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  1. Day 17 Well I've been mighty busy, had zero time to keep up to date with the diary! Since I've been so busy, had not much time to think about games so that's good and feeling okay without them to be honest. This month is going to be hell for me because of all the university work I have to do so my aim is get working hard on it all. The train keeps on going!!
  2. Day 13 Still going strong with it which I'm pretty happy about but really having the cravings to play... I really haven't been productive as of late, not done much studying at all not really sure why but ya know This is really just to continue updating how I'm feeling right now, I'm trying to use the bullet journal to better organise myself but getting mixed results. Don't know if I'm just putting targets in that are too optimistic or what but still really learning on how best to do it for me. Kinda getting stressed out more with exams and deadlines coming up also so it's going to be interesting in the coming days. Not much more I can say though other than I'm keeping at it and so far so good!
  3. Just gonna do a general update; It's going well I think, 10 days without video games feels weird but I know it's the right thing to do. I just need to learn how to put my concentration into my study so I can get that done well. One thing I am finding hard in the evenings when I would typically play games I don't really know what to do. I've basically been watching tv and nothing much else really, I've been working on learning programming but I feel like I'm missing talking to people then. I don't really know I just feel a bit lonely as I don't have anyone to talk to but I'll try and work it out. Other than that my baseball games went well and I'm just getting on with my life.
  4. I think I'm just gonna do this once every 2 days with how it's going aha What I've achieved Gone over a week now without touching a video game, pretty proud of myself for that.Went to the gym last night, hopefully will be able to keep the routine of going now.Got a decent study plan for my examsSet up a bullet journal which will hopefully organise me moreWhat I want to achieve tomorrow/today Continue with my studies, be able to reach my set targetsPrepare and play well in my baseball game tomorrowContinue with going to sleep at a decent timeGratitude list My carWaterThe sunOxygen DinosaursGeneral stuff All in all it's going pretty well for me I think. Over a week now without games which I'm pretty happy about! I can tell now though the temptations are creeping in a bit so I need to be able to withstand them. I'm liking how much exercise I'm doing now, hoping I can get myself into better shape, just need to work on the diet side of it to help me
  5. Welp missed another day, lets try and do this everyday shall we. Honestly there isn't much I can say I've achieved in the past couple days, been pretty non-productive in what I've done which needs to get improved upon a lot. I need to work with my time a lot more since I've stopped games, make sure I concentrate on my study a lot more and don't waste that time day-dreaming or zoning out. Gratitude list baseballMilkMetalSpeakersMusicGeneral Stuff Tomorrow I'm going to plan out all the things I need to do for study for my exams and other work. Also gonna go to sleep at a decent time so I feel more refreshed and don't have the feeling of doing nothing.
  6. Forgot to post about Day 2 nothing much really happened honestly so gonna include that in Day 3 What I've achieved Finished the poster work I needed doingPlayed a baseball game, I now know what I need to do to improve myselfHaven't touched a single game so far Aiming to get my head around the dissertation work I have.What I want to achieve tomorrow Go to my area of interest in terms of my dissertationEnjoy life Get a proper plan for exam revision General Stuff So far so good for me, I'm pretty sure I'm gonna hit the low and start getting more temptations to play games but hopefully I can not give in to the cravings. Hopefully doing this will also get my mind to concentrate on studying more
  7. Hi! Yes old journal me was a very different person. For me, I would say it's not giving a fuck! In life you have to accept there are some things you cannot change. That your suffering is intertwined with your pleasures. Life is handed to you on big platter so you better eat up and then lick it clean - gristle and all. At first I was always self conscious and weighed down by my past actions which resulted in low mood and self esteem. The trick is not to care. To live every moment with a smile on your face because you know you are alive and you can do awesome things! To free your soul and let it run free as a child would. And that is quite hard at first because we have been conditioned to shut up and act 'sophisticated' from the very start. But when you do you feel like a lion amongst sheep. A very crazy lion. I struggled with finding my purpose. But your purpose isn't something confined to discrete material things. It's something you feel. I think my purpose is to act as a channel for all the beauty of the universe to act through. Hence, I must liberate my mind from the arbitrary constructs that we create as humans. That's an awesome way to put it, but yeah it's where I want to move to, not giving 2 shits about anything and just loving what I have and who I am. What I'm trying to do is not going to be easy for me I know that for sure but being happy not matter is something I dream I will achieve Letting myself out and not hiding it is something I'm gonna do, I think if this is the only thing I achieve I will be so much better off, no hidden secrets or shyness don't give a fuck what people think about as you being happy is the most important thing of all (not in a selfish way though)
  8. Thing is we all go through a point in life like you are, I'm getting the feeling we're all similar people in how we are here which is probably the best scenario to be in. It's difficult and it's something I'm trying to do but you've got to force yourself to do things, try and control yourself by not going on facebook or reddit. I know I'm going to find it very hard not to do the same but it's a good idea to constantly remind yourself why you are doing this and what you want to gain. You've already taken a big step to improving yourself by quitting gaming but you can't stop moving forward from here. Life is a bitch really as what we seek sadly isn't always easy to reach or easy to change quickly, that's why gaining determination and perseverance is something I'm hoping to gain from this and so should you. Imagine the sense of pride you will feel if you can move further past wasting time surfing facebook and reddit (I know it's easy to do) and at least applying yourself to learning a new skill, new sport etc. but to get there you need to push yourself to get there.
