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  1. 28_yrs_of_gaming added a post in a topic The Game Destroyer's Journal   

    DAY # - 11- UNFINISHED!
    Time I woke up: 0830
    Time I went to sleep yesterday:  0230
    Physical task: Light duty chores.
    Mental task: Reading.
    Projects: Officially starting RESPAWN.
    Miscellaneous accomplishments: 
    ~ Officially starting RESPAWN.
    Summary of Day #: 11
    I am UNFINISHED. I am officially starting RESPAWN. I just had a neighbor ask for help with the whale. I guess I have more than a few things to do this evening. That's all for now.
    What I am grateful for today:
    ~ I'm not as stuck as I feel like I am.
    Laters... 
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  2. 28_yrs_of_gaming added a post in a topic Will I Respawn in 90 days?   

    Good job! I'm at about the same place you are right now. I can relate to most of what you wrote. This isn't easy, but every day is brand new. Keep it up!
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  3. 28_yrs_of_gaming added a post in a topic The Game Destroyer's Journal   

    DAY # - 10 - UNFINISHED!
    Time I woke up: 1000
    Time I went to sleep yesterday:  0130
    Physical task: Minimal
    Mental task: Reading and study.
    Projects: Guitar practice.
    Miscellaneous accomplishments: 
    ~ Took my family out to lunch.
    Summary of Day #: 10
    I was watching one of Cam's videos and he was talking about a word for the year. I know this is a bit late, but I liked the concept. I find myself drifting into daydreams about gaming all throughout the day. There are some unhappy things about my life that I am struggling with. I don't like the amount of UNFINISHED work around me. My word is going to be UNFINISHED. When I'm tempted to fall back into gaming, I'm going to remind myself of the word UNFINISHED. My 90 detox is UNFINISHED. My training for EMT and Fire Fighter One at work is UNFINISHED. I have UNFINISHED books to read. My 6 month guitar course is UNFINISHED. My Master's Degree barely got started. It is UNFINISHED. My parenting is UNFINISHED. My garage organization is UNFINISHED. My life is UNFINISHED. My future is UNFINISHED. I don't want to be sitting here in three months with a long list of UNFINISHED projects. I want to see my goals checked off one by one. It may take 6 months or 9 months or longer for some things to get done, but I need a fall back word. I am UNFINISHED. My life is not decided by fate. My life is not set in stone. I CAN learn not to leave a trail of UNFINISHED things in the wake of my life.
    What I am grateful for today:
    ~ Church.
    ~ Children.
    Laters... 
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  4. 28_yrs_of_gaming added a post in a topic The Game Destroyer's Journal   

    DAY # - 9
    Time I woke up: 01130
    Time I went to sleep yesterday:  0330
    Physical task: Walked outside.
    Mental task: Reading and studying.
    Projects: Practiced music with my oldest son.
    Miscellaneous accomplishments: 
    ~ Took my wife out to dinner.
    ~ Made a few visits to my neighbors.
    ~ Didn't lose my temper when I was tempted to.
    Summary of Day #: 9
    Well, I didn't get much done today it seems. I spent lots of time on social media from my laptop. Caught up on messages from during the week from contacts. Full house today as my children had a few visitors. Had a callout for work last night and today. Took a nap. Took a walk. Ate dinner out with my wife. Practiced music with my oldest son. My wife says I'm spending too much screen time still. She watches shows and sits on the couch on her phone. She was as active as I was today, but we weren't connecting it seems. I was already having trouble feeling down. Well, that's enough for tonight. Going to do some more reading and studying. Didn't lose my temper, but it would be so easy to play games tonight if I had any, but I don't. Ugh. This detox stinks. It's almost been two weeks and only 9 days journaling. In some ways, time seems to be in slow motion. Spring is coming. That's a good thing.
    What I am grateful for today:
    ~ Music.
    ~ Sunshine.
    ~ Rest.
    ~ Good books.
    Laters... 
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  5. 28_yrs_of_gaming added a post in a topic I just destroyed all the video games in my house!   

