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  1. katsudo19

    Every day is a new day

    Hi Silverlining! Nice to hear that you are admit the problem with shopping. Mind have tendency to want more, and don't believe it. The mind wants always more. And the same time, it wants less. The mind want more because it thing that more will make it happy, it sees possibility in acquiring more, and it thinks that acquiring things will help relieve the uncertainty it feels. The mind wants less when it is feeling stressed and overhelmed, and just wants relief from that difficult feeling. It thinks that if it gets rid of stuff, there will be peace. Maybe the simplify is the only key. Or maybe moderation.
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    14/90 Life is fluid not solid. You must be shapeless, formless, like water. When you pour water in a cup, it becomes the cup. When you pour water in a bottle, it becomes the bottle. When you pour water in a teapot, it becomes the teapot. Water can drip and it can crash. Become like water my friend. Human are adaptable. Look on the Planet. We can live almost on all places on Earth. I think even you put human to hell he will find a way. Like Bataan Death March where soldiers suffered. We must admit that we are weak generation. We give up easily. It's okay. We face new problems and we are in in another environment as our ancestors. We must find our inner strength and have strong why we do what we do.
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    And I'm here crying. Katsudo I will fix you. There's no way back just pushing forward.
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    info Link list

    Useful links about addictions Are You Addicted? Addiction is the repeated involvement with a substance or activity, despite the substantial harm it now causes, because that involvement was (and may continue to be) pleasurable and/or valuable. 1. Addiction includes both substances and activities (such as sex and gambling). 2. Addiction leads to substantial harm. 3. Addiction is repeated involvement despite substantial harm. 4. Addiction continues because it was, or is, pleasurable and/or valuable. An addiction must meet at least 3 of the following criteria. This is based on the criteria of the American Psychiatric Association (DSM-IV) and World Health Organization (ICD-10): Tolerance. Do you use more alcohol or drugs over time? Withdrawal. Have you experienced physical or emotional withdrawal when you have stopped using? Have you experienced anxiety, irritability, shakes, sweats, nausea, or vomiting? Emotional withdrawal is just as significant as physical withdrawal. Limited control. Do you sometimes drink or use drugs more than you would like? Do you sometimes drink to get drunk? Does one drink lead to more drinks sometimes? Do you ever regret how much you used the day before? Negative consequences. Have you continued to use even though there have been negative consequences to your mood, self-esteem, health, job, or family? Neglected or postponed activities. Have you ever put off or reduced social, recreational, work, or household activities because of your use? Significant time or energy spent. Have you spent a significant amount of time obtaining, using, concealing, planning, or recovering from your use? Have you spent a lot of time thinking about using? Have you ever concealed or minimized your use? Have you ever thought of schemes to avoid getting caught? Desire to cut down. Have you sometimes thought about cutting down or controlling your use? Have you ever made unsuccessful attempts to cut down or control your use? Definition of addiction links: https://www.mentalhelp.net/articles/definition-of-addiction/ https://www.asam.org/resources/definition-of-addiction https://www.merriam-webster.com/dictionary/addiction https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Addiction https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=T5sOh4gKPIg https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=66cYcSak6nE https://www.reddit.com/r/addiction/ Internet addiction links: https://nosurf.org/start-here/ https://www.verywellmind.com/internet-addiction-4157289 https://www.psychguides.com/guides/computerinternet-addiction-symptoms-causes-and-effects/ https://www.mentalhelp.net/articles/what-makes-the-internet-addictive/ https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=TAIxb42FjwE https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=trVzyG4zFMU Alcoholism links: https://www.reddit.com/r/stopdrinking https://www.reddit.com/r/alcoholism https://www.alcoholrehabguide.org/alcohol/ https://www.drinkaware.co.uk/alcohol-facts/health-effects-of-alcohol/mental-health/alcoholism/ https://www.alcohol.org/alcoholism/ https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6EghiY_s2ts https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xiK7ONxHErY Video games addiction links: https://www.reddit.com/r/StopGaming/ https://www.psychguides.com/guides/video-game-addiction-symptoms-causes-and-effects/ https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Video_game_addiction https://gamequitters.com/video-game-addiction-signs-symptoms-causes-and-effects/ https://health.clevelandclinic.org/video-game-addiction-is-now-a-real-disease-and-what-help-is-available/ https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=EHmC2D0_Hdg Porn addiction links: https://www.reddit.com/r/NoFap/ https://www.yourbrainonporn.com/quitting-porn/ http://www.rebootnation.org/forum/index.php?page=Road_to_Recovery https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=wSF82AwSDiU Drugs addiction links: https://drugabuse.com/12-addictive-drugs/ https://www.mayoclinic.org/diseases-conditions/drug-addiction/symptoms-causes/syc-20365112 https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Substance_dependence https://www.webmd.com/mental-health/addiction/substance-abuse#1 https://www.drugabuse.gov/publications/drugfacts/understanding-drug-use-addiction https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ao8L-0nSYzg Get up links: https://www.reddit.com/r/getdisciplined https://zenhabits.net/ https://www.youtube.com/channel/UC1KbedtKa3d5dleFR6OjQMg https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCBIt1VN5j37PVM8LLSuTTlw https://www.artofmanliness.com/ https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=oIrT1eHs1b0 https://thenextweb.com/dd/2015/02/18/300-awesome-free-things-massive-list-free-resources-know/ https://www.dumblittleman.com/ http://www.pickthebrain.com/blog/ http://www.lifeoptimizer.org/ http://persistenceunlimited.com/
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    Day 6!