  9. Reading is a good thing to do once you get into it but try and think of other stuff to do, at the moment I've been relaxing watching tv but gonna start working on learning computer programming I think. Try and find something that you feel will enjoy but also something that isn't to taxing if you've had a long day, reading isn't always for everyone.
  10. Reading this I'm literally a carbon copy of your situation Brad, apart from having a motorbike I'm the same as you really. How's it going for you since you've been at it for a week now?
  11. I'm an admin of a Rocket League discord server, I'm involved in a lot of things on there i.e. organising events and it takes up a far bit of time. This does feed into my crave to play video games though and distracts me very heavily from my studies. But I also don't want to leave the community, I know I can stop playing games etc. but I love this community very much and put a lot of time and effort into it so leaving it is gonna hurt me a lot. Since it is a gaming community it will be hard to stay though. In terms of relaxing I really want to get away from having video games to 'relax' with, since I know they don't with the heightened concentration etc. I'm wanting to find something that truly does relax me, like starting to learn computer programming, model building, reading, graphic design or photoshop. That kind of thing. I also want to go to the gym a lot more often than I am and I currently play baseball for a team but I would like to pick up at least one other active hobby to do maybe at the weekends.
  12. Read a fair bit of your journal and it's awesome how much you've progressed! I'm glad to see many people have gone through what I'm about to do now and it's worked out well. What's the hardest thing you've had to deal with through all of this in-case I have to deal with it.
  13. Day 1 What I have achieved today Worked on getting rid of all my gaming distractions, uninstalled them all and working on selling them.Set out a schedule with what I'm doing each day and seeing what spare time I have for other activities.Selected where I am going to work everyday.Chosen what activities/new hobbies I want to pick up to replace gaming.Prepared myself with not having gaming there anymore.What I want to achieve tomorrow Keep working through the study I haveStart working through my schedule to change my routineStart to correct my sleeping patternBe more active socially, set up new events with friendsStart driving more often Gratitude list Grateful for the family support I haveThe life I liveThankful I can quit gamingGrateful I'm able to find this communityThat I'm in university General Stuff So no more video games from here, hopefully doing this will improve my life in general. I don't really know what will come from doing this and where it will lead but I'm pretty excited about it! Now I have to make sure I don't go back to it and move forward from here.
  14. Hello all, My name is Edward and I'm an alcoholic... wait wrong group. But I'm wanting to get rid of an addiction I've had for many years, one which I didn't think I had until now. I've probably been playing games since I was 6 or 7, I'm 19 turning 20 now... It's been a huge part of my childhood and only now from someone else posting about it have I been truly shown how much it has controlled and influenced my life. So I've decided to take a stand and move away from it in order to improve my life, which has frankly, suffered because of it. Video games have always been an escape for me from life, from the stress of study and the anxiety of family arguments. I've always shied away from these and video games was the best escape for me from my life struggles. The big hitter with video games for me is the people I have become friends with that are like me and who like the same things. I have met a lot of good people with it and met quite a few too but I can see how much of an effect it is having on my actual social life. I have been part of a lot of communities, even being a leader in one right now with over 500 people in it but I can tell it is taking all my attention and time with it. It gives me a real sense of purpose and belonging but I know it isn't the right place for me to be with how much of a negative effect it is having on my life. Really, the main reasons I want to stop playing is to firstly make sure more of my attention and effort goes into my studies as right now I'm at a very serious point in them and I know I can improve far more if I just spent more time on them. Secondly, I want my life to be filling and enjoyable not just wanting and waiting for the evening when I can play video games till late at night. I want to try new things, go to the gym more, be more determined to try new hobbies and stick with them and most of all, build up my confidence in myself and meet new people. There's so many things I can do but don't bother because I procrastinate or make up some lame excuse so I can just play video games instead. I have so many opportunities in my life right now and I don't want them to go to waste any longer and have regrets for the rest of my life. I'm already feeling a huge mix of emotions, a sense of relief that I'm doing something about it. Anxiety from the feeling of not really knowing what lies ahead of me and also that of regret and sadness. Looking back at my life I've realised how much I've missed out on because of my desire to play video games all the time, missing incredible events and wasting time which I could of spent with my family instead. I know I'll also feel pain from leaving some of the responsibilities I have in some communities I have been part of for a while now but I know if I don't I'll always go back to gaming. I know this will be a very hard road for me to go on, I've been dependent on games, especially the last few years but it's now gotten to a point where I don't want to lose myself to it anymore. So hopefully I'll be able to share with you all my journey towards healing myself (if that's good to say) and you'll be able to get me through any rough times to get to, which I know for sure I will hit. Ed.