    Thank you all for the kinds words and support. I hope I can be a help to all of you in the future as well. The best any of us can do is take things one day at a time.
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  6. 28_yrs_of_gaming added a post in a topic My Journal - Matthias   

    Seems like you are doing well. Keep it up!
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  7. 28_yrs_of_gaming added a post in a topic Shine Magical's journal   

    I have made this mistake of checking game info or updates already. I didn't give in. Stay strong too!
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  8. 28_yrs_of_gaming added a post in a topic Just Do it Journal!-Going from Mediocre to Mighty   

    We all have days like that. I'm sorry you had a terrible day. Each day is a fresh start. Hope the next one is better.
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  9. 28_yrs_of_gaming added a post in a topic The Game Destroyer's Journal   

    DAY # - 8
    Time I woke up: 0800
    Time I went to sleep yesterday:  0230
    Physical task: Went to work. Jogged 3 miles on the treadmill.
    Mental task: Deep stimulating conversations.
    Projects: Studied an odd and unusual subject.
    Miscellaneous accomplishments: 
    ~ None today.
    Summary of Day #: 8
    I have nothing particularly exciting to note. I'm actually pretty tired. I'm studying some weird stuff on "flat earth" theories. Someone asked me to look into it. I think it's totally bogus. Had some very good conversations today that were meaningful. My children were having some behavioral issues this evening. It's Friday night so I think everyone was missing playing video games. Ready for sleep. It's been a challenging week in some ways.
    What I am grateful for today:
    ~ Friends.
    ~ Health.
    ~ Visitors.
    ~ A general lack of demand on my time and abilities. It must be the lull before the storm. I better enjoy this now.
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  10. 28_yrs_of_gaming added a post in a topic One year without gaming   

    Thanks. It was good to read your post. Congratulations!
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  11. 28_yrs_of_gaming added a post in a topic The Game Destroyer's Journal   

     DAY # - 7
    Time I woke up: 0830
    Time I went to sleep yesterday:  0330
    Physical task: Went to work.
    Mental task: Reading.
    Projects: None.
    Miscellaneous accomplishments: 
    ~ Had an instructive spiritual conversation with my employer.
    Summary of Day #: 7
    Well, today was a slow day. It was the type of day that I would LOVE to play games to get some excitement and diversion. There's such a lack of options in a remote arctic village. I just have to be patient, creative, and content. Did some reading. Called an old friend. Had dinner with my family. They are watching a movie and winding down for the day. Meh. I have nothing to be unthankful for except the boredom and general fatigue. My mother-in-law says, "Only boring people get bored!" Hahaha! Maybe I went 90 MPH too much in my twenties, but I don't mind being a little boring. Ha! Well, here I am. I may do some more reading. I am enjoying my book. I have to remind myself this is a DETOX. That takes times. Looking forward to working out tomorrow and the weekend being near.
    What I am grateful for today:
    ~ Some peace and quiet.
    ~ Low stress levels.
    ~ Feeling secure.
    ~ Generally content.
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  12. 28_yrs_of_gaming added a post in a topic The Game Destroyer's Journal   

    DAY # - 6
    Time I woke up: 1130
    Time I went to sleep yesterday:  0230
    Physical task: Went to work. Had hours to flex from call outs and special training. Ran 3 miles on the treadmill.
    Mental task: Studying and reading.
    Projects: None.
    Miscellaneous accomplishments: 
    ~ Met a senator for our state and gave him and his staff some gospel tracts which they graciously received.
    Summary of Day #: 6
    Went into work late because of being out on call outs and flexing hours from additional training. Watched the newest YouTube that Cam posted and it helped somewhat. It was really sunny again today. Went to a veteran's luncheon in our village hosted by a state senator. It was a good time. The evening was quiet and the children were tired. Chatting with a friend through texting. More content and relaxed tonight.
    What I am grateful for today:
    ~ Thinking thoughts.
    ~ Stimulating conversations.
    ~ Good food.
    ~ A noisy house.
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  13. 28_yrs_of_gaming added a post in a topic The Game Destroyer's Journal   

