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About hycniejsy

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  1. @dirkj3 Well, the exam was extremely hard and I didn't pass that one, however I passed all the other exams! :) 27.07.2019 I'm trying to do my best to become a healthy man. I had some relapses recently, however I don't want to give up right now. There is a lot that happens in my life and I have to face it instead of escaping it.
  2. Hola amigo! ? I am still struggling with studying all the time. I did some, but I don't know if it's enough. Also 3 hours of procrastination doesn't look good for me. But I will do my best for this exam!
  3. Well, at least I cleaned up the flat and studied for 1 hour. However, I still have a lot to do and my motivation is unstable.
  4. I got to clean up my flat, and then get to study. My academic performance isn't really good so far, so it's time to improve it.
  5. Hello there GameQuitters, I didn't write for a long time. Well, seriously. I have many good and bad moment through the last couple of months. I was going to therapist and worked a lot through therapy. It was hard, but I got realised more about my emotions, which always were not as important as should be. I always put them aside and never care about what I feel at this moments. Why I decided to come back here and write? To be honest, I had to stop my therapy after 7 months of recovery. It just didn't help me that much. I mean, maybe first 2 months were the most impressive for me, but after that, nothing special happened. So, I decided to write here about how my recovery is going while waiting for visiting new therapist. I feel like I did a lot, but still, sometimes I feel like giving up. I have doubts. I don't know what to do at the worst moments. I hope that writing here will help me deal with some of my struggles and worst emotions. I'll come back here whenever I'll feel the need, not only to this journal, but to other's people journals aswell.
  6. Hello. I am back. Again. Damn it. I didn't play video games for 87 days (since 26th July). I am proud of it. I almost finished the detox for 90 days. It cost me a lot of effort and I am not proud of it. Why? Because still I watched streams when other people played. I have to work on this and I hope that journaling will help me in this. So, I am back. @Cam Adair How it was in Tanzania? :) I see you did a lot of improvements on the forum. That's great. Is there any possibility for you to make all of my previous journals into one? This might be great retrospection for me and some kind of case study for others.
  7. Hello, mate! ? Are you going to Tanzania this summer? ?
  8. Well, it's not "perfect" perfect. It's just perfect enough for me. Still I am working on this and it requires ton of effort for me. I felt tired today but I'm gonna stay on my way.
  9. Hey! I just woke up at 6 A.M and I fell very happy and proud of it. ? Let's get this day, I mean day 1 (over 24 hours of being game free finished! ?) Let's get it started! I am grateful for couple of things: Ability to read Perfect avoidance of procrastination Living in my beautiful country See ya later!
  10. I did almost 24 hours of no gaming! Hell fuckin' yea! I have to repeat this one day at the time to finish my detox ? That's it for now gotta go to sleep (10:30 PM!!!)
  11. Hey there, Mad Pharmacist here. I've just finished test on gaming disorder on GameQuitters website and I met 9 out 9 criteria of gaming disorder. That sucks, but I have to deal with it. I'm trying to get rid of it from my life for the last 6 years. Over 6 years. And I did a lot of hard work, but I got stuck right now. There were many things that made me do so. Again my workaholism lead me to work to the exhaustion for the last year and I neglected some other areas of my life. Most of the neglected area was health, specifically nutrition - I ate anything to eat fast and get back to work. I got a great result on work, but my health got ruined. Now I technically have holidays but I have some things to get done. I can't go through them. Especially I have problem with any activity not connected to the computer which I have to do when I'm alone. I procrastinate a lot to avoid confrontation with it. I tried to escape so many times. But no more. Not anymore. I relapsed couple of times and neglected some of my duties. I admit to that, but now I'm focused on things. I have to. I mean, I have to begin for the next time my 90 day detox. Starting right here. 26th July 2018. Day 0. I will write about my emotions right here. No more gaming, watching streams, news, trailers, music from games. I deleted my Steam account forever and I'm glad I did it. Now I have to plan my computer usage each time I do it to avoid procrastination. So, let's do this!
  12. Thanks! I'm gonna do my best :) True for me. I did it today. Studying, and using only my old laptop - no gaming possibilities and I manage to study for 6 hours. In 100% focus. Hell yea! :D We'll see what tomorrow test will bring. :)
  13. Yea, I have to do this... Games does not compare to anything real. However... I spent couple of hours on video games today. Didn't learn too much... I didn't spend even single minute on studying! God damn it. Tomorrow is the final day before a test. I have to study. And I have to work on my routines and habits after finishing this test. Gotta go to sleep right now.
  14. You are right. It doesn't make much sense. I have to stop. Challenge for today? Study for at least 4 hours :)
  15. Allright, I'm back, I relapsed for about 2-3 hours to Age of Empires. God damn it! I have to move on from this! There are people who counts on me!!! Day 0 is today. One day at the time.
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