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107 days

Days porn free: 10

Days fap free: 5

Today I left my comfort zone by:

  • Talking to 2 people I don't usually talk to

Routine:

  • Get up 6:30 (8:30 weekend)
  • Bioenergetics
  • Cold shower
  • Porridge
  • Physical activity
  • Study or read 1 hour
  • Art 1 hour
  • 50 exp duolingo
  • Meditation

Goal from yesterday done?:

No. this is getting annoying

Thoughts and Feelings:

  • Got up pretty fucking late but I did most of my routine
  • I did a technology tournament all day today. We competed against other school in a team of 4 and came second. Psychic vampire was on my team. He is ok.
  • My hand to eye coordination was on fucking point today!
  • Came back and did some climbing. Tried to spark up a random conversation with the girl who I talked to before. I flopped but I don't care. Let's try again!
  • Climbed like a beast
  • made a 1000 days post
  • Did art. I drew alissa white-gluz from arch enemy. Getting gud at faces.

Tasks and Achievements:

  • Physical: climbing
  • Mental: tournament, art
  • Spiritual: cold shower, bioenergetics, meditation

What I am grateful for:

  • Metal
  • Challenging tournament
  • Growing up
  • Sylosis
  •  

What I have learnt from today:

  • I don't get as angry with people anymore. I understand that some people have been fucked in the head and it isn't their fault.
  • I am finding it easier to assert myself
  • To talk to random people I have to shut off my brain

Tomorrow I will leave my comfort zone by:

  • Talking to at least 3 random people I don't usually talk to

Goal for tomorrow:

get up at the right time

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109 days

Days porn free: 11

Days fap free: 2

Today I left my comfort zone by:

  • Pretty much nothing

Routine:

  • Get up 6:30 (8:30 weekend)
  • Bioenergetics
  • Cold shower
  • Meditation
  • Porridge
  • 50 exp duolingo
  • Physical activity
  • Study or read 1 hour
  • Art 1 hour

Goal from yesterday done?:

Nope. Got up wayyyyyyyyy too late.

Thoughts and Feelings:

  • Got up super late and I didn't do my routine.
  • I was fine at school but I wasn't very socially outgoing. I just sat and read manga and listened to metal on my phone when I could have gone and talked to 3 strangers like I said yesterday
  • Forgot to say my weights came yesterday! I got my gym gloves today with my climbing gear. Fucking sick!
  • I did my full routine when I got back home.
  • I had porn urges today. This one pair of tits keep cropping up in my mind. Rubber band solved it a bit.
  • I did more art. I have been doing really well lately. I am going to keep drawing from reference
  • my duo lingo streak is dead
  • The rubber band doesn't hurt as much anymore. Cold shower pain tolerance kicking in perhaps

Tasks and Achievements:

  • Physical: running
  • Mental: studying, art, researching autonomic nervous system
  • Spiritual: cold shower, bioenergetics, meditation

What I am grateful for:

  • Metal
  • New retro wave
  • rubber bands

What I have learnt from today:

  • I have so many opportunities to meet new people but I don't take them.
  • Perhaps I am focusing my willpower on noporn so I fail to get up early?

Tomorrow I will leave my comfort zone by:

  • Talking to at least 3 random people I don't usually talk to

Goal for tomorrow:

get up at the right time ffs

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110 days

Days porn free: 1

Today I left my comfort zone by:

  • Talked to 3 people I don't usually talk to

Routine:

  • Get up 6:30 (8:30 weekend)
  • Bioenergetics
  • Cold shower
  • Meditation
  • 50 exp duolingo
  • Physical activity
  • Study or read 1 hour
  • Art 1 hour

Goal from yesterday done?:

Yes perfect!

