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  1. 28_yrs_of_gaming added a post in a topic The Game Destroyer's Journal   

    DAY # - 11- UNFINISHED!
    Time I woke up: 0830
    Time I went to sleep yesterday:  0230
    Physical task: Light duty chores.
    Mental task: Reading.
    Projects: Officially starting RESPAWN.
    Miscellaneous accomplishments: 
    ~ Officially starting RESPAWN.
    Summary of Day #: 11
    I am UNFINISHED. I am officially starting RESPAWN. I just had a neighbor ask for help with the whale. I guess I have more than a few things to do this evening. That's all for now.
    What I am grateful for today:
    ~ I'm not as stuck as I feel like I am.
    Laters... 
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  2. 28_yrs_of_gaming added a post in a topic Will I Respawn in 90 days?   

    Good job! I'm at about the same place you are right now. I can relate to most of what you wrote. This isn't easy, but every day is brand new. Keep it up!
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  3. 28_yrs_of_gaming added a post in a topic The Game Destroyer's Journal   

    DAY # - 10 - UNFINISHED!
    Time I woke up: 1000
    Time I went to sleep yesterday:  0130
    Physical task: Minimal
    Mental task: Reading and study.
    Projects: Guitar practice.
    Miscellaneous accomplishments: 
    ~ Took my family out to lunch.
    Summary of Day #: 10
    I was watching one of Cam's videos and he was talking about a word for the year. I know this is a bit late, but I liked the concept. I find myself drifting into daydreams about gaming all throughout the day. There are some unhappy things about my life that I am struggling with. I don't like the amount of UNFINISHED work around me. My word is going to be UNFINISHED. When I'm tempted to fall back into gaming, I'm going to remind myself of the word UNFINISHED. My 90 detox is UNFINISHED. My training for EMT and Fire Fighter One at work is UNFINISHED. I have UNFINISHED books to read. My 6 month guitar course is UNFINISHED. My Master's Degree barely got started. It is UNFINISHED. My parenting is UNFINISHED. My garage organization is UNFINISHED. My life is UNFINISHED. My future is UNFINISHED. I don't want to be sitting here in three months with a long list of UNFINISHED projects. I want to see my goals checked off one by one. It may take 6 months or 9 months or longer for some things to get done, but I need a fall back word. I am UNFINISHED. My life is not decided by fate. My life is not set in stone. I CAN learn not to leave a trail of UNFINISHED things in the wake of my life.
    What I am grateful for today:
    ~ Church.
    ~ Children.
    Laters... 
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  4. 28_yrs_of_gaming added a post in a topic The Game Destroyer's Journal   

    DAY # - 9
    Time I woke up: 01130
    Time I went to sleep yesterday:  0330
    Physical task: Walked outside.
    Mental task: Reading and studying.
    Projects: Practiced music with my oldest son.
    Miscellaneous accomplishments: 
    ~ Took my wife out to dinner.
    ~ Made a few visits to my neighbors.
    ~ Didn't lose my temper when I was tempted to.
    Summary of Day #: 9
    Well, I didn't get much done today it seems. I spent lots of time on social media from my laptop. Caught up on messages from during the week from contacts. Full house today as my children had a few visitors. Had a callout for work last night and today. Took a nap. Took a walk. Ate dinner out with my wife. Practiced music with my oldest son. My wife says I'm spending too much screen time still. She watches shows and sits on the couch on her phone. She was as active as I was today, but we weren't connecting it seems. I was already having trouble feeling down. Well, that's enough for tonight. Going to do some more reading and studying. Didn't lose my temper, but it would be so easy to play games tonight if I had any, but I don't. Ugh. This detox stinks. It's almost been two weeks and only 9 days journaling. In some ways, time seems to be in slow motion. Spring is coming. That's a good thing.
    What I am grateful for today:
    ~ Music.
    ~ Sunshine.
    ~ Rest.
    ~ Good books.
    Laters... 
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  5. 28_yrs_of_gaming added a post in a topic I just destroyed all the video games in my house!   

    Thank you all for the kinds words and support. I hope I can be a help to all of you in the future as well. The best any of us can do is take things one day at a time.
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  6. 28_yrs_of_gaming added a post in a topic My Journal - Matthias   

    Seems like you are doing well. Keep it up!
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  7. 28_yrs_of_gaming added a post in a topic Shine Magical's journal   

    I have made this mistake of checking game info or updates already. I didn't give in. Stay strong too!
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  8. 28_yrs_of_gaming added a post in a topic Just Do it Journal!-Going from Mediocre to Mighty   

    We all have days like that. I'm sorry you had a terrible day. Each day is a fresh start. Hope the next one is better.
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  9. 28_yrs_of_gaming added a post in a topic The Game Destroyer's Journal   

