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  1. Hello. I am back. Again. Damn it. I didn't play video games for 87 days (since 26th July). I am proud of it. I almost finished the detox for 90 days. It cost me a lot of effort and I am not proud of it. Why? Because still I watched streams when other people played. I have to work on this and I hope that journaling will help me in this. So, I am back. @Cam Adair How it was in Tanzania? :) I see you did a lot of improvements on the forum. That's great. Is there any possibility for you to make all of my previous journals into one? This might be great retrospection for me and some kind of case study for others.
  2. Hello, mate! ? Are you going to Tanzania this summer? ?
  3. Well, it's not "perfect" perfect. It's just perfect enough for me. Still I am working on this and it requires ton of effort for me. I felt tired today but I'm gonna stay on my way.
  4. Hey! I just woke up at 6 A.M and I fell very happy and proud of it. ? Let's get this day, I mean day 1 (over 24 hours of being game free finished! ?) Let's get it started! I am grateful for couple of things: Ability to read Perfect avoidance of procrastination Living in my beautiful country See ya later!
  5. I did almost 24 hours of no gaming! Hell fuckin' yea! I have to repeat this one day at the time to finish my detox ? That's it for now gotta go to sleep (10:30 PM!!!)
  6. Hey there, Mad Pharmacist here. I've just finished test on gaming disorder on GameQuitters website and I met 9 out 9 criteria of gaming disorder. That sucks, but I have to deal with it. I'm trying to get rid of it from my life for the last 6 years. Over 6 years. And I did a lot of hard work, but I got stuck right now. There were many things that made me do so. Again my workaholism lead me to work to the exhaustion for the last year and I neglected some other areas of my life. Most of the neglected area was health, specifically nutrition - I ate anything to eat fast and get back to work. I got a great result on work, but my health got ruined. Now I technically have holidays but I have some things to get done. I can't go through them. Especially I have problem with any activity not connected to the computer which I have to do when I'm alone. I procrastinate a lot to avoid confrontation with it. I tried to escape so many times. But no more. Not anymore. I relapsed couple of times and neglected some of my duties. I admit to that, but now I'm focused on things. I have to. I mean, I have to begin for the next time my 90 day detox. Starting right here. 26th July 2018. Day 0. I will write about my emotions right here. No more gaming, watching streams, news, trailers, music from games. I deleted my Steam account forever and I'm glad I did it. Now I have to plan my computer usage each time I do it to avoid procrastination. So, let's do this!
  7. Thanks! I'm gonna do my best :) True for me. I did it today. Studying, and using only my old laptop - no gaming possibilities and I manage to study for 6 hours. In 100% focus. Hell yea! :D We'll see what tomorrow test will bring. :)
  8. Yea, I have to do this... Games does not compare to anything real. However... I spent couple of hours on video games today. Didn't learn too much... I didn't spend even single minute on studying! God damn it. Tomorrow is the final day before a test. I have to study. And I have to work on my routines and habits after finishing this test. Gotta go to sleep right now.
  9. You are right. It doesn't make much sense. I have to stop. Challenge for today? Study for at least 4 hours :)
  10. Allright, I'm back, I relapsed for about 2-3 hours to Age of Empires. God damn it! I have to move on from this! There are people who counts on me!!! Day 0 is today. One day at the time.
  11. Well, I was wandering about opening a new journal, but the last post was on 3rd June, so like 2 weeks ago, not that long ago to start a new chapter. However, I'm now really, really motivated to finish 90 days detox for the next time, but not only finish, but also sustain game free. Like this will be a part of my lifestyle. I have to make as much effort as possible to finally become free. I'll write here everytime I'll have moment of doubt or emotional crisis. If I'll stop writing here for a longer time (like a week or so) it means I probably got into bad habits again, maybe even relapse. Please, react to that. In most cases I relapse when I don't write here. I know I have couple of guardian angels I have to mention here, people who responded me when I had moments of doubts in the past: @Cam Adair - Really appreciate your effort into founding this community and replying to my freaky journal entries. Also, you helped me twice in a coaching session, during which we discussed on starting up a business. You did a lot for me dude. I just hope you'll become as active as before - when this forum was literally thriving. I mean, it don't have to be you, but some people who reads the entries and respond espacially to people who needs support. Anyways, thanks for being here man. @DaBest @Django @Laney @AlexTheGrape - We made some accountability calls, which was perfect although we are living literally on the other side of the planet. Thanks man! @Ed @Primmulla @SpiNips @WorkInProgress - You were in our Minyan Accountability for some time, then you decided to retire from gamequitters. Still, I remember all of your advices and really appreciate it. Danke Schön! @DaMudaPacker @Hitaru - Spaniard Dude always in Pharmacist memory! :D Seriously dude, I still remember our calls especially when we needed it. And also, thanks for Spanish lessons amigo :) I mean, gracias! @Somebodyelse @Merdoc_Rowboat @Gresa @Piotr - My bestest Polish companion at Ultra Ziomeczki - (Polish name for Game Quitters, it's not literal though ) We are making accountability calls for like 2 years every week which helped me a lot in being consistent. We made the first Game Quitters meetup in Central Europe :D) Anyways, thanks for being here. @Dannigan @Paul A. @mli @TheJan @fanzio @sdf @kortheo @Bladezz @Reno F @wookieshark88' @usernameforworldpeace! @UndRt0w @Marquess @lilx @notKosmic @Fagus @TirEdOrange @Regular Robert @Phoenix @ShineMagical @Jeremias @Simon E @dandelionous @MmmWatermelon @fil @Schwing @Wildee @Mhyrion @Stevec2283 @destoroyah @puckspock @SirDylanRice @Mettermrck @skaliq @FifthEstate @Zala @dirkj3 @Sashiku @Stercus Accidit @SuperSaiyanGod 55 people to support me for the last 3 years here... That's the difference between writing private journal and writing here. Thanks for that. Also, I read my previous journals and I realized, that the best time in my life was when I wrote here everyday spontanously. So, let's do it again. When I finished my detox for the first time here - not the first in my life - I wrote something like this (March 2016): Allright, that's it for today, I'm gonna study for at least 8 hours right now. If I'll find an obstacle, I'll write just here. Let's start Day #0!
