Welcome Phaedrus! Nice to have you onboard and I'm looking forward to follow your journey in playing less games (I think it's nice to have people that want to moderate their gaming and people (like myself) that are going cold turkey).
Day 37 (07-03-2017): It's time to get back on track. I haven't relapsed but I still find myself watch a lot of gaming-related stuff - I've to take some more digital-free days because it improves my mood. I haven't managed to get rid of my PC - I make silly excuses like: "I've to clean the keyboard and mouse", "I've to clean the dust" (it's important to clean the PC before I sell it but I just keep to postpone it), "It's stupid to sell it because I will lose a lot of money" and so on. I started to meditate again and want it to be a daily routine (I'll do it after work instead of in the morning). Beside I relapsed on my NoFap-streak I'm in a good mood. I've been really tired today - no energy at all. I don't know if it's related to my detox. 3 things I'm grateful for: 1. There wasn't much to do at work so I got home earlier than expected. 2. I've been very productive today - I managed to read and did some housekeeping. And I haven't watched more than 1 hour TV today (I saw something productive). 3. I now know which education I'm going to attend this summer.
I haven't been very active with my daily journal lately but I've been having some tough days mentally. I won't count the days anymore (I don't think that counting the days works for me). I haven't relapsed but I've been very close to a relapse and I think I need to search for some professional help for some other issues I'm having trouble with.
Welcome to the community and thanks for sharing your story. My dad was also having some problems with alcohol when I was growing up and I became a compulsive eater (I gained 20-25 kg in a half year) because it was easier than to talk about my feelings and that I had to be the adult when I only was 14-15 years old. Compulsive eating and videogames are not a great match.
Welcome to the community! This was also a huge problem for me and I got my accounts deleted (which was a hard thing to do but it was necessary for me). When I'm getting an urge to play I say to myself: "Do you really want to go back to the depressed, anxious and unhappy person? Fine - then play! If you want to be happy and want the reality to be like your favorite game - then don't escape reality and say goodbye to videogames". I see a lot suggest meditation which is a great tool to clear your mind - I've been using the app Calm which is guided meditation.
Welcome! I also had some issues with raging when I was gaming (I could rage quit and uinstall the game). I also destroyed a PC once because I got so angry. So I know how you feel but don't worry - it'll get better.
Day 30 (28-02-2017): I'm having an inner conflict with my old personality and the one I'm trying to make. A voice in my head is trying to get me back into gaming but then I'm just taking a "digital-free" day (no PC, tablet or laptop) so I won't relapse. I'm going to sell my PC but it's harder than I thought - gaming has always been a huge part of me and I'm anxious about letting that go. I think it's because I've to face reality. Mood: Good, but I've a high level of anxiety and every day is a little bit overwhelming at the moment. 3 things I'm grateful for: 1. I'm having a day off tommorow because I'm going to a university to look at an education I find interesting. 2. More energy - I just need to use it instead of laying in bed and watching TV. 3. That I took the decision to give up porn and videogames.