Samon

Yea, thats the sad truth. I dont had any online gaming friends, because I used to play league, and there no many friends you make. But I can understand you. I have literally the same issue, but with real life friends who gamed with me. Since I dont play league or any other games they play, we have 0 contact anymore. And those are my "best" friends. Just with one I have still contact, who quitted league too. Thats sad, but in truth I knew always I cant rely on them. Just thought maybe they gonna improve with time as a human being. But now I am there in a really bad time of my life without any good friend(excluded family of course), because I wasted my time to hope my old friends could improve theirselfs. But I think its time for me and you to push those regrets away and simply dont think ppl will care about you, when we already know they will not. And if we see we cant trust them, dont wasted time on them. keep going man you are doing good

Had to smile when I read that you type "reflexively typed those urls". Not because its good, but it exactly the same too me. Feels a bit sad that our body is so used to that, but in the other hand very interesting how it learns However man I wish good luck, staying from games is one thing. Many people here only have a problem with that, but I think as many people also are having issues with surfing in general. Youtube, reddit etc. those are critical sites. Or just mindless browsing. Cold turkey with that is so hard, because you dont know what to do with your time, and you think "wtf i really want to check those sites now to feel pleasure". It needs time till your head adapts to the fact you will not get dopamin instantely. Looking forward to see every day a post from you here :)!

Its hard to keep on track when you are having a bad time, i know that. But you have to stay strong!! Especially I feel you with the lol fact. Many games make fun, they give you a good feeling, so you get addicted. But lol, its different.. It let u feel worse, because you lose mostly 50% of your games, and so you feel shit in 50% of the time. But you still play it. So its somehow easier to stay away from it, but still so hard, because the game itself is very addicting. try to write here again daily, so you can get some positive feedback again :) it helps as you know

Thats what I tried too some months ago over and over again. Fix times, clear what to do lists. Sadly I never followed the plan... Of course it could work now, but I simply dont think I can get up and do instantly my work. I agree completely with you, but currently I doubt I am ready for that. 16/90 without any LoL Content | Played Instrument: Yes! | Coding: Yes! | Learned for driving license: Yes! | Writing in my Journal: Yes, right now! First day overall less then 5-6hours entertainment at the display. Still much, but compared to a "normal" day its ok I think. Woke up and usually grinded online. I set me a time when I wanted to start with my work and stop the computer grind till a specific time a evening. I think its nice for me to have done that today, usually when I tried that, I relapsed instantly at the same day. But all those new things I do help me so much against boredom so it was not so hard today. I will try to keep that up. Yea otherwise nothing special today I think. I tried to tune my instrument today again, nearly broke my string, but all good. Coding went a bit better today, I have now found some sources on my own. So I can do my things again like the days I started with it. Learning the new language today had not so much progression, I teached my little silbling in it, I think that counts too, but not so much progression for me. So yea I am still searching a chance to spent more time outside my house. Overall a good day again, but it still doesnt really feel good. Although I know it is way better than before. Its a bit paradox, somehow I feel it was good, becaus I made so many productive things, but still I think I have done nothing because I didnt game(=no much fun as I could have). I read those kind of feelings in many journals here. So I think thats normal at the beginning. Thats all for today, see you tomorrow guys

Welcome :)!

Keep going! You are free from games for so long now, and I am sure you will keep feeling better with the days. Probably you feel disconnected because gaming give so much input in so low amount of time. Like you can meet 100 friends at once etc. RL is a lot slower and sometimes not so impressiv. Especially when you gamed a lot and you are not so connected to RL. But thats just a lie, because the RL is the thing that matters, and as soon as your body adapts to different way of getting happy moments(less dopamin in less situations, but overall more happiness) you will feel a lot better.

