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Vera

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  1. Vera

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    The day is going well so far. I'm not that sore after yesterday's workout, and I worked pretty hard. I haven't found a way to keep track of my food so I just eat what I know is good and don't bother a lot about it. My knees bear all the load pretty well, I don't feel pain or discomfort. I should start to plan my vacation. It will require a visa, so I need to gather up all the info. I finally got back to coding tonight. I wanted to play words game with someone, but it seems that I have to do it alone, so I spent the evening trying to create a simple words game. I feel so lonely it's just ridiculous. Better get to sleep now, before it gets worse.
  2. Vera

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    I finally got 500 points in Forest. Time to buy a new tree and aim for another 500 points!
  3. Vera

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    I went to the gym today and had a really good workout. My mood instantly improved, I even enjoyed the day until it was time to discuss certain things with my family member. I couldn’t care less about it, but constant, day to day talking and planning and dwelling on it makes me cringy and irritated. Why should I constantly pay for what I don’t need? It makes our relationship so artificial, I sometimes think that she prefers the thing to me and it makes me sad, anxious and tired. I’m having a hard time fighting for myself, trying to keep going, to not fail whatever I still have, I just don’t have enough energy to care about her plans, especially when it’s simply forced upon me and I give up because it’s easier and she stops poking me with a stick once she can have what she wants. She says that she does it for all of us, but I don't enjoy it at all. And she doesn’t even understand that I agree not because I really want to do the same thing, but because I want her to leave me alone. So I’m tired and sad again, but I had a smile on my face for some time and I consider this a win.
  4. Vera

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    I am in a bad mood today. I woke up feeling absolutely broken not only because I'm sore after workout, but because I can't bring myself to do anything. I spent some time reading my diary and I mentioned being tired in almost every entry. I sleep well, but I still feel tired. I tried to do something with my hair, do a simple hairstyle, but gave up because I couldn't do it properly. I stopped studying at the same level I used to, I was able to do two hours of coding after a whole day at work, I don't do that anymore. My first step is to actually start taking vitamins and see if that helps. Maybe some sleep is also good, but I doubt that.
  5. Vera

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    Went to the gym and did my usual workout. It was fun, but hot weather feels even in air conditioned rooms. I was weaker today, probably because I spent quite a lot of my strength on 40 min cardio. I'll try to do cardio after weightlifting, it might be a nice change to my routine. I'm starting to feel lonely and it drags me down. I am at a weird spot right now, I'd like to find a boyfriend, but doing so requires putting myself out there and I'm not that confident. It's complicated because I feel like I have a lot of things to deal with before I'll be good enough to actually start trying.
  6. Vera

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    I was outside for pretty much all day. I don't like sun baths so I was sitting comfortably in a house and knitted for quite a while, waiting for the sun to calm down a bit. I was in charge of the BBQ today, and it went well. Meat and fish were both tasty, I had a bit of fun with my family, but I was bored in the evening. Watered plants, helped here and there, watched yt, listened to the audiobook Im trying to finish for quite some time. Nice day. No gaming related content, no urges.
  7. Vera

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    @Ikar your story is a sad one. But you are alone now and you have all your time to improve. If anything is positive about being single, it is freedom from worries and overthinking. I appreciate that.
  8. They seem to make your last days as bad as possible... Keep holding on! 🤗
  9. Vera

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    @Ikar hate is part of the coping mechanism. When I was dealing with the breakup, I hated my ex. I used it as a fuel to move on from what was tearing me apart. There was no other way to avoid depression, fear, guilt, and shame. I protected myself until I was able to actually shake the weight of it off my shoulders. And it worked really well since I'm not depressed and I don't have painful flashbacks all the time.
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    Hello! I finished the 90 days several days ago, but I had no idea, I don't count days. I pretty much moved on from gaming. What about you?
  11. Vera

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    @Sapuverell I don't speak about all games. I only think that games designed to work against their players are bad.
  12. Vera

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    Bought the new shoes for the gym and had a nice workout yesterday! I've worked overtime yesterday, so didn't have time to take a walk today as I wanted to. But I'm not sad, I've done most of the day to day things I have on my to-do list, and I can go to sleep without any worries. The day was good. I keep an eye on news about the gaming industry, it's pretty interesting how AAA titles just crash one after another. This gives me no urges at all. I consider it disgusting to play such games now, they are filled with shady practices and hooks and tricks to make you spend as much money as you can, without giving you a really good experience and fun.
  13. Vera

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    Life happens! I got sick, then got better, after that had a good day and a bad day. I sleep better, try to watch yt less and be more mindful about what I eat. I still struggle with the gym, but I'm doing what I can, even if it is just showing up and doing cardio. Something is better than nothing. Watching gaming-related content makes me have urges and it also disrupts my focus and makes me tired because I have to fight with my urges instead of doing something productive. But I get over them every time without installing any games. I talk to people, look for new things to do, complete my to-do list as much as I can (the key is to have a small to-do list and a few things you know you like to do when your main tasks are complete). Time flies by with such a speed that small things really do add up, it is not a lie. Therefore showing up and making the most out of my time is important. The first Seneca's letter tells me how precious our time is and how much of it I spend doing unnecessary, empty things and self-sabotaging myself. What else can I do to make today count?
  14. Vera

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    Saturday was busy, I was helping my family and didn't have much time to do my own things. I had enough time to reflect on how many pointless and harmful things people do that are just a tradition. But I had a good Sunday. It was hot outside and I walked around for quite a while, ran some errands and bought new sunglasses. I was shocked by the prices, but I found cheap and decent-looking ones. I am bored out of my mind today. I guess I broke youtube because there are no more interesting videos on my feed! So I check it from time to time, but it's pretty pointless and adds nothing to my life. I need to quit it too. Checked out last Cam's video though, it was quite good. I liked that he stressed the benefits of quitting gaming once again and in a very clear way, that was a useful thing to hear.
  15. Vera

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    Planning helps. I stick to my simple routine and keep going. I usually start with the default list of things I need to do, like go to the gym or study a chapter from the English grammar book. As my day goes on, I can add different things, something to buy or a task that I would forget about quickly if I don't write it down. I also use Forest for two hours straight in the morning and it gives me time to work without any distractions. Or rather it forces me to do boring tasks I postponed yesterday. I have more than 400 points so I'll buy a tree soon. I also try to figure out how to use Memorion, the app itself isn't that straightforward, but I like it.
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