Haven't posted in a while. Made some progress. Realized i need to cut my ties with my video game past self permanently. So I've decided to delete my game accounts, so I won't be tempted to go back to my old games in my digital library. I need to do better with staying away from people I watch on YouTube that discuss video games or related media/news. I struggle with that the most right now. Watching those videos are being a negative influence on me wanting to stay away from video games.
Right now I"m working on being consistent with waking up early and staying awake.
Thanks for everyone that's reads this message/post.
Hope the rest of your December month is blessed & if you don't know what Jesus taught and said I highly suggest researching it up and so you don't have to take someone's else's word (pun not intended) for that topic & how that relates to your life.
Bonus: This quote below I have a better understanding on it's meaning now.
"He is no fool who gives what he cannot keep to gain what he cannot lose" - Jim Elliot
You're right.... also this time I bent my game discs so I can't play them. I think there's a connection with my video game addiction and watching pornography, if I spend time playing video games that leaves me more vulnerable to watching pornography like what happened to me today . So this time the system isn't coming out of the trash. No one knows how long their life is going to last, so I need to be more responsible with my life's time. Kind of how we deny ourselves when we do stuff we don't like like eating healthy instead of like a juicy burger with extra onion rings inside. Giving up video games will benefit me even if I don't see it immediately or at least it will benefit others around me because the choices we make affect people around us. This journal is helping me be accountable, honest, and learning more about myself and what affects me.
Also I wanted to thank God and you guys & gals for helping me stay committed to quitting video games. Even If I Stumble from time to time I need to be strong enough to not need them in my life. :)
07/07/2016 I need to start trying harder. Again stayed up to late, which lead to porn & masturbation. I think the main cause is because some how I feel need to be in a relationship, but if the foundation of that relationship is just to get sex then that's a unhealthy relationship & bad foundation. I know I'm capable of discipline I just need to start out with small steps. First is to go bed earlier. Second dedicated at least ten minutes to learning something new I don't know about and before I take any leisure time make sure other responsibilities are done first like my chores. Again sorry everyone not being a good example. Also since I don't want to lie to anyone here I still have my game system by getting it out of the trash can yesterday afternoon because I still want to use it as platform to talk about the bible & other topics.
I'm sorry I've haven't been posting for the past couple weeks. I basically deceived myself that I could have self control if I went back to videogames. So I bought a system and wasted money I barely got (most of my first ever tax return & part of pay check )to buy it when I should have just saved it, instead and then only recently I stayed up all night playing which made me feel tired. Then that led to looking up pornography and masturbation. Today I decided I can't go back to videogames no matter what. Videogames are just going to set me up to do bad habits and not improve myself at all. So what I decided is to throw the system I got in the trash to show how serious sin/mistake was and I shouldn't make some stupid decision like this ever again. I need to start being more responsible. Please again don't let my mishapes/ stumbles discourage you, hang in there from videogames if you're trying to quit.
During my time playing video games always had this thought in my head that I should haven't been playing them in the first place again and God wanted me do something else instead. Even my friend through text messages could tell I seemed off, but I guess I lied to myself and told him I'm was okay. This decision I made giving up video games again today has brought relief to my conscious.
Thank you everyone for taking the time to read this post and may God grant you endurance to stay away from videogames if you're trying to quit.
(Detoxes complete) (Post Detoxes Day 28 officially)
Sorry I haven't been posting in a while. Last week I got caught up in all the video game announcement news. With this week too, yesterday i wasted time looking up video game stuff. By God's grace I avoided buying a portable gaming device. Also last week I got into a wreck and was rear ended as a result. I fill okay, besides a little pain & stiffness in my neck.
This week I want to practice my writing clarity because right now my handwriting isn't that clear unless I take my time. Hope everyone's detox is doing well and please don't let my mishaps discourage any of you to move forward on in the detox.
(Detoxes complete) (Post Detoxes Day 15 officially) This week was going okay until I feel like I opened a door I shouldn't have. Over the weekend I watched a part of a documentary about Video game event. With that and other stuff I did today wasted a lot of time looking up & seeing video game related information and visited some forums. I would say a total of 5 or 6 hours wasted. I need to realize video games aren't my platform God wants me to use to reach people and instead is something else. Like today I decided to talk to one person at my college about the bible and accomplished that. Also need to organize my time better with the suggestion Cam brought up of having a schedule. Also even if i put only 10 minutes into a new skill it will build up if I stay consistent everyday. Thanks for everyone reading this and I will do better with God's help to not be a bad example for people wanting to quit video games. Thankful for this wake up call regarding video games and able to publicly repent & talk about it with y'allGetting along much better with my momBeing more patient with people & events that occurred throughout this week.
(Detoxes complete) (Post Detoxes Day 8 officially)
Going to keep this journal kind of short. Didn't really look into new music genres this week. Been busy & my mom had go to the hospital because of a mini stroke she had. It was a combination of stress and combination of myself & sister arguing over dumb stuff, that we shouldn't have a made a big deal out of in the first place. By God's grace nothing damaging happened to her and to describe in her own words. "It felt like a warning". So I take it as a sign to stop making a big deal out of tasks she wants me to do, don't interrupt (no matter how I feel at the time), and most of the time don't talk back because it makes the situation worse.
As for staying away from video games I didn't listen to any video game related music, but i wasted a hour or a little more than that looking at articles & watching a video about FGC (Fighting Game Community). So there was gameplay shown. Besides that I finished two books. Still reading my bible and started yesterday Pilgrims Progress by john Bunyan.
(Detoxes complete) (Post Detoxes Day 1 officially) This past week has been going well. Still continuing Skype accountability meetings. I was going to watch a game play video, but i stopped two minutes or so into the video by God's grace. I listened a couple of video game songs, but received no enjoyment out of it. Going to research a new genre or band I haven't heard before. To help me stay away from video game music. Getting back into the groove with spending time with God and breaking in my new bible because my old one was damaged.
Grateful for my new bible even though it might be hard to read, since it's 1599 versionGrateful for he ability to get a clean glass of water whenever I want in my houseGrateful to hangout with my parents