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  1. A bit late, but I guess better late than never. I've got lots of stuff for uni to do - so I'll do some Sound design for a Unity game and also animate a 3D Parkour run 😄 Other than that, I'll spend some of my free time climbing with my flatmate and finish some last preparations for spending july helping out at a farm in the mountains.
  2. Soooo many things to be grateful for, how can I decide which three are worth mentioning?! My database professor, because today, when I was waiting for the exam to start, he joked about having to send me out of the room because I surely wasn't the student he expectet, after receiving a 4 year old photo of mine (that didn't look ANYTHING like me today) and not recognizing me and with this taking away most of my nervousness. Being healthy. After spending the last week mostly in bed, I was reminded once more, that healthiness is probably one of the greatest gifts one can have. Because it makes soooo much more possible. All the people close to me at the moment and those that I still have to meet. @James Good Which part of Asia do you want to move to?
  3. Hey, well something a little different then my normal philosophy of life. I try to not have a clear future in mind normally, because I believe that as long as you make the most out of every Moment (with your Goals in mind), life will bring you where you'll need to go - often in a crazy unforeseeable way. But I'll just give it a try . I wake up being hugged by my gf and licked all over my face by my pet dog - a german shepard or something like a corgi. Time to get up, prepare breakfast together: tea, toasted bread and some eggs. Also feed the dog. Then get out for a run through the forest next to our quite small but cozy house and a round of fetch or tug of war. After all that running around and rolling through the dirt I take a shower, put on some comfy clothes and start working on some freelance work - mostly leveldesign stuff - sketching and blocking. At About 1 pm I start preparing lunch - something simple but tasty like a salad. After lunch it's Training time with my best bud. Afterwards, back to work until my girlfriend comes home from work. The door opens, I climb down from my "Office", kiss her and we start cooking. Candles are lit, the fireplace is crackling softly. We enjoy the candlelight dinner together and finally we enjoy the evening either dancing, playing some Music on the rooftop or all three of us cuddled together in front of the fireplace.
  4. Yeah, a lot of people think that it's better to just focus on one thing and become an expert in that. In general I agree and envy those people too, but a workaround that helped me to push through those losing interest phases was to learn something similar which can also be useful in the activity I want to but can't solely focus on. For example, learning climbing when being stuck with parkour helped me a lot with wall control and now I can learn new (wall-focused) skills in parkour again. Those skill on the other hand seem to also help in climbing. --> Fun-fact: You can actually see influences from other sports in someones climbingstyle. Same applies to drawing and animation. When I last lost interest in drawing for some time I switched to animation. The new knowledge about dynamic posing in drawing really shows in my animations. In Short: yeah, even if people like us can't stick with one activity I think working on different activities that focus on similar principles can help achieve mastery nonetheless.
  5. Parkour, Historical Fencing, Climbing, Drawing and Painting, 3D-modelling and -animation, UI/UX design, Programming in C#, C++ and Java, just to name a few. I also tried out a lot of activities, that I didn't stick with - playing meditation flute being one of those - that I want to get back to later, but don't have the capacities to keep doing atm. Also, I plan on learning carpentry once I finish my BA and MA in Mediadesign and -technology. And then use that knowledge to fullfill my dream of converting a van into a camper van. I think learning something new every now and then is really important. Stopping to learn new stuff is like a shortcut into a depressed state for me.
  6. I got a glimpse of what life could be like, when I spent a few weekends with a group of strangers. And I saw something in them that, at that point, I haven't seen for a looooong time. They were happy, motivated, proud, sometimes silly but most of all, they felt alive. At that time I still wanted to see the world burn. I hated society and people in general at that point in my life. The people that surrounded me, only caring about money, talking shit of others (as long as they weren't around of course), living a live they weren't happy with and so on (you get the picture). But that three weekends literally changed my life. I wanted to become like this group of people. So, I started working towards that, and one of the steps needed was exchanging gaming for something that made me truly happy.
  7. I'd start by trying to find out WHY he plays in such excessive amounts (escape, boredom, playing with friends, showing off - just to name a few) - without understanding that, just taking away the computer will most likely not help. Also, I think Cam's got a video about that topic. I'll link it later if I find it.
  8. Yeah, Asia would be soooo interesting to visit. But I'd rather go live with some monks for a few days and visit some villages in the countryside rather than spend the time in the big cities. In my whole life I've only visited ONE "big" city - Dublin (which isn't even that big) - but I did feel unwell the whole time there. There's just too much there - people, buildings, traffic. But, yeah, I totally agree that when travelling getting to know the culture is an important aspect.