Thoughts and Feelings:

  • Got up on time and did some of my work out for first time
  • I actually pmoed yesterday. Sucked a bag of dick.
  • I felt quite empty towards to end of today. I think it was because of my tiredness sexual frustration. Both emotional and physical.
  • Came in went straight to bed and fapped
  •  Felt much better after
  • Made a lengthy post on what I think about nofap
  • Nofap counter is kaput. I need to sexually liberate my mind. Relieve the shackles of the counter and I won't gravitate to porn
  • Tasks and Achievements:
  •  
  •  
  • Physical: workout
  • Mental: studying, reading
  • Spiritual: cold shower, bioenergetics, meditation

What I am grateful for:

  • Metal
  • Wanking
  • Ideas
  • Satanic Bible
  • Manga

What I have learnt from today:

  • I know masturbation is unnatural but I can suppress my natural urges. Until I find a girlfriend I am going to liberate my mind from this nofap business. Porn is still off the cards
  • Diversity of ideas is important
  • Nofap isn't magically going to turn you into superman. You have to actually do the thing. Approaching women is a separate activity that can be fulfilled on its own.
  • Tomorrow I will leave my comfort zone by:
  • Talking to at least 3 random people I don't usually talk to

Goal for tomorrow:

Row 2km

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Nice job identifying something that's not working for you and making an adjustment! Keep being mindful of where it's taking you post-adjustment.

Going to try and break down my philosophy on girls without rambling... too much. Disclaimer: This is about girls I like, ... generalities coming, take with a grain of salt:

They want to be your friend, they want you to tease them, to have fun with them, to truly see them. To make their lives better, to be a pillar of strength and a shoulder to cry on. They want to improve your life, and be your best friend and share your interests. To grow and develop, to be challenged.

When I was dating and looking for a real relationship, it was hard to see all the advice and try to make sense of it, I made a lot of choices, some good, some bad. Ultimately you seem to be on a good path, and that path is going to attract good people. Keep it up!

 

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@Simms Thank you for this piece of advice. I think this is what everyone wants deep down regardless of gender. Someone to rest in and someone to draw strength from. Someone to catalyse your yin an yang energies.

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110 days

Days porn free: 2

Today I left my comfort zone by:

  • Talked to 3 people I don't usually talk to

Routine:

  • Get up 6:30 (8:30 weekend)
  • Bioenergetics
  • Cold shower
  • Meditation
  • 50 exp duolingo
  • Physical activity
  • Study or read 1 hour
  • Art 1 hour

Goal from yesterday done?:

Yes perfect!

Thoughts and Feelings:

  • Got up veeerry late but I managed to sneak a cold shower in.
  • At school today we had a lecture from a psychologist on stress management and she made everyone do 10 mins meditation. Bwhahahaha.....noobs.
  • I let my mind wander a lot today- especially pondering the idea of sexual energy
  • Today I smiled at a girl randomly. Instant conversation like it was normal. I think the art of approaching people is all in your demeanour. If you can insight the feeling in them to engage with you through gestures then you are less at the risk of your mind trapping your words. e.g you won't be like "Uhhhh what should I say?.... Oh shit....."
  • I read some manga
  • I got some studying done.
  • I rowed 2 km.

 Tasks and achievements:

  • Physical: rowing
  • Mental: studying, nofap posts, researching paganism, reading
  • Spiritual: cold shower, meditation

What I am grateful for:

  • Metal
  • Emotional clarity
  • Physical exercise
  • Persefone

What I have learnt from today:

  • The sexual energy is twofold- both physical and emotional. My previous approach to nofap was an attempt to deny the physical side and empower the emotional. However the two cannot be separated. With the mental intention of suppressing my sexual energy I was placing a bottleneck on my spirit thus the flood gates only gave way in the end. But with understanding of my sexual energy I can allow myself to embody it and not merely vent it through a frustrated wank. To be free of masturbation perhaps I need to simply embrace my sexuality. I dispelled an urge today by simply saying something along the lines of "It's ok- this is a natural impulse. Let it pass through" I just let the lustful thoughts take over. Truly get in touch with your sexual energy and work with it. The wild beasts are always the stronger
  • Conversation is more than just words

Tomorrow I will leave my comfort zone by:

  • Talking to at least 3 random people I don't usually talk to
  • Smile at someone

Goal for tomorrow:

Do full workout

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111 days

Days porn free: 3

Today I left my comfort zone by:

  • Nooootttttthhiiiiinnnggggg

Routine:

  • Get up 6:30 (8:30 weekend)
  • Bioenergetics
  • Cold shower
  • Meditation
  • 50 exp duolingo
  • Physical activity
  • Study or read 1 hour
  • Art 1 hour

Goal from yesterday done?:

Yes

Thoughts and Feelings:

