Sounds awesome, I have to learn that Day 51: Had university which is starting to get really boring and after that there was the university summer festival. Was a lot of fun. There were quite a few really good rock bands ( check out Krautschädl! ). Got home at 2 am after waiting for a service guy for one hour because the batterie of the car died. Day 52: Extremely tired from the day before, had band practice the whole day. Day 53: Spend the beginning of the day with my girlfriend, then I drove to the nearby city, because I played a concert there. The concert was awesome, there were around 150 people and they went completely nuts. After that I went out with my girlfriend and ate fancy dinner. Then I went back and listened to some of the other bands. Day 54: Despite being super tired, I went running. Didn't get a lot of miles/kilometres under my belt, because it is super hot here now. Went to the city again and spend the afternoon with my girlfriend and then went to a concert to see one of my best friends. His band is really freaking good! Was so much fun.
I had experienced the same situation few days ago. At that moment I felt like crap. This weekend, I've found useful ways to focus on what I should do(studying, specifically). It's simple. There are two things. The first thing is studying with someone else. It made me focused on subjects much longer. It helped me out a lot. It was a group project and I had to do something useful for the group. That's why I had tried really hard, I guess. The second thing is changing the place where you're in. I used to study at home. It made me distracted often. I changed the place into cafe or school. I could focus more. I won't tell that I'm always perfect. I sometimes can focus, and sometime can't. But I've been trying my best to keep going. I believe you can find your own method to be productive. Just try anything that looks useful. We won't lose anything. I know that I would get depressed someday, but now I feel good. You will find some of your good days in the near future. I think patience is really important to our journey. Keep it up! We can't always have a perfect day.
Some bands we have to grow up to :') for example edgy teens who stop listening to Bullet for my Valentine and move on to some more heavy and complicated music - I was one of them
and btw I bought myself 2 Fleshgod Apocalypse albums "The King"; "Agony" and 1 Primodial album "Where Greater man have fallen" Pardon the burst of music I listen to but haven't had a chance to actually talk about it with anyone for last 2 years
It is good that you caught yourself and cut it off. Maybe you should consider selling your PC, or at least pulling the GPU out of it (assuming your CPU/Mobo can do graphics since most do nowadays). Put it in a box somewhere or sell it off at least. Add an extra step to just the time it takes to download a game. You may have spent $1k on the PC, but maybe you can sell it off for $700 or so? put that money towards a laptop or something. Or if you prefer the PC, maybe strip it down to a basic PC and sell off what you can and buy a barebones Kindle or something if you want to read more and it doesn't have the features of tablets for other media or phone type games. I also enjoyed the sentiments in your poem, especially those about rushing everything in your life and the preoccupation of thoughts. Hearing that makes me thing I was more addicted than I'd admit.
Ya, I keep trying to get into Meshuggah and I do enjoy their stuff, but just haven't really dived into them enough to listen regularly. I dunno, its just interesting how much they have influenced bands I like (Dillinger for example), yet I just haven't really gotten into them. I need to give them more time I guess.
Thanks, I will check that book out. The only I have done so far is download the Headspace app. I tried doing the first lesson last night after burning the midnight oil catching up on things and I ended up just starting to fall asleep instead of actually meditating, so will try to work on that in the mornings. Ya, I think I will read through those books and graphic novels, make use of it. Time will tell if it will make me want to game or not. I look at the stuff on shelves and my gaming collection, and as much as I enjoy playing them and the nostalgia (it just feels normal to like it), I also think about the discussions in podcasts and media about extended adolescence going into people's 30's and I say to myself "there it is, there is extended adolescence right there" and it doesn't kind of make me ashamed. Then I consider selling it all off and then think to myself "then when would I play it?". Its just weird. I'm not living in my parents basement, I haven't lived at home since I was 18 and have always had the work ethic and desire to make money, so I haven't had issues being self sufficient and calling in sick to game or anything. But just having it in my life is a distraction: both ruining my concentration/brain chemistry, and from using my free time on more productive things. Anyone who combating this stuff when you are in your teens and twenties, keep it going. You don't want to be thinking this stuff to yourself in your 30's. Again, I think it more comes as a response to it just always being there in my life. A habit. I've talked to one of my siblings about it who is also a big gamer. They made some suggestions on how to moderate. I do kind of feel bad doing the 90-day detox because they are going through some medical issues and will be recovering for weeks for an upcoming surgery, and we could do some online stuff on the Switch like Mario Kart, or Splatoon 2 when it comes out (I cancelled my pre-order, even if I do moderately game, I won't play games like that with no story or ending... Mario Kart or Gran Turismo are the only non-story games I'd be willing to play on occasion... thats if I moderately game and not quit for good). I was watching Joe Rogan's podcast with Guy Ritchie and they were talking about ownership of your life and everything that you do. They mentioned Jocko Willink's book on Extreme Ownership. I have heard Jocko on other podcasts and he is an interesting guy, former Navy Seal. His book is meant more for leadership and applying it to business. However, from various things I have read, it seems to go over discipline and has helpful anecdotes to apply to every day life (such as family dynamics). So I bought a copy on my Kindle and will add it to the reading list for my extra free time.
