struggles/temptations with video games & porn. A thought kept poping up in my head that I should buy a Nintendo 3ds and watch the new Nintendo direct, but I didn't give in. I did read a couple video game articles though. This happened on the half way point of the detox day 45. Also with porn urges came, but didn't give in and start searching for stuff I shouldn't be looking into. Today I plan on going to the library to check out books that relate to learning Spanish. I feel I should pick up learning Spanish as a skill God want me to learn and also because my whole family speaks Spanish, but since I had trouble talking when I was younger I had to focus on speaking English. Yesterday I went to the movies, but didn't talk to anyone about Christ and just a couple small conversations with the staff that worked there about the origins of the theater. Couple last points I wanted to make were I finally made a video I felt God wanted me to make, but never did because I was being lazy about giving away blessings(s) we may have or receive in the future to others and importance of prayer. I heard this phrase while watching a video that relates to what @Cam Adair has been saying about replacing our habits such as video games with good ones. "To overcome a desire you need a stronger desire"

Day 40 (No Fap Day 16) Going to keep this journal short because I want to study for a test I have tomorrow. On Monday I didn't feel good probable because I went to bed late and was worried about my future of what to do next. So I didn't go to my only class that day and instead I read a couple Christians related documents I received in the mail, but never got to around reading. After that I rewatched a mini film about St. Augustine and enjoyed it very much. Now before all this took place during the weekend I was listening to some music from a new christian rap artist I found named "PyRexx". Since I was listening to some of the music through Amazon's music cloud service it also played some video game music I bought in the past. I think that music triggered a want to play videogames or at least watch videos about them. So I almost gave into watching a video game trailer about a video game I was interested in that played as an ad on YouTube. I thought to myself "Maybe if I let it play in the background and just listen to it I'll be okay?". Yet I felt that wasn't the right thing to do for myself and the detox. So I skipped the ad/trailer and watched the video I actually wanted to watch. The only thing I'm worried about really is this linguistics test tomorrow. So I got to go. Hope everyone is having a blessed day today! <3 Bonus: I liked this proverb from the bible that I can put into practice my life more by not jumping to conclusions a lot of the time and instead ask more questions about situations. "If one gives an answer before he hears, it is his folly and shame." P.S. Looks like I didn't keep this journal short.

I think the part I bolded was one of the best decisions you could have made. Asking for someone's forgiveness is important with any mistake that we as humans do a lot of the time. Also I suggest you need to forgive yourself too if you haven't already. I'm sometimes i'm reminded of mistakes I've done in the past, but I can't change the past only what's happening now. I don't know your story/life/background, but I feel people need to make things right with relationships that have tension or that have fallen away as soon as possible. If not it becomes harder to do so. To me one of the relationships that need to be mended is our relationship with God by doing that, people can be changed from the inside out since he has our best interest at heart it just involves trust & quality time with him to influence our self & others in big and small ways. Mistakes helps us to relate people better and give more understanding advice if that individual(s) is about to get into a similar situation. Also i agree with taking one step at a time. I liked this quote. "Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own. " - Jesus Edit: I forgot to add once anyone truly asks for someone's forgiveness from the heart then they did their part and if the other person doesn't forgive then the person asking for forgiveness as nothing to worry about. Since they made an attempt to mend the relationship and paid back for anything that was done wrong if possible depending on the circumstances. From there just try not to make the same mistake and treat the person how you want to be treated.

I try to read at least two chapters a day. I will still read other books, but only ones that relate skills I want to learn now or in the future. Just right now I feel God wants me to focus on the bible, instead of the other Christian/bible related books I own.

Day 32 (No Fap Day 9) This week is going by pretty well. I was hanging around some friends from school on campus in the lunch area. I saw about two to five seconds of Minecraft gameplay didn't play any because I didn't want to play and my friend was playing that game on his laptop. With staying away from video games and not spending lots of time looking up video game information such articles, forum posts, and other media types I've noticed with my mind it's easier to focus on subjects when I need to focus on something. The main thing that still need to improve on is studying habits. When I used to game a lot I would mostly never study and now I guess don't know how to get into the habit of studying? Maybe because it's work and part of me finds it boring, but it needs to get started or else nothing will get accomplished. My bible is going well. I plan to start reading the bible from shortest book to longest book in that order. With pursing love interest I"m not really feeling it. Would be nice, but I'm sure that's way back in the priorities of things to do right now. Trying to improve talking with people I don't know. Right now I attend this BSM (Baptist Student Ministry) event on campus each week. Helps me share my faith and build talking up with people I don't know skills. Would eventually like to not have to attend an event to try to start a conversation about my faith and other topics. I think this not trying to reach out to people I don't know and being somewhat afraid/shy about is just all in my head. Needs to get overcome hopefully this year because I have a goal I want to achieve this year that relates to talking with people. Another thing I'm trying to implement is not being big headed/cruise mode with pride, videogames & masturbation urges. If I have that mindset it will make it much easier to mess up and fall. I liked this small passage about being humble and the funny thing is part of it has a verse I was looking for a couple weeks back that I couldn't find. "The highway of the upright avoids evil; those who guard their ways preserve their lives. Pride goes before destruction, a haughty spirit before a fall. Better to be lowly in spirit along with the oppressed than to share plunder with the proud." Edit: Hope everyone's game detox is going well and God bless you! :)

Thanks for the answer.

don't dissapoint the fanbase (eager reader here). Seriously good that you are back here! Was there a trigger for your relapse or did shit just overwhelm you?( if i may ask) Did you mean to quote me and not Marchosias?

keep it up. Really enjoy your writing style it's expressive, to the point, and descriptive.