    DAY # - 5
    Time I woke up: 0930
    Time I went to sleep yesterday:  2330 and then again at 0330
    Physical task: Went to work.
    Mental task: Reading.
    Projects: Special training later on this evening.
    Miscellaneous accomplishments: 
    ~ Didn't give in to the urge to play games.
    Summary of Day #: 5
    Been trying to do this journaling earlier in the evening. Practiced guitar with my oldest son last night. Went to bed earlier than usual. EMS callout in the early morning. Slow day at work. Listening to a sermon now. Very sunny outside and clear again. Today it has been hard. I find my thoughts frequently drifting and scheming for when I can start gaming again. Glad I destroyed my games because I'd probably have already quit this detox by now. Feeling frustrated. Not trying to dwell on it. Just trying to focus on the next thing.
    What I am grateful for today:
    ~ Work.
    ~ Family.
    ~ Health.
    ~ Sunshine.
    ~ Purpose.
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  14. 28_yrs_of_gaming added a post in a topic The Game Destroyer's Journal   

    DAY # - 4
    Time I woke up: 0830
    Time I went to sleep yesterday:  0130
    Physical task: Went to work.
    Mental task: Reading.
    Projects: Practiced guitar.
    Miscellaneous accomplishments:
    ~ Went to work.
    ~ Working on getting to bed a little earlier so I'm journaling a little earlier.
    Summary of Day #: 4
    Argh! I want to play games so bad. A device with some "educational" games survived and one of my kids got permission to play from mom. This stinks! I can do this. I can be an adult and not break down to play a video games. I have to get off my laptop early tonight. This is where I've spent so many hours gaming. Just sitting here to do this journal is wearing me out. I should have ran the treadmill at work, but I left my running shoes at home. Maybe I will go running before bed later. I can't stay on this machine another minute. I want to break something. Argh!
    What I am grateful for today:
    ~ Coffee
    ~ Spicy noodles
    ~ Relaxing classical music
    ~ Sunshine
    ~ Good health
    ~ Pizza
    ~ Good books
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  15. 28_yrs_of_gaming added a post in a topic My Story   

    Welcome! I'm new here too and lots of things you are saying sound familiar. Congratulations. I know it wasn't easy getting this far. Best wishes for a bright new future!
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  16. 28_yrs_of_gaming added a post in a topic Destoroyah's Meltdown   

    Dude, I just wanted to say that I think 89 days is absolutely awesome! It's even cooler that you're just going to take it in stride and start another round. Go for it!
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  17. 28_yrs_of_gaming added a post in a topic If Game Quitters had ads, what would you like to see?   

    I'm new here, but personally, it's refreshing NOT having ads here. Everywhere else one the internet seems to bombard me with advertisements. This place has a clean slate sort of feel and that's nice.
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  18. 28_yrs_of_gaming added a post in a topic The Game Destroyer's Journal   

    DAY # - 3
    Time I woke up: 0930
    Time I went to sleep yesterday:  0130
    Physical task: Went to church.
    Mental task: Studying scripture.
    Projects: Practiced guitar.
    Miscellaneous accomplishments:
    ~ Spent some quality time in prayer.
    ~ Removed a few social media apps from my phone.
    Summary of Day #: 3
    I noticed that I'm struggling with some anxiety, but it's weird that while saying that, I am actually thinking more clearly. My children seem happier. My wife is approving of the changes. They are actually watching a show (Little House on the Prairie) right now. It's the only time the television has been on all weekend really. Looking forward to spring. Blowing snow all weekend. It's the type of weekend I would typically spend lots of time gaming. I kept busy all day though and seem to have a little more energy, but I have feelings of being bored. I'm sure the detox is going to take care of some of the issues with a sense of boredom. I just need to be patient. If I had access to games, I would definitely be playing right now. I find myself looking at my phone a lot more so I deleted my social media apps. I can check messages from my laptop, but don't want to have access all day long.
    What I am grateful for today:
    ~ Eating dinner with my family.
    ~ Seeing a few old acquaintances.
    ~ Another day off of work.
    Laters... 
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  19. 28_yrs_of_gaming added a post in a topic Here we go again   

    Keep it up, man! You're 19 so you don't have as much time invested in bad habits as some of us on here. You can do it!
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  20. 28_yrs_of_gaming added a post in a topic I just destroyed all the video games in my house!   