  12. Well, I was wandering about opening a new journal, but the last post was on 3rd June, so like 2 weeks ago, not that long ago to start a new chapter. However, I'm now really, really motivated to finish 90 days detox for the next time, but not only finish, but also sustain game free. Like this will be a part of my lifestyle. I have to make as much effort as possible to finally become free. I'll write here everytime I'll have moment of doubt or emotional crisis. If I'll stop writing here for a longer time (like a week or so) it means I probably got into bad habits again, maybe even relapse. Please, react to that. In most cases I relapse when I don't write here. I know I have couple of guardian angels I have to mention here, people who responded me when I had moments of doubts in the past: @Cam Adair - Really appreciate your effort into founding this community and replying to my freaky journal entries. Also, you helped me twice in a coaching session, during which we discussed on starting up a business. You did a lot for me dude. I just hope you'll become as active as before - when this forum was literally thriving. I mean, it don't have to be you, but some people who reads the entries and respond espacially to people who needs support. Anyways, thanks for being here man. @DaBest @Django @Laney @AlexTheGrape - We made some accountability calls, which was perfect although we are living literally on the other side of the planet. Thanks man! @Ed @Primmulla @SpiNips @WorkInProgress - You were in our Minyan Accountability for some time, then you decided to retire from gamequitters. Still, I remember all of your advices and really appreciate it. Danke Schön! @DaMudaPacker @Hitaru - Spaniard Dude always in Pharmacist memory! :D Seriously dude, I still remember our calls especially when we needed it. And also, thanks for Spanish lessons amigo :) I mean, gracias! @Somebodyelse @Merdoc_Rowboat @Gresa @Piotr - My bestest Polish companion at Ultra Ziomeczki - (Polish name for Game Quitters, it's not literal though ) We are making accountability calls for like 2 years every week which helped me a lot in being consistent. We made the first Game Quitters meetup in Central Europe :D) Anyways, thanks for being here. @Dannigan @Paul A. @mli @TheJan @fanzio @sdf @kortheo @Bladezz @Reno F @wookieshark88' @usernameforworldpeace! @UndRt0w @Marquess @lilx @notKosmic @Fagus @TirEdOrange @Regular Robert @Phoenix @ShineMagical @Jeremias @Simon E @dandelionous @MmmWatermelon @fil @Schwing @Wildee @Mhyrion @Stevec2283 @destoroyah @puckspock @SirDylanRice @Mettermrck @skaliq @FifthEstate @Zala @dirkj3 @Sashiku @Stercus Accidit @SuperSaiyanGod 55 people to support me for the last 3 years here... That's the difference between writing private journal and writing here. Thanks for that. Also, I read my previous journals and I realized, that the best time in my life was when I wrote here everyday spontanously. So, let's do it again. When I finished my detox for the first time here - not the first in my life - I wrote something like this (March 2016): Allright, that's it for today, I'm gonna study for at least 8 hours right now. If I'll find an obstacle, I'll write just here. Let's start Day #0!
  13. Day #3 I feel stress right now and urges comes to me all the way long. I don't feel too much resistance from them. God damn it! I'm a fuckin' Mad Pharmacist I have to let them pass and then go to do what I need to do.
  14. Day #1 I'm getting started in here. I feel better, but still it takes some effort to write here. I hope that writing here will make me feel even better. Last couple of months were consumed mostly by my workaholism. I was able to work sometimes even for 12-14 hours a day. That gave me a lot of stress and I became neglectful in other areas of my life - health (I was eating thrash food more common, not constantly, but still more often and I neglected exercising), hobby - (I didn't have time to play guitar and I read books other than textbooks less often) and some relationship, especially with some friends. Now I need to reclaim everything back. I spent some time with sooo many of my friends last 2 week. Still, I stay in touch with them, so it's helping me. Now it's time for health and hobby - other hobby than mindless Internet browsing. I'm currently reading "Will It Fly" by Pat Flynn. @Cam Adair can you give me a link with list of more inspiring/tutorial books? I remember it was somewhere on this forum, but I can't find it. By the way, what happened with podcast, @Cam Adair? I see the last episode was in the beggining October, what happened then? I mean I don't blame you, but I really enjoyed the show so far and just wondering if you will continue the project (I remember once you said to me in PM something like "we'll get to episode 100 in no time") So, what happened? Greetings, Mad Pharmacist
  15. Wow, looks like I didn't write here for a while. I challenge myself to do it more often like on a daily basis. Since to next day. Let's get it started!
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