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  1. none239 added a post in a topic 3rd time's a charm right?   

    Day 62
    Had unsually strong urge to game triggered by youtube. But not nearly as bad as it was in the past. I'm doing a better job of monitoring youtube time.
    I have not. This may not be a bad idea.
    Day 65
    Been doing a LOT of study on forming an online business, and I took a few, shaky, baby steps. I noticed that my depression has dropped of tremendously.
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  2. Cam Adair added a post in a topic Circle's Journal   

    Thanks for sharing. There's going to be ups and downs and that's ok. The key is to be aware of them and keep going. Keep learning from your experience and make the necessary adjustments to move forward. 
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  3. destoroyah added a post in a topic Übermensch   

    Yo Csaba, I only read the TLDR, flew by the rest – I'm one of the busy people ATM, and my advice might not hit the spot. But I strike anyways – because I gotta.
    You sound unfocused. Keep doing sports, maintain good diet and sleep. I know that's stupid advice, but I know by experience that that is 80% of being good at what ever. Most people underestimate though.
    Internet addiction is because you keep clicking thru, be more aware of what you read. Develop a mechanism that asks itself "what does that help me?" every 30mins. If you are relaxin – cool. If you are researchin – cool. If you're just browsing, following a line – NOT COOL.
    I only got 45 "free" minutes a day, this was 15 – and you are always worth it (even when I call you an idiot!), remember! I hope you can make something of it. I see it as my duty to see you not welk under pressure.
    All the best!
    PS I just killed a fly with my bare hands, brutal!!
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  4. KevinV1990 added a post in a topic Schwing's Art   

    Hahaha... Nah, withdrawal symptoms I think
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  5. Schwing added a post in a topic The mountains are calling...   

    What do you classify as mindless surfing? I find that I sometimes meander off when I look something up online. Everyone's mind likes to wonder from time to time. Try and avoid sites that lead you off on tangents. When I start up my pc i only visit two sites: the forums, deviant art. I also go in with an idea of what I want to do (check posts).
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  6. Schwing added a post in a topic Schwing's Art   

    You actually like that thing? You high or something hahahahaha
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  7. Schwing added a post in a topic Kaizen - The Quest for Neverending Self-Improvement   

    I'm just a highschool kid...unfortunately.
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  8. Ashley K. added a topic in Daily Journals   

    90 Days
    Day 1:
    This is hell. It should come easier since I've relapsed, but it hasn't. It feels just as hard as it did numerous times I've tried to stop.
    I've become sleep deprived because of it. Along with that came forgetfulness and I know that I have really good memory but I can't remember a simple password. It scares me.
    I keep trying to rationalize and rationalize playing, but there is no getting around it. 
    This is where I must begin.
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  9. Stercus accidit added a post in a topic Stercus accidit's Journal - 90 days detox completed :D   

    It is Wednesday. I haven't cleaned my room yet. 
    Good thing is that I keep more or less to my long term goal: English practice
    My sleeping schedule is messed up completely.Good thing that coffee is letting me function normally during school. 
    Problem with my goals starts as soon as I enter my apartment. My will to do something disappears. I still think about "changing environment" when I study, for example: studying at library.
    This time when I come home I will drink one more coffee to fight exhaustion. Do basic laundry to have something fresh to wear.  I guess while waiting for laundry I can take a nap.
    Goals for today:
    Clean my room, do laundry,  do homework, study for history and chemistry. 
    Physics work sheet, chemistry lab, English project, 
    I will also block every website that I don't need until I am not done. 
    Let's hope everything will work today
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  10. Cam Adair added a post in a topic Step 1 of many...   

    Journaling helps a lot. Good job
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  11. Circle added a post in a topic Step 1 of many...   

    Congrats on starting the detox and for deleting all your games!
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  12. Circle added a post in a topic Time for something new   

    I'm exactly where you are with the mindless browsing. I spend far too much time on wikipedia/netflix!
    If it's possible, it might be a good idea to schedule some regular time away from your house. It's the easiest way to remove the temptation to sit at your computer and waste time.The library is a good choice if you like to read, or have schoolwork or art you can work on. 
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  13. KevinV1990 added a post in a topic Schwing's Art   

    I really like the whale shark.
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  14. Stevec2283 added a post in a topic Time for something new   

    @LuminousBean Though I'be been able to stop the gaming streams after a short time, I still find myself watching other videos which also can take up a lot of time. It's a constant work in progress to limit the amount of time I spend browsing the internet. 
    As to what I'm doing to support my life changes, I'm not really doing anything special, just taking it one day at a time. 
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  15. Granitwelle added a post in a topic Kaizen - The Quest for Neverending Self-Improvement   

    Business Administration, quite tough degree indeed. Quite tough paired with the detox lol. Fairing quite well though. You're student as well, right?
    Journal Day #10 // Days without gaming Day 27// Monk-Mode Day 2                                                Wednesday, 22/03/2017
    Short entry today, yet another productive day. My brain is craving for a dopamine fix but all I have is work and sport at the moment. My stamina is returning and I feel more alive every day. This weekend, I'll add crunches, sit-ups, jumping jacks and squats to the mix. Meditation really keeps me grounded and I realize that testosterone is coming back as well. Still felt some negative repercussions, it's getting tougher.
    Gratitude journal
    - Poets of the Fall; Metal
    - Schweppes Bitter Lemon (lemonade)
    Workout/run: walked 3 kilometers
    Meditation: entire cycle
    Daily affirmation: Only three more days. 30 day mark is in reach!
    Reading:  Nicolo Macchiavelli - Il Principe
    Weekly Goal(s): serious progress on thesis, less complaining,
    Monthly Goal: Survive the first 30 days of gaming detox, get my paper done, study hard for upcoming exams and start working on my thesis
    3 Month Goal: Successfully complete 90 days of non-gaming in order to make my brain rewire. There is no way back as I do not own gaming-related stuff anymore, however withdrawal symptoms might be hard.
    One amazing thing that happened/I did today: completed uni assignments
    What went well today: socialization, work
    What I could have done to make my day better: stop caring and over-analyzing everything.
    What I will do differently tomorrow: not much, work like a madman
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  16. Mhyrion added a post in a topic Mhyrions journey   