  • Got up veeerry late again but I don't care.
  • Decent day at school. I wasn't very good socially today. Felt a little autistic so to speak.
  • Came back did workout. I will have to shuffle the reps and sets around because some exercises felt easy and others were brutal. Should everything be brutal? Or just semi brutal?
  • Did my energising routine. My parents were out so I did the noisy exercise this time. It didn't really do much.
  • Watched cowboy Bebop
  • Did some art. I drew Josh Middleton from sylosis
  • Did some duo lingo
  • Went to work and absolutely slayed

 Tasks and achievements:

  • Physical: workout, work
  • Mental: studying, art, learning german
  • Spiritual: cold shower, meditation, bioenergetics

What I am grateful for:

  • Metal
  • Cowboy Bebop
  • Having a job
  • Getting to stuff my face with food while I work
  • Getting shit done today

What I have learnt from today:

  • Need to find a way to push my spirit through my ego. Assert my consciousness.
  • Need to fix workout

Tomorrow I will leave my comfort zone by:

  • Get up early and study

Goal for tomorrow:

Finish all homework

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112 days

Days porn free: 4

Today I left my comfort zone by:

  • Being open on 1000 days accountability call
  • Getting myself up

Routine:

  • Get up 6:30 (8:30 weekend)
  • Bioenergetics
  • Cold shower
  • Meditation
  • 50 exp duolingo
  • Physical activity
  • Study or read 1 hour
  • Art 1 hour

Goal from yesterday done?:

Not entirely

Thoughts and Feelings:

  • I got up at 9 after a lot of self persuasion.
  • Did energising routine. Some days it just doesn't work. Didn't feel tingly like I normally do.
  • Surfed the forums a bit. I think it's productive
  • Watched more cowboy bebop
  • Studied a bit but I hit some brick walls and ended up trailing off. Didn't absolutely finish everything
  • Read some manga
  • Did accountability call. almost 2 hours holy shit. I really enjoyed it because I got to talk about things I am usually uncomfortable talking about to other people I am always in my head.

 Tasks and achievements:

  • Physical: rest day
  • Mental: studying, learning german, reading, call
  • Spiritual: cold shower, meditation, bioenergetics

What I am grateful for:

  • Metal
  • Accountability
  • Hand grip exercisers
  • Easy cruising

What I have learnt from today:

  • I talk about myself too much. Need to get better at listening.
  • The ego asserts the consciousness and not the mind.
  • If I am studying I should immediately move on to something else if I hit a brick wall

Tomorrow I will leave my comfort zone by:

  • Start 3 conversations with random people. Speak when you want to and release the restrictions of your mind.

Goal for tomorrow:

Get up on time

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Came back did workout. I will have to shuffle the reps and sets around because some exercises felt easy and others were brutal. Should everything be brutal? Or just semi brutal?

Put as much into it as you can, if it's exhausting you grow more. If you have a bad day, just maintain and go easy. If you have a good day, go all out on repetitions (safe) - or weight / speed (not so safe).

And mind, if you really have a shitty day, just do halfass training at 50%, that's still better than giving up on it or having no fun longterm!

When I've been sick or lazy, I always re-enter at 50% not to harm myself. Injury has to be avoided at all costs, it's a shame when you go all out on a good day and screw a tendon or a joint and have to stay away from training for weeks. So always start out just below what you think you can handle.

Repetition is the safest route. As a beginner I'd go 30 repetitions with very low weight for 2-3 months (not shitting) with a heavy focus on torso and legs. A body needs to be built from the ground up. If you don't have back, legs and abdominal muscles trained, you're fucked when going for shoulders, neck, biceps and triceps with heavy weight due to a risk for back injury. I can give you a noob plan, but it's from 2004ish, so it might not be what current science dictates (but they always change their minds anyways and want to sell weird products which fuck your kidneys - just my opinion, take care).

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113 days

Days porn free: 5

Today I left my comfort zone by:

  • Nothing

Routine:

  • Get up 6:30 (8:30 weekend)
  • Bioenergetics
  • Cold shower
  • Meditation
  • 50 exp duolingo
  • Physical activity
  • Study or read 1 hour
  • Art 1 hour

Goal from yesterday done?:

No

Thoughts and Feelings:

