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  1. lilX added a topic in Everything Else   

    Does lsd help you quit gaming?
    I was reading accounts of people taking lsd or other psychadelics and quit their addictions, stop depression, induce flow state, etc. 
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  2. lilX added a post in a topic Thinking about proposing to girlfriend but worried that I may not have enough groomsmen   

    @Destoroyah
    I think it will be best for everyone if the best man is someone else or if no one makes the best man speech. My mom does things without discussing with me, but she wont get upset if I tell her to stop doing things. 
    I would like to improve relations with all family members including my cousin. He went to camada about 5 years ago. I had no friends and little social skills understanding before i learned pick up, so I am sure that I made things bad for him. Before I learned pickup, I had this mindset that I will always make people unhappy and hate me, because it keeps happening. 
    Past few years he is ignoring my texts and trying to avoid me and not talk to me in general. I can think of a couple of things that i did that may upset him, or things my dad or mom did. But there is no communication. I think he is just not very communicative in general or he is thinking in a fixed mindset and just trying to cut me off forever. I think it will just take 2 to 15 years or so for things to improve. 
    The best thing I can do right now is focus my attention on the wedding preparations rather than get upset over things. 
    Writing in this forum really helps. 
     
    @Hitaru awww thanks!
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  3. lilX added a post in a topic Thinking about proposing to girlfriend but worried that I may not have enough groomsmen   

    My mom asked my cousin to be my best man. My relationship with my cousin was never good. It takes a few days or weeks to get a reply from him. What do I do? How do I be more resilient ti this situation?
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  4. lilX added a post in a topic The shame, is it real?   

  5. lilX added a post in a topic LilX Journal.   

    Things been good. I am hanging out Fiances grandparents in China now. 
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  6. lilX added a post in a topic LilX Journal.   

    Had one of the most productive weeks in my life. 
     
    https://i.reddituploads.com/c4446753d3f64548a6dde2a29b8d3481?fit=max&h=1536&w=1536&s=88d0784ab5db093a9ae2ee5118868b8f
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  7. lilX added a post in a topic The Warrior's Infinite Opus   

    I used to have similar thoughts until like the past 3 years. 
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  8. lilX added a post in a topic LilX Journal.   

    I surfed the net for half an hour yesterday, so now I have to donate to the Gates Foundation. 
    Other than that Ive been quite productive. 
     
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  9. lilX added a post in a topic LilX Journal.   

    lol well you recommended it for the Beyond Group. Will read when Im in China. 
    Hey guys, I am just 9 hours from completing my no surfing the internet no coffee challenge.
    My next challenge will be just no surfing the internet, increase my discipline skills, finish all my tasks for this week, and increase my mindfulness skills for up to this saturday. If I fail, I donate 105 dollars canadian to the Gates Foundation. 
    By the way, Im going to China for my wedding ceremonies with my and my fiances family this saturday. Im going to take a trip to Thailand too.
    Good luck on your self development everyone!!
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  10. lilX added a post in a topic Journal - Gresa   

    hey Gresa. Welcome back. How are things going?
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  11. lilX added a topic in Lifestyle   

    Elon Musk Infographic
    Http://fundersandfounders.com/how-elon-musk-started/
    This infographic was very inspiration to me. Elon Musk didnt have the perfect situation to be a billionaire; his parents divorced, his father is abusive, and he gets jumped in school. But he became a superhero and leader of world changing companies through his brave decisions, hard work, and never giving up.
    The first three rockets that he launched failed before he successully launched a rocket. Man I just teared up a little when I read that. 
    What we can learn from this is decisions leads to results. We decide our future. Quitting gaming is our decision. What other decisions will you make?
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  12. lilX added a post in a topic LilX Journal.   

    Im doing this 3 months program for self development because i want to take my self improvement to the next level. 
     Im ordering this book off amazon called Deep Work by Cal Newport. This book basically advocates focused, undistracted work when working, and to relax when not working. 
    Im going to implement this by having a maximum of 5 breaks to text/checkemail/check facebook/washroom/eat during my work hours. 
    I work for my dad, so i can do overtime.  
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  13. lilX added a post in a topic Shine Magical's journal   

    Congrats. I find motivation and discipline to be the most challenging when there are no deadlines. 
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  14. lilX added a post in a topic Craig's Journal   

    I find that each attempt gets easier. Its like your next ascension get some perks and skills that gets carried over
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  15. lilX added a post in a topic Share your experiences and tips for friendship?   

    i joined a mma dojo for a few months now. i volunteered in their tournament, and had dinner with them later. The tournament was brutal. Lots of brain cells died that day. 
    They are really nice and training there keeps me from feeling lonely when my fiance is not around. 
    I agree with your tip! 
     
