The day before yesterday I greeted three strangers. I got responses, two verbal and one non verbal. Yesterday I only greeted two strangers. Not comfortable enough to do a full on approach yet, only when passing people.
Squat 305lb. 5x5 Missed a few reps at the last set. Made them up.
Bench 200lb. 5x5 Didn’t warm up. Failed at the last set. Almost died if two guys didn’t notice, god bless them. Despite the situation, we ended up laughing about it. Note to self. Bring and lift with a spotter.
Deadlift 370lb. Double overhand grip. No changes
General Activity Log:
2/3 strangers greeted. Both responded
2 minutes of mindfulness meditation
No more contrasting showers, jumping in cold and leaving cold. Didn’t make time for my hobbies/goals again. Getting absolutely rekted by school. The gym fail reminded me that my time is still ticking, I’m not invincible, my time will come, blah blah, *more incoherent unintelligible writing from ya boy*
2/3/2017 Stats: Spirit: D Body: C Mind: C Charisma: E Discipline: E Developmental Potential: A Meal Summary: Meal 1: Tea. Water. 4oz eggs. Omelets with spinach, onions, turkey. Banana. Bowl of fruit. Meal 2: Cheesesteak. Pickles. Fries. Meal 3: Chicken. Green beans. Potatoes. Turkey sandwich. Flat bread pizza. Workout Summary: 350lb 5RM Squat-No changes 145lb 3RM Overhead Press-Grinder, OHP progression is stalling 200lb Power Clean 3x5-No changes General Activity Log: 5 minutes’ mindfulness meditation. Made new friend today over a shirt I wore today, the conversation didn’t become awkward the end. 25 minutes+ of Python done. Finished the chapter, on basic flow control statements after putting it off for so long @_@. Worked on business? Nope Knowledge Gained: N/A Plan for Tomorrow: GSD
I've been abstaining video games but I find other ways to slack off. Charisma is still pretty low, I rarely initiate conversations or speak to people other than friends and family. My introversion and monkey brain can fuck off.
1/30/2017 Stats: Spirit: D Body: C Mind: C Charisma: E Discipline: E Developmental Potential: A Meal Summary: Meal 1: Flat bread pizza. White rice. Orange chicken. Broccoli. Grape tomatoes. Meal 2: Flat bread pizza. Sweet potatoes. Hash browns. Broccoli. Grape tomatoes. Spinach. Raisins. Granola. Workout Summary: 5x5 300lb Squat. No changes 5x5 120lb Press(Overhead). Last reps were grinders. 5x1 365lb Deadlift (Double Hook Grip). No changes General Activity Log: Mindfulness mediation is getting much easier. I’m going to increase the daily sessions by one minute every two weeks. Daily action for 5-programs: Did 25 minutes of learning/coding in Python. Didn’t do the daily action for my systems/goals. Knowledge Gained: A lot of my knowledge gains are lessons I’ve already learned but failed to internalize. I’ll keep on regurgitating them until I internalize them. Plan for Tomorrow: G.S.D.
1/29/2017 Stats: Spirit: D Body: C Mind: C Charisma: E Discipline: E Developmental Potential: A Meal Summary: Meal 1: Sweet Potatoes. Broccoli. Green beans. Bacon. Eggs. Potatoes. Water. Workout Summary: De-load week 335lb 5RM Squat 240lb 3RM Bench 185lb 3x5 Power Clean General Activity Log: Keeping up with my daily journal entries again. 1-minute mindfulness meditation. My eyes prematurely opened. I was too anxious during the session. 5-minute mindfulness meditation. Focused on the flow of my breath. Knowledge Gained: In general, there is never a right time to do something. Need to remember this the next time I blow off anything I need to do. "What is today but yesterday's tomorrow?"
1/23/2017 Stats: Spirit: D Body: C Mind: C Charisma: E Discipline: E Developmental Potential: A Meal Summary: Trash from the vending machine Workout Summary: N/A General Activity Log: Morning Mindfulness for 2 minutes. Opened my eyes twice during the session, got anxious. Starting to focus more on breathing than my thoughts and environment. Starting to get stressed out for no reason, considering taking a break from school. Tempted to go back video-games to suppress my feelings instead of fixing them. What’s the point man? Didn’t bother going far from my room or do anything productive. Knowledge Gained: Thoughts having power doesn’t seem like hippy guru bullshit anymore. My mindset is so negative it’s starting to hurt me physically. Plan for Tomorrow: Lay off the entertainment and take the time to do some introspection instead.