  9. THX, stupid me, I even wrote that damn word twice today… Yes, using that time productively is hard but at least today I've got something to completely obsess over for some time. Doing some animation work while listening to music is like shutting out everything around me. Only danger are responding times when asking something about the rig I'm working with (no one is answering for the last few minutes 😧 ) what are some places you'd like to travel to?
  10. I can see clearly now… (Yes, I'm still referencing a song I heard a week before in a movie and since that, I probably listened to it a hundred times --> clearly by Grace VanderWaal, check it out, it's amazing) My whole life I've spent in comfort of a warm home, enough money, hot showers, food as much as I wanted, and so on. This week's question of the week got me to think about that, no idea why. But when I read those entries and wrote my own I noticed something - NONE of these entries are achieved by living in comfort. We have to get past living in safety, comfort and "chill", but rather get out and live life FEARLESS, COURAGEOUS and ADVENTUROUS. So, I've made a decision, this summer I'm going on an adventure. I'm currently indecisive about either walking the GR20 route across corsika (about 15 days) or a 7 days route across the alps. Hopefully getting to know some other travellers and improving my photography-skills. When I told my flatmate about it, his reaction was like - you insane, you can't just "walk Europe's hardest fuckin' trekking route" without any trekking experience. Well, maybe he's right, but if you don't try you'll never know. Also, it's not like I'm not in shape. I've gotten bouldering experience, so the climbing passages shouldn't be a problem too. I ran 18 km today on a trail today, so the daily routes should also be do-able. The only thing I'm not so sure about is the constant stress of walking for 2 weeks straight. Well, I still got some time to train my endurance. And in the worst case, the still is the possibility to take a day off. If there's anyone with experience walking long distance trails, I'm happy for any insight. Now to other currently more important stuff: I'm still trying to find a good research topic for my "Bachelor Arbeit" (sry, don't know the translation). 😧 I'm leaning towards something about story writing. Also, I've totally not spent enough time on this semester's media project, so I'll focus more on that the next few days. Alltogether, I can say that I should spend more time on university again. I've become too lazy again… THAT SHIT GOTTA STOP - so from now on, NO daily movie nights with my flatmates anymore. Lying around, drinking and watching movies that I don't actually care about, THAT'S NOT ME! That's just society's pull to become part of their crowd. Have a GREAT, AWESOME evening everyone.
  11. Hey, If you really can't get yourself away from videogames, maybe try taking a short timeout from tech. I'm going to spend a month off grid at a farm in the mountains. So that the only things to do will be working during the day and drawing or playing music in the evening - Working just for food and accomodation. Getting yourself into a situation where you'll be forced to doing something different. Doesn't have to be a farm, just a new situation for you, without access to technology. But as @zeke365 said, it won't solve your problem in the long term, just a little timeout to give you a little starting help.
  12. Hey everyone, Those weekly questions were a great idea, keep em coming! So, heres my list: Design and DIY-convert my own campervan and live as a digital nomad for at least a year. While doing so travel through Europe. I think it'd be sooo romantic, sleeping in a cozy van and travelling around. It must be so freeing. Of course there are downsides to living in a van but I sometimes really HATE being stuck in one fixed place. Build a relationship with a person that I can share my life with. Be it a girlfriend, best friend or travel companion - doesn't matter. Already beaten my social anxiety, now there's only extreme shyness and an inability to open up to people that are in my way. Couldn't be that hard, could it? This one actually builds on the second and first one. Camp at the feet of a beautiful waterfall together, sit at a campfire, play some music and just enjoy the moment. @James Good omg, yeah, even though I don't like Twilight, that house looks soooo damn cozy. Waaaay more attractive than the shiney vampires :/
  13. Another day in paradise (or so it goes), I've started writing a new short story. Wrote the intro and I'm already in love with the project. Aiming for a very immersive POV for telling the story. Genre is mystery. Also randomly changed my plans today because the weather was soooo amazing. Went for a short hike, climbed some boulders and I challenged myself to talk to a few strangers. Ended up, showing a father and his two kids what "bouldering" is and what that weird rectangular thing I was carrying on my back was (my crashpad) 😄 Then I got home and watched "NextGen" with my flatmate. The story is soooo emotional and I LOVE the characters. It's a real piece of art and I'll totally recommend it to ANYONE. GO WATCH IT! And that's about it. Good night
  14. Hey, Since I just came back from climbing and my hands and fingers burn like hell - totally worth it - I'll keep it short Currently I'm animating a 2d game character's movement - running- and walkcycles, jumping, landing and other movement stuff, mixed procedural animation for the hands on some points. Tomorrow I'm going to grab my camera and take some reference footage for the moves ( ^^ those parkour skills really come in handy from time to time). Really enjoy game animation for now but will hopefully transition back to 3D animation for movies in the next few weeks. And parallel to this I'm riggining a 3D robot arm for later Animation-exercises. Hope you all have a great eeekend.