15/90 without any LoL Content | Played Instrument: Yes! | Coding: Yes! | Learned for driving license: Yes! | Writing in my Journal: Yes, right now! Hey all, I think the day went good again. Did my stuff like planned, went to the meeting as mentioned. Today I decided to start now the general detox of surfing in the internet. At least particulary. I plan to wake up and have 1 or 2 hours of free time, where I can do w/e I want to in the internet. After that I want to start my tasks. Most of them happens at the computer, so usually all 5 min I go and do non-work things at computer. Need to stop that, and I will try to. So I want to start with my work and finish it without procastrination. I think I will have a lot of time after that. I am not sure what to do then. I am currently learning a new language, so maybe I invest more time in that. Oh and I definetly need to do more programming. However I will see how to fill my day wirhout surfing/playing/evertyhing else at computer/smartphone/tablet. At the evenings I plan to have then freetime again where I can do w/e I want to at computer(of course no LoL or so, the detox will still going on). Thats the plan for now. If I make this, i will reduce the time maybe a bit step by step. I dont want to delete the time completely, I think a bit dose of internet is not that bad. Just dont overuse it. But of course u need to be reliable for that. Thats all for today, see you tomorrow guys

14/90 without any LoL Content | Played Instrument: Yes! | Coding: Yes! | Learned for driving license: Yes! | Writing in my Journal: Yes, right now! Day started not so good, was lazy and surfed much. Usually I do learning part, and playing instrument as soon as I can so I am free for the rest of the day. Because you all know, if you have work to do you cant really relax until you do it. So I want to do it at the mornings as soon as I can. However it got afternoon till I started with my things, this lead to the point I couldnt exercise so much on my instrument today :/. Will try to do it better tomorrow, because in afternoon I have a meeting. Today I remember a story which is probably 1 year old. I had to learn for an exam and I had done nothing until to 2 days left. I remember that I worked okay on the first day, at the second day I wanted to start to learn at morning right after I woke up. But as always I grinded the whole day in front of league or computer in general. So I decided to not sleep this day. It was no problem, but even then I didnt learn. I made one game after another, so barely learned half of the time I had. So I went into the exam, failed so hard and I thought "this cant go on like this" however it did for 1 more year. And the results are so much worse than one failed exam. However today I want to do better and those stories remind me of how important it is to dont relapse. Thats all for today, see you tomorrow guys

Thank you. You are right, I want to achieve my goals so I need to do something for it. Thats true. Its not like I didnt do anything for coding lately, just not as much as I wanted(1-2hours daily). It somehow feels bad that I said days ago that I shouldnt wait for the material but I still didnt manage to search stuff on my own. I doesnt blame myself that much this time, because I used my time for other productive things. But still had enough time to do that too. yea and you all know, sometimes in life other things stress you also. But I should believe in my own advise I give other people here: Its easy to stay focused when life goes great, but you need to stay focused when its hard too.

13/90 without any LoL Content | Played Instrument: Yes! | Coding: Yes! | Learned for driving license: Yes! | Writing in my Journal: Yes, right now! Not much to say about today, did my routine, sadly still no much progress at coding :/. However wanted to play and watch some LoL again, those feeling are not so often, but sometimes they come. Need to stay strong. I will keep going. Thats all for today, see you tomorrow guys (hopefully with more text for you!)

Welcome back :) Keep write here everyday, and I am sure you can make it!!

12/90 without any LoL Content | Played Instrument: Yes! | Coding: Yes! | Learned for driving license: Yes! | Writing in my Journal: Yes, right now! First day for a long time in which I really feel a bit of "busy". You know, most of the people when you ask them whether they want to meet somewhere and do something will say 'sry I am busy'. Prolly 90% lies at that point I think, I mean who is productive the whole day and has absolutely no free time? However this day I was a bit busy, woke up and played my instrument, after that went outside for some sport actvities. Its cold, so no much fun, but still worth it. After some relaxing, eating etc. I went straight to my drvining license stuff. Right in my learning session I started to learn with my friend french. He is studying it and cant really get started with it. I have time and a bit experience in the language, so I help and we learn together. So every day 1hour there too. Not sure whether I take it in the head of my posts, because its no personal target(i.e. If my friend doesnt want to learn, i cant force him so I dont learn too. But maybe i will do it for myself then I will do it solo too of course, Lets see). After that finished my drving license stuff and watched a vid about coding. Tips in general. Like I said yesterday I still wait for some learning stuff a friend wanted to send me. But I shouldnt rely on that. But today I haf not much time to search for things. So I am just on a low level dose with coding currently. But at least I can say I did something :D. Thats all for today, see you tomorrow guys Ps: Just a reminder for me. I wrote some days ago I missed a meeting, I have it this week again, so I need to keep that in mind. So I write here so I check tomorrow the exact time again. :)