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    12-13/90 So I must admit that I have problem with my weight. I'm 20 kg overweight. My back hurts and also knees. I must create my self workout routine because this is crucial. In the past when I exercising a lot a didnt eat candies or junk food. First exercise then food edit. I created better environment around myself. I put pictures on shelf with David Goggins quotes and on my notice board I put some images about It's time, Do it now and so on. I must be that do it now person because we only have present moment. Past cannot be changed and future is uncertain. I feel pain you know. Especially physical pain. Is a results of my decision in past. This little decision which we make everyday have big impact on us in future. Motivation? Do you need motivation? Really? Nope! You need discipline. I dont know what else write in here. I must go. I am grateful for: 1. Eyes 2. Legs 3. Realization that I have problem 4. Family 5. Job 6. Ears 7. Hands 8. I found picture of Robert Redford 9. Possibilities 10. People with I share my pain on GQ
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    Frank Sinatra - The Way You Look Tonight Johnny Cash - Hurt XS Project Водоворот - Vodovorot Tujamo - Drop That Low (When I Dip) (Bass Boosted) Ben Sage & Subsonik - Fiendin Feat. Savvy Nu Foundation - I Need You Calvin Russell - Crossroads Neil Sadaka - Oh! Carol Journey - Faithfully Bobby Darin - Dream Lover
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    Day 6!

    Some tips from personal experience: A. Change selftalk! I love you, You are good enough, You are perfectly imperfect etc! It's working! B. Visualise. Not to try hard visualisation on things you want or insignificant things. Start visualise how you love yourself, try see your soul laughing. C. Go in front of the mirror and say: I love you and I will do everything for you. I will fix what is need to be fixed. D. Try to change attitude to life. Love life. From every fucking thing that I have tried. This worked! I read your last post. Exactly my situation 2 years ago! Love is the answer.
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    If you like me interested in building new habits try check Transform Your Habits guide from James Clear. It's free! https://jamesclear.com/wp-content/uploads/2013/09/habits-v2.pdf
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    Sometimes ambivalence, sometimes conviction.

    Happy birthday! I must check eye on that atomic habits. One advice: dont search anything game related content!
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    11/90 I bought respawn to support Cam. He make a lot of for us and he deserves the money. Thank you Cam! Real life is better than videogames. Life is not easy but we must dive into our souls and find what we really want to do. Shut down TV, PC, Mobile etc and be alone in your room and start thinking. This is crucial. Yesterday I was talking with my collegue and he started speaking about Counter Strike and what fun he have playing in the past etc. In my mind pop up that was great times. I was aware that I didnt fall to this pit again. And I'm here 11 days free from gaming. Internet is my next goal. I want to use it responsibly with certain goals. Not only to distracting myself. I like that saying take action than motivation. Action for us is crucial. If you read this I want to say to you can to this too. Dont be hard on yourself.
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    10/90 I love you katsudo19 and I'm proud of you. Not for ten days no gaming or whatever. I love you because you are human being. You are good enough! I see your laughing soul my friend. You are preparing for walking on another street. You will fail, fail ,fail, fail fucking fail but then win. Start visualise and affirmations every morning on when you go to bed. Start building discipline with make your bed daily and always brush your teeth. You are perfectly imperfect. You will lose something and gain something. They were wrong about you. You are fucking awesome!
  13. Lea I think that is not good theme here on GQ. Even talking about games give me feelings of nostalgia, and this can be a problem because these emotions create cravings to play.
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    Welcome! Solve your problems immediately or you will struggle in future. I know that I have problem when I was 21 years old. Now I'm little bit older but still have problem with addiction. Internet and games mostly. Dont wait for miracle. Start making changes right now.
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    Day 6!

