Entry 19.04 (Written on 20.04)
Day 568: No Useless Videos
Day 566: Sticking to Food schedule
Day 170: Eating Only between 06:30 and 19:00 (Last bite before 19:00)
Day 160: Being in bed before 23:15
3 Things I did right, no matter how small.
-Called bike shop to ask them to check the bike 3 hours before their closing time, been though they eventually ended up being too busy to check it and possibly fix it.
-9 pomodoros
-When the bike chain broke, quickly going home and replacing bike. Then continuing deliveries with the replacement bike. ending up in completing 26 deliveries
1 Thing I could do better
-put sunscreen on legs and neck
Day 3/14
What I love most about this "challenge" is the extra time available during the day... it just feels good to have more time for things that matter.
No major urges today.
Lets talk about the game. Last year I started gaming again after holding out for about a month without gaming. Because I didn't organize my time wisely and bored myself with too much free time, gaming became a way to kill time.
Breaking my promise was an act of cheating myself, and I feel guilty about it until now. I may have lost a lot of good things while I was playing games to waste my time.
So when my semester was over, I gave up gaming. It was a success, I organized my time with something meaningful every day, and now I feel energized and healthier.
However, I also realized that the maybe the success wasn't my willpower that was strong enough. The social aspect of gaming is waning, and as we get older, friends who used to game together are starting jobs and have other things crowding their daily lives. In place of gaming, there are love relationships, fitness, and exhausting routine.
One year later, I'm back.
After reading the journals I wrote down, I remembered myself from a year ago. Alone in Canada, miserable and disheveled.
What's different is that I never let my life get that bad again. My life is improving, and I'm getting back to building my confidence and fixing my body.
I think the most important thing we can do when it comes to quitting internet addiction is to accept an imperfect version of ourselves. When you realize that, stresses in your life will not be as great.
At the same time, establish and fulfill that goal you will reap great joy. Even if it's a distant goal or not, when you plant this idea in your mind, move towards it and one day, one day, it will come true.
That's what I'm thinking right now.