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    So after thinking about what will be my next steps I decided to seek professional help. I'm quitting forum. It helped me a lot but I need to go further and internet will not solve my problems. Guys you are so amazing community and you struggle a lot. I wish you only best. And finally solve your crisis. Much love.
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    I experienced incredible emotional pain and numbness. Man if you are struggling like me check some tools and wisdom which I'm going to try. A. If you don't know what is your purpose try to meditate alone at night. Focus on breathing. Calm your mind. Then observe your past, present and future. Give it try. It will be amazing experience. B. Problem with emotions. If you igrone your emotions they will be stronger. Dont try to run away from your emotions. Accept good and bad emotions and observe them. What causes it? Heal your emotional state. Make it agile. C. Passive lifestyle is killing us. We need to go outside, to forest or whatever. And execute our inner dreams and plans. D. Action=Reaction ; Invest=Harvest E. It's okay to be vulnerable. I recommend ted talk The power of vulnerability | Brené Brown F. Courage - the ability to control fear and to be willing to deal with something that is dangerous,difficult, or unpleasant: G. Give back. If you solve something or know solutions for problems of other people teach them, support them or give them tips. H. Pain is the great teacher. We all must go through pain.
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    48/90 Emotions hit me so hard yesterday that I almost relapsed. It's the warning signal for me that I'm making huge mistakes on my road. From today I will not using GQ on daily basis. I spend a lot of my time last week on internet that I did't spend in the whole month. I made some stupid decision and ignoring my new path.
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    Moving on

    Hi Vera! It's okay to feel lonely, powerless or sadness. Observe them and make them working for you. Fill your void with love. I recommend to you movie Spider-Man: Into the Spider Verse. Have you seen it?
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    Day 6!

    Admit that you have problem, love yourself unconditionally and solve your problems. I give you truth. You are here so long and you only bitching. Get your ass up and do what you exactly need to do and you know it and you still procrastinate. Dont be like those people who trying to give up games but they never will. I have time man. Today I will play a little or PMO a little. It's okay its normal and you will be in same situation for next 10 years. Its scary AF. Keep in mind! After 5, 10, 15 years you want to be that guy who tell everybody excuses and still living in self destroying habit loop? Look at the mirror bro. I wish you much love and strength.
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    Playing Multiplayer Games "Alone"

    Dude if you can regulate it then feel free to play. If you cant just dont play this stupid games. Example: If i start gaming again I will sacrifice all of my time, money and effort to games.
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    47/90 Loading.....Access to better future granted....Building in progress
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    Habit building books

    Check http://psychclassics.yorku.ca/James/Principles/prin4.htm Author: William James - The Principles of Psychology, 1890, chapter 4 Habit. Timeless thing.
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    Day 6!

    Man must develop mind, heart and willpower. How are you? Things going well or you fall repeatedly? You are Old Timer here. I know the struggle man. We both know. But you need to create new dirkj3 with certain vision and goals. I wish you much strong as you can possess. You are good person. I wish you my best bro. Maybe this interview give you more hope:
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    46/90 I had a dream about gaming again. I think that I was playing Warcraft 3 or something similar. It didn't scare me or disturbed my emotional state. What I want to expect? Years spent in the front of the screen. Self torture as well. It gave me something? Yeah. In these days I love myself or trying to learn how to love myself. I learned what does it mean discipline, selfawareness, meditation, human needs etc. I learned that I can change some things in my life, my attitude to certain things. I learned that human being is extremly adaptive to enviroment. I learned about the brain a lot. I learned what impact have PMO on us. What impact have emotions on us. Maybe is the best thing that ever happened to me. I learned a lot from it.
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    Dealing with though times

    How can I "survive" this week ? What can I do differently ? I think you know the right answers and exactly what you must do. I am already DOING most of what you talked about. Perfect. But instead of worrying try to find solutions. I sometimes overdo it with answers and advices 😅. Bear with me.
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    Dealing with though times

    Are you hearing yourself? Your only thoughts it's about worrying about relapse. You don't love yourself enough. Because you don't do what's important to you because you point out only excuses. Look at the mirror bro. You are like man I know everything so why to try something? Don't be like that. I think you are great person which can create value in life. You have creative solutions for your problem but you are waiting for something. I wish you much strong as you can possess.
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    Dealing with though times

    You need vision. Who you want to be. This is crucial. If you don't have vision and you are bored or feel sadness, loneliness etc you will do what you are used to do. I will give you some tips: A. Love yourself unconditionally B. Check some great stuff on youtube channel https://www.youtube.com/results?search_query=impact+theory C. Morning routine D. Read. Recommended book MINDSET: THE NEW PSYCHOLOGY by Carol Dweck
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    Never Ever Give Up

    I want to give you hope and encourage you to be the best version of yourself. Never ever give up. Push, push even harder. All of us was in the very dark place. But this experience dont define us. We can learn from it. Start climbing up and bulding the strong version of yourself. Transform negative to positive. If I can do this you can do this to! All of you have big potential. If I can stop gaming, exercise, read books, eat healthier, using internet less you can do it too. Love yourself. You are very beautufil persons! All of you. I was broken, mind washed zombie who wanted to kill himself. Today I'm inspired by US NAVY SEALS. Discipline is the key. No motivation. Action is imporant. Discomfort is crucial. Be strong.
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    Journey to my white coat

    Deku you can do it! 🙂
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    44/90 I need to set my mindset to growth mindset. What is growth mindset? Growth mindset: the understanding that abilities and intelligence can be developed. People with a growth mindset love new challenges and view setbacks as opportunities to learn. Make it happen.
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    Dear Diary...

    Back in the days when I do a lot PMO I realized from today's perspective it was purely runaway from my emotional state. When I experienced sadness, emptiness and loneliness I wanted to runaway from this feelings and only porn can calm me up. Allow yourself to love yourself and fill the emptiness with love. You are beautiful person and you can create value in your life. This is not lie! This is pure true.
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    Moving on

    Vera good work! I would really like to read some thoughts about Stoicism from people experience. Keep it up!
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    43/90 Keep moving forward. Not much to say. I need to think a lot.
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    I'm glad

    It's okay to relapse. Just give yourself time to think and remove any game related content from you life. You need build new person which go for another street. You need strong why you do this! You need vision of this new guy who can create value in life. Be strong.
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    JustTom's Journal 3

    I love myself with my cons and pros. That's all. @JustTom Accept yourself with pros and cons. Tell yourself at the front of the mirror I love you! After some time tell me results.
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    42/90 Incredible. After all I had done and learned first idea which came to my mind in the morning was you can play Fortnite little bit. It's okay. I will tell you it's not okay. From 10 minutes will come 10 hours, 10 day, 10 months etc. Then I will buy both consoles to satisfy my appetite and hit more and more dopamine. I will literally spent thousands of euros to gaming and game related content. And you will forget which is important in life. No way gentlemens. I learned from the past. This is crucial for me to understand that is no way back to my old life. I sacrificed my past habits to the new way of life I started building. It's easy to find excuses. It's easy to give up. But not this time. Fuck weakness. Embrace pure act of willpower. We will see you later.