    I want to say that I was there too! Gaming, porn and emotional music in the past a lot. But what helped me was changing my selftalk. You are good person. I'm proud of you. Theres no shame. And it works. I'm a long way from this way of life but still stumble. Some tips for you: Try checking some books about manliness : Iron John: A Book About Men, David Deida:The Way of the Superior Man Try checking this video: You not be disappointed! Former Navy Seal speaking. Then check some wisdom:
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    9/90 I must admit that I have problem with internet overuse. Again but with minimal subjects of interest. I'm not at facebook, twitter, instagram or whatever. I have only this account and email. Its big step I think. But I spend a lot of time in front of the screen on mobile and computer checking stuff that is not important for me. I think that Cam speak about this. I want to entertaint with myself rather than going do thing which is important. I saw video about quit gaming on his channel and that guy there speak only truth. It's not about only quit different things but rather start new better things and start to go into your soul deeper. You can stop playing games and checking internet or whatever for 90 days. But when you do only resist it will not working. You will fall on this pit again. This is my morning thoughts. I drink coffee and thinking about to stop that terrible habits. I'm not lazy. I 'm working in my job and do tasks on 100%. I am responsible for 250 tons of copper every day. But in my free time I'm still that undecided person, which dont go on 100%. At home I do not finish things. Ahh man. You would rather spend your time in front of the screen and staring at imaginary things and mostly be entertained with stupid pictures, youtube videos or shows. Are you fucking me? Or watching girls behind the screen you never ever meet in future. Man you must start growing and do things. You like drawing, listening music even reading books. What the hell are you waiting for? In this life is not miracles or easy things. Yes we all know easy way but. But it end in hell rather in heaven.
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    8/90 Not much to said. No games or searching for it. I'm little bit nervous because I must go to work often. You can be an average person and still be a hero because of your decision. Nice quote Lea. Today I will sell the last one of my gaming equipment. I'm going to pay attention to myself especially what I want to do. I'm going to relax.
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    7/90 I have problems with my car. So that's pretty awesome to my budget oh that irony. Problem with the pump I guess. My boss give me more tasks so I'm happy again 😄. Not the end of the World. Gaming is dead for me. No cravings. But I must still be aware and be careful. The most worries me overweight in number 20 kg above my normal weight. It's snowing AF. More things to do. Where is my shovel?
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    [HEALTH] Absent-mindedness

    Original for you. Check: https://nosurf.org/2018/08/28/how-the-internet-changes-your-brain/ Is better than you will see yourself... 👍 I'm not good in explaining because my English is not that good. Thank you for your understanding.
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    [HEALTH] Absent-mindedness

    Stop using internet mindlessly. Your brain is desensitized so you must stop rape him with dopamine related addiction. Perfect example is 9gag. Check: https://www.yourbrainonporn.com/tools-for-change-recovery-from-porn-addiction/rebooting-basics-start-here/desensitization-a-numbed-pleasure-response/
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    Day 6!

    Be good on yourself. For me is PMO linked with games and internet overuse. Allow yourself M and O with your fantasy instead of artificial stimulation. Is worth it because you feel better about it. You are man and you have your own needs. Respect that. Forget video games. If you feel desperate or angry try to go out of the house. Its works for me. Mein freund Ich denke, du kannst damit umgehen. Versuchen Sie, diese schlechten Gewohnheiten zu ersetzen.
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    Purpose in Life

    Hey! We all was on that place. You must find yourself what you want to do and try it. Try check List of hobbies: https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/List_of_hobbies My hobbies: A: Listening to music - Try build audiophile system with accessories B: Drawing - I just started C. Animals - I'm keeping animals: 3 cats, dog, snail, fish, rabbit, hamster and bird. (The whole family is involved)
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    6/90 Pretty good day I guess. I was drawing some things or trying to draw is better description 😁. Drawing apple, cat, banana even owl. Is not easy but practice make this perfect. Interesting thing is when I searching tutorials on web and then trying to draw or draw them completely I feel good, like be in flow. I think this drawing thing is very therapeutic. After that I was pretty interested in dj technics. I was looking at dj console, programs and videos on youtube. Pretty interesting thing but I dont know if good for me. I and learning to DJ? AFKM 🤣. So one free day remains and show must go on. Tomorrow I going to work.
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    Hello Everyone!

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    Fawn_xoxo daily; thoughts, goals & evaluation

    But by now it's rather obvious to you who's reading this that my journal has stopped being about games for quite some time. Awesome! I think this is main goal to replace video games for another habit. And detox is not abstaining from games but replace them completely. You should keep writing here. Myself have problem with overeating etc so some people more resonate with your story than others. I read in someone else's journal that they can't enjoy anything Yeah first steps is little bit hard but I suggest those people to take action and then motivation. Not vice versa. Not every day do I feel powerful and motivated and on top of the world, Its absolutely okay. Just keep going...