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Thanks for the meditation man! Yeah I've read that it could be my weak core muscles that cause my lower back pain which is definitely the case because even before I started doing barbell movements, my back was a killer. Also could be that I sit too much and don't stretch. But day by day I'll get there

Alright went to the gym, made lunch. Didn't do well on squats, but hit a bench PR and did a lot of accessory work. Overall, not a bad workout. Going to do some homework, hopefully finish a history assignment today.

Hahahahah, same here! If I can get my school work together before summer, I'm there!

I'm not sure why. It's not really emotional, rather it's because I was watching streams on the game and it made me want to play again. I've already decided to stop so I dont get tempted again.

I was about this close to buying a game account and start playing again. But it's a good thing I came to my senses and didn't in the end. Going to start doing some work now, sleep early today and the gym. Missed today's session because I was lazy and slept in. No more excuses, it's been too long since my last workout. I'm thinking I do my weight lifting routines on Mon,Wed,Frid, and then cardio and acessory work on the Tuesday, Thursday and Saturday. Then rest on Sunday with stretching at home. That way I can be active 6/7 days with light rest on Sunday.

Alright, slept at 2am yesterday finishing my math. Yesterday, I'd give myself a 6/10 in terms of work, diet and progress made. I'm really tired today, so I'll end up sleeping early and then hitting the gym early tomorrow and then some work. Feeling much better

Definitely. Espcially with my primitive understanding of politics, I get so interested that I can't focus on my work. Need to save it for the weekends or later. Just got home from school. It was a fairly productive day, I had a lot of seminars and group work so right now I'm focusing on getting one math assignment done and then either a history or physic assignment in.

Alright I'm going to start calculating my daily performance out of a maximum score of ten. This should make it easier for me to calculate my performance and satisfaction each day. Will edit this post before I sleep and give myself a score and summary of why. Oh, but my ice fishing trip got cancelled because there isn't any ice to fish on Alright, so it's 10pm, going to get ready to sleep. I didn't do as much work as I intended and I spent way too much time reading on what a caucus is and all this going on with Iowa rather than doing work. Also watched a twitch stream which was a stupid idea... However, it is the first time in a long time that I'm actually doing work at home on a weekday, so it's not a total loss. To clarify, I think reading about how the world functions is great, but at the moment I have other priorities with school that are way more important. Total work time : 1 hour Entire Day Rating : 3/10 - Could've slept more, done more work, gone to the gym. However, diet was solid today.

Didn't even think about waking up early. Love waking up really early and then the mornings don't feel rushed and I have a clear mind throughout the day. Thanks Cam! Also going to sleep earlier, probably a good 10-11pm and then wake up at around 7am which is about 30 minutes earlier than usual. Also going ice fishing friday for a school trip, so I'm pretty excited for that :DDDDD

Alright so today I did some calculations and there's about 1800 hours of awake time until the last day when I can hand in work. I have about 700 hours of work left, so that means I need to spend 39% of my awake time on homework. Here we go! I'm going to start stretching and meditating before sleeping to reduce stress and to calm myself so I can sleep better. Wish me luck ):

Hey Cam! Man I've relapsed so many times and each time it's really due to all of the reasons you've mentioned. With all this school work piling up, I'd be a liar to say it's not stressful, but I've come to realize at last that that's life, it's my fault and I need to take responsibility for my actions or lack of. I do get bored easily, but I would say it's because that I'm so used to playing games all the time, so in time that should be fixed. I'm always anxious, but other than my work, I don't know why. I hang out with friends at least once a week or twice, but I still feel lonely for some reason, even though I have really close friends - I think it's a matter of perspective. I think if I can finish all this work, my life will be much happier and I can focus better. Let's see if I'm right. Going to work as hard as I can for the next month and catch up. I was listening to my grandmother and man she is amazing. Her life was so much harder than mine and had way more obstacles. Listening to her story made me realize that I have nothing to be upset about and I just need to man up and do the things I need to do. Day by day~

Oh man... I did it again... Played through Fallout 3, and spent way too much time in the last 2 weeks on this game. Thankfully, I still got a decent amount of work done and still going to the gym. Need to stop again and honestly, I felt so bored playing them again. I still need to do more in life because I feel like I'm wasting my life away. Something I failed to mentioned before was that my mother had an asshole of a boyfriend. He still talks to her and every time I see him, my blood boils. I don't want to get too much into him, but he's a good reminder that the real world isn't easy and I will be a loser if I continue to play games so much. Starting my 90 Day Detox, again :\

Hey Cam! Thanks for asking Week's been really good actually. Hit a squat PR at the gym, overall feeling stronger, I started stretch and foam rolling and my mobility is getting better. Went out with my family and ate some noodles today, and they tasted amazing. I still have a lot of work left to do, but I think I should be caught up in the next 40 days or so if I work hard enough.

