Hey guys, so i've been away from all kind of games since 8.12.2015 so if my math is correct... yep 3 months. Well i craved to look some youtube videos from time to time but that's all. So what happend today: I was at home really bored, really didn't felt like going outside as it was heavy raining. As i was listening to music on youtube i got that "recommended for you video" about devil may cry- one of my all time fav games. So i clicked to watch at the video and i started watching another and another and i got really into it. I started to remember when i was playing the game before and at the end I was thinking about giving it a try and play the game for a little bit. What happens next is not really a relapse but i just want to make an observation here. I wanted to see if I'm as addicted as before to video games so I started my old PS2 and started playing DMC 3. AND MY MIND GOT BLOWN AWAY. I got such adrenalin rush from 1 hour of playing. My energy level was so high i could barley stand at one place haha. When i started talking to someone I dominated the conversation, telling jokes, etc. And that's the reason why I'm posting this. During thoese 3 months of not playing ANY video games I never felt so alive. I don't say I didn't had a good times: hiking, training martial art, clubing, meeting with alot of friends and alot of other great stuff. Things are going very well for me. And yeah it's not a relapse I'm not going to turn to that addicted maniac who plays video games all day long. WHAT CAN I DO IN REAL LIFE, TO FEEL SO ALIVE? Like is there any way you can get so close to that feeling? It felt amazing guys!!! Like really alive. And yeah I know how ironic it sounds to get that from a video game... but it's a fact. And let me little talk about the difference I saw for thoese 3 months. I realised that these games NUMBS you from enjoying real life. Like I read about that factor but it's another thing to experience it. Slowly I can find joy in things that before were very annoying for me. That's the upside. The downside is that my energy levels are very low. I guess that before I didn't had that problem as I got hyped from video games (which was for a short amount of time). And today I was again very chill and suddenly BAAAAM - ENERGY. So i ask again - WHAT CAN I DO IN REAL LIFE, TO FEEL SO ALIVE? Cheers!