  15. Hey, everybody! Going to visit my parents this weekend. Willst spend some time there and use the opportunity to meet up with some friends who live nearby. We'll probably go climbing on Saturday. Sunday's reserved for starting to work on an animation project and maybe a board game with my parents and grandma.
  16. Hey, It's okay to be angry. Acknowledging the feeling and working through it by writing everything down is a great way to deal with it. Especially because you reflect on why you are angry at yourself and thereby you also learn what you are not happy about and what you have to change. 🤗 I wish you all the best
  17. Good evening @James Good, thx for the 200 words a day info - hadn't heard of it before. Sounds pretty interesting, I'll definitely check it out. Today I trained Parkour with our local group. I was surprised, people actually asked where I was the last few weeks. (had to take a break from Monday-training because of university times) So, taking your advice on experimenting, I'll try to get more integrated into the parkour community while at the same time actively taking some hours every now and then to be alone. Yess, just stay persistent and don't give up. Sooner or later you'll conquer that v3.
  18. Hi, It's a mixture of feeling like shit and enjoying life at the moment. On the one side, I am crushing it at university at the moment. Currently working on a UI-Design assignment where we have to analyse Steam and redesign the desktop app. I really enjoy working on it. Considering what features would be great to have access to with one click, which aren't that important and can be hidden in a sub-menu and which type of interactive elements could be used to spare place while not interferring with functionality. Also beat the last "1" and "2" routes in my bouldering gym this weekend, at which the whole group I boulder with was stuck for about 2 weeks now and I also sent some 3s. My fingers looked like crap afterwards - skin hanging off, blood dripping from one finger - but i went beyond my limits and I'm proud of myself. Furthermore I'm trying to be more social than I've ever been. I'm even spending time with my flatmates. We watch movies in the evenings, go climbing together a few times a week and we even started sharing meals. But at the same time I'm feeling more isolated than ever. My best friend's got less and less time now, that he has a boyfriend, with quitting the HEMA-club I've trained with for over a year, I've lost most people who understood me and the few people I meet up with from time to time live half-a-days journey away. I got invited to join some fellow students for lunch and beer on Tuesday, so I'll see how that goes. Also tried online dating again. But most women I wrote with either are boring people following mainstream culture or very self centered. To wrap it up, I think I'm just not made for being social. Maybe I should just quit trying and enjoy solitude. I mean, people say I'm insane for a reason - even in the bouldering group. I'm the one who keeps coming back to hard routes, that none of us can do on the first try, and therefore I often end up solo-training for a while, while the others move on. So, with that said, I'm closing this VERY self centered journal entry. Good night everyone.
  19. Hey, some days have past since last entry. For the last week I've taken an important decision that I should have made some time ago. I decided to hang my Sword on the wall. Since I've got classes nearly only in the evenings, I can't attend Sword Training (again) so I'll set my Focus to climbing (especially bouldering) and Parkour - which is waaaay more flexible because I can Train in the morning. I'm also back to being quite comfortable with who I am. Since I'm constantly trying to improve myself in art, school and sports I finally got rid of the feeling of not accomplishing anything in my life again. And even my social life is having a Comeback. Found a few People to boulder with (even someone I've normally nearly no contact with), I've met with some Friends and I've spent more time than ever with my flatmates.
  20. Started reading through the whole Metro series again. I love the criticism about society and the still existing hope, even after all the tragedy, in the characters. Also I just started understanding some of the hidden meaning behind a few of the chapters, that I just didn't see when I first read it.