Nice you came back. just read a post of an other guy, who play league much. Like me, like you. LoL is really addicting. So dont think you are alone with your problem. Maybe it helps you to write all the negative things about league down(those emotions when u lose a ranked and you think 'why am I play this shit?'). Furthermore its super important to use your time in a different way. If you have simply nothing to do in the day, you will surely relapse and watch streams and play lol etc. So focus on different hobbys and things you want to do at the day. One thing is coming to this forum and check ppls journals, taking positive vibes of their experience, write in your own journal etc. it helps much. i am sure you can do it mate. Maybe you want to delete your lol account? But like you said, there is always a way back(smurf etc.)

Welcome! yea LoL is a really addicting game(I do my detox currently specificly from it). I think no no gamer person will understand why a stupid rank in this game matters so much for yourself. Gaming addiction is a problem, but specifically gaming games like LoL is so bad for yourself, due to the fact its mostly frustrating than funny. W/e great you are here!

Its simple to stay focused as long as everything goes well irl. Why should we go back to gaming, mindeless surfing etc. when everything works great irl? Mostly we waste our time, because there are problems which we dont want to face. So its absolutely normal that you dont do that good like before you came into this stress with work etc. But hey? You came into a tough situation and you didnt relapse. Thats fantastic! Keep that in mind. but yea, bing watching shows etc. is definetely something which you shouldnt do too. Maybe you have something in mind you can do at such days(stressful days) which is more productive but still makes you feel good(without much input)? Could be anything. Think about it Wish you the best mate, maybe my advice helps a bit. I will follow your journal, ill look forward to (postive) updates!!

Welcome! Nice words, motivates me while reading it. I am super sure you WILL do it. You have the right mindset and you quitted even worse addictions than gaming. So try to keep tracking your process(maybe in a Journal) and keep be motivated!

Yes, thank you fawn. I need to use failure as a way of improving and do it better the next time. Its not that I get angry everytime when I lose. Its mostly in some specific situation. Like playing real life games with friends or family, losing there makes me angry. Or losing at sports against them. Of course also in games like LoL etc. thats why I hate lol so much, its no fun, just makes you angry. Well, back to my day. 11/90 without any LoL Content | Played Instrument: Yes! | Coding: Yes! | Learned for driving license: Yes! | Writing in my Journal: Yes, right now! Overall a good day again, I think. Woke up and did some exercises with my instrument. I am on a good way for a selfteacher I think. I dont take lessons because simply no cash and I think I can do it on my own too. But 1-2 lessons wouldnt be bad I think, because some basics are important. Yea but I am a shy guy, so everything which is new and involves other ppl is a bit hard for me. Not that I have a problem woth socializing, but the first time is always a bit hard for me. We will see. After that I grinded at internet 2-3 hours And I went to learning for my driving license. there are 1000 questions I need the answer to know, so I aim daily on 100. takes me 1-2hours I think daily, its possible. Didnt do something in programming till now, but I will at least do something(reading articles etc.) so at least not nothing and I can say I did something :). Pretty boring journal post today, I will try to write more interesting things which happend during the day next times. Or maybe some gamer stories which show me that I should stop gaming(so somehow a motivation for you guys too). Thats all for today, see you tomorrow guys

Get well soon mate!