    DAY # - 8
    Time I woke up: 0800
    Time I went to sleep yesterday:  0230
    Physical task: Went to work. Jogged 3 miles on the treadmill.
    Mental task: Deep stimulating conversations.
    Projects: Studied an odd and unusual subject.
    Miscellaneous accomplishments: 
    ~ None today.
    Summary of Day #: 8
    I have nothing particularly exciting to note. I'm actually pretty tired. I'm studying some weird stuff on "flat earth" theories. Someone asked me to look into it. I think it's totally bogus. Had some very good conversations today that were meaningful. My children were having some behavioral issues this evening. It's Friday night so I think everyone was missing playing video games. Ready for sleep. It's been a challenging week in some ways.
    What I am grateful for today:
    ~ Friends.
    ~ Health.
    ~ Visitors.
    ~ A general lack of demand on my time and abilities. It must be the lull before the storm. I better enjoy this now.
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  10. 28_yrs_of_gaming added a post in a topic One year without gaming   

    Thanks. It was good to read your post. Congratulations!
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  11. 28_yrs_of_gaming added a post in a topic The Game Destroyer's Journal   

     DAY # - 7
    Time I woke up: 0830
    Time I went to sleep yesterday:  0330
    Physical task: Went to work.
    Mental task: Reading.
    Projects: None.
    Miscellaneous accomplishments: 
    ~ Had an instructive spiritual conversation with my employer.
    Summary of Day #: 7
    Well, today was a slow day. It was the type of day that I would LOVE to play games to get some excitement and diversion. There's such a lack of options in a remote arctic village. I just have to be patient, creative, and content. Did some reading. Called an old friend. Had dinner with my family. They are watching a movie and winding down for the day. Meh. I have nothing to be unthankful for except the boredom and general fatigue. My mother-in-law says, "Only boring people get bored!" Hahaha! Maybe I went 90 MPH too much in my twenties, but I don't mind being a little boring. Ha! Well, here I am. I may do some more reading. I am enjoying my book. I have to remind myself this is a DETOX. That takes times. Looking forward to working out tomorrow and the weekend being near.
    What I am grateful for today:
    ~ Some peace and quiet.
    ~ Low stress levels.
    ~ Feeling secure.
    ~ Generally content.
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  12. 28_yrs_of_gaming added a post in a topic The Game Destroyer's Journal   

    DAY # - 6
    Time I woke up: 1130
    Time I went to sleep yesterday:  0230
    Physical task: Went to work. Had hours to flex from call outs and special training. Ran 3 miles on the treadmill.
    Mental task: Studying and reading.
    Projects: None.
    Miscellaneous accomplishments: 
    ~ Met a senator for our state and gave him and his staff some gospel tracts which they graciously received.
    Summary of Day #: 6
    Went into work late because of being out on call outs and flexing hours from additional training. Watched the newest YouTube that Cam posted and it helped somewhat. It was really sunny again today. Went to a veteran's luncheon in our village hosted by a state senator. It was a good time. The evening was quiet and the children were tired. Chatting with a friend through texting. More content and relaxed tonight.
    What I am grateful for today:
    ~ Thinking thoughts.
    ~ Stimulating conversations.
    ~ Good food.
    ~ A noisy house.
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  13. 28_yrs_of_gaming added a post in a topic The Game Destroyer's Journal   

    DAY # - 5
    Time I woke up: 0930
    Time I went to sleep yesterday:  2330 and then again at 0330
    Physical task: Went to work.
    Mental task: Reading.
    Projects: Special training later on this evening.
    Miscellaneous accomplishments: 
    ~ Didn't give in to the urge to play games.
    Summary of Day #: 5
    Been trying to do this journaling earlier in the evening. Practiced guitar with my oldest son last night. Went to bed earlier than usual. EMS callout in the early morning. Slow day at work. Listening to a sermon now. Very sunny outside and clear again. Today it has been hard. I find my thoughts frequently drifting and scheming for when I can start gaming again. Glad I destroyed my games because I'd probably have already quit this detox by now. Feeling frustrated. Not trying to dwell on it. Just trying to focus on the next thing.
    What I am grateful for today:
    ~ Work.
    ~ Family.
    ~ Health.
    ~ Sunshine.
    ~ Purpose.
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  14. 28_yrs_of_gaming added a post in a topic The Game Destroyer's Journal   

    DAY # - 4
    Time I woke up: 0830
    Time I went to sleep yesterday:  0130
    Physical task: Went to work.
    Mental task: Reading.
    Projects: Practiced guitar.
    Miscellaneous accomplishments:
    ~ Went to work.
    ~ Working on getting to bed a little earlier so I'm journaling a little earlier.
    Summary of Day #: 4
    Argh! I want to play games so bad. A device with some "educational" games survived and one of my kids got permission to play from mom. This stinks! I can do this. I can be an adult and not break down to play a video games. I have to get off my laptop early tonight. This is where I've spent so many hours gaming. Just sitting here to do this journal is wearing me out. I should have ran the treadmill at work, but I left my running shoes at home. Maybe I will go running before bed later. I can't stay on this machine another minute. I want to break something. Argh!
    What I am grateful for today:
    ~ Coffee
    ~ Spicy noodles
    ~ Relaxing classical music
    ~ Sunshine
    ~ Good health
    ~ Pizza
    ~ Good books
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  15. 28_yrs_of_gaming added a post in a topic My Story   

    Welcome! I'm new here too and lots of things you are saying sound familiar. Congratulations. I know it wasn't easy getting this far. Best wishes for a bright new future!
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