GLawrence

What should I do? My friends recently found out that I deleted my steam account. They're all contacting me (And each other, as I have come to find out) about how 'stupid' it was to have done something like that. Also, I recently got a hair cut, and have been styling my hair very diffenrently from how i used to. They're on about that as well. What should I do? I'm unable to make any move, as that have me seemingly surrounded. They're all gamer friends, but I've done other things with them all of the time. I feel really stuck.

I'm sitting here, just got back from school and am home alone. Everybody's chatting about the new map and battle pass in fortnite in school and online. It was my primary game for the last 3 months. I've got physical stress building up from a god damn game. I never thought that this would happen, hell, I wasn't even sure if I had a problem with my gaming a few days ago (before I started). don't know what to do. help.

I'm Gabe. I live in the US. Lately I have been working with a lot of self help youtube channels/websites. I am a high school sophomore, and have been really screwing up my scores this year. My family has a history of addiction problems, and I have come here to help myself turn to a life that involves less distractions, so that I can focus on what's real and what matters. Thank you all for being here. Wish me luck :)

Day 1: I am feeling relatively okay. I have been working on DEVELOPING a game for today instead of playing one. I'm hoping that with all of my thousands of wasted gaming hours, I can use the experience to turn them into something substantial that can even make me some money. Eventually, I'd like to move away from games, and towards other software. I felt a some of withdrawal-y symptoms earlier, but nothing too bad yet. The only real concern that I have is what I will do if somebody invites me to play. I have watched Cam's videos about that, but I still feel uncomfortable telling my friends that I'm not performing in my (and their) primary leisure activity. Day 2: Today, I had to be taken home from school. I was feeling more anxious than I have in a long time. Maybe the Gaming abstinence is beginning to catch up to me. Day 3: I'm feeling better with the anxiety, but today I'm feeling possibly worse. I don't really feel much of anything... I have done several things in the right direction (calendar, trello, etc), but nothing is actually changing. Maybe it's my tendency of needing instant gratification (supplied by games) from everything that is making me feel this way. The reason why I have started this is because I wanted to fix up my school scores, and keep my priorities (...school, not much else...) straight. First day of proper withdrawal shit.... fuck me.