    Yesterday was challenging. I failed my way through photographing, I had some technical issues that I had trouble fixing. I am glad I have (taken) the time to fail. It was frustrating, but necessary and I am proud I didn't give up. I also gave counseling my 100% and I felt really great afterwards. When the evening arrived, the day became more challenging. Hubby decided to not inform me about the developments in his job. Instead, he chose to tell that he might lose his job this week while we were with a group of people. Geez. I am disappointed that he didn't trust me with this beforehand, but perhaps he also felt ashamed. When we arrived home after that, I was super tired and didn't have any energy left to talk with him. I wanted to sleep, but I didn't fall asleep until ~01:00 due to a headache and hubby staying up late browsing etc. We quarreled a bit about it, and I felt horrible. I have enough self-knowledge to know I can't function with a headache and 5 hours sleep, so I slept in this morning and took a long hot shower to feel a bit better. Good decisions. I am a bit annoyed with my brain, because I dreamt about gaming again. I guess it's the stress and also lack of instant gratification which makes the urges stronger. I will adapt. After the shower I proceeded with my day as I normally would, only with everything two hours later then normal. I fixed my technical problem this morning, the solution was really simple but I didn't think of it. I will never reach my goal of 1 minute 30 due to all the delay, but I have learned a lot of practical stuff and still have a lot of images to work and proceed with.
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  17. KevinV1990 added a post in a topic What did you do after quitting gaming?   

    I started to workout more, which is probably the biggest improvement of not touch a game the past weeks. I am also writing stories, doing a creative writing course, reading a lot of books, and I am writing articles for my site.
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  18. KevinV1990 added a post in a topic My journal: Gaming in moderation   

    March 22, 2017 (13 days without gaming)
    Tomorrow I achieve another goal: Two weeks without playing a videogame. Time for another party! I wasn't planning on not playing videogames at all to be honest, wanted to play during the weekends, but I just don't feel like playing. There are other things which I want to do, and which need to be done. So why should I turn on my Playstation 4?I got kind of irritated this morning. A little backstory: When I lost my job when the economic crisis just started (2009), I couldn't pay my health insurance anymore, so I build up a debt. Paid it off today, but because the government agency isn't doing their job right, it isn't over yet. I really want to send them an angry letter again, but I know that it wouldn't help, so I am not going to do that. I just hoped that I could leave that part of my history behind me after today. But no, it will take some more calls to do so.Because I am quite irritated, I decided to make a list about the things, which make this day a good day.
    1. Received my paycheck today, which was higher than I expected.
    2. The weather outside is great.
    3. I went running today, and I just feel my overall condition getting better again.Thinking about what needs to be the biggest priority in my life. I still want to write a book, which is one of the biggest dreams that I have. But I also want to write for my website, I want to create another website, I need to find a better job, and I want to finish my creative writing course. So many things I want and that I need to do, but which one is the biggest priority?
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  19. Shine Magical added a post in a topic My Journal - Alex   

    I would rather have tea 
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  20. NewComer added a post in a topic Step 1 of many...   

    Hi. You've got a nice plan, hope you achieve your goals.
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  21. AlexTheGrape added a post in a topic My Journal - Alex   

    Yes, I do. What's your thoughts on it?
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  22. Stercus accidit added a post in a topic [PL] 1UP - Time to level up   

    Wpadłem pierwszy raz i juz czytam o snowbaordzie. W tamtym roku pokochałem ten sport . Ja także jestem bardzo ciekaw jak udał się wyjazd!
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  23. Ex-Jrdevil added a topic in Daily Journals   

    Step 1 of many...
    I will start by saying I hate writing so I dont know how long this will be, but I clearly need to change what ive been doing.
    Day 1
    -uninstalled all the games on my xboxone
    -I want to start really working on leather again and hopefully start selling it at some point
    -Treat my ADHD that I've been dealing with
    -Exercise 3 times a week
    -Stick to eating paleo (part of helping w/ ADHD)
    Thats all ive got. And I need to start sleeping earlier/more 
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  24. LuminousBean added a post in a topic What did you do after quitting gaming?   

    Photography is cool because it gives you the excuse to wander around new parts of wherever you live with a more critical eye, an awareness that is mindful in an artistic way.  I do some team sport stuff through Vavi (ultimate frisbee, volleyball) which is a cool way to meet new types of people.  Surfing is a really great solo sport with lots of time for contemplation in between struggling for dear life and surges of amazing weightlessness.  Brazilian Jiu Jitsu is recommended by everyone who sticks with it, right now in the first few months it is a lot of increasing my comfort zone in an unnameable variety of ways.
    Starting a thread like this is a good idea, and you will probably already see a chorus of "you won't know until you try it", so maybe grab someone you want to spend more time with and make a pact to try one new thing each week until you find something you love.
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  25. LuminousBean added a post in a topic Time for something new   

    Keep it up Steve! You showed willpower and self awareness by shutting the video stream path down--there are a ton of people who can't do that when mindlessly scrolling on their smartphones or computers.  Are you supporting your life changes with meditation or anything else?
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