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  1. none239 added a post in a topic 3rd time's a charm right?   

    My new business made it's first 2 sales today. The dream is real. Quitting games has changed the way I look at the world.
    76 Days no games
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  2. none239 added a post in a topic 3rd time's a charm right?   

    Starting to make plans for post 90 day gaming. Need to come up with other activities besides game
     
    72 Days no games
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    Not  a lot to add. This is a good thing though business is starting to pick up.
    67 Days no games
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    Day 80
    I'm really proud of myself for pacing myself properly with the business.
    60 Days no games
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    Day 77
    Have been working full steam on the business. I saw a  farming game that I would have been interested in, in the past, but it seems like the game is a huge waste of time now.
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    Day 73
    I made took the first steps in getting my online business going. I have never been so proud of myself in my life. 
    I feel like the lessons I learned from quitting games and my long term depression has thought me valuable lessons that have put me on the path I'm on.
    57 Days no games
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    Day 71
    One of the things I've been agonizing over for the past 6 months was my decision to quit my job. I'm trying to get my startup out of the mud now.
    I just found out that the company I used to work for has just been bought out, and I would have lost my job in the merger.
    I kind of knew, ok I was absolutely positive, that this would happen soon. We had a layoff, followed by constant threats of layoffs, and the heads of the company kept making outrageous price cutting demands. 
    I feel a lot better about quitting. It led me to realize that I needed to quit gaming. And it made me realize the importance of having control over my income.  
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    Day 67
    Did a lot more research and I'm very close to coming up with a solid business plan. I'm feeling pretty proud.
    I realized that I may not be able to go back into gaming, even in moderation, since this would take critical time away from the business.
     
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    Day 62
    Had unsually strong urge to game triggered by youtube. But not nearly as bad as it was in the past. I'm doing a better job of monitoring youtube time.
     
    I have not. This may not be a bad idea.
    Day 65
     
    Been doing a LOT of study on forming an online business, and I took a few, shaky, baby steps. I noticed that my depression has dropped of tremendously.
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    Day 61
    Been reading up on how to start an online business, save money, business ideas, ect. Having a lot of trouble with analysis
     
    I feel pretty terrible right now. the past few days have been filled with very high highs and very low lows. But throughout it all I have not had any irresistible craving for games. I want to play games but it's optional.  I don't have to play them. I'm pretty proud of myself for that.
     
    Today make 45 days of no games.
     
    I just came to a realization. Dealing with life long depression is a lot of work. But I've been battling my faniacal problems. I'm still programming and I have not relapsed into gaming again. I've really been beating myself up for doing a good job. That's something I need to look out for.
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  11. none239 added a post in a topic Does it count if it's not video games?   

    Thank you so much! You could not possible be more correct.
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  12. none239 added a post in a topic Does it count if it's not video games?   

    This a thousand times this. I realized that I was over worrying about life and writing down my feelings in this post, writing down my bed times so I dont make myself sleep deprived, and writing down a financial plan has greatly removed a lot of the stress. I'm even making a repayment plan for the debt. 
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  13. none239 added a topic in Relapse   

    Does it count if it's not video games?
    I've gone more than 30 days without playing a single video game. But now I find that instead of playing video games for 8 to 15 hours I watch youtube for more than 8 to 15 hours.
    It's exactly the same as the game addiction. I have no energy and no desire to even try to take care of myself when I watch youtube. The final straw with gaming was after I quit my job. I had lots of bills pilling up but I had no desire to even try to get another job or find another way to make money. Now I'm in debt and I have no desire to do anything but watch youtube. The subject doesn't even matter, Video games, History vids, humor, I'll watch it all. 
     
    Life has not been going so well for me. I've moved back in with my parents and I'm in a fair amount of debt. My mother is paying it off for me but I feel extremely guilty for not being able to pay her back. My family has been torn apart by infighting and a family member I used to confide in is, to keep a long story short, on the opposite side of the conflict from myself. I'm unemployed and I want to start a business but I don't know what to do.
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  14. none239 added a post in a topic 3rd time's a charm right?   

    Day 59
    Ok I'm sure I'm just addicted to youtube now instead of video games. I feel the same way about it as I did the video games. 
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    Day 58
    Been having a lot more depression that usual. It's from the normal sources. Loneliness,money worries, family issues. Watching too much youtube.
    Chart shows that I'm going too bed to late.
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