    Thanks for the interest. My children have been gaming for a while. My oldest is 17 and is the least into gaming. My ten year old twins game more. The boy twin is more avid. My 7 yr and 4 yr old have been sucked into gaming more this past year and it was getting unhealthy for their development. The baby is just getting into everything. My wife was playing on her phone some, but she mostly watches shows on her tablet. The boys WERE playing chess today, so that's a good sign. I noticed they don't mind the video games being gone. I think they just wanted ME back full-time more than the games. That makes this easier. My wife likes Settlers of Catan. We argue when we play it, but we might give it another try. I can be very competitive and her style is compromising and peaceful. She says, "It's Settlers of Catan NOT Warriors of Catan!" I said, "Yes, but there's expansions for that! Haha!" I also play cards at the fire house with my co-workers when things get really slow. Played a round with my kids yesterday.
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  21. 28_yrs_of_gaming added a post in a topic The Game Destroyer's Journal   

    DAY # - 2
    Time I woke up: 1000
    Time I went to sleep yesterday:  0330
    Physical task: Attended a funeral.
    Mental task: Studying scripture.
    Projects: Downloading music.
    Miscellaneous accomplishments:
    ~ Guided my children with their chores.
    ~ Wrote a letter to my uncle.
    Summary of Day #: 2
    What I am grateful for today:
    ~ Stayed up late yesterday because of watching YouTube with my wife instead of playing games alone!
    ~ Revisiting some good music and good preaching.
    ~ My wife and children are being patient with me.
    ~ That I wasn't the man doing the funeral this time.
    Laters... 
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  22. 28_yrs_of_gaming added a post in a topic I just destroyed all the video games in my house!   

    Thanks. I appreciate the extra support on here.
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  23. 28_yrs_of_gaming added a post in a topic The Game Destroyer's Journal   

    Thanks for the support group here.
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  24. 28_yrs_of_gaming added a topic in Daily Journals   

    The Game Destroyer's Journal
    DAY # - 1
    Time I woke up: 0930
    Time I went to sleep yesterday:  0200
    Physical task: Walked outside.
    Mental task: Reading.
    Projects: Online Shopping.
    Miscellaneous accomplishments: 
    ~ Talked to my wife extra.
    ~ Finished deleting or unsubscribing from any other games on my laptop.
    ~ Setup with the Game Quitters Forum.
    Summary of Day #: 1
    What I am grateful for today:
    ~ A day off of work.
    ~ Food.
    ~ Rest.
    ~ Sunshine.
    Laters... 
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  25. 28_yrs_of_gaming added a topic in Start Here + Introductions   

    I just destroyed all the video games in my house!
    Hi there,
    I've been gaming for 28 years ever since I was 6 years old. I've taken brief breaks in the past, but I got addicted to ESO and I actually lost control. I realized that in the past year I've put over 1,000 hours into gaming. I live in a remote arctic location where winter lasts for 9 months. I have lived in this part of the world for almost 10 years after growing up in the deep south. I started doing EMS a year ago with the local fire department and have encountered some things that have been incredibly difficult to process. I have 5 children and am in the process of adopting another child from our community. I have a full life with lots of support and motivation, but I've been making excuses. I went into a survival mode recently and starting playing games anytime I could for hours at a time. It's been affecting my eating, sleeping, thoughts, relationships, and I have gotten severely dysfunctional. I don't know if the addiction with gaming has caused depression or if it is really just a manifestation of my discouragement. Gaming has been one element among other things, but it has become addictive for me in an unhealthy way. There are things that I can't or won't say in a public introduction. The other night I got into an argument with my wife. Later, after everyone was asleep, I destroyed ALL the video games in my home. My wife and children are supportive and it has been several days now, but I think this forum is a group that I need to help me not relapse. I have lots of responsibility and some people look up to me for spiritual help. I'm not just detoxing. I want a life without gaming and I want to help others with some of the wise words I've hear from Cam so far. Thanks so much.
    Sincerely,
    28_yrs_of_gaming
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