  • I got up at 7:50 which is way too late
  • Today at school I didn't feel depressed but I felt indifferent. I felt like I just wanted to be separated from all the people I don't give a shit about.
  • I could have expanded my comfort zone today through conversation. But i wasn't in the mood.
  • I came home and did the energising routine i missed out in the morning
  • I had a big think about life. I wondered what my path in life is and what I want to achieve. I had doubts about becoming and engineer. Will I just become a cog in a machine with no creative freedom? Or is that just how the world works? I also had doubts about society and whether getting a high flying job just to earn meaningless money is what I want to really do. Whether engineering is a true passion of mine or a figment of the ego.
  • I ended up researching about gender roles somehow
  • I then got my shit together and did some physics
  • I then did some art

 Tasks and achievements:

  • Physical: running
  • Mental: studying, learning german, art, think
  • Spiritual: cold shower, meditation, bioenergetics

What I am grateful for:

  • Metal
  • Life
  • This
  • 5 days porn free

What I have learnt from today:

  • I think too much
  • I don't really like talking to people at school a lot. There is no connection. Just the same old shit every day.
  • I feel lonely. Perhaps what I want most in life is a friend who i can show my true self to.

Tomorrow I will leave my comfort zone by:

  • Start 3 conversations with random people. Speak when you want to and release the restrictions of your mind.

Goal for tomorrow:

Actually leave your comfort zone

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Start 3 conversations with random people. Speak when you want to and release the restrictions of your mind.

Looking forward to hearing how this goes.  

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113 days

Days porn free: 5

Today I left my comfort zone by:

  • I talked to 3 people I don't usually talk to but the situation presented itself to me more.

Routine:

  • Get up 6:30 (8:30 weekend)
  • Bioenergetics
  • Cold shower
  • Meditation
  • 50 exp duolingo
  • Physical activity
  • Study or read 1 hour
  • Art 1 hour

Goal from yesterday done?:

Sort of

Thoughts and Feelings:

  • I got up at a similar time to yesterday
  • I had social anxiety for a significant portion of today
  • I dropped it later on
  • I went climbing, came home, worked out and did energising routine
  • My drum kit got moved out today. It will be missed. But I am not not a jack of all trades.
  • Fiddled about with krita.

 Tasks and achievements:

  • Physical: climbing, workout
  • Mental: studying, learning german, krita
  • Spiritual: cold shower, meditation, bioenergetics

What I am grateful for:

  • Metal
  • Physically pushing myself
  • the 1000 days challenge pushing me
  • food
  • my friends on nofap and game quitters

What I have learnt from today:

  • I have an idea to get shit done. I have to physically initiate the task and not mentally. Physical initiation is not subject to mental blocking and opens you up.
  • I am lonely because I don't feel an attachment to anyone on an emotional level. The question is how do I find someone who can be a real friend to me?

Tomorrow I will leave my comfort zone by:

  • Start 3 conversations with random people. Move into the conversation first.

Goal for tomorrow:

Actually leave your comfort zone ffs

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113 days

Days porn free: 5

Today I left my comfort zone by:

  • I talked to 3 people I don't usually talk to but the situation presented itself to me more.
  • I have an idea to get shit done. I have to physically initiate the task and not mentally. Physical initiation is not subject to mental blocking and opens you up.
  • I am lonely because I don't feel an attachment to anyone on an emotional level. The question is how do I find someone who can be a real friend to me?

Tomorrow I will leave my comfort zone by:

  • Start 3 conversations with random people. Move into the conversation first.

Goal for tomorrow:

Actually leave your comfort zone ffs

So, this is pretty damn loaded but I'm willing to delay my sleep by ten minutes for this. 

First of all, congratulations on your progress. It's looking great! 

 

You managed to talk to people you know because the situation presented itself. That is outstanding and is among some of the best first steps you can take. I see however you want to go further than that. Getting to that asap. 

 

You realize the mental physical divide between action and inaction. Everyone struggles with that. Push yourself but don't be too hard on yourself. You are still learning. Hell, most people here are still learning. 

 

You think you are lonely because you don't have anyone to attach to on an emotional level. I am here to tell you that that one is an easy fix. 

I lied to you. It is not an easy fix. But definitely a more than approachable task. I need some more context on this one though. Are you part of any clubs or extra curricular activities at your school (do you guys even have those), do you have special interest in something you know some people at your school do as well? I doubt you are the football kinda guy but one of the things you will learn about people really soon is that they love talking about the stuff they know to anyone who even vaguely gets what they mean. What I am saying is, you might be interested in art history, you could look up the basics and get into a great convo. That can lead to nice interaction or even friendship. You follow me so far? Good because this is where the hard part comes in. You need to meet random people who look your age. In school this is fucking difficult. In Uni it's the easiest shit. I randomly chose to talk to someone today as well. Did not turn out amazing but I have no regrets for not having done it. That is a win. 