  21. Hey guys, I think it's time for an update. Life's going quite good. Finished all open assignments yesterday. The next weeks will be waaaay less stressful. Two weeks ago I went skiing (the outtime from working on schoolprojects really saved me - I felt like I was going nuts after days of getting up, working, going to sleep) and lived with some friends for a few days. Already happy to see them again soon. I already started forming a group for next semester's big media project. I'm soo much earlier than normal and HYPED to start working on it. Also I'll do some (paid in food) stuff for my Cousine. Other than that, I'm still drawing and writing (will share my newest very-short story below). Also, I've decided to start actively making decisions and taking initiative more in my life, instead of just going with the flow, as long as it doesn't go exactly the other direction as I want. And here's my Very-Shortstory: The fires of War My breath standing in front of me like a wall of fog slowly drifting away. In the distant, flames are slowly crawling up the valley. The warm reflection on the snow would give quite a sight, but there’s no time for looking. Just running, one feet in front of the other. Jumping over bodies, swords and sometimes feeling the painful sensation of an arrowhead piercing into my bare soles. “Easy Money” they promised - Only idiots would fall for that. Immediately I start laughing. Pickpocketing some noble at the market, that’s easy. Getting them to give up their belongings, especially their fancy armor, after they got slaughtered turned out to be harder. As the stonewall in front of me starts to come closer a slim dark hole in it becomes visible. Not entirely dark, there’s a faint glimmer inside. Someone made it back before me. I just hope this someone already started preparing stew. With that thought I hear a deep growling. I look down on my stomach. No, that aint the source of the sound. Driven by instinct I instead turn my head back and stare into the sky. A black shadow moves in the clouds. I drop everything. My feet become faster. Left, right, left, right... The growling gets louder. Only a few meters to the stonewall now. “The Gate! Lower that goddamned gate!” Luckily, they hear me. Not so lucky, the someone stands besides the gate lever… and doesn’t waste a second. Instantly the glimmering hole becomes a grey wall. And on that grey wall my silhouette appears, surrounded by a red shine, until there is nothing left, that could cast a shadow. And so, the fires of war devoured another life. Let me know what you think of it.
  22. Hey, If you don't mind eating the same thing for two to three days, I'd advise you to check out one-pot recipes (Like chili con carne, mushroom stews and stuff like that) - Spending one day cooking for an hour and then not having to worry about cooking for the next two days helped me get away from ordering food without spending a lot more time on cooking. Other than that, fish filets, pork chops and similar combined with a few freshly cut vegetables and some spices make great fast meals.
  23. @Brian Thx, hmmm I don't know if it's noble or anything but if more people would show their real personality, skills or whatever the world would be a richer place - because I believe everyone has something unique to gift to the world. And it seems that the unique traits are those that connect people. For instance, I drove someone home today and during driving we got to talk about storytelling and I told him about the story I'm currently writing (which is something I NEVER wanted people to know about, since a lot of people think if you're not a best selling Autor it's weird to even try…… that's actually what someone who saw one of my earliest stories said). Turns out he plans out stories for self made minecraft maps and everyone was hooked to hear about the other's stuff. But it doesn't even have to be something like art or anything - if you're a history-fanatic, great with dogs, or whatever that's something only YOU bring to the table - so why not show it. @Lea Thx, maybe it helped and it actually turns out to be a positive grade. The questions were destroying. Coding in C++ but with pen and paper. 😕
  24. I don't think that quitting ALL THE TECHNOLOGY is the answer. Just think about it, quitting something always comes from a negativ feeling - and as long as you don't fill that gap with something positiv you'll probably won't get happier. --> check out cam's video about the "growth mindset". In my opinion a better way to deal with it is to quit specifically the things you're addicted to and replace them with something you love (and makes you happy) AND really fill the time you gained from quitting with that positive stuff - and STICK TO IT - starting to make excuses like "na, I've got so much time now that I've quit (insert whatever you quit), I can watch a bit more YouTube" is not quitting in my opinion but rather shifting your addiction from one to another.
  25. Day 4, Tomorrow is the last exam of this semester. It's on of those weird ones, that you don't really know what to learn. So I went through the whole presentations once more and worked through the exams from the last years. Additionally I've helped out some some class mates if they didn't understand something - seems to have helped me to make it stay in my brain too. Work on the 3d assignment is making progress - not as fast as I'd hoped, but I'll just have to keep it up - I've talked to some of my classmates and compared to some of them I'm quite far it seems 😕 The last 2 days I didn't feel that good - stomach ache 😧 sucked but I'm feeling good again I also continued working on the character design - it's looking good so far, so next step will be to make a real drawing out of the sketch and then I'm totally gonna write a short story with the character as protagonist. SOOOOOO hyped for that. Challenges to face the next few days: - exam tomorrow - birthday party of a friend on Saturday (looking forward towards meeting a few friends of mine again - though anxious because there'll be a lot of strangers there) Now I have to get back to learning and maybe take a walk cya
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