"Be open to all outcomes, but attached to none."
adrian2003 added a topic in Start Here + IntroductionsMy IntroductionHey Guys, my name is Adrian, I am 21 years old and from Germany.
I played videogames as long as I can remember, but it only became a problem a couple of years ago.
The game i am addicted to is Dota 2.
Actually im not sure if addicted is the right word, because i dont really enjoy the game anymore.
I play to escape reality.
The feeling of being incapable to achieve my goals creates this urge to escape reality. Sometimes this feeling gets so intense that i cant stand it anymore. I start playing video games.
When I play, I play up to 16 hours a day. During these intense gaming periods i eat and sleep only very little. I dont leave my room.
And then there are times where I feel like I am making progress towards my goals and I dont game at all. Before my current relapse i didnt touch videosgames or the tv for about 7 months.
This cicle keeps repeating itself: periods of motivation during which i dont play at all and periods of depression when I dont do anything else than gaming.
I am afraid that i cant escape this circle because it has been going on like this for the last 3 years.
I bought respawn yesterday and hope that I can finally overcome this big obstacle in my life.
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