At your stage and with your history with social anxiety however, I think you need a plan of action. So I am telling you come up with a basic approach you would do with guys and a basic approach you would do with girls. Try it. See how it works. Experiment, have fun. And this is a tough one to most members of the metal community but you need to learn to smile with a purpose. You need to directly indicate to people that you are excited to meet them. 

There's a lot more but honestly I'm no master of social interaction so I can't tell you more than what I know and worked with myself. 

 

By the time you read this you will have already done the approach 3 people bit. If you did it, congrats, great progress. :) If not, don't beat yourself up over it and try my approach. Get confident in a topic you can talk about with normies. It works wonders. Politics is my go to. Everyone does politics nowadays, if for nothing else the memes. 

 

And last but not least, actually leaving your comfort zone. Ah, the sensation of your heart throbbing in the middle of your throat as if it wanted to leave your body and literally murder you as part of the fight or flight reflex. How INVIGORATING! In the strangest sense, this community consists of the hardest adrenaline junkies. Pushing yourself in ways you never dared before will become a regular part of your life. Trust me on that one. It's hard to start and I would not have been able to do it before uni. But here I am, and here is this whole wonderful inspiring community giving you a head start. You are in a great position man and I hope you understand that. ProTip, consider Sussex U for MechEng. It's really nice down here, the people are really cool and accepting+the rock/metal society here has like 4 members this year and we need more. 

 

Once again, a pleasure to see your progress. Best of luck mate. 

 

What happens when an unstoppable force meets an unmovable object? A damn good time. 

 

-Csaba

 

 

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@Csaba_Bekesi Smile? You mean like this?:

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Haha thanks for your ten minutes my man. I do climbing at school but there is nobody my age I like there. I do have deep conversations with this one kid sometimes at school. Contrary to what you would think though- we have fuck all in common. I am into fitness/ sport. He isn't. He likes hip hop. I like metal. He believes in god. I don't. He is black. I am yellow. We are of the same mindset. Fuck school. Fuck being marginalised and all this fake bullshit. Sussex is WAY too far south. I am living way up in Durham. So there isn't likely going to be a 5th member anytime soon I'm afraid!

Having something in common is a great way to meet people but to be compatible with other people is another story:

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115 days

Days porn free: 7

Today I left my comfort zone by:

  • Talking to 1 person I don't usually talk to

Routine:

  • Get up 6:30 (8:30 weekend)
  • Bioenergetics
  • Cold shower
  • Meditation
  • 50 exp duolingo
  • Physical activity
  • Study or read 1 hour
  • Art 1 hour

Goal from yesterday done?:

1/3 done

Thoughts and Feelings:

  • I got up at my usual late time. This is becoming a habit!
  • Went to school. Standard day. I sat around listening to metal and reading manga when I should have been talking to random people though. I think this is my new escape.
  • Came home. Got lost in my thoughts a bit. Ended up looking at these feminist videos because it's international women's day. I don't agree with progressives. You can't change the nature of the human consciousness through political activism. We either go forward and just see what happens or go back and start living in caves again.
  • Researched some lower body exercises as per @destoroyah's advice
  • watched some elliott hulse. I have been thinking for myself a lot since i started this whole thing and much of what he says resonates with me nonetheless. The topic was finding purpose without religion.
  • Looked at krita tutorials (krita is digital art software btw. It's free too)
  • I haven't actually done my energising routine today. I'm getting too much into the habit of slacking off in the mornings. The notion of going 36 hours without a shower will get me out of bed.

 Tasks and achievements:

  • Physical: row 2km
  • Mental: studying, learning german, krita, workout research
  • Spiritual: meditation

What I am grateful for:

  • Metal
  • The berserk manga
  • Knowing my shit (sometimes)
  • This awesome music
  • one week porn and fap free

What I have learnt from today:

  • Stuff about religion and politics blah blah blah I think too much sometimes

Tomorrow I will leave my comfort zone by:

  • Talk to 3 people you don't usually talk to.
  • Practice randomly approaching people once

Goal for tomorrow:

get out of bed at the right time

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