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  16. lilX added a post in a topic LilX Journal.   

    I didnt have much to do yesteday and fucked up by watching youtube and reddit, so now i have to pay up. 
    Speaking of reddit, the subreddit wholesome memes was fun to read. I was reading the latest reddit ama with Bill Gates and he said that success to him is defined by making those close to him happy, and as a bonus do something to make the world a better place. That really resonated with me. 
    Next challenge is the same thing for a week except i can listen to music on youtube, and the only caffeine i can consume is freshly brewed tea. 
    If i fail i give 100 dollars to the bill and melina gates foundation this time. 
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  17. lilX added a post in a topic LilX Journal.   

    Edit: 
    I Should go to bed soon
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  18. lilX added a post in a topic Stercus accidit's Journal - 90 days detox completed :D   

    Congrats on the 90 days. If you say that you are getting more things done with gaming, then gaming in moderation is okay for you? 
    It's your call whether you want to quit gaming again. Even if you decided to continue gaming, I will still be interested in reading your journal. 
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  19. lilX added a post in a topic LilX Journal.   

    Done the 1 week and I would like to continue this. Im starting a new 1 week challenge with the following tweaks: 
    I am allowed to watch Cams videos on youtube, or videos that he recommends. 
    Caffeine limit reduced to 65mg 
    Like before, I owe Cam 80 dollars if I fail the challenge. 
     
     
     
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  20. lilX added a post in a topic LilX Journal.   

    thanks pierce. I am a few hours away from finishing the week. 
    I noticed that i am more engaged in everything i do, whether it is housework, work, or texting people to set up plans for the weekend.  I get to spend more time being productive as well. My estimation is a 32 percent increase is productivity this week. 
    The downsides are I feel bored more often, though i expect that i will get used to it after a while. If something that bothers me comes up I dont have any online distractions to soothe myself at all. Well I can still go this forum. I cant watch cams youtube videos. 
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  21. lilX added a post in a topic Shine Magical's journal   

    I too have experienced stress and listening to dir en grey when studying for exams.
    Study hard, hope u do well
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  22. lilX added a post in a topic What makes you happy?   

    I just try to focus on taking action. Sometimes I feel happy during the process. 
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  23. lilX added a post in a topic LilX Journal.   

    My endurance leveled up to level 1.
     
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  24. lilX added a topic in Lifestyle   

    How do you start an accountability group?
    Thinking of starting an accountability groups. What are resources on the right way and structure to run an accountability group?
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  25. lilX added a post in a topic The Warrior's Infinite Opus   

    I was reading what Simms said about engineering and i want to add that choosing a particular field doesnt gurantee liberation. There is a dark side and good side to every industry.  
    Im doing structural engineering right now and man there is so many ways you can become corrupt or immoral. When your client is the contractor, and they only care about keeping the cost down, there is so much pressure to sacrifice the safety of the building because you get no financial reward for making things safe. In the last comapny i worked for, they really didnt give a shit about safety and only about money. Lots of illegal things happening in that company. I quit after a women brought a knife to work and threatened to kill people. Anyways im trying to be positive here. Im working for a client who is an architect company doing sustainable, net zero carbon footprint buildings right now. Im good friends with one of the designers and Im really into making the world better and helping the environment so i find the job super fulfilling. I can only say about my own experiences but im sure other fields are the same, there are always opportunities to walk the dark side or light side. Im sure there are great people every field. 
    Good to hear that you are doing workouts. I like to encourage people to exercise because of all the scientific evidence on the benefits of exercise. There are scientific research that shows exercise is better at combating depression than any antidepressant. Im not saying you are depressed or anything like that, but one could infer from that study that exercise should makes people feel really good. But i do have one buddy with a rare disease and exercise just makes him dizzy so i dont know. 
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