"Be open to all outcomes, but attached to none."

3rd time's a charm right?

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Day 58

Been having a lot more depression that usual. It's from the normal sources. Loneliness,money worries, family issues. Watching too much youtube.

Chart shows that I'm going too bed to late.

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Day 59

Ok I'm sure I'm just addicted to youtube now instead of video games. I feel the same way about it as I did the video games. 

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Day 61

Been reading up on how to start an online business, save money, business ideas, ect. Having a lot of trouble with analysis

 

I feel pretty terrible right now. the past few days have been filled with very high highs and very low lows. But throughout it all I have not had any irresistible craving for games. I want to play games but it's optional.  I don't have to play them. I'm pretty proud of myself for that.

 

Today make 45 days of no games.

 

I just came to a realization. Dealing with life long depression is a lot of work. But I've been battling my faniacal problems. I'm still programming and I have not relapsed into gaming again. I've really been beating myself up for doing a good job. That's something I need to look out for.

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45 days is impressive, keep it up.  It seems like you are doing a good job of tracking your time, which helps inform your decisions.  That is the essence of improvement.  Are you keeping track of what you are grateful for anywhere? 

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Day 62

Had unsually strong urge to game triggered by youtube. But not nearly as bad as it was in the past. I'm doing a better job of monitoring youtube time.

 

 

 

45 days is impressive, keep it up.  It seems like you are doing a good job of tracking your time, which helps inform your decisions.  That is the essence of improvement.  Are you keeping track of what you are grateful for anywhere? 

 

I have not. This may not be a bad idea.

Day 65

 

Been doing a LOT of study on forming an online business, and I took a few, shaky, baby steps. I noticed that my depression has dropped of tremendously.

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