Study for 7 hours wow that a lot of time. Hope your studies go well.

Day 25 (No Fap Day 2) This week is going okay. Besides me falling into sin (lust/masturbation) on Monday. I think it happened because I was bored and I know didn't try hard enough to stop myself when there was more steps to stop myself that could be taken that were available to me. So I'm committing to a no fap now. Currently on day 2. With staying away from videogames I stayed away from playing and watching any videos. I did scheme the first paragraph of an article though, but decided I didn't want to waste time reading the entire thing. With school I have two exams coming up in the next two weeks. That I need to study for so I can not be so worried about taking them. So I decided to return this Viking history lecture series DVDs back to the library so I can be more focused to study for the exams. Another decision I decided to implement is to no longer read any books besides my bible unless it's a gift or has to be read to learn for a job/certain skill. There has been some people God has used like George Muller and Smith Wigglesworth that made a similar decision. Also the founder of the Salvation Army made important point that he wished that he read the Bible more even though he read a lot since he was an evangelist/Preacher. Whatever a person gives up for God he will give back in interest, but Sometimes it's in ways a person doesn't expect. I feel like that's what God is leading me to do. Here's a quote from Jesus I feel relates to the decision I want to commit to and going to take his word for it. (For some reason it copied the red font as wel where I got the quote from) " “Truly I tell you,” Jesus replied, “no one who has left home or brothers or sisters or mother or father or children or fields for me and the gospel will fail to receive a hundred times as much in this present age: homes, brothers, sisters, mothers, children and fields—along with persecutions—and in the age to comeeternal life. But many who are first will be last, and the last first.” " I really enjoy these journal enetries/posts and might post more during the week. I try to write in my physical journal each day I have and I feel both journals are helping me express my thoughts better.

Thank you for the info.

Day 19 Well so far so good. Doing all right staying away from games by not playing or consuming game media/info/forums. One thing I noticed though is for some reason in my youtube feed and other things when I search the internet video game themed ads or videos appear when I'm not even trying to look for them and are suggested to me. Pretty suspicious. School is going ok for now and seems pretty stable just got to make sure I have to work on homework and go over material that is presented to me in class. With my spiritual life it seems I'm growing and God is giving me more opportunities for me to talk about him or I putting myself out there too. I'm thinking of seeing this anime movie next month and trying to share the gospel there in some way. Family relationships are healthy and I'm trying to eat more vegetables. With romantic stuff not really pursuing that right now. That's all for now *signs off...*

Day 11 So far so good on staying away from watching gameplay videos and looking up not important information. I did read a brief article about one of the game new sites I used to visit is shutting down and I was trying to listen to a mini sermon while a guy plays minecraft while giving it. I forgot that he plays that game while talking. Since the topic they were discussing wasn't interesting to me and closed the video. Still sticking to dedicating only two hours per week for entertainment type of videos. So I watched about six episodes of an anime this week. Also I finished reading "Misreading Scripture with Western Eyes: Removing Cultural Blinders to Better Understand the Bible". Really good book and has helped me more self aware of depending on the culture certain things of the bible can be overlooked or made less important. Like how time is viewed in the bible and how Jesus dealt with people by a honor & shame culture viewpoint. Now I'm reading "The heart of John Wesley's journal selected edited by Percy Livingston Parker". With completing this detox I hope to have a clearer mindset and video games having less control over my thought life, actions, resources/money, and time. With all that said I'm also trying to implement finish backlog of books before purchasing new ones and less spending money on going out to eat. School & work still take up most of my time.

DAY 4 I will try to update this journal at least once a week if not more. I'm currently on day 4 now. My main goals is to stay away from playing videogames and away from unnecessary browsing / learning information about video games. So watching interviews reading articles going on forums and learn stuff about video games that don't really concern me anymore because before I would just paid in those things and win sometimes even those particular games I was viewing I had no interest in biology the opinion of people had on those specific games. Goals (ranked in order from top to bottom from most important to least) - Improve my relationship with God and be more open about my faith in public. (I can talk about it when someone it brings it uup, but I don't really start the conversation) - Pass my last semester of school - Learn how to cook well - Prope understand how to clean around my house either by mopping, washing my clothes and ironing them too (I'm pretty sure I rely on my sister & mom to much on this) - Earn a job in my sound Design field (Currently work at Walmart) - Get girlfriend Thank you for reading this and have a blessed day!

Hope your story develops further and enjoyed reading different posts of your journal.

Enjoyed the words you posted in your journals. Hope to read more in the future. Like what you said how entertainment is supposed to be fun, but when are life is that specific entertainment we no longer have fun. I think one could compare this to "you are what you eat". So depending on what we consume weither that be information or food. Too much depending on the context can lead to lack of something else that becomes unhealthy for that individual. One example I can think of is a person works all the time for his family, but doesn't make/give time with his family.