It is Great to hear about you jamming again ! It is also nice to hear that someone grew up on bands that go me into the alternative and then metal genres! To continue the chain of good band I propose Meshuggah as another prog band.
Day - I don't care honestly Work out - done - did some new exercises today to spice things up diet - kept grateful for: nothing particular just that I can breathe!
Stats: Spirit: D Body: C Mind: C Charisma: D Discipline: E Developmental Potential: A Meal Summary:
-Skipped leg day, am I bro now? - General:
Yo! It's KO with more pointless unnuanced rambling! Not living the way, I want to life and I choose to do nothing about. Instead I try to the numb the pain by escapism. You know the usual; video games, porn, and TV. Who do I want to be in life? How do I want to live? How do I become who I want to be in life? What are the steps I need to take to live like I want to live? Why am I doing all of this? What is my reason? Yay for cringe self-development and shitty YouTube motivation. Looked at a NSFW reddit sub and I’ve never been so disgusted and disappointed in myself. Feelsbadman.png, wait no I don’t deserve png quality, Feelsbadman.jpeg.
Read through Slight Edge Chapter 1! Couldn’t be bothered to get out of a chair yesterday. Progress motherfucker! Getting rid of my website blockers, whenever I block websites I get too focused on what’s blocked and I try to find loopholes to access the website. I believe it’s better to have the mindset of its available to me but I DON’T want it. Done with online games, I mean what’s the point? I was playing the CBT and the progress was getting wiped and I spent all night grinding dungeons and for what? Depriving myself of sleep Giving myself the Quasimodo special? Hell, I remember one game I invested a lot of time in was shut down this spring and another one is shutting down this summer.
- Breaking the Habit of Being Yourself: How to Lose Your Mind and Create a New OneBook by Joe DispenzaMy suggestion is to read them for the last time and sell/ give them away. Keep only those that do not make you urge to play again. Past experience is an amazing thing to go back to, but it should not define how you live right now and what you want to achieve in the future. Do your memorabilia represent: a person you are and want to become or your past? Is your past that defines the values you believe? Do those items add any value to your everyday life? If you want to let go the past holding on to items that represent it might not be a good decision.
How are you today? Please come back with news. You said you want to stand up for your beliefs. This is very good, you are authentic with your values. You are thirsty for something that this life that you are living doesn't have. There's a desire in your heart. Why is it in your heart? Why do you care about people around you? (my advice is to open up with your parents and friends, because you need fleshmade people to discover ways of existence... Not saying "ah, now I'm a monk" because you are not a monk. But there is something that isn't working) Do you recognize on you any need of loving people? If you want to talk about christian faith, message me so we exchange ideas.
Let's do this together! I fell in porn/fap on thursday. Please, please, keep recording here, I want to know if you're doing this well. And in case of failures, believe in yourself. We're here to listen to you, because we fight too!
Bem-vindo, cara (ou cara hahaha)! Quando vi que tinha mais um brasileiro chegando no fórum fiquei bem contente de não estar sozinho. E mais: para a minha surpresa, você está aqui pelo mesmo motivo que eu. Minha história é um pouco parecida, comecei com esses vícios de masturbação/pornografia cedo, acho que por volta de 13 anos de idade, e estou nessa até agora, mas só comecei a lutar seriamente ano passado. E o que aconteceu é que eu acabava voltando àqueles vícios quando ficava muito tempo jogando. Cheguei a ficar quase 2 meses em "NoFap", mas caí na última semana e resolvi entrar aqui. Eu usava bastante o Fortify Program, mas sentia-me um tanto sozinho lá. Aqui tem comunidade, sabe? E o bom é isso, vamos aproveitar isso. Eu te faço companhia e você me faz companhia. Além disso, somos cristãos, você evangélico e eu católico, pelo que contou em outro tópico. Então contemos com a ajuda da Graça! Depois dá uma passadinha no meu diário em português.
Captain's Log will be my translated topic from my journal, "Este não é um RPG" (this is not and RPG), that you can read in portuguese here: https://forum.gamequitters.com/topic/4137-pt-este-não-é-um-rpg/ I won't translate every entry, but I can do this sometimes so more people can come and read my progress. Day 2 What a shit day. I woke up late for the Italian classes and stayed doing nothing. No games, no porn, no fap, the entire day, ok. Allright, very well. But "no anything" too! I passed my day with the computer. Went buy some breads on bycicle and that's it. I have an important test on next wednesday and I just wasted my entire day. Well, I need help. At minimum, I'm a little addicted on internet.
Dia 2 Mas que dia merdinha. Acordei atrasado para a aula de italiano, fiquei morgando. Nada de jogos, nada de pornô ou masturbação. Certo, certo, muito bom. MAS nada de mais nada também! Eu passei o dia com o computador. Saí de bicicleta para comprar pão e depois um isotônico e voltar. Só isso. Prova quarta-feira e eu joguei meu dia no lixo. Preciso de ajuda. Estou, no mínimo parcialmente viciado em internet.
Day 36 - Awesome job. 72% of the free time spent on studying. It was a group meeting and it was successful. I can concentrate on studying when I have a group of friends and laptop around me. I may find a way to study with somebody, not by myself.