10/90 without any LoL Content | Played Instrument: Yes! | Coding: Yes! | Learned for driving license: Yes! | Writing in my Journal: Yes, right now! What can I say about today? Overall good again, I think. Haha, somehow I cant describe it in another way. Wasted some time at the morning at computer, feel bad about it afterwards. But then I realized it was just 12AM so no reason to stay lazy the whole day. So I tool my instrument and started to play(lol sounds like iam showing of with that, athough its probably the easiest thing for the most of ppl). In general I have somehow a problem with showing off. I usually doesnt speak much about my succses in life, because I always think it brings me bad charma. Its funny, because I am really not the guy who wants to show off, but sometimes it happens that i talk about positive things in my life and then I ask myself did I really need to say that? Or was it just showing off?, sometimes I am not even sure by myself. But back to my day: I play my instrument now since 1-2months I think, and I thought I try to tune it. It was sold to me "ready to use" so I thought its already tuned. But it seems like It wasnt because I tried to tune it with an app and literally every note was wrong. After I made everything correct(tuning is really ez, I thought i could break a string but went all good luckily) the instrument had a totally different sound(in a good way) Didnt play much after thst, so I look forward to tomorrows playing session. Yea then some hours later I started to learn some questions for my driving license. There are 1000 questions in total, i made 60 today I think. So I gonna try to push it to 100 per day, so I am done in 10 days. Should be possible. the teaching my parents part didnt went as I thought, because they were busy. Try to tomorrow again. They need to get routine too :D. coding: not much today, a friend wanted to give me some informations on a new subject. But still waiting for that. So I judt read some articles about it some minutes ago. I think its ok, didnt sneak my through it, simply had no material. But tomorrow gonna again teach myself. I think I do good lately. Coding, Instrument, Learning, Teaching... Lets say I do all of that for one hour, that makes 5hours of productive things. Thats great for my standards. I know thats normal for "normal" ppl but not for lately. Thats all for today, see you tomorrow guys edit i forget to tell a story, will do it tomorrow but for now i want to introduce a new list i want to keep on What have I learnt about me today: - I hate to lose. Sports, Games, Grades, everywhere. In some situations more in some situations less. But I shouldnt get so emotional about it. Instead try to work on me, and improve myself, so next time I can win. And if not, its np anyway, as long as I try to improve me. Thats all that matters

Welcome Bod!

9/90 without any LoL Content | Played Instrument: Yes! | Coding: Yes! Really short today, because I am in bed already. It was a good day I again overall. Today I decide to do my driver license in the next months, so need to start with studying soon. I want to start tomorrow, so this will be a next key element of my future days. The more I fill my day the less i waste time on computer. So its a good thing. Furthermore I want to teach my parents in some stuff, because they didnt get much education back in their childhood. And you are never too old for education, you know? So I want to do that everyday for 30-60min. So I doesnt remember anything else what I wanted to say, just thanks to whoever reads my journal :)! Thats all for today, see you tomorrow guys ps: I should start to write Journal: Yes/No in the head of my posts, because its a target too. So here the reminder for tomorrow

8/90 without any LoL Content | Played Instrument: Yes! | Coding: Yes! So what can I say about today. I had an important meeting but I thought its today although it was yesterday. Need to take more care of such things. I tried today to stop mindless surfing at least for half of the day, worked, but not soo good I wanted too. Instead I practiced a bit more with my instrument. Didnt make much progress today, was a tough part I had to play today. Will try it tomorrow again. I didnt code today, instead I informed myself about new modules etc. so I think thats all right too. Need to find another project I want to make. Most of the things I have in mind are too hard for me currently. But I do a lot of research like today to keep getting infos how to do it. Yea at the evening it was pretty much only browsing, youtube, some chats etc. nothing productive :/ This has to be my next target. Thats all for today, see you tomorrow guys

Hey, I think its the right decisiom! And I am sure you can do it. Just try not to focus on work the whole day, spent some time on funny things, get a new hobby etc. You usually play games to get your dopamin, so could turkey to a work beast(at beginning no dopamin) is hard. But see how it goes for you. Just wanted you keep that in mimd.

Thats the right mindset! Whenever it gets hard, write here! It helps. Keep it up mate

Hey, nice that you came back! i feel you with your problem, that gaming is not such a huge problem like youtube or mindless surfing. Its the same for me. But currently I dont see how to get away for it. So I just started with a specific game detox(lol) and all of the content related to it(i.e. Youtube vids about it) is your friend an online friend or do you know him irl?