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Didn't make a journal entry yesterday because I came back with a headache and went to bed early.

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Can't wait to hear your answer to my advice! :)

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Do you think it's ok?

Greetings, Mad Pharmacist

I think it is fine. The only reason I jerk it is because I'm bored. It's a great way to release sexual tension especially considering I don't have a girl.

Ok, then if it's fine I'll ask you the most simple question:

How will you feel if you'll have a sexual partner and she'll need to masturbate even if she have had sex with you? Will it still be "fine" for you?

Think about it.

 I wouldn't care in the slightest unless it negatively affected our relationship.

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Do you think it's ok?

Greetings, Mad Pharmacist

I think it is fine. The only reason I jerk it is because I'm bored. It's a great way to release sexual tension especially considering I don't have a girl.

Ok, then if it's fine I'll ask you the most simple question:

How will you feel if you'll have a sexual partner and she'll need to masturbate even if she have had sex with you? Will it still be "fine" for you?

Think about it.

 I wouldn't care in the slightest unless it negatively affected our relationship.

Thanks for answer.

This way I know that you shouldn't stop masturbating, because you don't have any reason for that.

It's your comfort zone and it didn't bring you to the bottom so far, so you should do it as much as you want. That's how I understand your attitude on this topic.

 

I have different opinion on it than you, but I respect your attitude :)

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So I got up to a lot yesterday. I did some running then I went climbing. I'm really improving at climbing. And then when I got back I did singing.

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Date: Wed 23/11/2016

Journal day: 12

Detox day: 18

Days since I last wanked ( ͡° ͜ʖ ͡° ): 2

  1. 100 pushups a day
  2. Get up at 6:30 every day apart from sundays
  3. You cant wank if you haven't talked to any girls that day
  4. You matter the most.
  5. Negativity is there because you feel negative. The world is not against you.
  6. Nobody cares about how you act. They only care about their ego. Express yourself!
  7. 5 German words a day
  8. Eat as much as you can whenever you can you skinny little shite :)

Woke up at:

07:30 bad night's sleep

Went to bed at:

22:30

Thoughts and Feelings:

  • I wasn't depressed even though I got up late
  • I like talking to other people in a friendly way but not all the time.
  • One of my "friends" has started acting all hard. He's getting on my nerves. He's useless to me anyway.
  • I like being alone a lot
  • I just want to do my own thing
  • I didn't do the 1 hour i allotted to my project paperwork again because i was extremely depressed
  • Snapped out of it later on
  • Tried making myself look happier and failed

Tasks and Achievements:

  • 50 pushups.
  • Ate loads
  • Coding
  • Running

What I am grateful for:

  • Metal

What I have learnt from today:

  • My self esteem is too low to make proper friends. It's my problem.
  • I don't see myself getting a girlfriend at all for a very long time
  • I am a loner and that doesn't matter. Or does it?

About tomorrow:

  • Get up early
  • Do what you need to do according to your plan for project- big day
  • Stay consistent with your goals
  • Talk to some more girls
  • SMILE YOU FUCK!

Notes:

Edited by Schwing
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Good job with your push-ups. Stick with that, it will help your confidence. :)

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Good job with your push-ups. Stick with that, it will help your confidence. :)

It's great because I don't have much time to get out and do something physically demanding every day.

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Thank you everyone for giving a shit as per usual. I can't stress how much this support means to me.

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What I am grateful for:

  • Metal

Well, I'm grateful for them too:

Znalezione obrazy dla zapytania metals

:D

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Both metal sorts are great :)

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I really like your goals. Challenging but still very much attainable. Also, metal is life. 

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Hahahaha yes metal is life.

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Posted (edited)

Date: Thur 24/11/2016

Journal day: 12

Detox day: 18

Days since I last wanked ( ͡° ͜ʖ ͡° ): 2

  1. 100 pushups a day
  2. Get up at 6:30 every day apart from sundays
  3. You cant wank if you haven't talked to any girls that day
  4. You matter the most.
  5. Negativity is there because you feel negative. The world is not against you.
  6. Nobody cares about how you act. They only care about their ego. Express yourself!
  7. 5 German words a day
  8. Eat as much as you can whenever you can you skinny little shite :)
  9. Every failure is room for improvement- nothing more and nothing less

Woke up at:

07:30 bad night's sleep

Went to bed at:

23:00

Thoughts and Feelings:

  • Woke up and did some singing and drumming
  • I wasn't really depressed at school. I was chatty but just very laid back and reclusive. I am very comfortable this way
  • Skipped lunch because I had to do homework :( very hungry
  • Stayed back at school till 6 to do project work
  • I talked to some girls but they didn't talk back :(
  • Ate loads when I got home
  • Got depressed and self hatey when I got back. Fixed it with some screamo. Clears my mind.

Tasks and Achievements:

  • Singing
  • Drumming
  • 5 German words- I want to travel over europe. I guess brexit isn't so convenient for me! I just hope germany isn't full of bloody refugees when I get there.
  • 100 pushups.
  • Ate loads
  • Coding- finished that shit finally
  • Lots of project work- i am designing a drum pedal and making a jeweller's vice.

What I am grateful for:

What I have learnt from today:

  • I need to keep on top of my studying at home- i should make a diary or a notice board
  • Not having proper work ethic in mind when entering a task like studying is a main cause of my depression
  • There are some local courses in climbing I can sign up for. Would be a great opportunity.
  • Started being negative in the same way this kid is being to be as an experiment and he started backing down. Hahahaha. People are fucking retards sometimes.

About tomorrow:

  • Get up early
  • Do what you need to do according to your plan for project
  • Stay consistent with your goals
  • Talk to some more girls
  • SMILE YOU FUCK!
  • I need to keep on top of paperwork- 1 hour a weekday- 2 hours weekend days

Notes:

Edited by Schwing
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Dope journal!

Haha I like the ''last wanked'' I actually do a No Fap for myself too.

I'm on day 5 now and it really helped me in the best as well. I once quitted for 3 months and I really felt like my willpower was on top of the world. I not only could say no to fapping but also to the unhealthy food choices and bad habits. 
It also made me more motivated on becoming a better person which would attract awesome girls. I'm not sure if I should post it here but fuck it anyway haha. This made me actually dating a lot of new girls. I really tried to get out of my comfort zone and say fuck it. In the end it payed off tho. I met a 18year old girl which was a model and she was amazing. I had a good time with here until she moved from places but this really gave me confidence and say it payed off in the end. 

I came to realize that we should not focus on the reward but rather on ourselves. If we try to become the best version of ourselves we will attract greater things for in the future.

Anyway keep going and don't let those girls get you down :P

I dated a ton of girls before I met the right one and I'm sure you'll find the 'right' one as well if you just keep working on yourself and don't give up! :)

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