Mainly just because I felt I had the time, but really I don't. I have tons of working piling on top and I need to spend my time more wisely than video games. So I went on Facebook today, which is something I don't do very often now because it's such of a waste of time and honestly the amount of rubbish on there is astounding. But I did see what I looked like 2 years ago from Facebook telling me. Saw my old friends, how happy I was and even how much healthier I looked. I'm by no means obese, but I've gained around 40lbs in the last 2 years and most of it is fat. So I want to look like I did 2 years ago. I want to travel like I did 2 years ago. I want to do well in school like 2 years ago. Let's do this! I've also stared a sleeping ritual where I don't look at my phone after my nightly shower and so far, I've fallen asleep so much easier. Things are looking up! I've kept to a vegetarian diet and slowly I'm losing weight and I've held to going to the gym for 3 weeks straight. Small steps everyday.

So I just played video games again. I spent the last 3 hours just playing and I feel like I just wasted a lot of time. I'm still trying to sell my accounts and so far, there's no luck. I've dropped the price of the account so that I don't waste anymore time on games. Man, pretty disappointed in myself at the moment.

One week in! I'm really happy I came to this forum because it helps me keep track of my progress and notes and also the great support from you guys! Went to church again today then ate out with church friends like last sunday. There's a huge snow storm outside right now and I love snow storms because I live in Canada and snow is like our life essence. Did a good amount of work this week and went to the gym three times. It's a good start, but I need to work harder. This week, I want to finish 1984 by Geroge Orwell, and start The Power of Habit by an author who I can't recall right now. Here's to another week!

Hmmm... that's very interesting actually. I guess I'm always stuck looking at the big picture, I fail to realize the small things I have to do. I want to : Finish 3 units per course in school Lose 5 pounds and get into better shape & eat healthier Read 2 books Small goals Thanks for the help Cam!

Alright so went to the gym on Wednesday and then again today. I think I messed up my left shoulder because I slept in a bad position. Got some work done during the week and overall doing alright. Just trying to figure where I'm going and what I plan to with my life right now It's one of those days where you sit down and question your life decisions and realize you have no clue where you're going...

Yoga is pretty nice and I always get a nice sweat out of it. But the more I workout, the less pain I have in my lower back. I've been crazy tired and fatigued for the past few months or more. I'm not sure what the cause is, but I have a good idea. My brain feels completely blank and I can't focus or complete my homework as easily or even get into my work anymore. I think the causes of these are: -My lack of sleep over the past two years or so -My weight gain over the last year, about 30 lbs since late 2014, all fat, since I didn't consistently go to the gym during 2015 -Overexposure to video games and other stimulants which reduced my interest in work and my attention span (possibly, not a doctor, just a guess) -Over stressing due to piling amounts of work and a sense of no progression -Awful diet over the last year -Lack of excercise I have been working on most things on that list except for the sleep part. I keep staying up watching random videos or netflix. I've always slept really late ever since I was 13. It's time to break a really bad old habit. Also extremely tired right now at school, have to work out in 4 and a half hours.

Yeah I need to check out my spine or lower back at some point. My form is good, that's guaranteed, but there's some discomfort there. I got an x-ray once and there wasn't any issue. Might just be that my back muscles are so tense because I sit down too much. Who knows?

Yeah going to the gym again is great. Already lost some weight and my clothes more loose. Nothing big happened today, went to school, eat food, you know. Just realized how much time I have left now that I don't play video games. Also starting to eat a lot healthier, cutting out meat and most dairy products. Now I just need to focus on my work and learning and I'll be on my way

Yeah hycniejsy! We got this! Onto today's journal entry. First day of school and it went really well. Caught up with a lot of good friends, avoided the ones that I mentioned above and handed in my work as well. Went to the gym right after, but the workout was really bad because my right knee was clicking and I'm not sure why. It wasn't painful, but felt really weird. I was also so tired at school that I fell asleep for 40 minutes during the last period. Really proud that I went to the gym even being tired. Isn't much, but day by day, I'll reach my goals. Feeling great!

Thank you Cam! It's great to be here Already feeling much better!

Day 1: Went to church today. First time in a long time on a Sunday. I'm not really religious, but I love my friends there and it's a great place to start the day I feel. I slept last night a 2am because I stayed up watching Narcos. Not a proud moment and I need to start sleeping earlier. I want to get into bed at 10:30pm and be sleeping by 11:00pm. Still have a lot of work left to do today and my fatigue is really getting to me. Gonna grind it out, try to finish this assignment. School starts tomorrow, and I have to say, I am not very excited. I've come to realize that some of my "friends" are toxic and I plan to avoid them as much as I can for the next year and a semester. I feel that I can do better without wasting my time on them and I'll hang out with better friends. Maybe I'll gain some insight.

Thanks man! Looking forward to the new year