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    Day 28 Getting ready for day & night care. Having somewhere to go to is really nice. Had a really fun day at the care centre. Quite tired but in a peaceful way.
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    Thank you, you are right. But that's also what is turning out to be quite difficult. Must listen to my body's need for relaxation. Day 27 continued Went to an addiction clinic. Decided to try their day + night care program.
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    Day 27 I want to do something. There is just too much time in a day. Some quick ideas are Study. Read on sociology. Watch computer science video courses. Read anything else. Go see my grandparents. I have been distant for a couple of years, their aging scares me. Better make time with them while I can. Buy myself some new clothes. This takes a lot of mental energy for me, practice should make it easier. Felt motivated like that in the morning, but now I'm out of energy. Not sure how I'm doing this to myself.
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    Day 26 Still quite tired. Things around me are slowly turning. Rest is first priority. Feeling the urge. I'm reminded how good I am at convincing myself to play games. I probably ought to have a plan to stay sane. Tomorrow is a visit to the gaming addiction clinic so that's good.
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    Day 25 Back to Tokyo. The entire trip was physically and mentally overwhelming, having to learn Russian phrases and interacting with local people, walking up and down towns full of slopes. I am really really tired now.
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    Day 22 Off to a family trip to Russia. days 23, 24 will be offline.
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    Day 21 Still feeling like shit. Feeling like shit that's been shat on. YES ? the principles for a healthy mind. Eat, hydrate, maybe exercise a bit, sleep. I've decided I'll just stick to the basics, and things will get nicer as long as I don't relapse. Thanks for your support.
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    Day 20 Maybe I'm experiencing a "gaming flatline", and this current shitty state is my brain re-balancing. I would like to believe that.
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    Day 19 Feeling well. Woke up at 7:55. I like this. Enough time to do a little stretch, and then it's 8:00. Studied a bit and decided to take a break, watched a few videos and got totally distracted. Somehow feeling a bit sick once again. Am I going to be sick for life?
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    Day 18 Still very sick. Alarm clock arrives later today.
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    Day 17 A little less sick than yesterday. Followed my mother's advice to wake up in the morning. Realized I don't have a working alarm clock, need to get one to make this consistent. Tried to study and got more sick. I'm terrible at being sick.
  12. You sound a lot like me... I struggle to find a game that I like 100%, never did ? A part of me is glad about that because a perfect game would be even harder to escape from. Anyway, I think regret is quite useful for making a change, but I hope your feeling of sadness doesn't become a baseline. Stay hopeful and good luck!
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    Day 16 Body hurts all over but feeling calm. The habit book left me confused. Maybe go back and read just Part One. Caught a cold. I wish I was better at handling sudden temperature changes. Need a proper set of morning habits. Also I tend to relapse when I get sick. Maybe I'm bad at handling sickness too.
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    Day 15 Feeling tired.
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    Kind-of read "The Power of Habit". Skipped most of the hospitals, supermarkets, and black rights movement chapters. Complicated tasks can become automatic because our brains are like that. We are always peeking for a cue, and when it arrives the autopilot kicks in. Once done, the usual reward is confirmed and reinforces the habit. Habits don't really disappear. Modify them by following the existing cues with carefully crafted new routines. That much was relevant to the title. When making a change, you need to believe it is possible. Structure your life so the small wins keep you advancing. Not really habit-related, but great advice.
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    Day 14 Feeling like my brain has become that heavy rubber ball thing for training back strength. Reading "The Power of Habit". I hate how the book is mainly about business and leadership, but Part One was relevant af.
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    Day 13 It says Veteran beneath my name, and I'm still struggling greatly. Goes to demonstrate how fierce the addiction is. Talked to my prof at uni. I am deeply grateful for his kindness and understanding.
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    Day 12 Stayed over at an old friend's house. I guess I only half meant it when I said seeing uni friends was great. This was just great.
  19. Thank you. I've been suggested that book too many times now, I finally decided to order it. Looking forward to this. ?
  20. Failed attempts to recover from addiction can leave you with a feeling of powerlessness. Many members of this forum, including me, have experienced this over and over again. In fact I'm feeling utterly powerless right now. Don't consider gaming just a bad habit. Gaming is fiercely addictive. "Just don't play" isn't a realistic approach for your current addicted state. Remove the game from your PC and make it impossible to reach its website. I recommend Cold Turkey Blocker Pro. Also I feel like waking up at 5 am is unnecessary and anti-productive for most. 7 to 8 hours of sleep a day is recommended for maximum energy + willpower. Just like Deku says above, be patient. Don't jump on to insurmountably big goals immediately. (If 5 am works fine with you, never mind. DO IT!!)
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    Day 11 Still sleeping poorly. Starting to get used to that. Decided to join a internet/game addiction recovery program.
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    Day 10 Couldn't sleep till 3 am. Feeling restless. Had a walk outside. Don't regret it but it was not resting. Considering taking a year off from uni.
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    Day 9 Not entirely rested, maybe take it easy today. Somehow feeling even more fucked up now. I'm thinking it's exhaustion. On Tuesday I was already pushing myself, and then 4 days of proper hard work. Resting must come in rhythms, and one ancient rhythm of rest is the 7 days of the week. This rhythm is absent in my current way of life. Rest was well overdue. I'm going to take some days of rest, see if I can wake up refreshed again. The good thing is that I have a passion to pursue, which is learning how to code. If it gives me a few mental breakdowns on the way, I wouldn't mind.
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    Day 8 Feeling refreshed. Also very tired from staying out late yesterday. Made my bed for some quality sleep.
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    Day 7 Well I played a game. For about 40 minutes. Not really bothered about that, because I enjoy learning computer science much more. Watched Berkeley CS 61A up to lesson 22. I need to learn how to rest, because apparently I never did. Resting is essential to living a healthy life, that much I know. Met up with friends from uni music circle. It was great to open up about my situation.
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